Silver Family Reunion

I'm going through cabinets. I'm playfully singing what I find in the cabinets when I grab each item to move out of my way. I find a VHS tape that says "Silver Family Reunion" on it. (My grandma's maiden name was Silver.) I take this with me.

So...

I have two entries that I don't remember at all (this was a couple days ago), so I will write them word-for-word. With the first one, I should explain that I watched the movie Pacific Rim recently.. With the second one, umm.. Yeah, I don't remember it at all, and I wrote it down with my eyes closed, so it's written with phrases all jumbled on top of each other.. It's a mess.



The first dream:

Pacific Rim-like. Seems like I switched something in my dream to make it safer - can't remember what.


Second:

Parking lot for zombie apocalypse. Dev likes some, I mine. I leave at night, testing a car. Try to leave quietly, was eating cookie batter. Bad for me.

Everyone's Listening

I am at my sister's house and apparently she has a second story deck, because I am sitting on a chair there with this dude. I like him. We're talking about something - don't remember what. My sister wants to take our picture together.

Somehow we end up in a town that is kind of cartoon-ish. We're walking around, and I point up at the sky. It looks like there are cop cars off in the distance.... in the sky. The guy says something that is meant to explain what's happening, but I'm still really confused. We start to head for shelter, towards a school.

 I'm in the school looking for a radio station area. I see the dude I like, and he stops me and hands me these cups and tells me he has to go back home and grab something he forgot. I take the cups and head into the radio area. Lost, looking for something. (Something bad is going on, I just don't know what, and I am panicking.) A woman comes up to me with a microphone, about to hand it to me, and says "We're just going to start. Everyone's listening." (I'm assuming this guy I liked was supposed to be the speaker or something, I don't know.) I back away from the lady with my hands up, nervous, and tell her I don't know what's happening. I walk off into a darker area of the room, waking up.

Oh good lord, someone give me better handwriting..

I can't read my own handwriting.. So this is a bit jumbled and confusing.


Dreamt Zig still alive. (He's my dog that we had to put down this past spring. Rough year..)

I'm at my Dad's and I head down the driveway with Ziggy to go get the mail. I tell my mom where I am headed and say something like "I wish that dumbass wouldn't have taken my dog." -- My mom assumes I'm talking about my ex, but for some reason I am talking about his brother. (Okay, I don't understand this part at all. No association between any of my animals to my ex or his brother. Anyways..)

Zig is good until a Winnebago comes around the curve of the road. I push him towards the driveway/house, and he runs back up. I grab the mail and apparently my mom followed, because she starts talking to the people in the Winnebago. I think maybe the person in the Winnebago is an old park manager where I used to work. She asks someone how "Karen" is. The mail I grabbed wasn't mail, mementos. I remember seeing a picture/card that says "If/when I die" and on the back is my handwriting in gold, written to my sister. There were also pictures of my mom and aunt when they were little, my great uncle Walt, etc..


Before all of this I dreamt I was back in high school. I was wearing this black dress that was too short. I was a new girl - again - lame. I am looking for a bathroom and find one in a locker room. The bathroom was humongous, had many stalls. I leave the bathroom and there is a long line forming, so I get in line to wait my turn. Because I'm a moron.


Also dreamt I was getting food at Hu Hot (the best restaurant ever), but it was set in a house.

No Clue..

Okay, this was awhile ago. I also don't know what it means/is about, so I'm just going to write what I wrote, word for word:

Dreamt dreaming. Was tough life. May have been aging.

Party Pooper

(I need to explain.. This Saturday Scarlet is invited to a family Halloween party, but she's afraid of Halloween decorations, masks, etc.. I told her she isn't going to be forced to go, but Devin at first told her she has to (she whines when we mention the party and says she doesn't want to go). Small fights leading up to this dream..)

Dreamt I was at a party that may have been at my dad's pond. Devin's family and some random dude I've never met in real life, but apparently knew in my dream, were all there. They tell us there is a Halloween party they have to go to suddenly and that Scarlet has to come. I tell Devin that it's totally up to Scarlet whether she goes. Of course she says no, so now everyone is mad at me. I'm getting mean looks from his family, who are now getting into cars, and this random guy starts yelling at me. Everyone is leaving for the party but him (suddenly we are near my dad's house and I'm about to walk in). Then he hits me in the face. I. am. pissed. He leaves. Devin is somewhere still on the property, but we're both so mad at each other that I don't even care where he is. I don't even think Scarlet was actually in this dream, but I'm pretty sure she stayed 'home' with us. I start cleaning up the house from this party that was happening and start to wander upstairs (now the dream is set in my own home). I see my sister up there and I start to talk to her about what happened, but then I hear Devin walking up the stairs. I'm ready for the impending fight we will have, but wake up instead.

