Late July 2009 - When Soulmates Meet.

Forgot my dream, here's one from Late July 2009. (seriously, I wrote "late July", I'm forgetful like that) So in a way, this dream took place almost a year ago to the day.


Dreamt I was in this different dimension of sorts.. Ville Valo was teaching me and a couple of others how to create storms. The atmosphere was thick with purple fog and pink sky.. Colors mingling.. We all had our own sections of worlds, though.. (I forgot to mention that before this, I was alive and Ville wasn't, and I died from a bee sting that made me swollen all over and eventually found Ville..) Anyways, we were creating our own storms and I couldn't even make a storm cloud and neither could anyone else he was teaching.. Suddenly a tornado formed from what we were all trying to create, and it broke through everyone's worlds, merging everything.. I didn't know where to go to be safe, but eventually found a place to hide while the tornado ran amok. After the tornado finished it's course, I was in this dark hallway with Ville and we were both hearing this loud ticking sound inside the walls. We searched everywhere for where it was coming from, and he was really excited about looking.. We ripped apart the walls and finally he found what it was.. When he found it, he disappeared, and I was back outside. I saw this big marble on the ground and picked it up. An old woman with long white hair came up to me and, while I was peering into it, she told me that marbles appear every time soul mates meet in a lifetime.

Sky

• If you dream of a colorful sky in your dream, then it denotes romance.

• Pink

• Pink represents love, joy, sweetness, happiness, affection and kindness. Being in love or healing through love is also implied with this color. Alternatively, the color implies immaturity or weakness, especially when it comes to love.

Fog

• To dream that you are going through a thick fog, symbolizes confusion, troubles, scandal, uncertainty and worries. You may not be seeing things the way they really are. You may have lost your sense of direction in life. Alternatively, a fog represents mystery, secrecy and protection.

• Purple

• Purple is indicative of devotion, healing abilities, loving, kindness, and compassion. It is also the color of royalty, high rank, justice, wealth and dignity.

Unknown

• To dream that you are in a strange, unknown or foreign place, represents change in your life. Consider how you feel about the surrounding. If you are afraid or lost, then it indicates that you are not ready for the change. You are not ready to leave the past behind. If you are excited or happy in this unknown place, then it suggests that you are ready for change.

Storm

• To see a storm in your dream, signifies some overwhelming struggle, shock, loss or catastrophe in your waking life. The storm also represents unexpressed fears or emotions, such as anger, rage, turmoil, etc. On a more positive note, the storm symbolizes your rising spirituality. It may signal rapid changes ahead for you. To dream that you take cover in a storm, foretells that whatever disturbance or problems is occurring in your life will quickly blow over. Consider also the phrase "weather the storm", which refers to your ability and strength to withstand whatever comes.

Tornado

• To see several tornadoes in your dream, represent people around you who are prone to violent outbursts and shifting mood swings. It may also symbolize a volatile situation or relationship.

Hallway

• To see a hallway in your dream, symbolizes self exploration. It is the beginning of the path that you are taking in life. You are going through a transitional phase and journeying into the unknown. It also signals spiritual enlightenment, emotional growth physical prowess, new opportunities and mental passages in your life.

Search

• To dream that you are searching for something, signifies the need to find something that is missing or needed in your life. The dream may be analogous to your search for love, spiritual enlightenment, peace or even a solution to a problem.

• Soul

• To dream that you have a lack of soul or no soul, suggests that you are feeling spiritually lost. You need to find yourself and find what will makes you feel whole as a person.

Soulmate

• If it's a real person, it may be expressing feelings you've repressed or even expressed about them. Or, that person could actually be your soulmate. But it's more likely that the person you see isn't. As your soulmate is the person who fits you perfectly, and dream people are symbols of yourself, then the person you're seeing as a soulmate is in fact simply another side of yourself. What you can use this dream for is to work out what's missing in your emotional life. If you have a vision of your soulmate, it's showing you the qualities you need to become a whole and emotionally strong person.

4/24/02 - Nicknacks.

Forgot my last dream, here's an old one on my dad's birthday, too. I was just thinking about this dream a few days ago..


4/24/02


"I had the second worst dream ever. It started out with me and Heather in a church. Heather saw these nicknacks and picked one up, and was telling me it looked dumb. I kind of agreed, thinking it was pretty silly. We walked out of the church and came to my parent's garage, the door was open. There was a picnic table with a plate of hamburgers laid atop it. I remember seeing this girl I knew and I "wished" her to become a hamburger because I hated her. So she turned into one and was on the plate with the rest of them. Another guy I knew that I grew up with came up and was about to grab 'her', but I stopped him. Anyways, somehow I got into a really dark auditorium, and these teenagers were telling me to turn a light on. I do, but it's a small light, though sufficient. A teacher comes up on stage and he looks like my dad. The teacher started yelling at me, and at first I thought it was because I turned the light on, then I thought it was because I turned someone into a hamburger.. He tells me it's because another boy I grew up with, Brandon, was in an accident, and that the accident had alcohol involved.. And that somehow I was at fault. They did tests to see if I was involved as well. but I magically get teleported in front of this clothes line by the pond. I'm walking on a road with people walking towards me. I remember seeing all these people really dressed elegant-like. One old classmate was wearing this ugly blue dress, and another was wearing a prettier dark pink dress with the sleeves flared out and tied to the rest of the dress. I passed a few people who criticized me for my religion. I also heard someone say "Hi, Alyssa!" and they had passed me and was in a crowd of people, so I had to jump up to find it was my best friend from elementary school.. I go to walk again in the same direction as before, with everyone else walking the opposite way (towards me) and I see my mom. I try to catch up to her but my feet started to act like lead. Like they were anchors or something. So I tried to run and it got worse. I got even slower. So I tried to push myself from anything nearby and pull myself closer with other objects.. It worked, but it was a long process. Mom starts to leave but stops behind this building. I go into the building and it's this big building with little houses inside. I can see windows and doors, etc, inside the building. I look into one of the windows and I see this old man laying in a coffin. I somehow expected to see the girl I turned into a hamburger in a coffin as well, which is morbid, but she must have been still alive or something.. I go back to the church I was in at first and I notice this child with a scarred face is following me. I turn around to find mom but I notice the nicknack I saw in the beginning. I started crying really hard when I picked it up to look at it. I realized then that this nicknack belonged to the old man that died. I felt horrible for making fun of his nicknack when he had just died, and I had known nothing about him. I was also crying because I felt bad for what I did to that girl that turned into the hamburger. "

Hamburger

• To see or eat a hamburger in your dream, suggests that you are lacking some emotional, intellectual, or physical component in order to feel whole again. You may be feeling unsatisfied with some situation or relationship. It is also symbolic of your experiences and how you need to learn from them. Look at the big picture.

