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Showing posts with label scared. Show all posts
Showing posts with label scared. Show all posts

Thursday, April 3, 2025

Black Mamba

Dreamt I was at Dad's. I was flying over the ground, looking down. I saw a big snake that was red , yellow and black. Went away and came back around and saw an even bigger snake all black eating the snake. I saw that it came out from under a (nonexistent) deck that lock its lattice on the side. Fleetwood further up and figured I should find dad and warn him. 

Thursday, August 1, 2024

Tornadoes

Dreamt I was at a beach with my husband and kids. There was a bad guy or something that we were trying to stay away from. My two littlest boys that can't swim were in water and I had to help them both up and down and get out. We were all running..


 Then I dreamt I was with my kids and at least my aunt Erin but probably my mom and sister too. My aunt was driving. There were bad storms and tornadoes everywhere. We were in Tomah kind of near Burger King and I saw two tornadoes. One of in the direction of my house and another in the direction of theirs. The one by my house was coming towards tomah. Erin thought she could go extremely fast to pass the tornado getting closer. I was worried about the speed because of my kids and also I was worried we wouldn't be able to pass the tornado. Just way too close. She floored it though and I don't really know what happened but suddenly were in a tight alley but way up off the ground in a high riser style building. Windows everywhere. I'm looking for doors to get to safety and I see one door curves up. I yell out and there's this weird glitch in my voice. I peek around the corner and see a man in a tan rain jacket facing towards a wall. He does NOT want us in his room, so I usher my kids back out and lock the guy in his own room as he's running after us. We're about to go through another set of doors when I wake up. 

Sunday, April 21, 2024

Tornadoes At A Party

Ugh, more tornadoes. Dreamt there was a party going on.. Halloween? Went to the party with a random boyfriend. We were really annoying and we're kicked out by the host who looked like John legends wife. she and her boyfriend/husband in the dream (wasn't John.. this guy was a major asshole that listened to metal) she hated me mostly and the rest of us because we were annoying at the party. Young, drunk, having sex etc. We get kicked out and are wandering the town, drunk and dressed in costumes. We're a bit loud again on the streets, and I can hear the girl Chrissie (?) screaming how much she hates me specifically and that we ruined her party. Suddenly there's tornadoes everywhere. We run into boyfriends house, looks very cabin-like, to hide out. Tornado is wrecking havoc outside. It's pulling up roofs. I realize the house were in is right next to the Chrissie lady's house. Her roof gets taken and shortly later she comes busting into our door terrified out of her mind and we're all huddled waiting out the storm. Eventually the storm settles down and Chrissie apologies. Woke up. 

Sunday, March 24, 2024

Surveillance

Dreamt I was at my grandma's trailer. I was looking at a surveillance video and saw that two men were wanting in and one was telling me he was my Uncle Thane. He looked completely differenfem black curly hair, seemed younger, longer afro... I mentioned how different he looked and that he looks so much younger. Still, he was with his husband, so I assumed he was telling the truth. Of course I open the door and it's not him These two men are hoping to steal the house or something. 

Monday, January 15, 2024

The Hotel

Horrible dream. Dreamt I was at a hotel with husband and his family. I guess maybe it was my birthday but there was a lady there with us. Just some random lady that wanted to hang out with us. I was so upset she was there because I was worried she was trying to steal husband away. We were supposed to celebrate my birthday and I was so distraught that I couldn't even talk or want to be there, so I told everyone I was tired and wanted to go up to my hotel room. Everyone stayed to swim. Up in my room, the lights flickered and I looked around in the room and noticed an area was opened up to let another room in if they wanted. I freaked out, shut and locked that door immediately, and warned of some random person that was supposed to be my friend that the door was open to another door. We got a little worried someone could enter. I decided to go back down and husband is creating a trampoline under the pool so people can jump while they swim. I warn him about this lady trying to steal him. Heaughs it off and just gets annoyed by me. I get angry. Mean to his family who want to have a dinner for my birthday. We are sitting down and I was allowed to pick a movie or music or something and I'm trying to search up the best media related to harming a lady trying to steal a husband (they don't know this tho). The lady looks over and grabs the list I'm looking at and puts it in the middle of the table and says we can all help pick and I snatch the list back and tell her it's my birthday. I leave the table. I explain to my niece V what's going on and what this lady is doing. She's mad too, but can't do anything. We all end up in a thrift store. I'm so depressed... I wander around and find this lady looking at something and my husband is right there next to her. They're looking at things he would have had no interest in. That's when I know he's with her now, since he's hanging around her for no reason. I run off and try to buy something quickly so I can leave.. Wake up with a headache. 