Blah.

I don't remember this dream at all (was taking my temperature at the same time of trying to remember/write down), but okay:

Dreamt I was in a house, but it looked more like the wheelchair ramp in front of my aunt's old house. I was pregnant. The band Ghost was in this dream. I don't know the plot in this dream at all, sorry..

Idiot..

Forgive me.. I cannot read my own handwriting sometimes, and even more so after only being awake for a few seconds:


Dreamt I was in my dad's front yard. (He lives in the woods and the long driveway actually comes to the side of the house with the yards on either side of view.. so it's debatable which is the front and which is the back. This is the side next to his kitchen window. I've always called it the front yard because it's the first part you see, even though the way the house is set up it would probably be called the backyard.. Moving on..) I remember sitting down in the grass because my foot felt funny. I took my shoe off and see that it is deformed. It was like there were a couple other toes attached to my left foot. It was weird.. I assumed that this happened because I had a baby (and I'm always thinking about how having her made my feet grow out of all my favorite pairs of shoes.. dammit all..) Then Devin had this brilliant plan (riiight) for me to get pregnant. I didn't understand this plan in my dream and of course I don't in my waking life, but he seemed to think he could sleep with some lady, and I with some guy, and that somehow in this plan he would still be the father of the baby I'd be carrying. Like somehow in that whole mess, all of the things I seem to be doing wrong might end up right, and this baby he would make with this lady, and this baby I would make with this man, would transfer only to me. Confusing, but whatever... I ended up breaking up with him because he seemed to eager to sleep with someone else, and I thought it was the dumbest idea ever.

Backseat

Dreamt I was a well-dressed man sitting in the backseat of a car. My sister was driving. I don't know anything that happened - plot, dialogue, etc.. I could barely remember this dream at all. Did not sleep well, or enough (thank you, Scarlet, for waking up from 2 AM - 4 AM), and I basically had to lay in bed for 5 minutes just to recollect what I did.

Opposite Sex 

• To dream that you are the opposite sex suggests that you need to incorporate certain qualities of the opposite sex. Ask yourself, how do you feel being a man or a woman? In what ways can you incorporate those feelings into your waking life.

Doormat

Dreamt Devin and I were living in an apartment and next door to us was my sister, mother and aunt. Somehow my family couldn't afford to live on their own so my sister forced Devin and I to move in with them. Being the doormat in real life that I am, I started moving our things into their apartment. I remember the apartment building was very retro looking - '70s. Orange shag carpet, dull floral sofas.. I was the only one that seemed to be moving things around and everyone else was just going about their thing. At one point I noticed my dog was near a closet in a bedroom, so I went over to the closet to pick him up. Suddenly my sister lets out this blood-curdling scream that there was a skunk near us. I looked over to the right of me, just against the wall outside of the closet was this creepy-looking (DID NOT LOOK LIKE A SKUNK, MORE LIKE A HUGE, DEMONIC, BROWN WEASEL) skunk. My dog started off towards him, but I snagged him up before he had a chance to get the skunk to spray..

Other things happened, but how long it's been since I've written down in a journal.. I just can't remember as well anymore.

Moving 

• To dream that you or someone is moving in or out of a place signifies your desire or need for change. It may also mean an end to a situation or relationship; you are moving on. Alternatively, it indicates your determination and issues regarding dependence/independence.
• To dream that you are helping someone move indicates that you are afraid of change. You are not quite ready to confront some new situation by yourself. Alternatively, to help someone move implies acceptance of some new change, even though you may not agree with it.

Skunk 

• To see a skunk in your dream suggests that you are driving people away or turning them off. Alternatively, the dream indicates that your suppressed anger is on the verge of exploding. You are not expressing your true feelings even though you do not agree with a decision.

Romance.

I couldn't remember my dream last night, but do remember it was romantic in nature and the person I was with did not look like himself.

Romance 

• To dream of romance suggests that you need to be more affectionate in your waking life. Perhaps you are longing for more romance in your personal relationship.

Sandbox.

Devin, his mom, a random old family/childhood friend, and my sister and I were going to take my daughter Scarlet to the beach. We were trying to fit everything (including one of those green, plastic turtle sandboxes) into a small car. Weren't sure if we could fit everything. I think we were at my dad's house/childhood home.

Car

• To see a parked car in your dream suggests that you need to turn your efforts and energies elsewhere. You may be needlessly spending your energy in a fruitless endeavor. Alternatively, a parked car may symbolize your need to stop and enjoy life.