Dress

• To see or wear a dress in your dream, represents a feminine outlook or feminine perspective on a situation. You are freely expressing your femininity. If you are a man and dream that you are wearing a dress, suggests that others are questioning your sexuality. Or that you are feeling sexually insecure.

• Blue

• Blue represents truth, wisdom, heaven, eternity, devotion, tranquility, loyalty and openness.

• Fuchsia

• The color fuchsia represents mediation and your connection to your spirituality. You are letting go of old attitudes and welcoming a new change. This color is also associated with emotional stability.

Legs

• If your legs are weak, then you may be feeling emotionally vulnerable.

Coffin

• To see a body in a coffin in your dream, signifies that you are going through a period of depression. You may feel confined, restricted and that you are lacking personal freedom. There may be a dead or decaying situation or issue in your life that you need to address. It is time to end this situation or relationship.

7/29/10 - Terrible Friends.

I'm at the house I grew up in, outside. I'm hanging out with the kids I grew up with. My sister, Heather, Chelsey, Caleb, maybe a few others that were just strangers playing parts of friends. And just like while I was growing up, they're all ignoring me, pretending like everything I say they cannot hear. I get angry, upset. I walk into the house and see my mom is laying on the couch, watching a Freddy Krueger movie.. It is set in the desert, and there is a cowboy in the scene. I try to tell Mom how they were treating me, but the TV was kind of loud, so I turned the volume down but instead I changed the channel by accident. I fix it. I take my boots off and while doing so, the kids come in. I walk over to Chelsey and I yell at her for being a terrible friend. Then I go over to this other girl, one of the strangers, and tell her that it's no wonder she's visiting us all at my house, and that she doesn't have friends of her own, because she won't 'shut the fuck up about her boring self'. After yelling at the two, I suddenly wake up.

Ignore

• To dream that you are ignoring someone or being ignored, represents some aspect of yourself which you are not paying enough attention to. Perhaps you are overlooking something. Alternatively, it may reflect your real waking experiences of being ignored by that person.

Movie

• To dream that you are watching a movie, suggests that you are watching life pass you by. Perhaps you are living vicariously through the actions of others. Consider also how the movie parallels to situations in your waking life. Observe how the characters relate to you and how they may represent an aspect of yourself.

• Freddy Krueger

• To see Freddy Krueger in your dream, represents your fears and the rejected aspects of yourself. You are refusing to acknowledge those negative parts. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are desperate to get a grasp of a problem or situation. Dreaming of Freddy Krueger also implies that you are feeling neglected.

Yelling

• To dream that you or someone is yelling, represents repressed anger that needs to be expressed.

7/28/10 - Tornado!

I'm on my childhood property, at the pond. ((This is weird, because today I went down to the pond to drive my dad there so he could mow it and see it again)). In the dream, I'm with a bunch of people. A lot of my dad's family is there, and other people, some I don't know.. I'm fighting with most of them, not getting along.. Well, they're fighting with me, they don't approve of me or something. For some reason there is a TV attached to a tree and we look at it and see that a big storm is coming our way. What's interesting is that I remember the storm was coming to at a southeasterly angle, and usually they go northeast. Right over our area was a bright red cloud on the TV, so we all started running for the house. I was also looking at a map of the area with my sister, and in real life I actually was looking at a map of Wisconsin the night before, so I must have dreamt that part because of her. There were probably fifty people at the pond, so we were all trying to run through the woods to get to shelter. We knew a tornado was coming. When we get to the porch, there is a table with food and I don't know why, but I remember making a plate for my dad so that he'd have something to eat while waiting in the basement. Dad and some woman (that looked like Amy Sedaris when she played in Strangers With Candy) were the only ones there, and this Amy look-a-like was sitting on a bench eating as well.. I sit next to "Amy" and tell her she can come down to my basement. I also tell Dad that he, Mom, Sarah, Joran and his family can all go down to the basement as well. I meant at my house, which is a half-hour away from where we were, but at the time I didn't seem to realize the distance it would take to get there. Dad tells me he doesn't want to run anymore, that the tornado will be here soon. I tell him we don't have to run, and I walk to this door that is against one of the porch walls and I open the door. I show him that it is a secret passageway to my basement. (It seems like a transporting system, because it opens up right at the bottom of the stairs, right where you'd step to get to the floor from the stairs). He heads down and I wait for the rest of my family to show up so that I can tell them where the shelter is.

xx I woke up, wrote that, then fell back asleep... xx


I dreamt that the radio was on beside my bed (it really was, outside of my dream..) The song Don't Let Me Go by The Fray was on the radio, and in my dream I abhorred the song, so I tried to change the station, but it was on every station.


xx I woke up again, and tried to fall asleep, but as I was doing so, I was still quite awake but in a state of dreaming. I pictured very clearly myself sitting down against a white wall and yelling that everything was way too real, that I wasn't dreaming. That completely woke me up, so I wrote that down. Finally I fell asleep. xx


I dreamt again about the tornado coming. I was at my Aunt's, and we were getting a car my mom used to drive and we drove it to where I used to live growing up. (My aunt and parents lived next door to each other). People got into the car (Mom, Dad and maybe Sarah and Joran), and I saw about fifteen kittens crawling around by my feet and I could NOT leave them for the tornado to kill, so I tried to collect them and get them in the car. There were also three adult cats and one dog I had to save, but all the animals kept piling out every time I would put one in. All the while, my family waited surprisingly patient in the car for me to get them all in. I ended up waking up before I got them all in.





Fighting

• To dream that you are in a fight, indicates inner turmoil. Some aspect of yourself is in conflict with another aspect of yourself. Perhaps an unresolved or unacknowledged part is fighting for its right to be heard. It may also parallel a fight or struggle that you are going through in your waking life.

