Party Party Party.

Dreamt I was at my aunt and uncle's and apparently it was someone's birthday. There was all kinds of wrapping paper all over the floor. I was with a bunch of women with short pixie haircuts and we were all really drunk. They women started filing out of the living room and towards the back bedroom down the hallway and one of them came over and told me that we were going to go out and get trashed at the bars tonight. Before the woman followed them into the bedroom, she gave me a candle and put it in my pocket. I didn't really think anything of it. I decided to pick up the house a little bit before we left. When she came back, she pointed at the candle in my pocket and I took it out and looked at it. At first I thought she had the idea that I stole it from her, but she teased me and said I was too drunk to remember her putting it in my pocket.

Then I was in a completely different place. I was in a bedroom, looking into a dresser drawer, and I saw these kittens poking their heads out. I thought they were adorable.. At first. Then I noticed not all of these kittens were real kittens. Some were rats. I couldn't tell them apart, though. I knew the mice were trying to bite me when I grabbed at them to separate them from the kittens, but the kittens were trying to bite at me, too.

Leukemia.

Dreamt two teenage girls were at a party and one of them sees their crush. She walks over to talk to him, but he introduces her to his girlfriend next to him, so she walks away shyly and pretends to know this guy sitting down wearing a Beatles shirt. She sits on his lap like nothing happened.

Then I dreamt I was me and I was waiting for a bus at night. I was at my friend's old house, though. (In reality, the house is torn down and now there are villas all over the place for a waterpark, but in my dream the house was still there.. no waterpark). This girl that used to be my neighbor was also in my dream, though she was still the same age she was back then and I am the age I am now. She asked me if I was going back to school again (in high school, I was bullied at one point and eventually I quit school (came back eventually to finish), so I guess she knew I had left and in the dream was coming back to school). I told her I was, but I wasn't real excited about it. Finally a bus showed up and we crossed the road to get on, but other kids were piling out and at first I thought "Shit. It's nighttime. We must have missed school," but the bus driver allowed us on. We both sat down next to this girl with leukemia, I assume, since she was bald and had a scarf over her head. I felt tall compared to everyone, a giant. I could barely fit and could feel the ceiling hitting my head constantly. I remember I was chewing gum at the time, too, because I was worried the gum would fall out of my mouth and into the girl's hair.

Somehow I switched to being in my parents' kitchen. There was cake in pieces all over the floor and I was picking the pieces up and putting them into a trash bag. The pieces of cake were sopping wet with milk, though. It felt a lot like touching a wet sponge when I picked the pieces up. I even wrung the cake out to try to keep from getting milk in the bag, but then I noticed a hole in the bag and tried to tie a knot in the bag where the hole was so that nothing would spill out, but things fell out anyway. I went to put the cake pieces back into the bag but they all turned into rice krispies.

Oh, that first part I dreamt about (the party).. I dreamt this because I am in the process of reading a book about two friends, one having cancer. In one part of the book they are at a party and one of the girls sees her ex with another girl and she tries to act cool. I'm guessing this is why I dreamt of a leukemia patient in the second part of my dream.

Big Party

Dreamt I was at a huge party with all of Devin's family on his mother's side.

Dreamt this because of New Years celebration. We celebrated his aunt and uncle's wedding anniversary.

Gay Ending.

Dreamt I was in college, corresponding through the internet. I'm working on math. Very confusing and impossible fractions, to be exact. My mom and sister and some random old lady are trying to help me with my homework, but at some point the old lady distracts me by noticing a pearl bracelet I'm wearing. I explain something about it, and then I get back to my homework and have to click on this link to talk to a small group of other classmates online and the link wouldn't show, it was broken. Then my mom gives me this graphic novel and tells me excitedly about it. It's this woman that looks only slightly like her. She's a detective and going through a divorce. (In real life, my mom has always wanted to be a detective thanks to shows like Matlock, Murder She Wrote, Perry Mason, Law & Order, etc.. She's also divorced.) So I look through the book, I remember lots of reds, yellows and blues in the book. Also, at some point the woman grabs a bunch of produce from a supermarket and starts chucking the fruit at her ex-husband's house.

