Searching For Bear And Avalanche.

Dreamt my dog Bear was still alive and that we were watching my dad's friend's dog Avalanche. We were in a house in town, although it looked like dad's house (house I grew up in). Must have been living with mom, Sarah and Erin. I saw that a door was open and my dog Bear ran out, then when I went to go after/shut the door, Avalanche escaped, too. Apparently I was pregnant. I ran after them both and eventually Erin and I were driving around town searching for them. We went into a gas station at some point and asked the cashier, no luck. We went back on the road to look for them in the residential areas. I was driving but not paying attention to the road, suddenly a cop car passes us and turns around with its lights on. Suddenly I forget how to drive, but I'm super calm. Maybe this was the future.. The cop somehow was able to get his voice to go through Erin's phone and he said something and all I answered back was that I was still out looking for my dog and hadn't found him. I pulled into a parking lot ahead of us (again, having a hard time remembering how to drive). It seems like the cop stopped me because he knew I was pregnant and was worried about me stressing out.

-- this morning (in real life) I took my temperature and it shot up (I already ovulated). This is called a triphasic pattern when your temperature shoots up twice in one cycle. I think my stupid idiotic mind is subconsciously hopeful I'm pregnant. I was pregnant last November through the end of January when we lost the baby. Around the time the baby died my dog Bear died, and I cried buckets, and was so worried I'd miscarry and did anyways.. I think my body is just on high alert this time in case maybe I am pregnant. Which I highly doubt I am, but I think subconsciously I feel I might be, maybe. Too many months of not being pregnant, I don't want to get my hopes up over a triphasic pattern on my bbt chart. (It isn't an indicator of pregnancy anyways, it can happen without being pregnant, too.) Blah.

If I Had A Million Dollars..

Dreamt Devin and I were rich 15-20 years from now. We lived in a humongous mansion (although sometime into the dream I was walking around the house and the siding looked really old.. So it might have been a cheaper mansion.). Anyways, I don't remember a lot of the details but I think I was talking to an ex and had expected a phone call or something - not cheating, just talking I guess? I was in the basement taking a shower and suddenly Devin was pissed at me. I assumed he heard a voicemail or something, no clue. So he was pissed. I got out of the shower and there were no towels or clothes or anything, so I walked out and into a bigger room that looked more like a work shop (a big one, maybe Devin was the money maker and had an auto mechanical business of some such). So I'm walking through the big work area looking place and its kind of dark in one area so it takes me a few times to go all the way through it (I keep running back to the first room, terrified of the dark). I get to an area of the house that has a bunch of windows, big, big windows and run towards it. I don't remember what happens next, but I somehow find myself outside, fully clothed. I walk around the house (this is where I see the house isn't much of a looker, old white sheds attached to it to make it bigger yet, etc), looking for a door to get into the basement again. I finally find one, but it led to the main floor. The porch looked straight out of a Better Homes & Gardens magazine.. White whicker furniture, darker blue accents.. It was pretty. I keep walking through and finally find a bunch of bedrooms and exercise rooms. I get into the exercise room and Devin comes out of a door on the other side with a woman wearing a bikini top, one boob sticking out. I'm so pissed at him since I never cheated on him but here I catch him doing what he thought I was doing..

I don't remember anything else.. Loved that big house, though.