Monday, January 1, 2024

Dripping Fire

Wow...


Dreamt I lived in this big old house with my sister and mom. First I dreamt that my daughter was going to spend the night somewhere with her grandma and cousin. She seemed okay with it (in reality, she won't even leave for a few hours to go with anyone). 

Okay back to the dream.. I lived in this huge house, daughter was away for the night. Suddenly my sister noticed that there was this corner of the old house that was dripping what looked like water but was on fire too. We yelled for mom, we called the fire department. A lady came that looked nothing like a firefighter but said that it wasn't anything dangerous and that it was the paint.. old radioactive paint (not dangerous my ass 🥴). If we scraped the paint off, it shouldn't do that anymore. I went to call my daughter quick but she didn't answer (I was going to tell her what was going on).. anyways we all start scraping everything in the house. Ceiling, wall, stairs, etc. EVERYTHING. After scraping a while, my sister yells that it's back. We run over and see the same dripping fire.. we find out later that the lady that came by was not a fireman or a fired one or something. She wasn't good. I don't know if we called and other firemen came or what. That's all I remember.

Tuesday, October 31, 2023

Strange, Strange Dream

Dreamt first that I was in the future but possibly a parallel future. I was searching everywhere in a big house that Mom owned, jearching for my old stuffed animal jolly. I kept telling myself he HAS to be in this house. I needed to find him so I could see his face and remember what he looked like so I could recreate him from scratch when I woke up. Heavy heavy dream. I dreamt I was talking not in my dream but my actual body, about trying to find him and explaining that even though I forgot what his face looks like, he would still be like he always was in my dream because our brains never forget... I searched everywhere, and there were so many closets and shelves with doors etc, but I never found him in the dream. 


Then I dreamt of had an evil younger brother or something and I had to hide a knife so he couldn't hurt me. He had a disability so I was able to be kind of sneaky getting rid of the knives. 


Then I dreamt that ... Okay my brain is starting to shake off the etch-a-sketch.. starting to forget. I dreamt that I was watching a movie and it was a documentary about two elderly actresses that were never seen from again and in the documentary it led you to believe that they might have been killed but I was thinking because one of the ladies drank a cocktail before they left for the night that maybe they backed into a boat ramp and died.... Then I dreamt that I was in an older car and we were backing up, getting into water etc, and I just remember laying on my back and kicking the ceiling of the car. It was made out of thick wool. Finally I made a hole and I started tearing everywhere to make the hole big so that hopefully my family would float up. I was running out of air so I decided to bob up to the surface and go back down but just as I hit the surface my dream changed again. 


Okay I was in a room and there was a killer that was living in the house with me and others (maybe this was a whole apartment building?) and I was looking for evidence to get him to prison. I was again searching everywhere for a video, writing, I don't know. Somehow we were getting mail and one of the pieces of mail was this HUGE poster in some strange geometry shape.. like D&D dice shaped, only 2D. I knew the evidence was on it, there were small writings everywhere on it and it looked creepy lol. Only problem was some lady came over and said it was hers. I offered sexual freaking favors just so I could get it back or take a bunch of pictures of it just so I could look at it and find the evidence. I don't know why I didn't tell her what I was doing, but I couldn't for some reason. Anyways she grossly accepted and we're making out and doing stuff, but I wake up and my purse and stuff are gone lol. Same with her poster. I walk into another room and she's in there and I look around behind cabinets and I find my purse and assume the poster is okay too. I'm soooo stupid and offer again. I don't really understand this part but afterwards I am dreaming that the cast of Fresh Prince are 'coming home' to this apartment I live in and I'm trying to hide the evidence that I did sexual favors but I find out there's a video or something and it's in a gift that Uncle Phil is giving to his mom (but he doesn't know it's in there). I'm freaking out... I must be Will at this point. Anyways I wake up before she sees the video. 

Wednesday, September 27, 2023

Running Away

I dreamt Devin and I were standing and he started trying to rape me. He got violent just to be able to. I was so scared and terrified. When he finished or when I got away, I somehow eventually turned into a four year old girl trying to hide and run away from her dad who did the same thing. I had an animal or a robot with me and we traveled together. I'd go into random neighbor houses asking for food and after one lady gave me some food she seemed off so I asked her if she told my dad where I was. She shook her head yes and the robot or animal let me go ahead and try to escape but I got stuck hiding under a short window. I attempted to crawl under another ever lower window and a sibling saw me and alerted everyone. I started trying to run but the "dad" caught up I think. 

