Watermelon

Dream within a dream. I don't remember the first one, but I remember waking up. Walking out to a room to see my niece k sitting in a chair. At first I wasn't sure it was my daughter or not but obviously not. Walked downstairs a little annoyed my husband still wasn't home yet with my kids, and that his family was here. Found my sister in law and asked if she knew where husband was. I can't remember what she said but that she went one place and I went another. Then she said something that took me off guard. She mentioned how I must have gone to [some random place] in my dream within a dream and I was like "wait, how did you know that?!" Because it felt familiar and like it was what I had dreamt about. 

Right before I woke up I remember dreaming about watermelon.. craving it. 

Kiss

Dreamt a lot of random stuff. I'll just do what I can remember. I was very lucid and checking by seeing a ups worker or whatever drop something off and I ran outside after him and came up to his car and kissed him. Then, I got greedy and decided I'd try finding a celeb crush. Yelled their name all over lolol and ended up in a muddy wooded area. Kept walking., and saw this weird inception style thing where the hill went straight up. I tried going up and was able to, but then fell onro the "ground" that was once the sky. Woke up in another dream of my husband telling me I had to wake up. I worried he heard me yelling for the celeb. Saw my dog Sunny was on my lap with an old childhood dog named Wyatt. They were getting mad at each other so I grabbed Wyatt's mouth so he wouldn't bite her. Saw a kitten. Picked it upbin surprise. Showed my husband and found another kitten next to the one I found first. He showed me a mom cat he found and I was thinking maybe we should drop the kittens off at his mom's because she apparently lost her cats somehow. Somewhere in this dream I remember I was in a store with my mom and realized I forgot my shoes. She said she did too. We walked over to look for shoes.

Woke up to real life husband calling me. 

VR Set

Damn. Wait I remember now. 

First I dreamt I had this vr set and I needed that to watch gmm live episodes or something. I remember something being on my floor while sitting down and I kicked it with my foot and wondered if they could see it on their end too. Then I remember R was walking into a van and sat down in the back of it or something and you could see his outline in blue My daughter was watching TV and R was joking that he was on a toilet going to the bathroom lol. 

Then I "woke up" and needed to write this on my dream journal. I was having troubles remembering what I dreamt. Then I woke up in real life. 

Dog Fights

Deep sleep. Dreamt I was in a dream and that I was laying in bed. I could see my two childhood dogs (technically they were my mom's) dogs fighting. I kept trying to break them up from a fight but couldn't do it myself so I had to yell for my husband, my mom, etc... no one came to help. Then I'm back in bed. My music starts playing so I try to turn it off quick and move my phone over to my bedside table. My husband comes in to wake me up and I try to fake sleep but suddenly when I try to open my eyes I can barely do it. Can't really move my hands either. Everything feels heavy. I tell my husband the dream I had and that I was yelling for him or even mom and no one came to help etc... I'm getting out of bed and it's soooo comfy looking. It's tall, a four-poster style, the sheets are a dark coral pink. I walk down to the living room and I can't remember what I did but I pissed off a cat we own accidentally. After pissing her off, she wouldn't fucking stop trying to scratch me/hurt me. I tossed her away and she landed her claws into a door (I was suddenly in my childhood home again). 

... Husband called me in real life, so it woke me up. 

Blood Clot

Dreamt there was a pain in my left side, under my rib cage. The pain kept moving higher and higher. I was still living with my parents and was in the kitchen when I yelled for them to take me to the hospital. They slowly carried me to the hospital (in reality this hospital is a half hour drive away because my childhood home was metaphorically in Timbuktu, but they were carrying me the whole way on foot). At some point Devin takes place of them, and just like in my waking life, he stops and chats with people during important times. In this case, while I'm dying. Anyways, finally we get to my doctor and she ends up being the midwife that helped me deliver my daughter. While telling her what's wrong with me and begging her to get this clot out, she tells me that just getting it out won't work. She tells me she would have to put something in me (she calls it a 'lean-to' but I assume she's talking about a 'stent' or something.) I throw all of these kids' toys off of a table (similar toys of my daughter's, similar table I own), and lay onto it, begging her to hurry, because I am afraid I'm going to die any minute. Suddenly the left side of my face goes numb. I try to smile but can't on that side. Right before she puts me under, I ask her to give me a toy of my daughter's that was on the floor for good luck. I start to become half-asleep and think to myself that if I turn onto my back (or on my right side, I don't remember), then my arm and face, etc, will stop feeling so numb. Also while being worked on, my 'dream-within-a-dream' was of Stevie Nicks playing piano in a room that had a very '70s-'80s trailer vibe.