Storm

• To dream that you take cover in a storm, foretells that whatever disturbance or problems is occurring in your life will quickly blow over. Consider also the phrase "weather the storm", which refers to your ability and strength to withstand whatever comes.

Potato Chips

• To see or eat potato chips in your dream, symbolizes your overindulgent behavior. Perhaps you need to exercise more self control.

Basement

• The appearance of the basement is an indication of your unconscious state of mind and level of satisfaction. It represents primal urges, animalistic desires and basic needs.

7/27/10 - I Really Needed Rollerskates.

I'm in a park with Devin's family and we have my dog Moses and Cherish's dog Casey there with us. Devin's dad is further away and yells to us that there are three angry rottweilers coming towards our direction and that we should grab our dogs so that they're safe. I start looking for Moses and notice he's wearing this raincoat-like material. The hood looks a lot like what Dark Helmet wears in Spaceballs. It's such a heavy hood that he has troubles getting to me in time, but eventually I have him in my arms. We yell for Casey, but she sees the dogs and seems to like them, and she eventually runs off with them and out of sight. Suddenly the park turns into this huge roller derby-looking building. There are gradual wooden slides that interweave into each other almost like a maze. The floor waves and goes around in circles, etc.. Like a cinnamon roll, if that makes sense. I don't have rollerskates on, but everyone else does, so they start skating around trying to find Casey while I'm sliding with my feet having problems catching up. There are also skateboarders coming towards me, so I'm trying to stay out of their way as well. I finally get down one of these 'slide' things, and I end up in this Target-like store. I ask the cashier, an older, bigger lady, if she has seen Casey and she says no, so I then ask if she sells rollerskates.

Then I woke up.

Rottweiler

• To see a rottweiler in your dream, symbolizes confidence, protection, and courage. If the rottweiler is growling, then it indicates that you are experiencing some inner conflict. There is something that you are afraid to confront.

Skating

• To dream that are skating, symbolizes your ability to maintain a balance in your life. You are progressing through your life's path and working toward your goal. Alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor that you are "skating" over some matter. In other words, you are just getting by. Perhaps you are tying to avoid some issue or not devoting enough attention to a problem.

Department Store

• To dream that you are in a department store, suggests that you are trying to fulfill your needs and desires. Consider the significance of what you are shopping for and how you may be lacking that item in your life.

7/26/2010 - Competition.

I'm in this big tent. I'm dating Tegan Quin. She's dating someone else at first, though.. She goes outside to call this person.. I'm in this tent still, sifting through pictures. Then Tegan comes back in from making her phone call and kisses me as if she wasn't dating someone else and it was with me this whole time.

xx


Devin and I work together. We are in a lunchroom, competing for some girl's attention. Either a famous crush, or a townie crush.. I'm drinking coffee and it's 2/3s gone. Cold. I push it away and notice Devin is going to win the girl's heart.

xx


Dreamt I awoke. I grabbed for the glass of ice water I keep by my side of the bed, but notice that soda is there. I go for the soda instead. After actually awaking, I think that the dream is so real that I had to check my nightstand for a glass of soda just to be sure..

7/25/10 - Riding Bikes and Feeling Guilty.

I'm in Mather, WI (where my mother grew up). I am riding bike with this group of people. A lot of kids in my elementary class that lived near Mather are riding bike with me. There are only about five or six of us riding bike. Anyways, we're all in a line. I'm second, behind this guy that seems to be in command. He tells us to stop and I stop perfectly behind him, with maybe three feet between us, but the others behind stop harshly, hitting me from the back and colliding into each other. The weather looks really bad, too. The clouds are low and heavy, like a tornado will jut out at any time. I think to myself how lucky I am to live in Oakdale, where no tornados ever appear.


Then I'm in Sportsman's Bar, where my sister Sarah works. I have a bunch of things with me (is this an interpretation as me having "too much baggage"? I notice I'm always carrying so much stuff that are too much at times..). Devin has to work in the morning, so I start grabbing my things to head out the door, but my sister gets mad at me for leaving.



--- In reality, the night before, I was at my mother's (my sister lives with her, and their apartment is above the bar), and I was leaving to go home since Devin worked that morning. We were heading out of the parking lot when Sarah stopped us and tried to chat a bit, but we were in a hurry to leave so I had to cut her short (hehe, no pun intended - she's a shorty). I remember getting into the car and thinking "She's probably pissed at me for leaving without saying much to her.." I felt awful, but I knew Devin wanted to go home. Anyways, maybe that part was just my guilty subconscious.

7/24/10 - Making All Kinds Of Nonsense.

Well, it's late and I forgot to write this one down. Anyways, I was half asleep and scribbled this this morning, so don't ask what I meant.




"Bodyguard for something. Using jeep (? jun? jen?) as a different car {? us?). Mopping floor. Messy house. Devin buys clamps for car part. Dating some girl. School. Sarah at bar. Nachos. In car, cops peeping."



Yeah, I was totes half-asleep.

7/23/10 - Toot Toot!

Sorry for the past-tense, present-tense switches I do. I wrote this at points word-for-word out of my journal, which is in present tense. Though I also edited the story to make sense out of some of the things I wrote that were nonsense, so that was in past-tense.


Dreamt:

I'm in a hallway.. I'm with a group of people.. My stomach makes a growling noise, and someone mistakes it for gas, ha ha ha. Sooo funny. Not. Anyways, they ask if I was the one that did it, and for some reason I say "Toot toot!" and pull an invisible cord acting as a train whistle. I must be just as much of a weirdo in my dreams as I am in person. That's all I can think of. I leave the hallway, as if I was in an airport or something, waiting to get on a plane. I finally get in the plane, but it's tiny. It's got one seat the size of a back seat in a car, and there is one other person with me on the plane. She's an old childhood friend of mine. She puts her seat belt on, but for some reason I don't have time to get mine on and we're starting off. We're flying above Vancouver, it's barely morning, dark still.. Lit up buildings.. The plane starts to flip around, and I start to fall out of the chair, etc, so I grab my seat belt and hold on while we go upside down for a second. I'm dangling from the seat belt, holding on for dear life. When we get back to the normal position, I quickly fasten my seat belt before we flipped again and again. Then I wake up, but I'm still dreaming. I'm in a city, in the back of a truck, I'm Derek (Brian Austin Green), from Sarah Connor Chronicles. Then I turn into myself at some point and I'm looking for clothes to wear, because apparently my sister and I are back in high school or something...