Woke up. 

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

The Monster Behind The Door

Not a dream: Scarlet woke up around 6 AM and immediately begged for one of us to turn a light on. We turned a light on, but it wasn't enough, she wanted to stay up. So Devin took her downstairs where it is brighter (she asked for every light on in the house). She told him that monsters were in our room. Felt like having a light on might keep them away. She told Devin that she had a nightmare. Later that day I asked her what happened and she told me that she found a monster behind the bedroom door and at first she thought he was really mean, but he ended up being really nice and actually more scared of her than she was of him.

Friday, November 13, 2015

Scarlet and I

I dreamt I was walking through my childhood hometown. I don't remember much, but it seems like there was something big and scary up in the sky. Don't quote me on this, but the best mental image I can come up with is Godzilla-like. I don't remember for sure, though. I also don't remember much of what happened. I was with some people, and it seems like we were looking for others or some thing.


Scarlet woke up saying "I want to play a game, Daddy." I don't know if she dreamt this or if she just woke up fast, but she said it as she was opening her eyes, so I figured I'd write it down.

Thursday, November 12, 2015

Alien Egg

Dreamt someone put raw (cracked) eggs in a bunch of individual Ziplock bags and hung them up all over in a kitchen. I think this kitchen was at a workplace, and that it was supposed to be a prank of some sort. I remember looking at the different bags and suddenly saw an egg with a face that resembled the creature from the movie "Alien". It was biting at nothing really in particular, but was gnashing its teeth around violently. It terrified me. I started yelling for Devin and suddenly instead of being in a Ziplock bag, it was in a plastic grocery bag and was falling to the floor amongst a bunch of other similar bags. I searched everywhere for it but could not find it. At some point I started looking for it on videos, as if I had seen it on a tape before. I was looking on my parents' old console TV we had for so long when I was a child. After awhile I started thinking it was a fish I had seen and was looking for that (with the creepy Alien face) instead. I also thought I had seen it in a video of Abraham Lincoln, so I was looking for him, too.


Yeah.. I don't get it, either.

Circular Cage

Was about to fall asleep just now. Super, super close to asleep. Opened eyes a split second and saw what looked like a ball of some sort made of wire (like a circular bird cage or something. Size a bit bigger than hands). It was kind of in midair, in front of window, falling. I bolted upright, turned on light, looked around everywhere, and I'm still not completely convinced I dreamt it.

Shadows against window blinds look a lot like I could have imagined it... Sounds I hear coming from that area tell me it was something else. When I woke up I immediately thought it was a big bug and I was just seeing its wings it something.

Slightly terrified to fall asleep now..

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Blood Clot

Dreamt there was a pain in my left side, under my rib cage. The pain kept moving higher and higher. I was still living with my parents and was in the kitchen when I yelled for them to take me to the hospital. They slowly carried me to the hospital (in reality this hospital is a half hour drive away because my childhood home was metaphorically in Timbuktu, but they were carrying me the whole way on foot). At some point Devin takes place of them, and just like in my waking life, he stops and chats with people during important times. In this case, while I'm dying. Anyways, finally we get to my doctor and she ends up being the midwife that helped me deliver my daughter. While telling her what's wrong with me and begging her to get this clot out, she tells me that just getting it out won't work. She tells me she would have to put something in me (she calls it a 'lean-to' but I assume she's talking about a 'stent' or something.) I throw all of these kids' toys off of a table (similar toys of my daughter's, similar table I own), and lay onto it, begging her to hurry, because I am afraid I'm going to die any minute. Suddenly the left side of my face goes numb. I try to smile but can't on that side. Right before she puts me under, I ask her to give me a toy of my daughter's that was on the floor for good luck. I start to become half-asleep and think to myself that if I turn onto my back (or on my right side, I don't remember), then my arm and face, etc, will stop feeling so numb. Also while being worked on, my 'dream-within-a-dream' was of Stevie Nicks playing piano in a room that had a very '70s-'80s trailer vibe.