No Clue..

Okay, this was awhile ago. I also don't know what it means/is about, so I'm just going to write what I wrote, word for word:

Dreamt dreaming. Was tough life. May have been aging.

Snake Playing Poker.

Dreamt my friend Anna visited me, but we never got to see each other. Anytime I would wake up, she'd be sleeping and vice versa. When I finally did wake up when she was awake, she wasn't herself anymore, she was an old elementary school friend. Also, she and my sister and I were playing poker with this snake/human hybrid. It was weird. It looked like a snake but it talked to us and could do human-like things... Like play poker. Anyways, my sister told the snake not to bite me or my sister because we were both pregnant.... Which we're not.

End Of The World

I'm at my parents' old house and I have my dog in my arms. I hear people singing in the trees outside. I'm not sure what song, it could have been three (very different) songs..: Don't Fear The Reaper, Thank God I'm A Country Boy, or America The Beautiful. I know, how can I possibly not tell these songs apart? I don't know. Anyways, I walk outside to see who is singing in the trees, but instead I look over in the direction the sun is setting, near the cranberry marsh. I watch as fireworks go off. Then suddenly the sky gets dark and there are lights lighting up in odd places in the sky. I think that it's the end of the world and I cling to my dog as tightly as possible. I turn around, not wanting to see what will happen, but when I turn, I am back in the position I was in, facing the cranberry marsh. I turn around again and still I am facing the cranberry marsh. I do this a few times, utterly confused as to why I couldn't turn around. At some point when I turn around I notice a white shadow of a person in the reflection of the window in the door. I freak out and close my eyes and cradle my dog in my arms, trying to wake myself up. I wake up in bed and hear Devin watching TV (the video looks like old-school Little Rascals and the audio is super loud and it sounds like newer Rob Zombie music). I think to myself that this must have been why I was having a nightmare. I grab my journal to write down my dream but the journal breaks apart and pages fall out. I still continue to write instead of grabbing pages and worrying about my journal and that's when I notice that this isn't right, so I must be dreaming. Then I really wake up.

There Is No Fate But What We Make For Ourselves.

Dreamt I was Linda Hamilton. :) lol. A meteor had hit Earth and I woke up and called for a private helicopter. Meanwhile, I walked to this building that is like a quarantine. While the staff there was trying to make sure I was alright, I was thinking to myself that in the future they would 'clean' me and find something strange and want to fix me, but in the process the way that they fix me makes me come into contact with something that ends up giving me cancer. I tell myself I need to make sure they don't fix me, this why I can change fate.

Come To My Window.

Dreamt I heard Sara Quin singing a little bit of Leo Sayer's You Make Me Feel Like Dancing. Then I was walking down the street and I can hear this music playing in my head and I start strutting down the street. I. DON'T. KNOW. WHY.

Also dreamt I talked with my friend Anna on the phone.

Then I dreamt I was a little girl, maybe 6 years old, and I was alone in this hallway (that was also a thrift store) trying to put on this skirt that was too small. There were people one room away and their voices were getting closer and I was getting worried they would see my underwear. It was a family that walked in. I don't remember if the skirt ever got on, but I remember a little boy that the family brought in had a crush on me.

