Song Of The However Long I Feel Like..

Wednesday, July 23, 2025

Health

Dreamt cleaning the house upstairs. Messy. Found a bunch of presents in a corner under a tree. Forgotten.

Okay I heard footsteps and see husband's mom walk in. She had a cane or a crutch and I noticed she had no shoe on and was missing her toes. I first was worried about the mess. She seemed disappointed and maybe mad about it but didn't say anything. My son and I were by the stairs when she came back out and I kind of asked very subtle what happened and she started crying a bit and sat down on the floor. I pushed my son to her to hug her and I pttted her back. Whatever she was talking about scared me thinking it'd happen to me.. 

Ahhhhh another dream. Husband wanted sex so we were about to (no shorts on me) and I heard kids coming up.i ran over and leaned over and saw them coming up. Ran to the bathroom and didn't even have time to turn a light on when my two oldest came in while I was picking up a blue crayon off the floor to pretend like I was cleaning. Kids were sad because they didn't know where we were. 

Then I dreamt that I got emails that were happy first but turned threatening because someone had read some on my book and finished where I stopped (handful of chapters in) and wanted more. I complained how I'll have to write more. Sister in law was there and overheard and wondered what site I was writing on etc i started showing her the website (this one) and realized I was logged into my kids' school account and accidentally failed a test. I freaked out about that but didn't really do anything. 

After that, I was looking at the mirror and noticed my teeth were AWFUL. Some missing, one of them really loose. I could wiggle it. I freaked out. 

I dreamt about the teeth issue because I had just taken my kids to dentist. Husband is taking his family to the country fair today, so maybe that's why. Got an email from kids school this morning when I woke up for a second and I'm thinking that's why I dreamt that. 

So tired now.
 Gonna stop. 

Sunday, July 20, 2025

Cleaning

Dreamt me and husband were cleaning the camper out but it was also dad's house/childhood home. Clothes everywhere, furniture everywhere.. found a console TV and hid that in a corner behind other furniture because I didn't want my dad seeing it and wanting it lol. I remember walking into the kitchen and seeing the counters were flipped the wrong way (my sister and mom cleaned this room), and dad's kitchen was extremely clean. Also remember when I was cleaning stuff out, there were a bunch of toys of my daughter's and I was trying to stuff what I could in bookbags etc. 

Saturday, July 19, 2025

Walmart

I don't exactly remember what my dream was about... There's a bad guy or group of people.. I just remember there's this key we found that was shaped like a hair claw or barrette or something and we had to sneakily use it in a Walmart next to a pillar so we could open up a door and get to this area that people were taken to (we had to save them). First though I remember me, my sister, and my cousin were the people trying to save everyone. We had to change our hair color but we didn't have anything good to use so we had to use natural things. I started putting this stuff in my sister's hair and noticed she was balding on top of her head. I was worried it was the stuff we were putting in our hair but when we started putting it in my cousin's hair I noticed she had it too. I don't know why it gave me relief but instead of thinking oh no, it's the hair dye, I was thinking oh, cool, it's just genetic stuff they're dealing with, so it won't happen to me. 

Anyways... We dyed our hair very slightly, unlocked the door thing, went in, and we got into what looked like a huge hall for a hospital sort of. We started walking and met up with some people who were either in trouble or also trying to save people. One group I remember having a secondary dream where I was at cranfest with one and we were searching for someone.. also found my dog Moses that died maybe 5 years ago. Hugged him, knew he was gone in real life, so it was a nice feeling to see him again. 

Cancer

Just woke up to a bad dream. Dreamt my husband and I were visiting with his mom and she told us that his Uncle Clint's doctor's were 'pretty sure he had cancer'... And that he would have to do some 'bark test' the next morning where he would have to sit up against a light to see if he had it or not. Woke up right away.

Thursday, July 17, 2025

Hair

Ommmmmmmg. Woke up with no memory of my dream, but five hours later I look down at my legs and remember I dreamt that I had gross, man-hair-like legs. But like worse. Way, way worse. Like pelvic area-thick worse. I remember looking at my legs in my dream and thinking "oh God, I forgot to shave..............., anyways.." and just went back on with my day in my dream. Crazy. 