This next part I cannot for the life of me make out. It's a bunch of scribbles on my journal. Here's the closest I can come up with:

Took photo camera sound T&S boyman ??? <- Boyman? Batman? Boothawn? Boy's hawn? I don't know.

Then I'm walking up the pond road where my family used to live and the ground is covered in snow. I notice my mom's legs sticking out of a plastic container-tub behind an electric fence. I go over and realize the electric fence isn't on, so I climb through and pull my mom out and she's drunk off her ass. Apparently she fell into it and didn't realize. So I walk her up the hill/road while she staggers.

Then I'm in a Walmart parking lot, looking into the back of a truck. Some guy is sitting in it and he has three stuffed animals that I had owned when I was little. One of them was "Frankie", my monster of frankenstein doll I cherished as a kid. I pointed him out and told the guy I wanted the doll back. He grabbed it but the doll was tangled up in the thread of the two other dolls. I climbed into the truck to help untangle him and the truck started moving and eventually parked in the driveway of the house I grew up in. The dream turned slightly sexual for a few minutes. The guy I was with kept brushing his hands near my thighs.

Then I'm in this city hall and there are tables all over the place, booklets with the word "Homophobia" and pictures of rainbows splashed on the covers. A person with the booklet tells me I missed the meeting. We were supposed to talk about the negative effects of homophobia. I talk to the person for a few seconds about it, and then I walk out of the building. I start walking down the street and I have my dog Moses with me. (He's a tiny little guy, half-Papillon, half-Chihuahua). I see my brother Joran in the doorway of an arcade room and he smiles at Moses and hugs me and says he misses us (the family. He lives in Florida.) Then he asks me where Sarah (sister) and Mom live, and I tell him they live in town above Sportsman's Bar and he looks half in anger, half in disappointment and says "I wonder why they never visit me, then." We both walk into the arcade room and Joran starts playing one of the games. My uncle Thane is standing next to him also playing a game. Joran wins a game and starts typing his name in but for some reason I saw, "Wecarealot" Which is a Faith No More song. Which is a band Joran loves. I point at the high scores and say, "That looks like "We Care A Lot" and Joran laughs and starts singing the song and some girl turns around behind us and puts her arm around Joran and sings along as well (and at some point they sing the words "gays and lesbos" in the song.. I remember that.)

How Does It Feel?

Dreamt that whenever I go to bed, I go to this realm. (I know, I know. That makes no sense. Well, maybe you think it does make sense and you're thinking, "Obvious Alyssa is very obvious." But I mean I actually fell into this realm after falling asleep in another dream. It was kind of like Sliders, only the wormhole appears when I go to bed and start dreaming.) Anyways, enough explaining. I dreamt I was in this gay bar with this guy that looked like a mix between Ben Affleck and Stephen Trask (of Hedwig & The Angry Inch).. More or less, he looked like the lead singer of Semi-Precious Weapons with a black modernized mushroom haircut. He and I and 11 other people were competing in this band competition. We chose the song Blue Monday by Orgy. Strangely all the other groups chose a bunch of Christian-sounding songs. After the song was over, I walked to this window seat and the guy and I started making out. I started thinking in my head "Oh god, if we have sex, I'll wake up pregnant and have to explain everything to Devin.." I was so happy the guy I was with was gay, it made me feel like I shouldn't be guilty about not really being attracted to him either. It must have been the non-existant liquor. After that I was outside of the gas station in Warrens and was talking to two old highschool classmates.

The Hairy Letter.