Sunday, November 8, 2015

The Zombie That Wouldn't Die

I can't understand my handwriting half the time, but I wrote a couples of sentences and the only phrases I understand is that I saw money and that I was going somewhere with my sister and told her I would pay for her to come with - wherever this may be.  I am at our dad's house, maybe waiting for her to get ready, and am looking out the screen door. I see the moon and suddenly it is getting closer and closer. I yell to my boyfriend Devin and BOOM, it hits Earth, but not in a catastrophic way. It is like this humongous ball of broken moon just a few miles away from me. Devin comes in and I tell him what happened and he says, "Didn't you hear?", like it had happened awhile ago. I walk outside (and now it looks nothing like my dad's property -- more like alleyways and sandy/concrete/shelters/brick walls on both sides of windy paths to the shelters). It's sunny in areas and dark in other areas. My sister is following me, and we are winding along through this area. I see a group of people eating at a picnic table. I look around and also see what kind of looks like the black hooded version of the Nameless Ghouls from the band Ghost sitting on this bench - except there are no masks, it's this empty/blank/invisible space. I point over at them to my sister because I'm not gonna lie, the invisible aspect of it was frightening. My sister tells me to quit pointing because I might get their attention and they could hurt me or something. Then this zombie-like person comes at me from behind and tries to suffocate me with his own shirt. I pull his shirt off of me and turn around to suffocate him with his own shirt and he just won't die. (durr..) Then the man-zombie turns into a lady-zombie and she tells me I need to die. I tell her that's not happening. She tries to kill me, so I try to embarrass her instead.

Friday, October 30, 2015

Everyone's Listening

I am at my sister's house and apparently she has a second story deck, because I am sitting on a chair there with this dude. I like him. We're talking about something - don't remember what. My sister wants to take our picture together.

Somehow we end up in a town that is kind of cartoon-ish. We're walking around, and I point up at the sky. It looks like there are cop cars off in the distance.... in the sky. The guy says something that is meant to explain what's happening, but I'm still really confused. We start to head for shelter, towards a school.

 I'm in the school looking for a radio station area. I see the dude I like, and he stops me and hands me these cups and tells me he has to go back home and grab something he forgot. I take the cups and head into the radio area. Lost, looking for something. (Something bad is going on, I just don't know what, and I am panicking.) A woman comes up to me with a microphone, about to hand it to me, and says "We're just going to start. Everyone's listening." (I'm assuming this guy I liked was supposed to be the speaker or something, I don't know.) I back away from the lady with my hands up, nervous, and tell her I don't know what's happening. I walk off into a darker area of the room, waking up.

Saturday, October 17, 2015

The Axman

Dreamt this morning that I was in a house that was apparently mine (but not in real life). It badly needed cleaning. I was sitting at a table in the kitchen and there was an empty container of ice cream sitting out. Suddenly it started jolting around like a mouse was in it or something. I peered in but didn't see anything and my first thought was maybe it was a ghost or something, but then my brain told me there are no such thing as ghosts, so it couldn't possibly be that. Then the container flew up into the air a short distance and I saw that a fly was carrying it. He must not have been strong enough, because it fell after a few feet. I left the kitchen and walked into this hallway that felt like my aunt's old house. I walked out into their living room (but remember: in the dream, this is my house). Devin and his dad were working on stuff like the floors or something. Some kind of construction work. This part is fuzzy, but it seems like I was in a bedroom at one point and had to leave the house and tried to avoid his dad for some reason.

Before all of this, I dreamt that I was in this really narrow concrete tunnel (at times it was just wire like a cage) and we were being chased by this man with a chainsaw or ax or something. He was outside of the tunnel waiting for us on either side to get out, sometimes reaching out at us when we got to the wired parts of the tunnel. At some point we stupidly (or maybe not -- spoiler alert) separated and I was by myself. I remember finding a small door like for a rabbit or bird cage and pushed it open and started running for dear life.... ....towards the killer. I don't know why. I thought maybe I could knock him out, I guess. Once he got a couple feet away from me I got this, "Oh, shiiit." feeling and realized this man was a lot bigger than I thought. Think 'The Rock' or Vin Diesel or something. Humongous. I went for it anyways and tried to push him over but he knocked me down instead. We were outside in a wooded area, autumn season, dead leaves, etc. When he pushed me down I had this vision of the group I was with in the tunnels with their heads cut off... and for some reason their insides looked robotic.

* The dude that had the chainsaw or ax looked just like the axman from "American Horror Story: Coven". I am pretty sure I dreamt of him because I am currently reading a book about unsolved murders and the first story is about the real man that axed a bunch of people in New Orleans back in the day.


(I miss writing down the supposed interpretations.. I've been stealing the boyfriend's laptop lately, so I may as well do this again):


Ice Cream

  • To see or eat ice cream in your dream denotes good luck, pleasure, success in love and satisfaction with your life. You need to savor the moment and enjoy it.  Alternatively, the dream may suggest that you need to cool off and not let your temper get out of hand. On the other hand, the ice cream may be a pun on "I scream". Perhaps there is something that you need to let out.

