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Tuesday, November 17, 2015

Orbs Of Power, Like Suns

Dreamt that Devin and I were driving down the interstate. It was flooded in areas and Devin was still driving the speed limit, so we hydroplaned off the road and were driving on a big, hilly ditch. I called Sarah to tell her we might not make it (I think I meant to tell Sarah to tell Scarlet we loved her, because I was thinking of Scarlet when I said that).

Then I'm outside, flying. Sarah is also there. She is creating these big orange orbs that have powers. From a far enough distance away, they look like setting suns. She's making a bunch of them and plans to absorb them into her so that she has powers, or more powers since we're both flying. It seems like we were superheroes or something, fighting something bad in the world. I also remember everything outside was broken buildings, trash and graffiti everywhere, etc.. We were next to the ocean and a gas station or something. It was flooded in areas.

Then suddenly I am talking to some random female author. She is asking me if I read her books. I explain I've read some, but not all. She hands me one book and tells me that it's her best, then she hands me two books stuck together and tell me that it's her personal favorite.

A Bad Guy Had Scarlet

Dreamt an old family friend had a baby and she visited my dad's house to show the child off. Sarah wouldn't hold the baby, so I did. I think I ended up having to change the baby's diaper.

Then Devin and I were in a building and we were looking for Scarlet. A bad man had her, and we had to do something in order to get her back. I don't remember what.

The Monster Behind The Door

Not a dream: Scarlet woke up around 6 AM and immediately begged for one of us to turn a light on. We turned a light on, but it wasn't enough, she wanted to stay up. So Devin took her downstairs where it is brighter (she asked for every light on in the house). She told him that monsters were in our room. Felt like having a light on might keep them away. She told Devin that she had a nightmare. Later that day I asked her what happened and she told me that she found a monster behind the bedroom door and at first she thought he was really mean, but he ended up being really nice and actually more scared of her than she was of him.

Planning To Break Him

Dreamt it was Xmas time and Sarah and I were visiting my brother and his family, although their house was my dad's house. They had a bed set up for me, and Sarah just wanted to sleep on the couch.

Then suddenly I'm back home. Devin leaves with two co-workers (these people don't exist, I do not know this people in real life) to pick up something he wanted to buy through a Craigslist ad. One of his co-workers was really creepy, trying to flirt with me, etc,

Then my sister and I are in my dad's porch, setting up Xmas decor. It feels like we are back at Joran and Jen's, but they weren't in the dream anymore. Music (the music I had playing in waking life) was playing. I'm putting ornaments up on the tree when Devin's weirdo friend walks in. He starts acting friendly again and tells me that Devin is indeed buying whatever the hell it was he went to look at. I just nodded, trying to get him to leave by seeming distant, but instead he comes closer and checks out my ass while I'm reaching to the top of the tree to put an ornament up. I pretend not to notice so that he leaves eventually, but instead he walks over, puts his hand up my skirt and touches me. Before I can even turn around to freak out, he's already leaving and out the door. Sarah has her head down, clearly saw what happened, but is too embarrassed to admit she saw it. I run after the guy, planning to break him. Destroy him. Instead, I yell/cry out the door that "I look like I'm fucking 12 years old. Does that make you a molester?"

Woke up.

Friday, November 13, 2015

Vintage Car

Dreamt I was at my aunt Erin's old house. (Her house was on my dad's property, to explain the next part..) Some of my cousins on my dad's side of the family were there. My dad had gone somewhere and asked us all to feed his animals (he owns rabbits and chickens in waking life). My cousin Mike tells us he wants to look at his brother's vintage car he just bought. All of us start walking around the property looking for this car. At some point I remember wiping my face with my hand and getting peanut butter on my mouth. Suddenly my mouth felt numb and swollen, although it apparently looked fine.

Scarlet and I

I dreamt I was walking through my childhood hometown. I don't remember much, but it seems like there was something big and scary up in the sky. Don't quote me on this, but the best mental image I can come up with is Godzilla-like. I don't remember for sure, though. I also don't remember much of what happened. I was with some people, and it seems like we were looking for others or some thing.


Scarlet woke up saying "I want to play a game, Daddy." I don't know if she dreamt this or if she just woke up fast, but she said it as she was opening her eyes, so I figured I'd write it down.