Dream takes a different turn, don't remember how.

In car. Devin & me talking about stuff. Driving down a road in woods. We got out of the car and started walking towards a town. All the buildings were rotted and looked as if they were bulldozed or something. It was just cement foundation and styrofoam acting as walls. A bunch of homely-looking cats were eating the styrofoam. Styrofoam is stained red, like blood. House is not there, though. Just an inch of the walls left, eaten away. There is a decrepit, shaved cat eating at the bloody styrofoam. I want to turn around and go another way, because the cat scares me. It looks diseased and I feel bad for it. We go back to our car, which is parked back in the woods.. As we get near the car, two men are trying to steal the car. I get towards passenger's side and try to push the guy in the driver's seat out. I wake up, but I'm still dreaming. In my dream, I start to write down what I dreamt, but I grab a book instead. It's the book Girl Interrupted. Magically, the blonde with the anorexia problem in the film appears with another girl next to her. I notice the blonde is wearing a really tight, bright teal shirt. Let's just say the room must have been cold.



Ironically, I have a really strange interpretation for the cat scene... You just don't want to hear it, trust me.



Helicopter

• To dream that you are in a helicopter, indicates that you are living beyond your means. You need to slow down and not try to please everyone. Alternatively, you may be experiencing a higher level of consciousness, new-found freedom and greater awareness.

• Upside Down

• To dream that you are upside down, suggests that there is some situation or problem in your waking life that you need to straighten you. It may also mean that your initial assumptions were completely opposite of what you thought.

Wall

• To dream that a house has no walls, represents a lack of privacy. You feel that everyone is looking over your shoulder or up in your business.

• Blood

• To see blood in your dream, represents life, love, and passion as well as disappointments.

Cat

• If you are afraid of the cat in your dream, then it suggests that you are fearful of the feminine.

7/22/10 - Dad Is Pissed.

Devin and I were standing on a street in Tomah. Two kids, both boys, come over with their dad marveling at the teal Mustang that we own. They ask to take a ride in it. We allowed. So Devin is driving me, this father, and his two kids. We start heading for Minnesota and the family is replaced by my dad. He's in the back seat all chipper to go visit his dad in Minnesota, and we drop him off eventually. When we get to Mom's, we find her drunk, half asleep on her mattress and half-naked too, thankfully she had a sheet over her though. She is on the phone with Dad, yelling at us about why we didn't bring Dad back with us. I am so embarrassed immensely with her intoxication and nudity, that I tell Devin to go into a different room. Then I tell Mom that we'll pick up dad, even though he didn't tell us to pick him up right away or anything. (Dad really was mad, and he really did want to come back home.) Mom tells Dad that we'll head back right away, but he says "Forget it," and hangs up. Then I woke up.

Driving

• To dream that you are driving a vehicle, signifies your life's journey and your path in life. The dream is telling of how you are moving and navigating through life.

Telephone

• To dream that you are having a telephone conversation with someone your know, signifies an issue that you need to confront with that person. This issue may have to do with letting go some part of yourself.

7/21/10 - Money For Pop.

Sarah and I are going to high school again and we were at our old house looking around for quarters in every room of the house. We're looking for them so that we can buy pop at the cafeteria. For my lunch, I grab Lays potato chips and chocolate chip cookies. I still live with Devin, but Devin went to work. I decided to go to school because I was 'bored' without Devin there. I looked around for my Blessid Union Of Souls CD, but couldn't find it. I wanted it so I could play it on the bus on the way there. I gave up after awhile, I couldn't find it. Still looking for change, I noticed Mom had a pile of it on this entertainment center. She was counting out what she had, but said it was for a pack of cigarettes, so I felt bad asking for some, and she didn't offer me any anyways. Sarah found money but I still had no luck. Eventually I said, "Nevermind, I'm not going to school. I shouldn't be in school anyway." Sarah didn't understand what I meant, so I explained that I was too old, and had graduated years ago. I told her the year I graduated, and she finally remembered.

School

• To dream that you are in school, signifies feelings of inadequacy and childhood insecurities that have never been resolved. It may relate to anxieties about your performance and abilities. If you are still in school and dream about school, then the dream may just be a reflection of your daily life and has no special significance.

Money

• To dream that you have no money, indicates a fear of losing your place in the world. You are lacking the abilities needed to achieve some desired goal. If you are borrowing money in your dream, then it suggests that you are overextending your resources. You are spreading yourself too thin.

7/20/10 - Robots and Weddings.

Wrote this down a little bit half-asleep:


"Wore this black/red thing. I was in the Shell Travel Mart (where my uncle worked once), trying this thing on. It was a black leather tube top, a red velvet cape thing, a red velvet skirt and black leather leggings. I remember looking at myself in a mirror, and noticed my legs were peeling (IN REAL LIFE, MY FEET ARE PEELING BECAUSE I GOT POISON IVY ON THEM; When I was changing (still in real life), I was actually surprised that my legs weren't peeling. I thought my legs really were peeling, it never occured to me I just dreamt it.) I didn't like the way the outfit looked at ALL in the mirror, but my sister told me I had to wear it in a wedding. There was a huge box in the middle of the gas station, and there were costumes in it. Suddenly this human-sized Alf costume comes to life and walks away from out of the box. The bad robot "Cromartie" (from Sarah Connor Chronicles (played by Garret Dillahunt) was inside the Alf costume. Sarah told me to hurry, because I was supposed to be in a wedding for some friend. I didn't want to wear this costume down the aisle, so I changed into a grey tuxedo. I then turned into this man. Then I walked down this aisle.. I must have been the 'best man', because I went down first, and then a black guy came down after me, also in a grey tux. I just now realize how ridiculous it was to have the groomsmen walk down the aisle - usually the brides do. Still, though, because I wore the tux and not the other red/black outfit, all the people on the pews were upset because of what I wore."

Peel

• To dream that you are peeling something, represents the shedding away of old ways, habits and conditions. It may also mean that you are finally getting rid of and discarding unneeded exterior pretenses.

