Dad

Had an awful, realistic dream. Dad found out he had cancer and was gone within a few days after diagnosis. Everything is blurry now, don't remember a lot. Only that after he was gone, I remember a photo of Scarlet sitting on Dad's lap in the rocker flashed on my TV's screensaver and I began thinking how lucky they both were to have such a wonderful relationship. I remember saying aloud a prayer to Dad, telling him I loved him and missed him and that I'll basically try to hand down all the love and knowledge I got from him onto Scarlet. I am not a believer but I do know he has repeatedly asked/hoped we'd believe someday. I guess in my dream I believed in him being there to hear my prayer, kind of. I don't remember much that happened in the dream, only a really sad, mournful feeling now. :(

Progesterone Overload

(Explanation before dream: I am trying to get pregnant again so our babies are close in age, and decided to try taking progesterone cream after ovulation. This is my first month (and funnily enough, first day) trying it. It is to help a luteal phase defect.)

I dreamt a LOT more than this, but this part really stuck with me because, yikes! Hehe.. Okay I don't remember much except I was in the bathroom about to rub the cream into my belly but for some reason I decided to sniff it and see if it had an aromatic smell. Some of the cream got onto my nose and suddenly I felt violently I'll. I couldn't walk straight and I thought I'd pass out. I ran/stumbled into the kitchen to tell Devin what was wrong... This is all I remember.

The strange thing is, my temperature yesterday was kind of low and I wasn't sure if it was because I woke up freezing (from camping in a tent) or if I was too warm the day before and didn't really ovulate like I thought I did, so I was feeling kind of miserable thinking I didn't ovulate this cycle (since it's pretty late in my cycle). Today of course I woke with a high temp again, so today I start the process of rubbing in progesterone cream. Hopefully it works and hopefully it doesn't actually make me dizzy like in my dream.

Pet

Dreamt a raccoon got into our house and became a pet. Then later on, Scarlet ran to back porch and outside before I even had a chance to react. Ran out there and she was toppled over but biting at Bear. I was terrified he hurt her, but surprisingly he didn't jump on her.

Before waking up, I dreamt I was looking out living room window and saw what looked like a strand of white Christmas lights in the sky/stars in the shape of a tornado whirring around.. I watched it, mesmerized. Then it swirled around down towards the window. Suddenly wind hit the window HARD and a loud crack was made like when the windows are hit by a gust of wind. Frightened me, but showed me how wind moves, etc, in dream. (Supposedly..)

Bad dream.

Dreamt I was at Sarah's, Erin's and Mom's apartment but in the dream it was actually Dad's pond. Erin was watching Scarlet wade in the pond and splash around. Apparently I was holding onto some money of theirs for safe-keeping but I didn't realize I was, so I couldn't find it. Sarah and I were looking around in their "apartment" (pond) for the lost money when one of us noticed a great big, black snake on one of the rocks around the pond. I freaked out (I think, or maybe it was Sarah who noticed first) and yelled "snake!". We both kind of ran away from it because we were kind of close. Then I yelled at Erin who was lounging on a reclining lawn chair to grab Scarlet quickly because there was a snake by the pond. She was either in shock or too afraid to move, but it was too late anyways. Scarlet ran off right towards where the snake was and he lashed out and I started to shake my head to wake myself up and my vision started to blur when I saw him wrap his body around her neck. I don't ever want to go through something like that again. :( :(

An old dream from last year..

Found a draft from last summer that I remember typing on my phone while camping one morning.

Dreamt me and Devin and Scarlet and a big group of people were being chased. We had another baby, named Ruby. We packed essentials. Scarlet had a small toy, she was a little older. Ruby had a bigger stuffed animal. We were found on an island I think. Dream all jumbled. We walked up to a couple houses that were in a wooded area of the island. We asked for help, but the guy there just told us to come in. I was a little hesitant but we needed shelter and food. All of us, probably 15-20 people, came in. His house was a mansion on the inside. He led us upstairs and we found rooms. At some point I remember running. I think we found out that the man was bad. I was looking for our essential things we packed. I found them inside a bench that also worked as a storage area. I grabbed as much as possible and ran with my family. At some point the bag of essentials wasn't in my hands and there were two bags on the side of a street. (The bad man's hallway turned into an alleyway of some sort).

Okay, I wrote this last summer and completely forgot what else happened right after that, but I DO remember bad guys chasing us from the alley and soon enough the alley turning into a river/waterfall. I remember holding onto one of the girls and Devin holding onto the other. I vaguely remember the toy Scarlet had being significant in the dream. Like it had gone missing and then found (or maybe when we jumped off the waterfall, the toy fell out of her hands and was gone forever. I don't know.) I swam with Scarlet (or Ruby, whichever daughter I was holding) to an island and waited/started my search for Devin, the other daughter, and the rest of the gang.