Health

Dreamt cleaning the house upstairs. Messy. Found a bunch of presents in a corner under a tree. Forgotten.

Okay I heard footsteps and see husband's mom walk in. She had a cane or a crutch and I noticed she had no shoe on and was missing her toes. I first was worried about the mess. She seemed disappointed and maybe mad about it but didn't say anything. My son and I were by the stairs when she came back out and I kind of asked very subtle what happened and she started crying a bit and sat down on the floor. I pushed my son to her to hug her and I pttted her back. Whatever she was talking about scared me thinking it'd happen to me.. 

Ahhhhh another dream. Husband wanted sex so we were about to (no shorts on me) and I heard kids coming up.i ran over and leaned over and saw them coming up. Ran to the bathroom and didn't even have time to turn a light on when my two oldest came in while I was picking up a blue crayon off the floor to pretend like I was cleaning. Kids were sad because they didn't know where we were. 

Then I dreamt that I got emails that were happy first but turned threatening because someone had read some on my book and finished where I stopped (handful of chapters in) and wanted more. I complained how I'll have to write more. Sister in law was there and overheard and wondered what site I was writing on etc i started showing her the website (this one) and realized I was logged into my kids' school account and accidentally failed a test. I freaked out about that but didn't really do anything. 

After that, I was looking at the mirror and noticed my teeth were AWFUL. Some missing, one of them really loose. I could wiggle it. I freaked out. 

I dreamt about the teeth issue because I had just taken my kids to dentist. Husband is taking his family to the country fair today, so maybe that's why. Got an email from kids school this morning when I woke up for a second and I'm thinking that's why I dreamt that. 

So tired now.

 Gonna stop. 

Cancer

Just woke up to a bad dream. Dreamt my husband and I were visiting with his mom and she told us that his Uncle Clint's doctor's were 'pretty sure he had cancer'... And that he would have to do some 'bark test' the next morning where he would have to sit up against a light to see if he had it or not. Woke up right away.

Stroke

Dreamt I looked in the mirror and saw my smile was off. First it looked better, but then when I pulled them up to blame my lips look bigger only one side came up. Tried the other and only that side would go up. Thought for sure it was a stroke. 

School

Dreamt my kids started going to public school. My daughter didn't really want to go, so I told her she could stay home. Had to find the phone number and tell them that my kids have COVID or something . Then I dreamt that my ex friend sent me a message and I couldn't figure out how to message back so I considered calling her back. 

Weird dream, cuz fuck nah. Not sure why I'd consider that I'm not a talking person. 

Stroke

Dreamt I was having a stroke. It was noticeable in my face. I was trying to smile and one side couldn't very well, and then I tried to lift my arms and one side could only lift so high. It felt so real. Couldn't breathe in the dream either. Scary... 

Diabetes

Horrible dream. Dreamt that my bug bites on my feet turned into diabetes ulcers and I had a huge caved in area on the top of my foot and also my right foot was missing a 'ring finger' toe. Terrifying. 

Dizzy

I don't remember much but what I do remember is I was in the porch at my dad's house and my mother in law walked in and looked dizzy. She said she needed to go home but felt dizzy. I ran and got my husband and told him I think we should take her to the hospital to be safe. Everything else is bits and pieces. I remember piles of clothes in the porch.. my father in law walking in at some point. I dunno. I can't remember anything else. Just that I was worried her dizziness was something serious. 

Driving

I forgot a lot, but I do remember the gist of it being that I had a "friend from school" (this friend I've never met in my life, also I'm way past school age) was kind of stranded on side of road (I don't think anything was wrong with her car but herself.. like sick or super tired, etc.. also the road was a few miles away from my childhood home) so I told her I'd help get her to her house. My aunt was driving, but I realized it'd be a good idea to try and get her car home with her too, so I said I'd drive her car home. I must have known where she lived because my aunt didn't wait for me.. also I felt weird driving like I didn't know how to. 

Baby

Dreamt I was pregnant again. I was so scared I was going to lose the baby. I drank something or inhaled something for a game or whatnot and felt sick all over like I was going to doe and I was so scared the baby wasn't okay. 