Wedding

• To see a wedding in your dream, symbolizes a new beginning or transition in your current life. A wedding reflects your issues about commitment and independence.

Transsexual

• To dream that you are transsexual, symbolizes your anxieties or ambivalence about masculine/feminine roles or passive/aggressive behavior.

7/19/10 - I'm A Robot.

Another reason I might be watching too much Sarah Connor Chronicles right now...

- I dreamt I was a robot, imitating a human.. I wasn't one of the metallic robots. I had the flesh, muscles, etc. I was me, just a robot, too. A robot that was trying to understand how to move the human body. How to brush my hair back with my hand or walk..

Robot

• To see a robot in your dream, indicates that you are going about life in a mechanical, methodical and rigid way. You have lost the ability to express your feelings. Alternatively, a robot symbolize the way you view your working life.

7/18/10 - Interviewing Hanson.

- Woke up early, wrote this:

"Walking around. Flooded fields except on road. [Squiggle mark I can't make out - "I'm"?] this kid, walking, looking for something. There were tents (or booths) up near flooded fields. Like Cranfest (my hometown's festival every year on the last weekend of September). Britney Spears music playing in one booth, I go to it and look at one of her CDs. Went to another booth and looked through a bag of clothing. Then to another tent. I was a ghost of some sort, watching a man and woman kissing and walking into the tent as well. They couldn't see me. The woman had long blond hair and was wearing a bright pink belly dancing outfit. She excused herself and went into another room inside of this huge tent. Then I transported to the room she was in. She took her bra off and exposed her breasts, then she touched herself and sucked her hands and touched herself lower down. Then she called for the man. Then I transport back to the room the man is in and he walked around trying to find the woman. He sees another woman, this one with chin-length curly black hair and wearing a red belly dancing outfit, exit a room. She tells the man that the woman is inside waiting for him. Then I started hearing dogs barking, but when I woke up (I actually woke up), I couldn't hear any of the dogs actually barking. I even went downstairs to check on them, and they were all sleeping, so the barking was just in my dream."

Fell asleep again, then woke up to write this one:


- "Dreamt that Cranfest was happening still, and I was walking around looking at all the booths. I was wearing these purple high-heels and could go en pointe à la ballerina. I'd keep doing this position once in awhile. Anyways, at some point I saw my aunt Erin walking around and someone was with me and I said something about the fact that Erin almost always buys some sort of dessert at Cranfest on the last day (which it apparently was), so I walked up to her hoping to get food, but she told me she was helping to take the decorations and orange plastic fencing down, etc, and asked if I wanted to help, so I did. But my Aunt and Uncle didn't want me to help, someone nearby asked if my aunt and uncle were "a part of my congregation", and I answered them that "it's because I'm not a Christian." Or something like that. At some point, though, the town turned into a marketplace, similar to Burnstead's, and I was looking at these tabloids. The band Hanson was on the cover, and the word "penniless" was written in big, white writing across their picture. All of a sudden I became a TV show host, and knew that the band was in the store waiting for me to interview them about it. I found them and we went to this bed that was unmade, and the pillows were in a circle around the bed. We all sat on a pillow and I talked to them a bit about them being gipped out of their money. At one point I joked around with them about the length of their hair, and that it was no wonder I liked them so long ago, since I like women so much. They laughed, but not really politely to that joke. They disappeared after awhile and the bed turned into a circular wooden deck, the pillows became an extra, higher step of the deck. Alan Rickman was on the deck and it became apparent that it was his deck. He showed me that his deck was ruined once, and screwed off the higher part of the deck, and water poured out of it. He said the water ruined the deck, and he had to fix it. (It was fixed now, apparently.) "






Masturbation

• To see others masturbating in your dreams, denotes your anxieties and concerns about your inhibitions. It may also be a reflection that something in your waking life is not as satisfying as it could be. Keep in mind that this dream may not necessarily represent sexual inhibitions or satisfaction, but may be analogous to some situation or relationship.

Ballet

• To see or wear ballet slippers in your dream, represents your understanding of the principles of balance and grace. You carry yourself with much poise and get along well with others.

Tabloids

• To read the tabloids in your dream, suggests some sensational situation or gossip.

Interview

• To dream that you are at an interview, denotes your anxiety over being judged by others. You may be experiencing some dissatisfaction with some aspect of yourself.

7/17/10 - Glasses.

I was in my grandmother's old house. There were piles of clothes everywhere. Could barely see floor. Also, I put on glasses again. They went from normal to sunglasses... But not like the real ones that change when you step into sunlight. These just transformed at some point and when I took them off they were your regular, 80's-90's style glasses. Like what Arnold Schwarzenegger wears in Terminator 2: Judgment Day.

Eyeglasses

• To dream that you are wearing eyeglasses and you do not normally wear them, suggests that you need a clearer view on a situation. There may have been a misunderstanding or a situation was misperceived and needs to be clarified.

Sunglasses

• To dream that you are wearing sunglasses, indicates your poor perception of some issue. You tend to be pessimistic and see the dark or negative side of things. Perhaps you don't want to see or be seen.

7/16/10 - This One Is Confusing.

This one is confusing. I wrote this one half asleep. I cannot read the first word even.

It looks like.. "unwholing" or "urwhealing"

And then: "Dated T. Picture of her as teen w/ blond hair."


I also remember at one point being in a store, and I tried on this hat and these awesome glasses. I wore them for a few minutes until I realized that they were stuck together. They were able to be fastened together, and the hat which at first was a fedora turned into a black helmet of some sort, and the glasses turned into weird black plastic goggles. It looked ugly, so I set them back on the shelf.

Date

• To dream that you are on a date, represents your need for self-discovery and self-awareness. You are getting to know some hidden aspects of yourself and acknowledging your hidden talents. Alternatively, it may reflect your anxieties about dating or finding acceptance. The dream may also be a "rehearsal" for an actual date you have. It serves to overcome anxieties you may have.

Goggles

• To see or wear goggles in your dream, suggest that you are trying to protect yourself from emotional harm. Perhaps you need to confront something in your waking like that you know is hurting you.

Helmet

• To see a helmet in your dream, symbolizes protection. It also indicates that you need to keep your thoughts and ideas closely guarded.