I am pretty sure I dreamt this because I cut my kids' hair last night before bed. 

Wednesday, July 16, 2025

Devil

Dreamt my husband was the Devil. Feels like I either knew but was in denial or didn't know at some point and lost my memory. I was a witch like in bewitched where I could blink my eyes and take me anywhere I wanted to go. I'd grab my friends, blink and say take me to my husband. For some reason I was taking us to a beach that was problematicly high tides. Grabbed the last friend and said take me to my husband and it took me into the ocean. I freaked out, worrying my husband was dead. I kept repeating it. Still ocean. Finally I started realizing I'm dreaming and forced him to be somewhere else so that when I got to him I would see he was the devil. 


I remember now before this. I was walking up to a house, starting with going to the garage. So my ex with his wife. 


I think I dreamt that my real-life husband and I were divorced. 

Alien

Ugh nightmare. Dreamt I was cleaning a house/playing some task game. Fill cat food, clean out stuff,next. Got into a living room that might have also been my grandma's bedroom and I saw my plant acting too heavy hanging up. I had my sister help me and we started lifting it some and moving it. Next to window outside in the dark, we saw a glass orb like a cover of a bathroom light fixture. It was zooming away as soon as we saw we freaked out and thought aliens. I peeked out window one last time and saw a green alien staring back.


Freaked out, crying, woke up 
 

Sunday, July 13, 2025

Cleaning

Dreamt I was on my phone and saw that my favorite musician was posting a video and the background has all these familiar names etc, and then I realized they were in the area. I freaked out and was worried they were going to stop at my house. I started cleaning the house (it was my childhood home), and the house was a complete mess. Woke up exhausted, thankfully no one stopped by, I don't think lol. Oh I forgot. While cleaning, I got a really weird number and I can't remember if anyone ever talked or not, but it made me clean faster. 



And now I remember another dream. My daughter and I were in a car. My daughter was driving on the interstate and we were looking for my husband. We weren't sure if he was supposed to work that day or not, but needed to get a hold of him fast. We stopped at some business thinking he'd be there if he was, and didn't see him. 

Wednesday, July 9, 2025

Auction

I kept waking up every 20 mins probably, so I had some random small dreams... I can only remember a couple. First one was me, a couple of my kids, my husband and some other adult were on a road and a tornado was passing by. We went under an overpass (don't know why, as I know this is a bad idea now) and just stood there... We didn't hold onto anything. In my head I was thinking, as the tornado was about to pick us up, that it was just a dream, so I should be sat down normal or woken up, which I did wake up. 

The other dream I had was my husband telling me that he put a bid in for a new house and that the house was my dentist's house. (In reality, this guy didn't look like my dentist at all, but maybe because he's newer since my older one retired and his son took over). I remember my husband showing me pictures of the house and there were random cringe-y photos of my dentist doing yoga poses maybe thinking it'd look cool for his house auction photos. 

Oooo.. I do remember a separate dream now but not much of it. I dreamt that my sister was sleeping in the porch at my childhood home. I was looking at her shelf of books etc. 

Sunday, June 29, 2025

Name

Wow. Dreamt I was in a car and a woman came in of Indian descent and sat in the passenger side. Though she looked nothing like the person I was thinking of, I told her I recognized her from an old sleepover I once had. She told me her name and it was a name of a girl I remember having a class with in high school. In my head I remember thinking how strange that I wouldn't have remembered her name outside of my dream, but that someone in my dream could remind me. 

Anyways a little later on I remember dreaming I saw some home videos of a sleepover of one of my birthdays. I was wondering who would have taped them. Figured maybe Chelsey's family since I didn't think my family would do that. (Which is hilarious, because I am literally searching my house in real life for some home movies from when I was a kid. Lol)

Eye

Very bad dream. A a few days, I have to go see a dermatologist about a spot on my face. Well, I dreamt I went to that appointment. I dreamt that when I got there, the receprionist brought our a tiny flashlight and put it to my face. She told me the spot on my face was okay, but that a spot on my nose was cancerous and would need lazered/cut off. I was worried a little bit mostly for my husband by telling him he should get his spot on his nose checked room. We are about to check out when the doctor comes in with a piece of paper with some results on it. They said that my left eye had a blue spot behind it and that it would need taken out. I freaked. I searched for Devin who was coming back and I ran to him and cried into his arms. I was in complete denial and wanted a second opinion. A few minutes later I realized I would probably be blind because my good eye was the one they wanted to take out. 

