Song Of The However Long I Feel Like..

Friday, May 17, 2024

Thursday, May 16, 2024

Work

Dreamt that I was dropping my husband off at his job and I saw mail for the workers and peeked and saw my own name on one of the envelopes. I picked it up and opened it and saw it was from an old boss and his wife (they both were my bosses) and that they were explaining to me that they bought my husband's company. I ended up seeing/talking to the male boss at some point and he was older looking and seemed really forgetful. 

I also remember a high school band .. maybe my cousins Gavin or Gracin were in band class and I saw a xylophone? I can't totally remember. 

Wednesday, May 15, 2024

The Affair

Worst dream ever. 😢 Dreamt husband cheated/fell in love with someone online. He handed me his phone and I can't remember what it was. An email? Texts? Video? Photos? But he showed me the proof. Some girl at work from his old distribution job/maybe just randomly online. I ended up calling her when I saw a link to her number. I just remember trying to be nice and asking about the guy she's seeing and then got straight up murderous and just said "well he's fucking married, you bitch." After hanging up, I pleaded with him to show me something about her again. He pretended to go through his phone and find something, made an elaborate gift where I had to unwrap his phone or whatnot or peel away at a cake or something and nothing was there and he was laughing. He was done and didn't care. It felt so real. The kids were there and they didn't seem bothered by what was going on either. 


I also dreamt a random cat we owned got outside and ran off and to find him I had to become an animal. Wait... I also dreamt I was a snail too. I don't know. Very fucked up dream. I feel like I took a bunch of magnesium or something. (I did rub a lot of magnesium lotion on myself last night since I was so sore from work.) I'm just absolutely exhausted. Physically, mentally, emotionally. 

Tuesday, May 14, 2024

Babysit

Dreamt that husband dropped my youngest son off with my cousin Mel (and that she lived in her childhood home in warrens). He wanted younhestvson to getbusedbtonstayingbwith othersm then me, husband, maybe other kids went to doctors office. I was in a room with husband, bitching to him about dropping my baby off with a stranger. Husband left room annoyed. I had to get everything of ours out of room. Several pairs of shoes, socks, clothing, chargers etc... I had to pack a bunch of stuff and look under a bed. Woke up. 

Sunday, May 12, 2024

Game

Kinda going away but I remember dreaming like I was playing this game Trying to get out. I had to grab certain things around the room and there were bad people. Something to do with the clouds maybe. Lost all my good stuff I won at one point and had to start over. It sucked. At one point I remember hiding with someone else in leaves on the ground. Also remember Jerry Cantrell was on the ground cuddling with another guy lol. Oh! Right before I woke up I remember trying to dig under a fence to get to safety.

Thursday, May 9, 2024

Space Travelers

This one was weird. It's like a space traveler came and picked up several Earthlings (me included. Also husband, maybe my dad? Maybe my sister,? An ex, his wife). I just remember thinking how all the food was different now, so maybe they'd have something similar to cereal that I can actually eat. The cereal is healthy now. No sugars.. full of vitamins. I was worried tho what the milk was. Hoping other choices besides cow but nothing weird. We worked for something and food was all paid for already, so we had a lot of money just waiting to be spent on god knows what. I think we were looking around in what looked like a garage sale to see if we wanted to buy stuff and this is where I noticed my ex and his wife were also in the group. I was worried how my husband would react so I went looking for him. I don't think he really cared, but I can't remember. 

This is all on the tip of the brain so I can't remember much. I kind of remember a girl (mid twenties like) working for bad people and shes in her bedroom, clothes everywhere, bills for colleges in her room, and she was waiting to get picked up by these bad people. She hiked up her skirt to show some underwear a bit and a car stopped. Ended up having her dad in the car. She hid her face. Her dad I don't think was bad buhe didn't want him knowing she was leaving. I think she was wanting to join this space traveling group, too. 

Tuesday, May 7, 2024

Braids

I had dreamt I was braiding a childhood friend's hair. We may have been younger because she looked younger/thinner.