Heart Test

Weird but also weirdly realistic dream. I was in a hospital and was told I had to take some test for my heart. I was put on this bed thing and it started spinning me around so that my head was sometimes lower than the rest of that makes sense. It was going at a normal speed I guess, and it really sucked. I felt sick a bit during that one. But then, they stopped that test and said they had to do one more test which was just faster. This one was a lot easier. After the test, I saw my husband's aunt walk in (she used to be some type of nurse) and she didn't really acknowledge me at all so I turned my head and smiled (because she walked behind me) and she came over to me and hugged me from behind while still in this bed thing and I told her I was sorry for her loss (she didn't lose anyone in waking life). She said thank you and then walked out of the door. As soon as she left the two nurses that were doing the test asked what had happened to her and I told her she had lost a nephew recently, one of my classmates from high school. He's still alive that I know of...  

Evil Nurse

Dreamt my sister's friend Becky was having a child. Me and my husband stopped by to visit in the hospital and we had to bring a new puppy we had because Becky's older daughter wanted to see the puppy. I let one of them hold the puppy for a photo and couldn't see well but it sounded like the puppy ran across over the baby's head. Suddenly a nurse ran over, grabbed the puppy and threw it on the floor and started hitting him hard in the face with something heavy. She just kept hitting him sooo much that I was sure she bashed in his skull. I tried running over but everyone kept pushing me away from getting to her and the dog. Eventually she stopped and everyone cleared out except for the dog. He was lying on the floor with a blanket already over him. Becky came back in asking if I'd sign something and I remember thinking 'fuck that, this is probably something where I can't sue them for this". And told her no, fuck off." Or whatever. Screamed at her for being on the nurse's side. 

Wow. Shortly before this I dreamt that I was still on high school and dad worked for 🤮 trump. We were rich and I remember us walking in a parade for school and I saw someone from my high school that was really popular and I told her she always seemed really nice to me/most popular. That made her smile. 

Electrocutions

Can't sleep well. Last night when I got into bed I felt cramps in my uterus and leg even though I shouldn't get my period for another 12 days or so. Fell asleep okay once the kids fell asleep but woke up often. First to pee a couple hours after sleeping. Then maybe got ten minutes every couple hours after. Daughter's alarm went off so I asked if she's ask her father to take her down so I could sleep. Couldn't fall asleep til an hour later. Horrible crazy dream. At this point I'd rather dream snakes:

Dreamt I was still crampy and on the couch or a bed. Dreamt that the sister sister twins were doing a weird tribute for t&s but they did a great job. Hair and all lol. Then you versions of t&s walked into my room and I said they all did a great job. As t some point I also remember walking into a doctor's room, interrogating a doctor (a man). Found random items on floor that they didn't even think to send with patient a cusing him of something bad.

Went to bathroom. Found blood all over in my underwear and on a pad. Realized maybe I had a uterine fibroid or cyst or sething and it burst. Suddenly I heard loud wind outside. Looked out and it felt like a tornado but there was snow on ground so I wasn't worried. Then I noticed this weird electrical thing and it was sparking. I was still on toilet so I yelled at my husband to check it out. I saw him go outside to look at it and it like came to life turning into this man with a bamboo head that looked like a tiki.. He tried to electovute my husband. He was zapped but not harmed. It started coming to the house so I tried to lock the door but when I went to lock it, it unlocked itself. He came in and started coming towards me. I found scissors and tried to stab him. Woke up 

Not as crampy but only got an hour of sleep ..  ugh. 

Hiking

Kind of all over the place but what I do remember was that I had two dogs and I was traveling or hiking with them. I needed to get home. I asked for a ride from someone and they helped me a little bit but eventually I just had to walk. I got to a hospital and took the dogs through it because it's be faster. Couldn't find proper normal stairs. Almost carried two dogs down a ladder. Finally found a strange crooked set of stairs that I could jump over to. Dogs followed me. Got down to lobby and remember feeling awkward about having the dogs. Asked the front lady if it was okay. Went outside with dogs. Magically teleported myself to my grandma's old trailer because I thought this journey would make a good game where of you get back you win a prize. Told my mom who was standing next to the table. 