This is a weird dream. I dreamt that I received a letter from my dad that was coded .. with hair. In this waking life, I now realize how dumb this might sound, but I'll go on.. My dad (in real life) is dating some woman and he used to be an alcoholic before he met her. In my dream, she broke up with him and he wrote me this letter telling me that she doesn't love him anymore.. But instead of written out words, there were typed up questions, and the answers were little hairs taped into the shape of "yes" or "no"s. My dad has a beard and I can only think that this must be beard hairs (Godddd, I hope so, hahaha). Anyways, at some point he comes to the house I was in at the time (the house wasn't anywhere I've ever been before), and he's crying. I wake my sister up (she's sleeping on the floor) and show her the letter. She tells me that "We can't tell Dad what happened.." (Which doesn't make sense. My father wrote the letter, but we can't show him it?) because she's worried he'll start drinking again. Then all three of us hear above us the sound of his girlfriend moving around in the house. It was almost like we were in a secret annex or something, that we were worried she'd find out how to get to us. She seemed evil in my dream, even though I didn't see her. It just felt that way.

10/2/10 - Sugar.

I dreamt I was at my childhood home. I was getting sugar out of these old-time-looking thermostats. I guess that's where we kept the sugar. I remember having to break open the thermostat to get to the sugar, except the sugar looked more like rice. I also kept thinking there might be dead mice in the thermostat/sugar holders. My dad made me tea after that, and it was three cups stacked on top of one another. It seemed normal to me to have three cups of tea. My dad then grabbed at his back like he was in pain and asked me if I ever had "railroad bones". I asked him what that was, and he said it's when your bones are weak and you start to fall, your bones will start to slide down until they "catch" onto another bone so that you don't fall. I told him I never had that, and he said, "Oh, you just wait!" like it was arthritis or something simple like that. We decided to watch a movie but we couldn't decide on one. Then dad noticed another movie that was sitting up high on a shelf. At first, I thought it was this porn movie my boyfriend and I owned at one time, and I was embarrassed if my dad saw it, so I tried to snatch it up so I could name some boring movie off to him. He grabbed it first and it ended up being a movie called La Vie En Rose. (This is scary, because I've never seen this film or even heard of it, really. Though when I woke up, the title sounded familiar, so I searched and there really is a film called that.) When the movie played, it was Leslie Bibb and Shiri Appleby. The two were having sex against some door, and on the floor was a bunch of dead people. After the two finished having sex, the dead awoke or arose and one asked, "Is she still alive?" and started searching for someone. Then I woke up.

2/26/10 - Keebler Elves and Stabucks.

Another dream from awhile ago since I didn't write a dream down yet again:


Posted 26 February 2010 - 08:24 PM
This is creepy, but a few days ago I was on Twitter (in real life) reading my "awesome people" list, which consists of T&S and others, and I'm following Tegan's girlfriend on there, too. Cuz I'm a stalker like that, I guess. Anyways, she mentioned something about how much she missed and loved starbucks or something, I guess she went there recently. ANYWAYS.. Creepy, but I dreamt that night that I was at my parent's old house, and I was with this group of women and we were all lounging about on a few couches talking. Everyone had light blankets and were covering up, chatting. I remember turning to the person on my right and it was Tegan's girlfriend, and she was telling me that Starbucks was really good and she was jonesing for some. It was kind of weird. I know I dream a lot of T&S respectively, but never have I dreamt of their girlfriends. hahaha.. It was werid. Anyways, after that I remember her and I and the rest of these women went into this big factory where these keebler elves or something were making this orange concoction. I don't remember anything else after that.

Blanket

• To see a blanket in your dream, symbolizes warmth, love, security and protection. You may be seeking for some form of shelter from the outside world. Consider also how your dream may be calling attention to a "cover-up" in some situation or circumstance in your waking life. To dream that you are wrapped in a blanket, indicates your fear of the unknown. You may feel some sort of threat/chaos or sense some coldness from those around you. To dream that you are covering or wrapping someone in a blanket, indicates your desire to care for that person.