Fly
  • To see flies in your dream symbolize filth and dirtiness, either physical or emotional. It indicatesfeelings of guilt or a breakdown of a plan. Flies may also forewarn of a contagious sickness.Alternatively, the fly could represent an irritating and annoying person in your life. Perhaps someone does not know how to mind their business.
Ax
  • To see an ax in your dream indicates that you are overly controlling. It is symbolic of destruction, hostility, and the frustrations that you are experiencing. Perhaps you "have an ax to grind" with someone. Or the dream can be a metaphor that you are ready to "bury the ax" and make amends.
Tunnel
  • To see a tunnel in your dream represents the vagina, womb, and birth. Thus it may refer to a need for security and nurturance. 
    To dream that you are going through a tunnel suggests that you are exploring aspects of your subconscious. You are opening yourself to a brand new awareness. Alternatively, it indicates your limited perspective as in the phrase "tunnel vision". Are you being close minded or narrow minded in some issue?
Behead
  • To dream that you or someone else is being beheaded signifies poor judgment or a bad decision that you have made and regretted. You are not thinking clearly and are refusing to see the truth. You need to confront the situation or the person despite the pain and discomfort you might feel in doing so.  The dream also suggests that you have the tendency to act before you think.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Driver's Seat

Dreamt I was in this field, carrying a Beach Boys cd and walking to my aunt's car. I start driving and suddenly I'm driving erratically and I'm in the passenger's seat. I can't reach the pedals, so I try to get back into the driver's seat before a cop sees me.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Don't Fear The Reaper.

Dreamt I was on my parents' property just near the outskirts, close to the neighbor's cranberry marsh. My sister and I were being chased by this angry bear and we were running towards this truck. I see an asian woman on the other side of the truck and I yell to her about the bear. I see that her truck is smashed in through the windshield, so my sister and I crawl in that way and the asian woman follows. She takes her time getting around the car and as I try to pull her in through the windshield and the bear is getting closer, I appear next to my parents' house, so I don't know what happened to her. There was a guy that was standing near me and and he told me that Death has been watching me and following me. I kind of freaked out and ran into the house, thinking I was going to die or something. Then I freaked out even more when this other guy flew into the house. He had these black wings with purple smoke emitting off the wings and he was wearing all black.. I was terrified. I thought he was going to kill me and I asked him if I was going to die. He said, "Not if you'll let me help you." Then he pointed to my stomach and told me that a while ago I had a baby but lost it and that he needed to get rid of it because it was still inside of me and killing me. He took out this sack of seashells and put them in his hand. He told me to take it and it'll help with the pain. I asked him if I had to take one or the whole handful, and he laughed and told me to just take one. So I ate it and he laid me down on the floor and cut me open and pulled out my stomach and produced these tiny things that looked like Jelly Bellies. When I saw the jelly bellies I knew there was always something wrong with my digestion, and seeing this confirmed it. Then my sister Sarah came in and I told her what was going on and I showed her the incision, though I wasn't looking, and she freaked out and told me I was losing a lot of blood. Then all I see is her in the room, narrating the whole thing and showing pictures of our childhood and how much of a good sister I was to her. As if I died.

Hitchhiking.

Dreamt I was in this city and saw two tour buses parked beside a building. Then I see this guy and I start to console with him about a problem, but he shoves a gun in my face and walks me away from the city and into the woods. He ditches me when we get far enough in. Some how I have a baby with me and I walk around in the woods trying to find my "Uncle's farm". It's getting dark and I eventually find a road and try to hitchhike, but there are no traffic on this road. I start walking down the road and see a woman my age with a baby as well, so I stop to talk to her.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Sliding Uphill

Dreamt I either kissed Sara Quin or was at least dating her.

Then I was in this casino and met this guy. We went to this snowy mountain and he told me I would find peace if I slid down this bluish snow/sand on the mountain. I slid down but it freaked me out. It felt more like quicksand and also the blue sand/snow was collapsing from mountains higher than the one I was sliding down, and it was falling in around me. I wasn't scared in my body really, I was more projecting the feelings of terror outside of my body. Like I was also watching myself from above and freaking out in that body. Eventually I slid UP another hill (I know that sounds ridiculous) and at first I thought this was a good idea being higher but another landslide hits me and I can't breathe. I wake up breathing heavily.