Eye

Very bad dream. A a few days, I have to go see a dermatologist about a spot on my face. Well, I dreamt I went to that appointment. I dreamt that when I got there, the receprionist brought our a tiny flashlight and put it to my face. She told me the spot on my face was okay, but that a spot on my nose was cancerous and would need lazered/cut off. I was worried a little bit mostly for my husband by telling him he should get his spot on his nose checked room. We are about to check out when the doctor comes in with a piece of paper with some results on it. They said that my left eye had a blue spot behind it and that it would need taken out. I freaked. I searched for Devin who was coming back and I ran to him and cried into his arms. I was in complete denial and wanted a second opinion. A few minutes later I realized I would probably be blind because my good eye was the one they wanted to take out. 

Kiss

Dreamt I was walking up to Dad's house and a whole bunch of celebrities were there to greet me. Like someone heard I was a fan of them and wanted to celebrate that or whatnot. Okay change that and I'm in a city/store that's also outside. I'm looking for clothing because I'm naked. I'm being looked for by police or a hospital or something. I quickly find clothes and try to get them on. Running around through hospital again. I see k. He looks nervous to see me but also not. Like he's heard bad things about me but also doesn't want to believe or something. Anyways we try to find privacy on some basement stairs. We kiss. 

Honestly I can't remember much.. 

Math Test

Dreamt that I was doing a math test in what felt like a hospital setting/the hallways and desks. Devin and his dad were there. They worked together or told each other answers. I realized later I had the 'old answers' from last year, so I started copying off for that. 

Another dream I had was realizing Devin had to go back to work. Might have been swimming in the pool when I realized this. (Which is weird because he does go back today after an 11-day vacation, and also family might be stopping by to swim.i also remember being at Grandma's old house but in her driveway. I don't remember what happened at all but I was there at one point. I think I was looking up at the sky maybe? 

Babysit

Dreamt that husband dropped my youngest son off with my cousin Mel (and that she lived in her childhood home in warrens). He wanted younhestvson to getbusedbtonstayingbwith othersm then me, husband, maybe other kids went to doctors office. I was in a room with husband, bitching to him about dropping my baby off with a stranger. Husband left room annoyed. I had to get everything of ours out of room. Several pairs of shoes, socks, clothing, chargers etc... I had to pack a bunch of stuff and look under a bed. Woke up. 

Imprisoned In A New World

Dreamt I was a guy and I lost some people in an alternate world. I went in to find them and realized everyone is imprisoned in a hospital. I have to hide things that I find out. I found an animal that talks that was an old friend and I hide him in a bag (he has powers and can make himself tiny and invisible etc).. I hide pictures for proof for the people I know so they remember me etc. there's a bad guy that is doing this all, but there's a whole business working together with him. The bad guys find me in this apartment trying to find people I know.. Finally I get caught and they're taking me to a hospital room looking thing. I get hooked up to stuff and see random people I don't know. One nurse asks me if I want my own room "for afterwards... I can do anything sexual with staff" or whatnot. I'm so confused and decide to say yes so that I get my own room to escape. (I realize later that the whole reason they're imprisoning people is to make babies/maybe more population for their world.) Just as I'm walking out, a kid tells me that my girlfriend I had been looking for is in a certain room. I tell staff I want this room. They shove me around hallways chained up by the hands I think and we're winding around looking for room 23. I finally get to it and I'm going around and I see her and she sees me and she recognizes me but she's got people with her and I realize that she doesn't live me anymore. I'm heartbroken. She was beautiful. Long, blond hair and brown eyes. She looked heartbroken, too. 

I wake up..

Regular Show

I'm kind of jumbled right now. Half asleep. Dreamt the wades were with me and we were in the woods. There was this shed or something? Or maybe the start of a wall? I tried climbing it no luck. The woods then turned into maybe the VA, kind of dark and abandoned. Wades are gone. Cherish and her kiddos are there. I can't see them (for some reason I'm hiding) but I can hear them complaining about a TV show that's playing. I thought maybe it was one show but when I physically look over at it I see it's Regular Show. 

I don't remember much after that. Honestly it might have changed back to the woods again..

Hallways

Dreamt Sarah and maybe Devin and I were playing a video game but also in it. We were wandering white hallways in what felt like an abandoned hospital, looking for something. Trying to decipher what something meant. Finally we find a dark room and Sarah says this feels right, must be what we're looking for. I find a tunnel in a cupboard and shine a flashlight off my phone in it and we see a weird animal creature coming at us. Size of a kitten. I try to smash it with something slightly heavy but I have to whack it several times because it doesn't die right away. It was awful. We think we saved ourselves doing that so we are a little relieved.. then a mom creature comes out and bites one of us and we kill her too. We are heading back and we just know being bitten was a really bad thing. I can't remember the rest..

