Song Of The However Long I Feel Like..

Wednesday, November 12, 2025

Electrocutions

Can't sleep well. Last night when I got into bed I felt cramps in my uterus and leg even though I shouldn't get my period for another 12 days or so. Fell asleep okay once the kids fell asleep but woke up often. First to pee a couple hours after sleeping. Then maybe got ten minutes every couple hours after. Daughter's alarm went off so I asked if she's ask her father to take her down so I could sleep. Couldn't fall asleep til an hour later. Horrible crazy dream. At this point I'd rather dream snakes:


Dreamt I was still crampy and on the couch or a bed. Dreamt that the sister sister twins were doing a weird tribute for t&s but they did a great job. Hair and all lol. Then you versions of t&s walked into my room and I said they all did a great job. As t some point I also remember walking into a doctor's room, interrogating a doctor (a man). Found random items on floor that they didn't even think to send with patient a cusing him of something bad.

Went to bathroom. Found blood all over in my underwear and on a pad. Realized maybe I had a uterine fibroid or cyst or sething and it burst. Suddenly I heard loud wind outside. Looked out and it felt like a tornado but there was snow on ground so I wasn't worried. Then I noticed this weird electrical thing and it was sparking. I was still on toilet so I yelled at my husband to check it out. I saw him go outside to look at it and it like came to life turning into this man with a bamboo head that looked like a tiki.. He tried to electovute my husband. He was zapped but not harmed. It started coming to the house so I tried to lock the door but when I went to lock it, it unlocked itself. He came in and started coming towards me. I found scissors and tried to stab him. Woke up 

Not as crampy but only got an hour of sleep ..  ugh. 

Brown Boas

Dreamt I was in a bed that was kind of up in the air a little. There was another bed on the ground and there were brown boa constrictors kind of shoved under it. I freaked out thinking "what if I sleep on that one by accident??" Then after I told some people, they went and checked and the snakes were gone, so I freaked out worrying where the hell they are. 


Then, woke up in real life and found a dying bee on one of my pillows and just feel icky and like there's a bunch of bees hiding around under my bed or something. Ugh. 

Festival

Dreamt there was this big festival in town. The cool (but unsanitary thing) was that the audience played down on this HUGE bed. I remember there were two stages, so two giant beds. I chose one that was in the street kind of in front of where the wades lives. My dad was also there. I remember hearing that my favorite musician was rumored to check it out, so I kept scanning the bed hoping I'd see them. My uncle Ash called at some point and asked me where I was (he was at the other stage, on the other bed, and told me that some well known musicians 'Remmy and Lemmy' were there next to him. I had to explain that I preferred theusic playing at this stage more but was really really considering going over to the other just because of the celebrities that were in the audience of that one. 

Also dreamt I had an iguana for a pet. I remember shortly before waking up that I knew I was dreaming and that this iguana was kind of a typical pet of mine in a bunch of my dreams (I don't think this is true) and that it was weird I was willing to hold him etc since I'm afraid of reptiles. 

Twister

Yesterday I remembered a dream I had several days ago while in the car listening to my kids talk about the clouds they were looking at. I dreamt that I was in a car and looking at the clouds and the were very low and twisting horizontally, following us as we drove. Suddenly one closest to me started rotating towards the ground in front of us and made a tornado. 



Last night I dreamt my husband and our kids and I were biking or maybe considering biking to Jellystone from my dad's house. I was trying to think if it was a bad idea to have the boys ride bike and of they were that skilled on them. Everyone seemed a couple years younger, so not quite as good as they really are now. 

Thursday, October 30, 2025

Sinkhole

Dreamt I was looking outside of my dad's house (childhood home). Suddenly the driveway started to cave into itself and make a sinkhole. I rushed over to find my dad in the kitchen and told him we needed to get out of here because it was spreading. We started running to the backdoor near his pond and I woke up slightly or changed dreams. The next dream was also kind of strange. I dreamt that my sister and I had a couple other siblings and that my actual sister was doing some scavenger hunt/tasks we had to complete. But when we started to do the tasks, some Halloween masked guy started coming after us and I realized that she was either pranking us or trying to kill us and that she was in on the Halloween guy too. I got away from him and ran back to the house. I figured if I finish my tasks he would stop trying to chase us/kill us, so I kept trying to figure out what I needed to do. I figured out a couple things but the Halloween masked guy found me and I ran again. I get outside and I'm hiding/running around the house. I go back in to retrieve my phone so that I can run off and look for my husband but I woke up. 