7/15/10 - Vampire Theater and Johnny Depp Golfing.

Saw Niki (sister's old friend.. why have I been dreaming about her lately? Haven't seen her in ages.) working in theater that acts like vampires work there. You have to move slow. Creep. Sarah, Joran, Devin, his family, and I were there. At one point people were laughing at me. I yelled, "What?" Because I didn't know why they were laughing at me. Eventually, they said that Devin's parents lied about not looking like I was 100 years old. I was fuming. I called Erin, my aunt, and for some reason I thought it was mom's fault that I looked old (I don't in real life. I look half my age). Anyways, my aunt said to me over the phone that Mom "had some green on her" (this meant pot). Also: Johnny Depp and some other actor that I hate were playing golf. Devin was flirting with his cousin Al's girlfriend, and Moses (my dog) needed to be watched while I was in the theater. Theater was my old house I grew up in. Looked like my old closet that was shared by two of the rooms in the house.

Vampire

• To dream that you are a vampire, signifies that you are sucking in the life energy of others for your own selfish benefit.

Marijuana

• To see or smell marijuana in your dream, suggests that you are experiencing an expanded sense of awareness and consciousness. You need to take advantage and draw insight from this new consciousness. The dream may also mean that you need to look on your inner strength for stimulation instead of relying on outside forces.

7/14/10 - Dead Animals, Dead People.

I've been camping this week.. So I've written in my journal all these dreams I had, and I screwed up the dates on some, so I'll try to get them right. I believe I had two dreams on the fourteenth.


- Niki (sister's old high school friend) died. Fell from ladder that was high up. It was in the shape of an upside down V. Then this guy gave me a guitar, and I accidentally broke a window and a glass. I must have been at this guy's house, because my boyfriend, his sister and their dad were all mad at me for breaking everything. Accidental or not. They made me leave, and wouldn't let me keep the guitar. I cried, grabbed a wad of money and started pulling out 20s, 50s.. I begged the guy to take the money, to pay for the damages. He took the money but everyone was still pissed at me.



- Animals in a field. Pokey-looking boar. Porcupine-like. Dog/fox with ribs sticking out of flesh. I remember Sara Quin was in this dream, too. Also, I had a camera and was taking a picture of a family and a ghost Niki was in it, following around her ex-boyfriend Ben. I remember explaining what happened to her (why she was a ghost) to Sara.

Break

• To dream that you break something, indicates that changes are ahead for you. You need to "break" away from some situation and change the direction that your life is headed in. Alternatively, to break something suggests that you need to take things slower as in "take a break". Or the dream may be a pun on being broke. Are money matters weighing on your mind?

Money

• To give or spend money in your dream, is analogous to giving love. You are looking for love.

Ghost

• To see the ghost of a living relative or friend in your dream, signifies that you are in danger of malice acts by that person.

Bones

• To see bones in your dream, represent the discovery of your personal, family, or cultural secrets. It is also symbolic of your underlying strengths that you have not yet recognized.

7/13/10 - School Rooms.

- Dreamt I was in school. School had a room for each student.

Student

• To dream that you are a student, indicates that you need better understanding of something. There is some learning you need to do in order to get ahead in life. If you are a student in real life, then the dream may just be a reflection of who you are and bear no significance.

Classroom

• To dream that you are in a classroom, indicates that you are learning an important life lesson. Alternatively, it symbolizes personal growth. You are learning something about yourself.

7/12/10 - I've Been Watching Too Much Sarah Connor Chronicles.

Dreamt : Peeping on a man with binoculars. I go downstairs. A woman and a man (I'm the man) go outside where this big group of people are.. Then this silver pipe appears out of nowhere and robots come from there.

Binoculars

• To dream that you are looking through a pair of binoculars, suggests that you need to take a long and close look at a situation. You need to carefully evaluate your choices and decision.

Robot

• To see a robot in your dream, indicates that you are going about life in a mechanical, methodical and rigid way. You have lost the ability to express your feelings. Alternatively, a robot symbolize the way you view your working life.

7/11/10 - Ice cream, dogs, hiding, victims.

This one is in pieces and pieces.

First: I remember being at this real elegant party. I was drinking champagne and wearing the dress I wore in Heather's wedding. For some reason though, at this party, anytime a glass is empty, you have to dance with someone. I looked down and noticed it was empty and thought how much I really didn't want to dance, so I woke up.

Same night, different dream: This is the one in pieces. I remember a lot, just not which order or any details.


I was at my aunt's home, she lived next door to where my parents did growing up. There was this ice cream machine in the house, and I grabbed this big bowl and filled it with strawberry ice cream, and topped it off with chocolate ice cream. My sister and some guy was there, and my sister and I left with our ice cream to go home, and the guy said he'd follow as soon as he was done. Back at where my parents lived, my sister and I chatted a bit and I kept thinking that because I couldn't see her dog Romeo at all, that he must have died. I kept thinking she was covering it up, that she didn't want to believe he died. I even accused her of lying when she said he was fine. Of course I had to look like an ass, because eventually he came out from behind a chair. Anyways, I noticed that guy never came back from getting ice cream, so I walked over real quiet-like. I hid behind trees even. I don't know why.

Then it changed drastically... I was this psychic that could transport into certain bodies and find victims of this certain killer that was on the loose. First, I was this guy, and all I remember telling the cop was that he was badly hurt. He needed medical attention badly, fast. He was on the floor covered in blood. Then I was this high school girl and she was in this robe sitting on a sink. She had cuts all over her. I don't know how I knew it, because nobody said anything, but I knew that this woman that was dabbing her with alcohol swabs was her teacher. They were in love. The teacher lasted awhile trying to clean the cuts on her chest, touching her breasts. Then I was this autistic teenage boy, and he was excitedly talking to this group of kids about something. He was really really happy. I woke up while he was talking.




Marriage

• To dream of a marriage, signifies commitment, harmony or transitions. You are undergoing an important developmental phase in your life. The dream may also represent the unification of formerly separate or opposite aspects of yourself.

Wine Glass

• To see a wine glass in your dream, represents happiness. It may also be symbolic of a pregnancy. If you break the wine glass, then it may denote a miscarriage.