I just remembered a bit before all of this .. I was in a house and a storm was coming.... Like a tornado... It was super windy, and I think parts of the house were breaking away. 

Blood Clot

Dreamt there was a pain in my left side, under my rib cage. The pain kept moving higher and higher. I was still living with my parents and was in the kitchen when I yelled for them to take me to the hospital. They slowly carried me to the hospital (in reality this hospital is a half hour drive away because my childhood home was metaphorically in Timbuktu, but they were carrying me the whole way on foot). At some point Devin takes place of them, and just like in my waking life, he stops and chats with people during important times. In this case, while I'm dying. Anyways, finally we get to my doctor and she ends up being the midwife that helped me deliver my daughter. While telling her what's wrong with me and begging her to get this clot out, she tells me that just getting it out won't work. She tells me she would have to put something in me (she calls it a 'lean-to' but I assume she's talking about a 'stent' or something.) I throw all of these kids' toys off of a table (similar toys of my daughter's, similar table I own), and lay onto it, begging her to hurry, because I am afraid I'm going to die any minute. Suddenly the left side of my face goes numb. I try to smile but can't on that side. Right before she puts me under, I ask her to give me a toy of my daughter's that was on the floor for good luck. I start to become half-asleep and think to myself that if I turn onto my back (or on my right side, I don't remember), then my arm and face, etc, will stop feeling so numb. Also while being worked on, my 'dream-within-a-dream' was of Stevie Nicks playing piano in a room that had a very '70s-'80s trailer vibe.

Scarlet Dreams

Saturday June 27

"What did you dream about?"
"Doc."
"Doc McStuffins? What was she doing?"
"Fixing Stuffy up."

There Is No Fate But What We Make For Ourselves.

Dreamt I was Linda Hamilton. :) lol. A meteor had hit Earth and I woke up and called for a private helicopter. Meanwhile, I walked to this building that is like a quarantine. While the staff there was trying to make sure I was alright, I was thinking to myself that in the future they would 'clean' me and find something strange and want to fix me, but in the process the way that they fix me makes me come into contact with something that ends up giving me cancer. I tell myself I need to make sure they don't fix me, this why I can change fate.

Gardening In The Streets.

Dreamt I was at school but the school was set up like a hospital. The school was filled with evil people, so I needed to escape. I was in an upper level of the school and found this phone booth on the wall and go over to call someone. My sister Sarah was a (good) nurse or something in the school, so I called her and told her we should both leave. She agrees and we decide to meet up in the lobby downstairs. We both enter the lobby at the same time, from different elevators. We walk outside and as I am getting into a van I get confused or something and I start telling her that I just had a dream about her where we tried to escape from somewhere. The van has some old classmates of mine in it, so I chat with them for awhile.

Then I dreamt that I was wearing this green halter top and I had ginormous breasts. (I don't in real life. LOLOL.) I am looking in the mirror as my boyfriend Devin is fixing my hair for me.

Then I dreamt that I was still living with my mom and sister in this house of my grandpa's and we all had our own dogs but they were all misbehaving and when I walked outside, my mom was doing gardening in the STREET. Along with her neighbor, who had a huge garden and greenhouse in the intersection. The road was there, but was cut in squares in the parts where the flowers were.

Walt's In The Hospital.

Dreamt that my great-uncle Walt was still alive and sick in the hospital. Sarah, Erin, Dad and Mom and I were all walking up to the building to go see him and we met up with my ex, Caleb, and my cousin Garrett waiting in the hallway. Everyone was in a sad mood, similar to when you usually have a gathering in a hospital for a person dying. Some were crying, others were looking at the floor trying not to. I peek out the window before we walk up to the hospital room and I noticed my dog Moses wandering off outside of the car. My aunt tells me she has to leave somewhere right now, so I grabbed my dog and hid him under my coat so that no doctors would be able to see him when I snuck him up with me to visit Walt, but when I got into the hallway, my mom's friend told me that I could just bring Moses in without having to hide him. Then Devin shows up and he tells me his job is giving him less hours, and I realize I have to work soon. Then I woke up.

The End Of The World.

What I ate/drank the night before: DiGiorno's Pepperoni Pizza and Constant Comment Decaf Tea. Plus a handful of Quakes Rice Snacks in Ranch flavor and a glass of water.