And also dreamt that I was in my old childhood bedroom and could hear the actress AJ Langer talking outside my bedroom (in the living room) about how she was getting married soon and that she was worried her budget wasn't going to work for it. She wanted to go back to college and she was 26 already. She was worried she wouldn't have a shot at going back to school. She started crying outside and left the house and walked around past my window and when she saw me she stopped and looked at me. I opened the window and she crawled in. I told her that I heard her dilemma and that I was so sorry about everything she was going through. She talked about her budget for a second and I listened intently. When she finished telling me her problem, I gave her a big hug. I had the urge to kiss her but I knew it was all in vain. Instead, I told her she was such a good friend to me. Suddenly my hair falls out in clumps while I hug her and I freak out. I scream a little and this father figure walks in. He's pissed that my hair was cut. Apparently the little boy from the last part of the dream had cut my hair without my knowledge. The father figure yells at me for getting into a situation like this and AJ tells me she's had similar stalker issues before. While this dad is yelling at me, AJ and I are pulling out the loose hair.

Into The Woods

Dreamt that my boyfriend was hanging around someone else, and I was so pissed that I ran off into the woods. I hid up in this tree hoping to god that Devin wouldn't be able to find me. My bird Silly was in the tree, too. The tree I was in was up against a house, right next to a window. I was kind of between the tree and these curtains. My sister's ex-friend found me up in the tree and told me that she needed me to help her unlock something and save this woman (whom happened to be the girl my boyfriend was messing around with from before). I remember being on the floor of a bedroom with all these different pieces of gum on the floor with the wrappers open and the gum poking out. I had to find the right flavor to unlock whatever it was that was keeping this woman prisoner. I remember thinking that the answer had to do with a Tegan and Sara song (to be specific, a Sara one). I ended up sabotaging the whole thing because I didn't want to save the woman. Devin wasn't happy with me because I ruined the whole thing and risked her life. Then I woke up, but only to be in another dream in bed writing down my dream I had just then. I opened my journal and found that it was set up more like a crossword, so I was having difficulties writing down my dream in such little space I had.

* I should say that the reason I dreamt that last bit is because when I first started writing down dreams, I'd find the first paper I had nearby and quickly write down a dream, be it a crossword puzzle. I have so many crossword books that have dreams written all around trailing in circles from outer to inner and some that continue on other pages..

How Does It Feel?

Dreamt that whenever I go to bed, I go to this realm. (I know, I know. That makes no sense. Well, maybe you think it does make sense and you're thinking, "Obvious Alyssa is very obvious." But I mean I actually fell into this realm after falling asleep in another dream. It was kind of like Sliders, only the wormhole appears when I go to bed and start dreaming.) Anyways, enough explaining. I dreamt I was in this gay bar with this guy that looked like a mix between Ben Affleck and Stephen Trask (of Hedwig & The Angry Inch).. More or less, he looked like the lead singer of Semi-Precious Weapons with a black modernized mushroom haircut. He and I and 11 other people were competing in this band competition. We chose the song Blue Monday by Orgy. Strangely all the other groups chose a bunch of Christian-sounding songs. After the song was over, I walked to this window seat and the guy and I started making out. I started thinking in my head "Oh god, if we have sex, I'll wake up pregnant and have to explain everything to Devin.." I was so happy the guy I was with was gay, it made me feel like I shouldn't be guilty about not really being attracted to him either. It must have been the non-existant liquor. After that I was outside of the gas station in Warrens and was talking to two old highschool classmates.

Short But Bittersweet.

Today I dreamt.. well, not so much. I only remember two things. The first thing I dreamt was that I was in this dark place and I don't know if I was actually in the dream and I was just seeing this happen, or if I was in it but I didn't play a part at all. I saw Tegan Quin knelt over this bassinet and there was a baby inside. She was talking to the baby about how it had to sleep in its bassinet on a dresser. She said something like, "Don't worry.. When I was a baby, I had to sleep on dressers, too." That's all I remember for that part.


Then I dreamt I was kissing some hottie and woke up in another dream in bed with Devin, kissing, and I was so repulsed by the sudden change that I groaned and rolled over.

8/21/10 - Angry Dancers.

Oh good god another embarrassing one.


I'm in this strange place. On this busy street. I am doing this puzzle-type of thing. It's hard to explain. I had to do these things in order to get it right. For example, I had to take a picture of someone and get a glare off of their hair, from the sun. If I couldn't finish these puzzles, I'd "wake up" from this "dream" and have to start over again. Kind of like in the movie Groundhogs Day.