Sandbox

• To see or play in a sandbox in your dream suggests that you are taking a situation too seriously. You need to lighten up and enjoy the experience. Alternatively, the dream refers to your childish or juvenile behavior.

..So, I need to stop being so serious and enjoy my life?

* Scarlet did not remember her dream last night, although did complain that her toys she thought next to her were missing.

Scarlet Dreams

Scarlet told me she dreamt that she was painting a picture of Olaf, Elsa, and Anna. She said a balloon had popped, and then she fell in water.

Painting

• To dream that you are painting a picture indicates that you need to express your creative side more.

Balloon

• To see a balloon pop in your dream  symbolizes an unrealized goal or dream. It may also represent the stresses in your life. The pressure may be starting to be too great for you to bear.

Falling

• To dream that you are free-falling through water indicates that you are feeling overwhelmed with emotions. You may feel that it is easier to give up, then to try to stay afloat or prevent yourself from going under. 

The Axman

Dreamt this morning that I was in a house that was apparently mine (but not in real life). It badly needed cleaning. I was sitting at a table in the kitchen and there was an empty container of ice cream sitting out. Suddenly it started jolting around like a mouse was in it or something. I peered in but didn't see anything and my first thought was maybe it was a ghost or something, but then my brain told me there are no such thing as ghosts, so it couldn't possibly be that. Then the container flew up into the air a short distance and I saw that a fly was carrying it. He must not have been strong enough, because it fell after a few feet. I left the kitchen and walked into this hallway that felt like my aunt's old house. I walked out into their living room (but remember: in the dream, this is my house). Devin and his dad were working on stuff like the floors or something. Some kind of construction work. This part is fuzzy, but it seems like I was in a bedroom at one point and had to leave the house and tried to avoid his dad for some reason.

Before all of this, I dreamt that I was in this really narrow concrete tunnel (at times it was just wire like a cage) and we were being chased by this man with a chainsaw or ax or something. He was outside of the tunnel waiting for us on either side to get out, sometimes reaching out at us when we got to the wired parts of the tunnel. At some point we stupidly (or maybe not -- spoiler alert) separated and I was by myself. I remember finding a small door like for a rabbit or bird cage and pushed it open and started running for dear life.... ....towards the killer. I don't know why. I thought maybe I could knock him out, I guess. Once he got a couple feet away from me I got this, "Oh, shiiit." feeling and realized this man was a lot bigger than I thought. Think 'The Rock' or Vin Diesel or something. Humongous. I went for it anyways and tried to push him over but he knocked me down instead. We were outside in a wooded area, autumn season, dead leaves, etc. When he pushed me down I had this vision of the group I was with in the tunnels with their heads cut off... and for some reason their insides looked robotic.

* The dude that had the chainsaw or ax looked just like the axman from "American Horror Story: Coven". I am pretty sure I dreamt of him because I am currently reading a book about unsolved murders and the first story is about the real man that axed a bunch of people in New Orleans back in the day.


(I miss writing down the supposed interpretations.. I've been stealing the boyfriend's laptop lately, so I may as well do this again):

Ice Cream

• To see or eat ice cream in your dream denotes good luck, pleasure, success in love and satisfaction with your life. You need to savor the moment and enjoy it.  Alternatively, the dream may suggest that you need to cool off and not let your temper get out of hand. On the other hand, the ice cream may be a pun on "I scream". Perhaps there is something that you need to let out.

Fly

• To see flies in your dream symbolize filth and dirtiness, either physical or emotional. It indicatesfeelings of guilt or a breakdown of a plan. Flies may also forewarn of a contagious sickness.Alternatively, the fly could represent an irritating and annoying person in your life. Perhaps someone does not know how to mind their business.

Ax

• To see an ax in your dream indicates that you are overly controlling. It is symbolic of destruction, hostility, and the frustrations that you are experiencing. Perhaps you "have an ax to grind" with someone. Or the dream can be a metaphor that you are ready to "bury the ax" and make amends.

Tunnel

• To see a tunnel in your dream represents the vagina, womb, and birth. Thus it may refer to a need for security and nurturance. 
  To dream that you are going through a tunnel suggests that you are exploring aspects of your subconscious. You are opening yourself to a brand new awareness. Alternatively, it indicates your limited perspective as in the phrase "tunnel vision". Are you being close minded or narrow minded in some issue?

Behead

• To dream that you or someone else is being beheaded signifies poor judgment or a bad decision that you have made and regretted. You are not thinking clearly and are refusing to see the truth. You need to confront the situation or the person despite the pain and discomfort you might feel in doing so.  The dream also suggests that you have the tendency to act before you think.