Monday, October 27, 2025

Wtf

Started out where I was awkwardly having to share a bed or couch with my kids. We were way too big to fit. I had my very new pillow that I am trying out tonight in the dream with me and I called my husband from the other room to come help take a layer out from it to shorten it because I was thinking it was a bit tall. (Shortly before this dream, I had woken up and considered asking him but decided not to since he got very little sleep so far and drives for work so I didn't want to mess up his sleep. Anyways I can't remember if he got it or not but he left and I remember going back to bed and seeing my daughter playing with a cat the was mostly white with calico brown and black spots. 


Then, I was in a random town with husband. Found out vk would be playing there so I went alone to see.There wasn't many like maybe 30. Saw a FB friend mutual that sat next to me. He said 'hi' and I was said hi just as he said a name (person behind me/lady next to ne);and they said hi. So I had to introduce myself and ask if they knew me because we were fb frienda. Anyways, music starts. Lady next to me said I looked better and that a couple years ago I looked worse and wore what she called 'walmart makeup look' so say I had looked awful before. I felt uncomfortable with the compliment and kind of stayed snarky when I talked to her the rest of the night, but still tried to seem nice. Anyways I realized I didn't have my glasses on but saw k. They would play a song and then bring something out for people. I remember at some point my dreams kind of blended together and my middle child was in between me and the fb friend I knew, and when the lady nearby mentionwd autism, my son piped up and said he had it as well. Anyways k threw a shirt and it landed right on my arms. Lady next to me tried to take it but I said something about how it'll make my ugly face look better, so I should keep it. I looked down at it and it was made out of felt and cut horribly lol (probably my brain was associating with how I've been making Halloween masks with felt in real life and so it used that) Anyways here's where it got weird lol. They played another song and then a bunch of people started walking around to sit at what was now tables we were at and I cursed not having glasses again but k dropped some paper down at me and everyone else and then sat next to a child that was beside me. Both were dressed up as hogwarts wizards. Lolol. Anyways I woke up right after that. 

Sunday, October 26, 2025

Airport

Dreamt I was in an airport with Devin. We were somewhere in an Asian country. The people that check your bags kept shooing us all to hurry through the line because there was doing to be a wedding taking place in an hour. It got busy and suddenly Devin was ahead of me by several people Bs being pushed forward into a hallway/almost like an underground tunnel. I freaked out but just kept trying to follow. Tried calling, no luck. Met a girl next to me in line and befriended her. She met up with her dad who worked in this underground tunnel/hallway. I wanted to write my name down and FB link to befriend her, but her dad also kept trying to rush me. I started heading forward and tried calling dev. No luck. I checked life 360. It was showing fires all over the map on the roads. 

Wednesday, October 22, 2025

Snakes In The Ceiling

Ugh. Dreamt that husband and I were in our house (tho set up more like childhood home) and husbands dad had found reason to believe that snakes were up in the ceiling. They brought a insulation gun thing to stuff the whole ceiling area with insulation to deter any snakes from getting in/out. I didn't believe it so I was looking around for my phone to Google if it was possible and it was. (Also looked on my phone after I woke up and unfortunately it's possible. 🤮)

Shortly before that, I dreamt that I was outside near a sidewalk that was supposed to be near my house on our property but it looked nothing like our property. I found an old vhs-c tape with a kv bumper sticker attached to it and knew it had to be mine. There were these boys on bikes near it so I picked it up before they could take it and I ran back home to see what was on the tape. I was hoping it was a recording my sister and our friends and I did that I had been missing, but it ended up being a tape with a bunch of hanson footage on it lol. I rewound the tape and fast-forwarded the tape to see if maybe it was the movie I was looking for, but it was all the same stuff. 