Another Tornado

Had a migraine last night. Took a magnesium and a melatonin to maybe help me sleep (still took awhile to finally calm down) but I had a weird dream, and I can't remember most of it. It's like I was in this game but it was real life. It was me and two other guys. I think my brain kept changing who they were - so nobody specific. We were hiding in an abandoned house that was similar to my childhood home. It was night time and maybe lightning. There were these big Kong-lile monsters coming after us in waves. We had to hide and hope it wouldn't find us. Then my dream switched to daytime and I'm with my husband and my sister. We're going outside (still in game-mode) and heading towards the garage. We're not sure what we need to fight but as I'm walking around the house to get to the garage I'm noticing that the clouds are just getting darker and darker. My vision is soooo bad though, so I couldn't tell. It was just really blurry... But it was also getting windier. I tell them there's a tornado coming (it's like right on top of us at this point). We get in a truck and start trying to drive away. I show them on a phone how blurry my vision was. 

Presents

Sometimes I dream that Devin and I live in this huge, unfinished house. No idea why. Anyways, we were back at this house and Scarlet had her birthday party coming that day. All three kids went with their grandma and grandpa to go shop for stuff (what I assumed was decor), but when they came back they're bringing in bags and bags of toys. Like, baby toys. I asked Devin why so many toys were coming upstairs (where I was, fixing a bed) and he said that Scarlet got to pick out her presents. I was a little miffed, especially since she bought toys she would never play with. I asked angirly if her cousins gift to her will be the only gift (now, looking back, I don't know why we never mentioned buying her toys but it seems she doesn't have any from us?) Anyways dev then tells me that her cousin can't make it, so she'll have no toys to open. I'm visibly livid and yelling. His parents hear.

Okay after that I'm wearing a white dress like a wedding dress, dark hair. I'm walking through a river. It's very cold and raining. Starting to flood a bit. I call scarlet and tell her I'm sorry for yelling. Get cold. I'm starting to freeze. Somehow I materialize in front of a car. Almost get hit. Lady helps me in car but I'm practically dead already. 

Covid

I have COVID. 😭 

I barely slept last night, tossing and turning and coughing. Ugh. I think I just dreamt I was coughing all night. 🙁 laaaame.

Hallways

Dreamt Sarah and maybe Devin and I were playing a video game but also in it. We were wandering white hallways in what felt like an abandoned hospital, looking for something. Trying to decipher what something meant. Finally we find a dark room and Sarah says this feels right, must be what we're looking for. I find a tunnel in a cupboard and shine a flashlight off my phone in it and we see a weird animal creature coming at us. Size of a kitten. I try to smash it with something slightly heavy but I have to whack it several times because it doesn't die right away. It was awful. We think we saved ourselves doing that so we are a little relieved.. then a mom creature comes out and bites one of us and we kill her too. We are heading back and we just know being bitten was a really bad thing. I can't remember the rest..

I just remembered a bit before all of this .. I was in a house and a storm was coming.... Like a tornado... It was super windy, and I think parts of the house were breaking away. 

Organizing Books

I was trying to get books around and organized for the kids school. Was missing two. Searched around... Eventually found them but then lost the others again. 

Oh and then I dreamt that half of my face was droopy so I had dev drop me off at hospital. Whatever it was I was released eventually with nothing bad. It was like a vitamin deficiency.

Time Traveling For Bands

I almost forgot this dream but it kind of came back to me after getting up and ready for the day...:

I was in an extreeeeeeemely packed movie theater. I think. It was weird because there were bands playing also, but also movies playing? Or like.. maybe bands playing somewhere else and when they finished playing they came here to the movie theater? I dunno. Okay. I dreamt that there were two bands that had played, one I don't know the name of but I've seen them online and the other was KV. The two bands kind of left with big crowds surrounding them and I was able to snag a piece of paper with signatures on it or something. I sat down next to this stranger and he told me we could try going through a backstage door or something, so we tried that and a stern lady came out and said we weren't allowed back there...... Okay then it switched to a huge flood/apocalyptic type environment, and there is this family with a teenage boy that had diabetes or something and he needed medicine so I told them I'd go find some.. Somehow I found a way to go back in time before the apocalypse, before the weird movie theater/band thing happened, and the guy I was with that wanted to go backstage and I were both trying to figure out how to meet the bands now that we kind of knew there moves in the future. 