Thursday, November 12, 2015

Alien Egg

Dreamt someone put raw (cracked) eggs in a bunch of individual Ziplock bags and hung them up all over in a kitchen. I think this kitchen was at a workplace, and that it was supposed to be a prank of some sort. I remember looking at the different bags and suddenly saw an egg with a face that resembled the creature from the movie "Alien". It was biting at nothing really in particular, but was gnashing its teeth around violently. It terrified me. I started yelling for Devin and suddenly instead of being in a Ziplock bag, it was in a plastic grocery bag and was falling to the floor amongst a bunch of other similar bags. I searched everywhere for it but could not find it. At some point I started looking for it on videos, as if I had seen it on a tape before. I was looking on my parents' old console TV we had for so long when I was a child. After awhile I started thinking it was a fish I had seen and was looking for that (with the creepy Alien face) instead. I also thought I had seen it in a video of Abraham Lincoln, so I was looking for him, too.


Yeah.. I don't get it, either.

Circular Cage

Was about to fall asleep just now. Super, super close to asleep. Opened eyes a split second and saw what looked like a ball of some sort made of wire (like a circular bird cage or something. Size a bit bigger than hands). It was kind of in midair, in front of window, falling. I bolted upright, turned on light, looked around everywhere, and I'm still not completely convinced I dreamt it.

Shadows against window blinds look a lot like I could have imagined it... Sounds I hear coming from that area tell me it was something else. When I woke up I immediately thought it was a big bug and I was just seeing its wings it something.

Slightly terrified to fall asleep now..

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

Three Years

This is a short dream, because I don't remember much. I dreamt I was living at my aunt Erin's old house. I accidentally let my dog and cats out and couldn't find them. While searching, my uncle Thane stopped me because he wanted to show me something. I explained I couldn't see what it was, because I was busy looking for my pets. I searched a long time and finally found one cat. He seemed bigger (he's still kind of a kitty in real life). At some point while searching for my pets, I saw these kids playing in a park and they looked really young - maybe 4 or 5. After finding my cat I saw these same children and they were a few years older, so I assumed it took me 3 years to find just one cat.

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Blood Clot

Dreamt there was a pain in my left side, under my rib cage. The pain kept moving higher and higher. I was still living with my parents and was in the kitchen when I yelled for them to take me to the hospital. They slowly carried me to the hospital (in reality this hospital is a half hour drive away because my childhood home was metaphorically in Timbuktu, but they were carrying me the whole way on foot). At some point Devin takes place of them, and just like in my waking life, he stops and chats with people during important times. In this case, while I'm dying. Anyways, finally we get to my doctor and she ends up being the midwife that helped me deliver my daughter. While telling her what's wrong with me and begging her to get this clot out, she tells me that just getting it out won't work. She tells me she would have to put something in me (she calls it a 'lean-to' but I assume she's talking about a 'stent' or something.) I throw all of these kids' toys off of a table (similar toys of my daughter's, similar table I own), and lay onto it, begging her to hurry, because I am afraid I'm going to die any minute. Suddenly the left side of my face goes numb. I try to smile but can't on that side. Right before she puts me under, I ask her to give me a toy of my daughter's that was on the floor for good luck. I start to become half-asleep and think to myself that if I turn onto my back (or on my right side, I don't remember), then my arm and face, etc, will stop feeling so numb. Also while being worked on, my 'dream-within-a-dream' was of Stevie Nicks playing piano in a room that had a very '70s-'80s trailer vibe.

Monday, November 9, 2015

End-Of-The-World Windy

My sister and I are at my dad's house. We are either outside or looking out, and it is incredibly windy. We're talking end-of-the-world windy. I somehow manage to get myself in and shut the door. My sister is inside. It's dark in the house and we are using flashlights. We look around everywhere (my dad's house is apparently humongous, because we are searching many, many non-existent rooms) for our families. I find my daughter's backpack and pack some essential items. I also find one of our cats and I hold onto him while we keep looking around for anyone. We get to what looks like an unfinished basement. The ground is still dirt, the walls concrete/brick. We find a family sleeping on different beds spread about the room. We wake them up and tell them what is going on. They start gathering things. We look outside of this door that walks up from the basement - it's very dark outside (it was dark in the beginning), and at first it looks calm again, but when I start to head up the stairs, I can feel the wind is still too strong to survive walking around out there. We wait it out a bit. I looked around the basement some more and find this door that opens out to this hill with a short (3 ft?) wall next to it. I start noticing water creeping over to us from over the wall/down the hill to us. (This is a really small hill -- the wall is maybe ten feet away from the door. I notice the wind has stopped, and I yell to everyone that water is coming. In my head I know that this is probably a tidal wave of some sort that is headed towards us. I run out and my sister follows. Water is starting to come into the house and is very tall. The parents of the family come out next and RIGHT before I wake up, I wonder why the hell the parents didn't have their children go first or with them. I didn't see the kids come out.