I'm on this bus with a BUNCH of people. We are at this fast food restaurant trying to decide what we'll get for food (at some point I am in the restaurant, but in the beginning I was on the bus). The manager of the place says he/she won't sell us anything because we can't make up our minds. Even when we finally decide, they still refuse to sell us anything. I get pissed, because I'm starving. I also remember an ex-friend of mine was working at this place. She was wearing a black shirt and was also refusing to serve us anything. Somehow I'm BACK on the bus, and the bus driver tells us we have to pay them again for riding. This bus eventually turns out to be the band Hanson's bus. Even though it looks like a regular Greyhound bus. I have no money that I'm willing to give up, so I get off the bus. I walk into this huge building that from the outside looks like a casino. I recall wearing a tank top and a skirt and I hear someone whistle at me. I walk in with Taylor Hanson and a few others behind us. We all walk around the slot machines, and eventually I lose Taylor. My aunt Erin walks up to me and we walk for awhile and then she sees some coworkers of hers (who happen to be the fast food management that wouldn't allow to serve us awhile ago). I decide not to walk over to these people with her, so I continue walking. I start walking towards tables, getting away from the casino area. There are a lot of people sitting at the tables, all wearing elegant dresses or tuxedos mostly in colors of black and red. Everyone stands up simultaneously and the start ballroom dancing around the room. I have to zigzag around them. I notice Zac Hanson is walking around them, too. We both don't know why these people are dancing. The people that are dancing notice that we aren't dancing, and they look angry, but continue dancing. I start swaying when I walk, to pretend like I know what's going on and he does the same. We keep zigzagging around the angry dancers.

Fast Food

• To see or eat fast food in your dream, indicates that you are not taking the time to cater to your emotions. You are not taking good care of your physical or mental health.

Bus

• To dream that you are riding a bus, implies that you are going along with the crowd. You are lacking originality and control over where your life is taking.

Casino

• To dream that you are in a casino, signifies the risk-taker within you. If you are a reserved or passive person, then the dream suggests that you should take a chance. If you are not, then it implies that you need to make a more informed decision instead of relying on fate.

Ballroom Dancing

• To dream that you are ballroom dancing, indicates success in your endeavors. You have a positive outlook in life and are willing try anything and give it your all.

8/16/10 - The Hallway.

Dreamt I was in a school building. It was a pretty big building and built more like a college than anything else. I'm wearing uncomfortable shoes, so I walk into this room that looks like a place to shower. Many stalls. I feel like I shouldn't be in here, like it's not my school. I grab shoes that are in a shelf painted with colors you would normally see in an elementary school classroom. As I grab the shoes, I hide in one of the shower stalls, thinking a student will catch me in here, stealing someone's shoes.

Now I'm on this road. I have this soggy shoebox in my hands, (the bottom was wet with rain or something and was falling apart) and inside of the shoebox are kittens. While walking down the road I see a bus coming up towards me, so I get towards the side to let it pass but I notice Tegan Quin is driving the bus. The bus stops after it passes me and I can see this person in her rear-view mirror. We stare at each other for a few seconds, but then I continue walking and she continues driving.

Now I'm in Warrens, WI. On the main street. There's a lot of people out, perhaps Cranfest is going on. I'm sitting by this picnic table with my family and they start to walk away and up these steps into a church. I go to follow them and I notice my aunt Donna standing on the steps. She shows no emotion, though. Like she's just a shell. My sister walks into the church with her friends and I run after but when I enter the room, I'm alone. I am in this hallway that circles around the whole building. I walk all the way around the building looking for my sister or any of her friends but I cannot find them. Finally the hallway opens into this lobby/bar. I start to walk towards where the hallway starts up again on the other side of the bar, but a bunch of men of mexican or american indian decent start to surround me (I don't know why I couldn't tell a difference between the two ethnicities in my dream, but I just couldn't). I freak out. I know they are going to either harm or rape me. I start running towards them, towards the hallway, but dodging them as I go. The guy I try to dodge grabs me and I scream as loud as I can, even louder a second time. Even with him holding me in place, I try pushing him forward so I can get into the hallway. Eventually I get away and I have my eyes closed when my sister finds me in the hallway. She tells me I was dreaming and that I made two high-pitch screams and then said two names while dreaming: "Kid up" and "T. Honey".