Dreamt I was making out with a black woman. She was a vampire, too. Then the vampire disappears and I am walking down a street with my grandma Milly. We spot my aunt Donna and uncle Larry walking into a dance hall, so we follow. I look around and see that everyone is eating at a billion different tables. There isn't much room, so I walk over to a table with a few empty seats and I sit down. A few seconds later someone tells me that the seats are taken, so I and this little girl that followed me to the table walk around the dance hall to find a different place to eat. We get to the very back of the room and I sit down at this table that this fatter boy and Rhianna is sitting at. The boy asks me a question and I can't quite understand him, so I answer honestly and he laughs rudely (along with Rhianna) and tells me he was being sarcastic. I look over at the little girl (she's about three or four) and roll my eyes. We're stuck sitting with a bunch of assholes. I find out from Rhianna that the dance takes place to find your soulmate. She points to a mirror on the floor and tells me that she sees my soulmate in the reflection and that she'll email the soulmate so that we can find each other. I look at my phone and see an email coming in and it shows a picture of Rhianna and below it (this is supposed to be me for some reason) is a picture of Betty White. (I might have to explain this.. My friend and I are constantly calling ourselves Rose and Blanche off Golden Girls, because we're goofy and we act like them a lot (me being a bit of an idiot and she being a bit of a slut, ha, so I guess my subconscious picked up on that..)). Rhianna and the fat boy end up leaving and I spot an old friend, Kayla, walking over to me so I stop to talk to her for a bit. She tells me that her dad is trying to start a business but that he's placing it in the wrong area. (Apparently he's starting this resort/bistro/cell phone fixing company inside of a hospital). I tell her that I remember seeing him walking around town with blueprints the other day. Then Kayla leaves and I look up at the sky (the ceiling is opened in parts to bring in a breeze). I smile at how pretty the sun looks. It's making the sky a bright blue color. There are dark clouds that the sun is beating through, and it casts an eerie yet gorgeous glow. Suddenly the clouds get thicker, though, gathering into darker and darker colors. Almost black. I hear a loud booming sound --not a crackling like thunder, more like a huge explosion-- Everyone starts screaming. The clouds have a faint red glow like fire making its way through. The song "Who's Gonna Drive You Home?" by The Cars comes on in the dancehall and I get a text message from an old black lady that only says "last song". I cry, thinking the sun exploded and that the world will end. That I won't know who my soulmate is. That I won't be able to breathe or think ever again. I won't be remembered. The little girl that was with me is crouched down by the wall behind me, so I grab her and put my arms around her and have her situated so that she is slightly under the table for shelter. I know we're going to die in a few seconds but I want her to feel safe anyways. I look back up at the sky and the clouds have turned a bright red. I look back down at the little girl and hold her tighter. I feel piercing hot liquid hit my back that feels like drops of lava. I start thinking that we're about to burn up, but then a really cold breeze hits my back and I can feel frost sticking to me. I don't know what's happening, but its very painful. I start shaking myself awake because I can't take the pain anymore. Within a few seconds I wake up to myself swaying my hips from side to side.

Wow, I had to look up the lyrics to this song. It's crazy how this song could actually make sense in this dream..

Chicken Pox.

Dreamt I was camping. My mom is there along with the musician Tegan Quin. We all hear sirens off in the distance and think my dad got into a car accident or something. Mom thinks Dad started drinking again. Then a cop comes to the camper (we're inside the camper this whole time) and tells us that it's my brother Joran that got into the accident. We all start crying and I grab my phone out to call my sister, Sarah. I keep having to re-type in the numbers because I can't seem to get the whole number right. I keep hitting the wrong button towards the end. Finally it starts ringing and instead of getting my sister I get my brother's voicemail. After I tell everyone what the phone did (I know I called my sister's phone, but it magically called Joran's instead) Tegan says, "The technology of today is amazing for knowing to call Joran instead of Sarah.".....

Slight distraction. Everyone disappears and I have this red wig on. I look like Daphne from Scooby Doo. I'm still in the camper, and I look in a mirror and notice these red dots and circles all over my face. Soon enough, there are nurses at my side (dressed in starched white, almost what you'd wear for Tae Kwon Do classes except for the belts) and they grab me by the wrists and tell me I have chicken pox. I get wheeled through this strange astral plane that is blended from the campground and a hospital hallway. I'm weary, tired, so I tell them I need to see Tegan. I hear in this overhead speaker through the hospital hallway a nurse calling her name. Tegan is a doctor in my dream, I guess. This part is strange, because I'm still in this hospital bed the nurses are pushing, and yet I can see Tegan working on some patient in surgery far off in this other astral plane. I'm in this bright, white realm; She's in this orange-lit room. Also, at this point I was passing a lake (and yet still in the hospital) and she was on this island (and yet working on the patient). Finally I get to a room and they give me a gown to put on.