*Maybe this dream is a piece of my previous dream about the moon falling to Earth? lol

Sunday, November 8, 2015

College Life

I was with some guy I like (not Devin, though). We were with this other guy, and the guy asks if I can drop a "package" (drugs) off to his friend. I'm at this college campus, in a dorm room, and tell him that I have a class to attend and that "a friend might stop me at some point, so I can have her do it." Whoever this friend is, I tell him that she's really against drugs, so she might not do it. I told him that he'll just have to deal with whatever consequences, because I was late for class and we were running out of options. (Whyyy he couldn't do this himself, I don't know.) For some reason, though, maybe before this part of the dream, I actually dropped this package off with her already, because I somehow knew that she would end up doing it. I don't know.. confusing. Anyways, now I'm with a woman in a shower and we are making love. We are in a basement. It's very bachelor pad-like, messy, studio apartment kind of. I don't know what happens to the lady, but afterwards I am in this bachelor pad, and I am searching for Devin. He comes down the stairs with a laundry basket, and I hug him as hard as physically possible. Woke up.

The Zombie That Wouldn't Die

I can't understand my handwriting half the time, but I wrote a couples of sentences and the only phrases I understand is that I saw money and that I was going somewhere with my sister and told her I would pay for her to come with - wherever this may be.  I am at our dad's house, maybe waiting for her to get ready, and am looking out the screen door. I see the moon and suddenly it is getting closer and closer. I yell to my boyfriend Devin and BOOM, it hits Earth, but not in a catastrophic way. It is like this humongous ball of broken moon just a few miles away from me. Devin comes in and I tell him what happened and he says, "Didn't you hear?", like it had happened awhile ago. I walk outside (and now it looks nothing like my dad's property -- more like alleyways and sandy/concrete/shelters/brick walls on both sides of windy paths to the shelters). It's sunny in areas and dark in other areas. My sister is following me, and we are winding along through this area. I see a group of people eating at a picnic table. I look around and also see what kind of looks like the black hooded version of the Nameless Ghouls from the band Ghost sitting on this bench - except there are no masks, it's this empty/blank/invisible space. I point over at them to my sister because I'm not gonna lie, the invisible aspect of it was frightening. My sister tells me to quit pointing because I might get their attention and they could hurt me or something. Then this zombie-like person comes at me from behind and tries to suffocate me with his own shirt. I pull his shirt off of me and turn around to suffocate him with his own shirt and he just won't die. (durr..) Then the man-zombie turns into a lady-zombie and she tells me I need to die. I tell her that's not happening. She tries to kill me, so I try to embarrass her instead.

Wizards Fighting

So.. I don't know why, but I dreamt a Harry Potter dream. It seemed like it was the end of the world, and like all end-of-world dreams I have, everyone gathers. Devin and I are driving through town and we see my brother Joran and my mom on the corner of the intersection by Walmart. We park the car and get out and stand next to them, staring up in the sky at two wizards on brooms (my brain decided to imagine Dumbledore and Voldemort) that seem to be fighting to the death. One of them (the bad guy) says he will "see you on the other side" and then disappears. Then the other guy disappears. When the bad wizard spoke, I seemed to understand and open this suitcase I am suddenly holding and grab out a coin. I put the coin in this slot to what looks like an ATM machine or old payphone. Doing this transported me to this other world where these wizards are now fighting.

Sunday, November 1, 2015

Icky Snakes

Dreamt I was watching videos of alligators, but suddenly a snake popped up on the screen. Woke up disgusted. Then suddenly felt dread. Felt like I was going to die today, or soon. (and then noticed I had the start of a sore throat -- daughter has had a cold for a few days now.) I actually Googled alligators and snakes right after the dream (because I was on the verge of a full blown panic attack thinking I was dying) and read that alligators in dreams can sometimes mean healing powers, and that snakes mean something is threatening me. So, I am going to assume this dream is telling me that my health is being threatened and that I am about to get a cold. (It's tonight now, and I can confirm that I have a cold coming on. Waahh.)

Oooookay.

Dreamt I was in two astral planes at one time. First was in the bathroom, near the bath tub, writhing in sexual ecstasy. The second was possibly at a bar, watching a video of a demonic-looking man, telling me he wanted to "plant his seed" in me. I'm guessing this man was Satan. He definitely had that vibe.


* I don't know why I dreamt this. I am Atheist/Agnostic. Talk about embarrassing, yo. lol