Toxic Shock

Woke up in the middle of the night to the start of a sore throat, assuming I'm going to get a cold or something. Went back to bed and dreamt I realized I had a tampon in me for who knows how long. Pulled it out immediately but was getting sick before that so I tried researching the symptoms of Toxic Shock Syndrome, worried I was just getting that all along.

I don't remember anything else in my dream after that.

Prom.

Dreamt I was still in school and there was a dance coming up that night. I was in Warrens searching for all the people I was to go there with. My aunt (apparently she was going) told me to meet her with everyone else at some ice cream shop in town. I couldn't find a few people and when I found my friend, she said she didn't want to go anymore because she didn't have a boyfriend. I told her I didn't either so it would be fine, but she still wouldn't go. I spent the rest of the night searching for everyone else. It was raining, getting darker. I was upset and pissed.

Before this I was playing with my daughter at my dad's by his pond. She had this doll house that was like little apartments. You could open small doors in the back and each apartment had something unique to play with. (A table, a bath tub, a couch, etc..) I was also hopping from one outdoor furniture to the next fearing any snakes that might be on the ground.

Waves.

Dreamt I was at a house and a woman (I think she was a mix of my friend Dana's grandma and Devin's aunt) had three jigsaw puzzles going on at three different tables. She couldn't find all the pieces to one of them. She also had a wet load of laundry just sitting on a chair, so I asked my friend for a basket so I could finish it for her. Then I dreamt that Dev's family, my sister Sarah, my dog Moses and I were in a pool at Jellystone. Everybody was jumping at once, making really tall waves, while I recorded on video. Sarah had my dog Moses and someone else, maybe Scarlet? She needed me to carry something and handed me Moses so it was easier. Woke up shortly before my alarm.

Searching For Bear And Avalanche.

Dreamt my dog Bear was still alive and that we were watching my dad's friend's dog Avalanche. We were in a house in town, although it looked like dad's house (house I grew up in). Must have been living with mom, Sarah and Erin. I saw that a door was open and my dog Bear ran out, then when I went to go after/shut the door, Avalanche escaped, too. Apparently I was pregnant. I ran after them both and eventually Erin and I were driving around town searching for them. We went into a gas station at some point and asked the cashier, no luck. We went back on the road to look for them in the residential areas. I was driving but not paying attention to the road, suddenly a cop car passes us and turns around with its lights on. Suddenly I forget how to drive, but I'm super calm. Maybe this was the future.. The cop somehow was able to get his voice to go through Erin's phone and he said something and all I answered back was that I was still out looking for my dog and hadn't found him. I pulled into a parking lot ahead of us (again, having a hard time remembering how to drive). It seems like the cop stopped me because he knew I was pregnant and was worried about me stressing out.

-- this morning (in real life) I took my temperature and it shot up (I already ovulated). This is called a triphasic pattern when your temperature shoots up twice in one cycle. I think my stupid idiotic mind is subconsciously hopeful I'm pregnant. I was pregnant last November through the end of January when we lost the baby. Around the time the baby died my dog Bear died, and I cried buckets, and was so worried I'd miscarry and did anyways.. I think my body is just on high alert this time in case maybe I am pregnant. Which I highly doubt I am, but I think subconsciously I feel I might be, maybe. Too many months of not being pregnant, I don't want to get my hopes up over a triphasic pattern on my bbt chart. (It isn't an indicator of pregnancy anyways, it can happen without being pregnant, too.) Blah.

War.

Dreamt Dev and I were fighting about everything. We were outside of a school or something and he walks up with his cousin. His cousin looks sad and Devin is acting goofy hugging him from behind. He asks me if I could explain to their family what happened to this cousin's wife. (Maybe she died, got in an accident, they never told me..) I'm about to respond and notice behind them, in the sky, are a bunch of airplanes, helicopters, etc, coming towards us. I point it out to them and we notice flares of light shooting out of these things, coming at us. Just before the fire comes at us, we get inside the school. We peek back outside and most of the planes and helicopters are already on the ground. We started weaving back and forth from building to outside to buildings again, trying to hide but escape the school. We walked into a building with bathrooms and hope to escape through the windows when I awoke.

Before all of this I slightly remember walking around in "my house" (definitely wasn't my house though, way bigger/different) in the dark. The house was a mess, like a hoarder's house.. I'm walking past a window and I notice a shadowy figure and it scares me. Suddenly it walks closer to the window so the light hits their face, and I see that it's my aunt. She tells me I need to wake up my mom immediately, something happened. I run upstairs trying to figure out where my mom is sleeping and finally find her. When I tell her what's going on, she is hard to wake up but eventually does.