Thursday, June 19, 2025

Masked Guy

Dreamt I fell in love with this guy. He was masked and looked creepy. Think Ghost. I was married. I had kids. Everybody was pissing me off. Husband was with his family at this big party/water Park. I decided to stay by myself. That's when I met the masked guy. At some point I'm told I have to carry a bunch of groceries up some stairs. I get the chosen to pick my partner and it's either masked guy or someone else. I let fate decide and I think it ends up being him. I grab everything and figure whoever I'm partnered with can just grab doors. We get to where we need to be and I set everything down. We hug. He puts his arms up my dress and sees I'm not wearing any underwear. 


.. woke up. 🙄🙄

Wednesday, June 18, 2025

Politics

Kinda scary dream.. dreamt I was going to a park with my husband and kids. Some guy walked up with a sign and asked me something stupid and maga, anti-LGBT or anti-abortion etc and I answered back truthfully and a little annoyed, and the guy got irate. Husband and kids and I left the park because the guy seemed scary. Back at home and I suddenly get a phone call and my phone shows me it's the same guy calling that we saw at the park. Same time that my phone calls, we also get a loud, banging knock on the door. I recall hearing this happen to other women in my head and worry I will be killed. I yell to my husband to please make sure the door is locked, and I quickly assess whether I should call the police or not. I don't remember what happened after, but I don't think I woke up right away either?

Tuesday, June 17, 2025

Starbucks

Two separate things tho same dream I believe. 


First I was over at an adult sleepover. It was a dark room. Husband and I in a bed, others in other beds in our room. I noticed this woman is bouncing on one of those rocking horse style rides. When she gets off I realize she has a dildo attached to the saddle part. I think "huh, that's handy." And tell her it was a good idea and joke how I should just do that and 'who needs a man?' then after saying that I worry my husband heard me. Lol


Okay the other part. We had to go help my husband's sister out. She has this huge log that needs moved or something. I tell him I'd like a Starbucks drink before we go and he gets all grumpy and says no. I get really annoyed and pissed off and walk off. I'm at this dance party type place. Like a non-fancyvwedding reception. I think 'well screw this, I have my own money, so I'll use mine.' I walk up to the bartender lady there and wait to order my drink (why I assume she makes Starbucks drinks I dunno) and the bartender cuts me off and tells me she wants to get someone else's order first. I think like her younger brother or something. So while I'm waiting I grab my wallet out (and it ends up being my husband's wallet) and I'm noticing that his wallet is breaking apart bit by bit. I also find the corner of an "$18" bill. I wake up before I can order ..

Sunday, June 15, 2025

The Cellar

I was in this whole other family and I was the dad. At least in one part. What I remember is there were bad people or one person was bad? I had a shotgun and in a cellar and the room was dark and the baby/toddler thing tried to take my gun and almost shot. We were fighting for the gun and it started pointing first towards me then towards the sky (we were in a cellar though so I was worried someone was above us). I took the gun back and the older daughter criticized me for having the gun ready to shoot, so I made it safer somehow. Then the older daughter felt more ghostlike to me. It was weird! 

One other thing I remember. I was looking either at my phone at a photo and it was my mother in law with a couple of her sisters. They posted a caption like 'does anyone else use this in old age?' or something like that, and one of them was holding a can of hair spray and all of them had their elbows up/towards the camera. I remember feeling my elbows and they were really, really cracked and rough and thick flakes were on them. I was thinking how much I should probably use that tip from now on. 


Edit: weird! I'm reminded of another part in my dream. Me and my kids were singing along to the Beatles song 'In My Life' ... I remembered this because after I woke up I was scrolling Instagram and my friend made a fathers day post and used that song as her background. Crazy how that happens..