I don't understand that dream.

Shoebox

• To see a shoebox in your dream, suggests that you are headed toward a new direction in life. You are in for a new experience.

Bus Driver

• To see a bus driver in your dream, indicates leadership in some group idea or plan. It is symbolic of collective power. Alternatively, it suggests that you are going around in circles and showing little progress.

Lost

• To dream that you are lost, suggests that you have lost your direction in life or that you have lost sight of your goals. You may be feeling worried and insecure about the path you are taking in life. If you try to call for help, then it means that you are trying to reach out for support. You are looking for someone to lean on. Alternatively, being lost means that you are still adjusting to a new situation in which the rules and conditions are ever changing.

• Hallway

• To see a hallway in your dream, symbolizes self exploration. It is the beginning of the path that you are taking in life. You are going through a transitional phase and journeying into the unknown. It also signals spiritual enlightenment, emotional growth physical prowess, new opportunities and mental passages in your life.

Crowd

• To see an unruly crowd in your dream, signifies that the worries and problems around you are pressing in on you. You are expressing great distress.

11/30/09 - Sleep Walking?

Forgot my dream, here's an old one I had that I posted in a message board:

Posted 30 November 2009 - 10:32 AM

Double-posting only because it won't let me edit..



But I had a really weird dream that got even weirder when I woke up. I dreamt that my dog was scratching at the bedroom door, scratching, scratching.. It got annoying, because I was sleeping (in my dream), so I went over to the door to open it and my dog started pouncing up getting excited. My hair was in a ponytail, and I felt someone pulling on it. It was my dog, he kept pouncing up and grabbing at my hair and tugging at it. Once the door opened, he left and I went back into my bed. When I was all settled in bed, I started to feel pressure on my head and I tried to pick my hands up to feel my head to see if something was sitting on me or something, but my hands were really really heavy and I couldn't lift them. At this point I was gradually waking up outside of my dream, and my head still had the pressure feeling. I looked at my hands and they were stiff kind of.. It was weird.. I think I'm just getting a slight headache, but that dream was really weird, and kind of scary..

Another weird thing is that about a half-hour after I woke up, my dog came into the bedroom and started yipping at me because he wanted something, but I didn't know what he wanted.. It eerily reminded me of my dream.

Dog

• To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. The dream dog may also represent someone in your life who exhibits these qualities. Alternatively, to see a dog in your dream, indicates a skill that you may have ignored or forgotten. To hear barking in your dream, suggests that you are annoying those around you with grumpiness and fussiness. The dream may also be analogous to your tendency of barking orders at people, instead of asking or talking kindly. Alternatively, barking refers to unhappy and disgruntled companions. To dream that a dog bites you on the leg, suggests that you have lost your ability to balance aspects of your life. You may be hesitant in approaching a new situation or have no desire to move forward with your goals. Alternatively, it symbolizes disloyalty.

• Pulling

• To dream that you are pulling something, refers to your burdens and struggles. You have difficulties accomplishing your tasks and goals. You need to unload and/or let go some of your responsibilities. Perhaps it is a relationship that you need to let go of. Consider also what or who you are pulling. Alternatively, the dream may be a pun on your "pull" or influence for some favor or decision.

• Hair

• To see hair in your dream, signifies sexual virility, seduction, sensuality, vanity, and health. It is indicative of your attitudes.

Bed

• To see your bed in your dream, represents your intimate self and discovery of your sexuality. If you are sleeping in your own bed, then it denotes security and restoration of your mind. You may be looking for domestic bliss, for peace or for some form of escape.

Pressure

• To dream of pressure, symbolizes stress and tension in your life. You are feeling overwhelmed, overworked, or overloaded. The dream may be telling you to take it easy. Relax.

Heavy

• To dream that something is too heavy, symbolizes your burdens, work load and responsibilities. You are carrying too much on your shoulders and need to prioritize. Take a break and lighten up.