Ice Cream

• To see or eat ice cream in your dream, denotes good luck, pleasure, success in love and satisfaction with your life. You need to savor the moment and enjoy it. Alternatively, the dream may suggest that you need to cool off and not let your temper get out of hand.

Teacher

• To see your teacher (past or present) in your dream, suggests that you are seeking some advice, guidance, or knowledge. You are heading into a new path in life and are ready to learn by example or from a past experience. Consider your own personal experiences with that particular teacher. What subject was taught? Alternatively, a teacher relates to issues with authority and seeking approval. You may be going through a situation in your waking life where you feel that you are being treated like a student or in which you feel you are being put to a test.

3/3/08 - Electrocution.

I could have sworn I wrote down my dream on 7/10/10, but I can't find any writings about it. So I'll go through one of my journals again.. Here's one from March 3, 2008. Here's the entry:


"... But anyways, two consecutive nights before that one, I had these strange dreams. We'll start with the first night. I remember being at the pond on the property I grew up on, and getting into this tiny submarine. The submarine was filled with water, though I wasn't having problems breathing underwater or anything. Then I knew I had to do this, but was also thinking "no freaking way" in my head, but I started testing these electrical currents by hitting buttons on the 'dashboard'. These currents kept zapping me in the chest like those defibrillator paddles do when being resuscitated. I woke up after about three shocks. The second night, I had a dream inside of another dream. First, I remember being in this beaten down wooden house. Rain was coming in through the practically bare roof. Then I got hit by lightning. Then I woke up (still dreaming) and our dog Tuffy was with me and it was still raining. I decided to take Tuffy for a walk and we walked outside of this building that was missing a wall. There was this small but steep hill (like a ditch) after the opening, and Tuffy and I tumbled into an electric fence! Gah! I keep getting electrocuted in my dreams. It didn't happen last night though, thankfully."

During this entry, I was having constant panic attacks, and it was always effecting my heart. I'm guessing I was having a panic attack while sleeping or something, that's all I can think of that could make those dreams happen. I didn't mention it in the journal, but I remember how much my chest ached after waking up from the first dream.. I swore I could almost feel the electricity running through, even..






Rain

• To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace. Falling rain is also a metaphor for tears, crying and sadness. Alternatively, rain symbolizes fertility and renewal. If you get wet from the rain, then it indicates cleaning from your troubles and problems.

Roof

• To dream that the roof is leaking, represents distractions, annoyances, and unwanted influences in your life. New information is slowly revealing itself to you. Something is finally getting through to you. Alternatively, the dream means that someone is imposing and intruding their thoughts and opinions on you.

Walls

• To dream that a house has no walls, represents a lack of privacy. You feel that everyone is looking over your shoulder or up in your business.

Electrocution

• To dream of an electrocution, indicates that the current course of your actions will lead to disaster. The dream also represents fear and the consequences of your actions. You need to be more aware of your surroundings and those around you.

Submarine

• To see a submarine in your dream, indicates that you are cautiously exploring your emotions and unconscious feelings. You are guarded about certain emotional issues. Alternatively, the submarine indicates that you need to adapt a different perspective and new understanding of an issue. The submarine is a metaphor that you need to get down to the core of some situation or problem.

7/9/10 - Dreamt About An Old Teacher.

Last night I dreamt I was dating one of my high school teachers. Yeah. Not sayin' who.

Anyways, I dreamt I was cleaning my house for this teacher to come over to.




Kind of... awkward. Anyways, I only remember little bits of the dream, and that I was scrubbing this black and white-checkered tile floor. Ha ha. I kind of remember a red convertible in the dream, too.

Date

• To dream that you are on a date, represents your need for self-discovery and self-awareness. You are getting to know some hidden aspects of yourself and acknowledging your hidden talents. Alternatively, it may reflect your anxieties about dating or finding acceptance. The dream may also be a "rehearsal" for an actual date you have. It serves to overcome anxieties you may have.

Teacher

• To see your teacher (past or present) in your dream, suggests that you are seeking some advice, guidance, or knowledge. You are heading into a new path in life and are ready to learn by example or from a past experience. Consider your own personal experiences with that particular teacher. What subject was taught? Alternatively, a teacher relates to issues with authority and seeking approval. You may be going through a situation in your waking life where you feel that you are being treated like a student or in which you feel you are being put to a test.

Mop

• To dream that you are mopping, suggests that you are ready to let go something. It is time to release your emotions and express it in a productive way.

12/28/03 - Dead People On A School Bus?

Last night I only got an hour of sleep. I know I dreamt, because when I awoke I had fragments of dreams, which became forgotten within a few seconds upon waking. I think that if I can't remember a dream, I'll go through old old journals and find a random one to post. I found one in a journal from 9/13/03 to 11/21/04. So here goes one on the date 12/28/03. For shameful reasons, I am hiding a name that I mention in here, because.. well, it's embarrassing to mention past crushes.



"I had a great but crazy dream. First, I woke up wishing I'd fallen back asleep. I DREAMT OF ****! ... That's a first. The first thing I can remember was that I was new to school. I remember having to go to a phys-ed class, but it wasn't THAT bad. **** was there. Ahh! Nice. So then I remember getting onto a school bus and seeing either dead people or sleeping people on the bus, so I ended up taking a seat in the front. (My sister Sarah was with me). For some reason, the bus must have changed into a car at some point. The song Geek USA came on, and I told Sarah about it being a Smashing Pumpkins' song, and the bus driver turned around and said, "I'm a huge fan of SP!" - That was cool. Then all I remember after that was the end, when I walked out of my house and there was this huge crowd outside. I saw my mom and her friend, and I came over to them and said "Hi". One of them asked me if I had ever flown before. Then the house starts to fly, like an airplane. We were on this concrete pad-like porch that was connected to the house, so we were flying up into the clouds with the house. Then I saw the town in bird's eye view, and I saw **** in the crowd that was still outside where the house had been, and **** kept looking at me as if wanting to say something to me. It was weird. So then while up in the air, I began telling my mom how my day at school was. Then I woke up, because something I said made me realize I had been dreaming the whole time."

Dead

• To see the dead in your dream, forewarns that you are being influenced by negative people and are hanging around the wrong crowd. This dream may also be a way for you to resolve your feelings with those who have passed on. Alternatively, the dream symbolizes material loss.