..... I'm back at the campground, outside, and this time my mom and dad are only there. We also have our dog Skippy that I had when I was little (deceased now), and my sister's dog (Romeo) and my dog (Bear) with us. I watch as these little people get into a boat from the dock and drive off. I tell my dad about what happened to Joran, and he says, "Nooo.. Jo Jordan is sick!" I look confused for a second because my dad looks sure of himself. Then I tell him that I heard the cop say the name Joran, not Jo Jordan. My dad finally gets worried and we decide to pack up and drive to where Joran is so we can visit him. We get everything in a van and are about to leave when the dogs run off. I try to run after them, but I can't see them anywhere. I know they are trying to follow where the little people went, though, so I look in the lake and see them swimming in that direction. Mom, Dad and I all try to catch them because I'm worried Bear will get hit by a car.





** Chicken Pox: I know I dreamt about this because of one of the latest Tegan & Sara blogs that Sara wrote.

She's Going Into Deep Eye!

I dreamt I was in the future and Tegan Quin was some nurse or doctor (but she looked younger, like in the So Jealous era). She wanted me to do some weird experimental medical procedure, and at first I was alright with it, so she strapped me into this dentist-like chair. That part was scary in itself, but then the seat started rising and eventually it rose all the way to this REALLY hot ceiling/lighting fixture kind of thing. It scalded my cheek. As soon as it hit my skin, I told her to put me back down, I couldn't do it. So she did, and she asked me if I could come back tomorrow for that same test, and I said, *intake of breath through clenched teeth* "Oooo, I'm busy." And she responded, "How about Monday/Wednesday?" I nodded glumly (and for some reason, I was thinking that I was planning to time travel back to present time sooner then that anyways, so she'd never find me) and while she was writing down the appointment, I walked into this hallway and looked at these pictures on the wall. The pictures were of things they had sponsored, and one of the pictures was of a gay/lesbian singing choir in baseball jerseys. There was also another picture of a woman that looked like Tina Turner complete with a short gold dress and sporting a mohawk. There was a name at the bottom of both pictures, "Kym Wilde." I assume this must have been the photographer. (FYI, I had to google this name, and apparently there is a real Kym Wilde (spelled just like that), she's a porn star.) Tegan came back out from the doctor's office and somehow the hallway turned into the kitchen at the house I lived in with my parents. She was sitting on the counter and I was hopelessly flirting, but my cock-blocking mom was holding a bag of groceries in the room as well. I kind of pull Tegan off the counter and try to look at her closely, but my vision gets super blurry. I ask her "Why can't I see you very well?" Everything is fuzzy, and she gets worried and brings out one of those pen-size flashlights. Then she mentions to someone (by this point we're back in that office, and I can't see anything at all but a very blurry face in front of me) and she says "She's going into 'Deep Eye'!" (lol, my subconscious brings up some weird doctor lingo.. I guess this must have meant I was dehydrated, because while I was in that state of shock, that's what I thought was wrong with me). I felt her and some other people strap me back down into that scary dentist-like chair, and I was relieved to wake up. I didn't like being in that chair at all, I knew I'd get burnt by that damn contraption above me.

Twit.

I dreamt I was at this hospital because my sister was sick. My mom finds a hospital room for her for only $30 a month (I know, right? ) and I ask the doctor what it was that was wrong with her. He told me that Sarah has this thing called "S_____ Memphenoma." (I actually remembered that last word!) He said she attained this disease because she came into contact with roadkill. Which was apparently baby chicken, which according to my sister in her dream, a baby chicken means a "twit".


* Okay, sidenote: I know why I dreamt this. Anna and I have been conversing back and forth about this woman that came about a really sudden illness that stiffened her muscles and put her in agony. It reminded me of this thing that my boyfriend's cousin's wife's sister had gone through. She got flu-like symptoms and went to the hospital. By the time she got to the hospital she was out cold and her boyfriend had to carry her in. She went into a coma for a few days. Now she's in a wheelchair and she can't control her body very well anymore. This is the part I'm trying to get to, why this associates with my dream and the other girl. This cousin's wife's sister only did one thing out of the ordinary, and that was pick up a cat that was dead that she was going to bury or something. I think that's what made me think of roadkill.