• Arm

• To see your arms as the emphasis in your dream, indicate your nurturance side and your ability to reach out and care for people. Alternatively, it may represent the struggles and challenges in your life. Consider the pun "arm yourself" which implies that you need to protect yourself, be more aggressive and take a firmer stance on things or the pun "up in arms", representing anger and your readiness to argue.

2/27/10 - I Talked To Walt.

Could have sworn I wrote this day down, but I can't seem to find the evidence for that, so I'm going to have to find an old entry for today. Found this on the message board I go onto, in a Dream thread:



Posted 27 February 2010 - 03:06 PM


I'm barely awake right now, but i want to remember:


Everything is black and white in this part. Bright. I'm in this huge apartment in a big city, with wooden floors. I grab a Tegan & Sara CD and blast Back In Your Head and start dancing all giddily for some reason. The weather outside the big window of the room I was in (which looks like a living room/dining room/kitchen, if i remember right) is heavily-clouded and down-pouring.. I'm wishing I had a camera with how beautiful it looked outside, and for some reason I wanted to take the picture doing a Grand Jeté in front of the window (I had to google this, but it's the jump, doing a front split, in midair.). I did the Grand Jeté anyways, a few times. I guess it was dark-lit at the time and I thought it'd make a beautiful picture against the bright, paris-esque rainy weather outside. I felt a little lonely, though, so although I was giddy, I did want company.

Dreaming in color now: Now, I'm in my house, and there are boxes about the place on the floor. I call my mom and tell her that since she's coming over, if maybe she could help pack a few things in her car to be dropped at this house my boyfriend and I are moving into. Then I'm in this different house, in the town my parents live in. For some reason, I think that I've lived a long time in one of the other houses my boyfriend and I looked at that we were thinking of buying at the time (in real life), and that we only lived in our current (real) home for a short while... Anyways, I remember my boyfriend's family are looking at the new house, and I'm standing at the window waiting for my parents to come visit and see the new place. I remember the outside of the house we bought was bright, but darker, red. If that makes sense. Think of a cabin-red exterior.. Anyways, my mom gets there with my aunt, and I begin to worry about my dad. It's weird, too. For two reasons. One: I know kind of where we were located in town, in real life, because I remember thinking about how we were close to the Veteran's Administration Hospital. And two: It felt eerie, like I was copying real life with this next part. I was watching for my dad's car to pull up and I kept hearing sirens for an ambulance go off, and I was worried he might have had an accident (because I did this in real life a lot when I was little, stare out the window waiting for my dad to come home, worried he was in a car accident). Finally he pulled up in this blue geo metro, which is the car he had driven when I was little. He pulled into the garage. Then I turned back to the house and it changed a bit in structure. I was in this room, and I saw my boyfriend and his father head down a hall and out the front door straight ahead. I could see my boyfriend's mom and her family at a table, down the hall and a little out of sight behind the wall. She's telling everyone that my boyfriend and his dad always does this, leaving to do something in the garage before dinner, so we may as well eat without them. The room I was in had two tables. One had my grandpa, and he set his plate down and then sat down slowly to eat. I looked over at the other table and my great-uncle Walt, whom died in real life when I was seventeen, was sitting next to a woman, talking. I kind of choked up a bit, because I knew he died. He said something to the woman, and even though I knew he was talking to her, I asked him what he said and sat down next to him. If you have ever seen the movie Drop Dead Fred, you'll know the exact reaction I had when I asked him to repeat what he said. The last scene, when Phoebe Cates asks the little girl what name she spoke, and then told the girl she believed her, that is exactly the same reaction I gave. This woman he was talking to looked over at me, smiling all knowingly and not caring that I interrupted her conversation with him. He said something completely different to me than what he said before, and this time it was something directed towards me.. I don't remember what it was, but it was about the food I think. Maybe he asked me if I liked the food or something. Anyways, I started to tear up a bit, and I told him I really missed him and that I hadn't seen him in forever. I gave him a great big hug, and he hugged me back. Then he started to half-disappear, and I started to half-wake (not really waking in real life). I remember the hug lasted longer then when he disappeared, I was left waking up in this car, dry-heaving and tearing up again, hugging at my chest like I didn't even want to let go of the air. I looked around and realized I was parked in this parking lot, in the passenger seat, in this bigger city half an hour from of my own town. I also remember there were these little Gary Oldman pictures in the dashboard. Don't ask me why those were there.