Julian dreamt he was in Flinging People And Things and that someone was throwing a person in water head-first. He peeked his head under the water and saw that it wasn't all water and instead was a huge pocket of air under the surface part of the water, but there was a deep hole and the person that was thrown in died anyway and an octopus grabbed him and threw him out of the water. He went to the police station with us (his family) and found that the police were going to try to kill the octopus. 

Vintage Car

Dreamt I was at my aunt Erin's old house. (Her house was on my dad's property, to explain the next part..) Some of my cousins on my dad's side of the family were there. My dad had gone somewhere and asked us all to feed his animals (he owns rabbits and chickens in waking life). My cousin Mike tells us he wants to look at his brother's vintage car he just bought. All of us start walking around the property looking for this car. At some point I remember wiping my face with my hand and getting peanut butter on my mouth. Suddenly my mouth felt numb and swollen, although it apparently looked fine.

Blood Clot

Dreamt there was a pain in my left side, under my rib cage. The pain kept moving higher and higher. I was still living with my parents and was in the kitchen when I yelled for them to take me to the hospital. They slowly carried me to the hospital (in reality this hospital is a half hour drive away because my childhood home was metaphorically in Timbuktu, but they were carrying me the whole way on foot). At some point Devin takes place of them, and just like in my waking life, he stops and chats with people during important times. In this case, while I'm dying. Anyways, finally we get to my doctor and she ends up being the midwife that helped me deliver my daughter. While telling her what's wrong with me and begging her to get this clot out, she tells me that just getting it out won't work. She tells me she would have to put something in me (she calls it a 'lean-to' but I assume she's talking about a 'stent' or something.) I throw all of these kids' toys off of a table (similar toys of my daughter's, similar table I own), and lay onto it, begging her to hurry, because I am afraid I'm going to die any minute. Suddenly the left side of my face goes numb. I try to smile but can't on that side. Right before she puts me under, I ask her to give me a toy of my daughter's that was on the floor for good luck. I start to become half-asleep and think to myself that if I turn onto my back (or on my right side, I don't remember), then my arm and face, etc, will stop feeling so numb. Also while being worked on, my 'dream-within-a-dream' was of Stevie Nicks playing piano in a room that had a very '70s-'80s trailer vibe.

Icky Snakes

Dreamt I was watching videos of alligators, but suddenly a snake popped up on the screen. Woke up disgusted. Then suddenly felt dread. Felt like I was going to die today, or soon. (and then noticed I had the start of a sore throat -- daughter has had a cold for a few days now.) I actually Googled alligators and snakes right after the dream (because I was on the verge of a full blown panic attack thinking I was dying) and read that alligators in dreams can sometimes mean healing powers, and that snakes mean something is threatening me. So, I am going to assume this dream is telling me that my health is being threatened and that I am about to get a cold. (It's tonight now, and I can confirm that I have a cold coming on. Waahh.)

Toxic Shock

Woke up in the middle of the night to the start of a sore throat, assuming I'm going to get a cold or something. Went back to bed and dreamt I realized I had a tampon in me for who knows how long. Pulled it out immediately but was getting sick before that so I tried researching the symptoms of Toxic Shock Syndrome, worried I was just getting that all along.

I don't remember anything else in my dream after that.

There Is No Fate But What We Make For Ourselves.

Dreamt I was Linda Hamilton. :) lol. A meteor had hit Earth and I woke up and called for a private helicopter. Meanwhile, I walked to this building that is like a quarantine. While the staff there was trying to make sure I was alright, I was thinking to myself that in the future they would 'clean' me and find something strange and want to fix me, but in the process the way that they fix me makes me come into contact with something that ends up giving me cancer. I tell myself I need to make sure they don't fix me, this why I can change fate.