Monday, October 20, 2025

Tornado

First dreamt my period came and and I bled this watery stuff onto my bedding.cleaned that off and laid back on bed and I remember looking at a lamp when we heard a noise. I looked at my phone and saw it was a downstairs Echo. In the dream apparently my mother in law was staying over because it was my daughters birthday and she wanted to camp out in the living room with the kids for a sleepover. I told my husband and he walked down to see what they needed. I overheard 'weather" and saw a flash of blue from outside. I turned on my TV and looked at the weather and they were showing a large, large, large tornado was heading some way. I tried figuring out where I was looking and worrying it was my dad's town when finally the channel rotated the photo a little and zoomed in and showed it was headed for my town. I immediately started texting my husband to get everyone into the basement. Woke up. 

The weird thing is that I've noticed that when I dream, I'm always using a remote and TV that was complicated like when I was really little. My parents had this huge satellite TV that was really hard to understand the buttons and changing channels and this dream had that. I've realized all of my dreams do. Never the simple style I've had for the majority of my life now. Always what we had for the first maybe ten years of my life. 

Tuesday, October 14, 2025

Ossa

Lol weird dream. First I dreamt I was kidnapped. Tried escaping.oooo. I remember this bad guy was sucking the life out of people and turning their faces black in spots. Bad guy was a mix between Jake Gyllenhaal and Adrien Brody. Made out with him at some point in the end. 

Then I dreamt I heard on a radio or something someone say that "ossa means yours" and I thought in my dream levi could be short for levitate so maybe leviosa means up "yours" lol. I thought I was all smart but then I remembered that this isn't the bad magic, so it doesn't make sense lol. 



Saturday, October 11, 2025

Garage Sale

Dreamt I was laying on a bed with my husband
 Someone was sleeping in a bed across from us. They seemed like they were sleeping.. I was pretending to be asleep because I didn't want to do anything with my husband that night but he didn't care and r*ped me anyways, thinking I was still asleep. I don't remember much after this except that I was in a large building that was like a garage sale. I was pregnant and had to explain how I got that way (r*pe).

I also remember seeing this small action figures from the Arcane series and picked one up and one of the was $30 alone. I say it down and tried to look inconspicuous because I didn't want the sellers thinking I stole any. 

Wednesday, October 8, 2025

Hiking

Kind of all over the place but what I do remember was that I had two dogs and I was traveling or hiking with them. I needed to get home. I asked for a ride from someone and they helped me a little bit but eventually I just had to walk. I got to a hospital and took the dogs through it because it's be faster. Couldn't find proper normal stairs. Almost carried two dogs down a ladder. Finally found a strange crooked set of stairs that I could jump over to. Dogs followed me. Got down to lobby and remember feeling awkward about having the dogs. Asked the front lady if it was okay. Went outside with dogs. Magically teleported myself to my grandma's old trailer because I thought this journey would make a good game where of you get back you win a prize. Told my mom who was standing next to the table. 

Monday, October 6, 2025

Heaven

Whoke up half asleep and sweaty. Was dreaming about such weird stuff! First, I was trying to escape a library. I got to a back room area and found an old industrial kitchen and a girl on there. I asked her if it's be alright to 'use her house just to get out of the library'. She said it was fine, so I went to the door and walked out. I heard someone follow and turned around. A boy walked out and I asked him who he was and he told me he was my old dog Moses. I ran over and gave him a hug. We talked about going back together. Needed to get the whole family first. Found oldest daughter and husband and went over to them. We needed to do something to get to 'heaven'. 

Monday, September 22, 2025

Siddhartha

Couldn't remember the musician Lykke Li's name and was thinking it was Siddhartha.. lol. Also I had woken up for ten minutes at one point because it was storming, so I checked a weather app radar and I think I was also doing this in my dream maybe after too. Feels like I was doing that too. 

Sunday, September 21, 2025

Rearranging

Dreamt that my dad needed to do something for a few months, so he went out his house to us. I started rearranging and talking about making it our permanent home. Shortly after attempting to rearrange too many couches and nothing fitting, dad walked in. He was confused. I tried to explain I was just cleaning his house and making it look nice. There was a bed in the living room, two couches and a two tvs.. just too many things.