Black And White

• To dream in black and white, suggests that you need to be more objective in formulating your decisions. You may be a little too unyielding in your thought process and thus need to find some sort of balance between two opposing views. Consider the views and opinions of others. Alternatively, black and white dreams is a sign of depression or sadness. You may feel that there is not enough excitement in your life.

• Ballet

• To see or wear ballet slippers in your dream, represents your understanding of the principles of balance and grace. You carry yourself with much poise and get along well with others.

Moving

• To dream that you are moving away, signifies your desire or need for change. It may also mean an end to a situation or relationship; you are moving on. Alternatively, it indicates your determination and issues regarding dependence/independence.

Nervous

• To dream that you are nervous about something, indicates that you are experiencing self-doubt and feelings of insecurity.

• Father

• To see your father in your dream, symbolizes authority and protection. It suggests that you need to be more self-reliant. Consider also your waking relationship with your father and how aspects of his character may be incorporated within yourself.

Bereavement

• To dream that you are in bereavement, suggests that you are repressing your grief. Perhaps something is bothering you more than you realize. You need to express your sadness and not keep it inside. For those that are experiencing bereavement in real life, such dreams are a way of coping with what has happened.

Dead

• To see the dead in your dream, forewarns that you are being influenced by negative people and are hanging around the wrong crowd. This dream may also be a way for you to resolve your feelings with those who have passed on. Alternatively, the dream symbolizes material loss. If you dream of a person who has died a long time ago, then it suggests that a current situation or relationship in your life resembles the quality of that deceased person. The dream may depict how you need to let this situation or relationship die and end it.

• Hugging

• To dream that you are hugging someone, symbolizes your loving and caring nature. You are holding someone or something close to your heart. Alternatively, it may indicate your need to be more affectionate.

• Disappear

• To dream that people or objects are disappearing right before your eyes, signify your anxieties and insecurities over the notion that loved ones might disappear out of your life. You feel that you cannot depend on anyone and that you will end up alone. You need to work on your self-image and self-esteem.

7/23/10 - Toot Toot!

Sorry for the past-tense, present-tense switches I do. I wrote this at points word-for-word out of my journal, which is in present tense. Though I also edited the story to make sense out of some of the things I wrote that were nonsense, so that was in past-tense.


Dreamt:

I'm in a hallway.. I'm with a group of people.. My stomach makes a growling noise, and someone mistakes it for gas, ha ha ha. Sooo funny. Not. Anyways, they ask if I was the one that did it, and for some reason I say "Toot toot!" and pull an invisible cord acting as a train whistle. I must be just as much of a weirdo in my dreams as I am in person. That's all I can think of. I leave the hallway, as if I was in an airport or something, waiting to get on a plane. I finally get in the plane, but it's tiny. It's got one seat the size of a back seat in a car, and there is one other person with me on the plane. She's an old childhood friend of mine. She puts her seat belt on, but for some reason I don't have time to get mine on and we're starting off. We're flying above Vancouver, it's barely morning, dark still.. Lit up buildings.. The plane starts to flip around, and I start to fall out of the chair, etc, so I grab my seat belt and hold on while we go upside down for a second. I'm dangling from the seat belt, holding on for dear life. When we get back to the normal position, I quickly fasten my seat belt before we flipped again and again. Then I wake up, but I'm still dreaming. I'm in a city, in the back of a truck, I'm Derek (Brian Austin Green), from Sarah Connor Chronicles. Then I turn into myself at some point and I'm looking for clothes to wear, because apparently my sister and I are back in high school or something...

Dream takes a different turn, don't remember how.