Factory

• To dream that you are at a factory, represents repetitious thinking and an old way of doing things. It is symbolic of predictability and unchanging habits. Alternatively, it signifies business, productivity, energy and bustling activity. You are a person that can get things done.

8/20/10 - Stealing Wine From A Car.

Dreamt I was at a party. I wasn't feeling good at all, so Devin had to carry me. People kept coming up and asking me what was wrong, if I was alright. I shied away and buried my face into Devin's chest. Not really because I felt bad, I actually wanted the attention, I wanted them to worry about me. Devin puts me in this bed with two other people that were sleeping.


Later on, after feeling better, I walk to this kitchen and I start looking for food. There are three elderly people sitting on a couch. One guy with a cane in his hand tells me there is some red wine I could drink that was sitting on a plate (a used plate, mind you) on the microwave. It's already in the glass, so I assume it's his own drink. I take a sip, to be nice, and set it back down. He tells me he stole the wine from someone's parked car outside, and he chuckles at that. Then I walk away and notice a few classmates in another part of the house. I chat with them for awhile. I don't remember anything after that.

Sick

• To dream that you or others are sick, denotes discordance and trouble in your life. It may signal a part of yourself that needs to be healed, either physically or mentally. Perhaps you are wallowing in your own self-pity. You need to quit feeling sorry for yourself.

Three

• Three signifies life, vitality, inner strength, completion, imagination, creativity, energy, self-exploration and experience. Three stands for a trilogy, as in the past, present, and future or father, mother, and child or body, mind, and soul, etc.

• Elderly

• To see an elderly person in your dream, represents wisdom or spiritual power. Pay attention to the message or advice that the elderly person is conveying to you. He or she can help provide life answers and solutions to your problems and try to guide you toward the right direction.

Wine

• To dream of drinking wine, symbolizes festivity, celebration, companionship, satisfaction and success. You are content with the way your life is going. The dream may also be a pun on "whining" and how you like to whine about things. In particular, to dream that you are drinking red wine, signifies excess and sensuality.

7/26/2010 - Competition.

I'm in this big tent. I'm dating Tegan Quin. She's dating someone else at first, though.. She goes outside to call this person.. I'm in this tent still, sifting through pictures. Then Tegan comes back in from making her phone call and kisses me as if she wasn't dating someone else and it was with me this whole time.

xx


Devin and I work together. We are in a lunchroom, competing for some girl's attention. Either a famous crush, or a townie crush.. I'm drinking coffee and it's 2/3s gone. Cold. I push it away and notice Devin is going to win the girl's heart.

xx


Dreamt I awoke. I grabbed for the glass of ice water I keep by my side of the bed, but notice that soda is there. I go for the soda instead. After actually awaking, I think that the dream is so real that I had to check my nightstand for a glass of soda just to be sure..

7/22/10 - Dad Is Pissed.

Devin and I were standing on a street in Tomah. Two kids, both boys, come over with their dad marveling at the teal Mustang that we own. They ask to take a ride in it. We allowed. So Devin is driving me, this father, and his two kids. We start heading for Minnesota and the family is replaced by my dad. He's in the back seat all chipper to go visit his dad in Minnesota, and we drop him off eventually. When we get to Mom's, we find her drunk, half asleep on her mattress and half-naked too, thankfully she had a sheet over her though. She is on the phone with Dad, yelling at us about why we didn't bring Dad back with us. I am so embarrassed immensely with her intoxication and nudity, that I tell Devin to go into a different room. Then I tell Mom that we'll pick up dad, even though he didn't tell us to pick him up right away or anything. (Dad really was mad, and he really did want to come back home.) Mom tells Dad that we'll head back right away, but he says "Forget it," and hangs up. Then I woke up.

Driving

• To dream that you are driving a vehicle, signifies your life's journey and your path in life. The dream is telling of how you are moving and navigating through life.

Telephone

• To dream that you are having a telephone conversation with someone your know, signifies an issue that you need to confront with that person. This issue may have to do with letting go some part of yourself.