Bus

• To dream that you are riding a bus, implies that you are going along with the crowd. You are lacking originality and control over where your life is taking.

House

• To see a house in your dream, represents your own soul and self. If the house is shifting, then it suggests that you are going through some personal changes and changing your belief system.

Floating

• To dream that you are floating on air, indicates satisfaction, contentment and acceptance of some situation. You are letting go of your problems and rising above obstacles. You are experiencing new-found freedom and gaining a new perspective on things. Nothing seems overwhelming or too difficult to handle. Alternatively, floating in your dream suggests that you are wandering through life aimlessly with no goals. You are just going with the flow.

I don't normally like to think dreams mean anything, but after reading this, and then reading ahead a few days later, I've found something strange I'd like to add. A week or so after I had this dream, I became home schooled. In real life, not in the dream, I had been harassed by these guys on the school bus (which maybe that meant in the dream, that those people were all dead to me. Forgotten.) Maybe the Smashing Pumpkins came into play because that band got me through the years of dropping out of school. (and holy wow, the lyrics.. pretty much summed up that experience of dropping out). The house flying up might have meant that I was getting away from all these people, trying to get a safe distance away from the hectic world. To disconnect myself from the outside world.

7/7/10 - I Blame Anna For The Green Day Appearance.

In my dream last night, I dreamt that I woke up and had to grab all my belongings that I had on me at the time. It wasn't much, I must have been staying over at someone else's house. I had my purse, my blanket, my cd player, my books, cds and movies. Devin and his sister Cherish were there, and we all had to pack our things into her car and drive off somewhere. When we got out onto the road, I noticed we were driving from the town I grew up in, Warrens, and was headed down towards where my old house is. We passed houses and pretty soon the houses started to look like they were falling apart. Some houses looked like a dinosaur had eaten the second story right off. Some looked like they had burned up and were scorched. I asked the two why the houses looked the way they did and one of them said, "Didn't you hear? A tornado came through and destroyed everything!" I started bawling and at the time in my dream I must have thought that my parents and my sister were living in the old house, because I was worried something happened to them. I asked if we could check on the house and they said it was fine, so we kept driving down the road. At about half a mile away, the road started to get flooded out, so I jumped out of the car and ran for the house, but with all the houses being unrecognizable, I couldn't tell where I was. I got to this farm house and was confused, and thought that that was the house I had lived in.. We climbed into the muddy house and it turned into this big, dirty, run-down building. Cherish disappeared, and my sister took her place in the dream, and then the band Green Day showed up and they were all helping me find my old house, too. At one point, we were in this tunnel and found this manhole on the ground and we were thinking about going down the steps and trying to find the house down there, but one of the guys from Green Day decided to turn a valve on the wall, and water started issuing forth and down below into the manhole. I cried, thinking my parents were down there and getting drowned. Someone yelled that the building was going to blow up, so I went back to the lobby of the building and all my belongings that I had grabbed in the beginning were sitting on this table, so I picked up as much as I could and carried it out the building. I went back in and Sarah was there trying to grab her own things, and handed me this red bra that was wrapped up in a headphone cord. She told me she wanted to keep them, but couldn't carry that and everything else she was trying to hold on to. So I grabbed them, threw them in my purse, and all these things that reminded me of mom and dad fell out. (For mom, they were movies (one being Zodiac that I know she likes so much; and for dad I had crossword puzzles that he (in real life) tears out of the newspapers he buys so that I have something to do at home) I knew I had to keep those things, so I took forever trying to fit everything back into my purse. Finally, after getting everything right as fast as I possibly could, Sarah and I booked it out the building, but before I even got to the doors, I woke up.

For anyone who might be wondering why Green Day made an appearance in my dream, I blame Anna. She was talking about them (very briefly) at one point the night before.




Flood

• To dream that you are in a flood, represents your need to release some sexual desires. If the flood is raging, then it represents emotional issues and tensions. Your repressed emotions are overwhelming you. Consider where the flood is for clues as to where in your waking life is causing you stress and tension. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are overwhelming others with your demands and strong opinion. Still another interpretation could be your desire to wipe everything clean and make a fresh new start.

House

• To see an old, run-down house in your dream, represents your old beliefs, attitudes and how you used to think or feel. A situation in your current life may be bringing about those same old attitudes and feelings. Alternatively, the old house may symbolize your need to update you mode of thinking. To dream that your house is damaged, indicates your waking concerns about the condition of your house.
  

Possessions

• To see your possessions in your dream, symbolize your identity or self-worth. Consider the significance of each item for additional clues to the meaning of your dream. Metaphorically, the dream may mean that you are being "possessive". You need to learn to let go.

7/6/10 - Argument Over The Cork Board.

This morning I had a dream that my sister, my mother, and my aunt all moved into a tiny trailer. I remember when I first looked inside the trailer, there were beds in the kitchen (because it really was a tiny trailer), but when I looked a second time, the only beds that were visible once stepping in the door right away was this bench with a soft covering over it, which was L-shaped around a corner. Anyways, the funny part of the dream was that I remember looking in the cupboards and when I opened up one of the doors I noticed this cork board material inside the door, so I mentioned to my sister that it would make a good place to put notes and things.. To which she replied that she noticed it, too. Then we started complaining about who thought of the idea first.

Awhile before that part, though, I remember I was looking at this piece of paper and it said something about how if your breathing is "patternless" (that word I remember was on the paper), then you might have heart failure. I remember I was trying to breathe in and out in a pattern after that and I think I might have been half asleep and saw myself sleeping and holding my stomach and trying to breathe steadily in real life, too.

Moving

• To dream that you are moving away, signifies your desire or need for change. It may also mean an end to a situation or relationship; you are moving on. Alternatively, it indicates your determination and issues regarding dependence/independence.

Debate

• To dream that you are in a debate, symbolizes some inner turmoil or conflict that you are experiencing. It also means that you will find closure to those unresolved issues.

Heartbeat

• To hear a heartbeat in your dream, suggests that you are not confronting or recognizing your feelings. You need to approaching thing head-on. Alternatively, a heartbeat may symbolize life or fear. Perhaps, you are feeling threatened in some way.