In car. Devin & me talking about stuff. Driving down a road in woods. We got out of the car and started walking towards a town. All the buildings were rotted and looked as if they were bulldozed or something. It was just cement foundation and styrofoam acting as walls. A bunch of homely-looking cats were eating the styrofoam. Styrofoam is stained red, like blood. House is not there, though. Just an inch of the walls left, eaten away. There is a decrepit, shaved cat eating at the bloody styrofoam. I want to turn around and go another way, because the cat scares me. It looks diseased and I feel bad for it. We go back to our car, which is parked back in the woods.. As we get near the car, two men are trying to steal the car. I get towards passenger's side and try to push the guy in the driver's seat out. I wake up, but I'm still dreaming. In my dream, I start to write down what I dreamt, but I grab a book instead. It's the book Girl Interrupted. Magically, the blonde with the anorexia problem in the film appears with another girl next to her. I notice the blonde is wearing a really tight, bright teal shirt. Let's just say the room must have been cold.



Ironically, I have a really strange interpretation for the cat scene... You just don't want to hear it, trust me.



Helicopter

• To dream that you are in a helicopter, indicates that you are living beyond your means. You need to slow down and not try to please everyone. Alternatively, you may be experiencing a higher level of consciousness, new-found freedom and greater awareness.

• Upside Down

• To dream that you are upside down, suggests that there is some situation or problem in your waking life that you need to straighten you. It may also mean that your initial assumptions were completely opposite of what you thought.

Wall

• To dream that a house has no walls, represents a lack of privacy. You feel that everyone is looking over your shoulder or up in your business.

• Blood

• To see blood in your dream, represents life, love, and passion as well as disappointments.

Cat

• If you are afraid of the cat in your dream, then it suggests that you are fearful of the feminine.

3/3/08 - Electrocution.

I could have sworn I wrote down my dream on 7/10/10, but I can't find any writings about it. So I'll go through one of my journals again.. Here's one from March 3, 2008. Here's the entry:


"... But anyways, two consecutive nights before that one, I had these strange dreams. We'll start with the first night. I remember being at the pond on the property I grew up on, and getting into this tiny submarine. The submarine was filled with water, though I wasn't having problems breathing underwater or anything. Then I knew I had to do this, but was also thinking "no freaking way" in my head, but I started testing these electrical currents by hitting buttons on the 'dashboard'. These currents kept zapping me in the chest like those defibrillator paddles do when being resuscitated. I woke up after about three shocks. The second night, I had a dream inside of another dream. First, I remember being in this beaten down wooden house. Rain was coming in through the practically bare roof. Then I got hit by lightning. Then I woke up (still dreaming) and our dog Tuffy was with me and it was still raining. I decided to take Tuffy for a walk and we walked outside of this building that was missing a wall. There was this small but steep hill (like a ditch) after the opening, and Tuffy and I tumbled into an electric fence! Gah! I keep getting electrocuted in my dreams. It didn't happen last night though, thankfully."

During this entry, I was having constant panic attacks, and it was always effecting my heart. I'm guessing I was having a panic attack while sleeping or something, that's all I can think of that could make those dreams happen. I didn't mention it in the journal, but I remember how much my chest ached after waking up from the first dream.. I swore I could almost feel the electricity running through, even..






Rain

• To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace. Falling rain is also a metaphor for tears, crying and sadness. Alternatively, rain symbolizes fertility and renewal. If you get wet from the rain, then it indicates cleaning from your troubles and problems.

Roof

• To dream that the roof is leaking, represents distractions, annoyances, and unwanted influences in your life. New information is slowly revealing itself to you. Something is finally getting through to you. Alternatively, the dream means that someone is imposing and intruding their thoughts and opinions on you.

Walls

• To dream that a house has no walls, represents a lack of privacy. You feel that everyone is looking over your shoulder or up in your business.

Electrocution

• To dream of an electrocution, indicates that the current course of your actions will lead to disaster. The dream also represents fear and the consequences of your actions. You need to be more aware of your surroundings and those around you.

Submarine

• To see a submarine in your dream, indicates that you are cautiously exploring your emotions and unconscious feelings. You are guarded about certain emotional issues. Alternatively, the submarine indicates that you need to adapt a different perspective and new understanding of an issue. The submarine is a metaphor that you need to get down to the core of some situation or problem.