Heart Test

Weird but also weirdly realistic dream. I was in a hospital and was told I had to take some test for my heart. I was put on this bed thing and it started spinning me around so that my head was sometimes lower than the rest of that makes sense. It was going at a normal speed I guess, and it really sucked. I felt sick a bit during that one. But then, they stopped that test and said they had to do one more test which was just faster. This one was a lot easier. After the test, I saw my husband's aunt walk in (she used to be some type of nurse) and she didn't really acknowledge me at all so I turned my head and smiled (because she walked behind me) and she came over to me and hugged me from behind while still in this bed thing and I told her I was sorry for her loss (she didn't lose anyone in waking life). She said thank you and then walked out of the door. As soon as she left the two nurses that were doing the test asked what had happened to her and I told her she had lost a nephew recently, one of my classmates from high school. He's still alive that I know of...  

Can't Talk

Wtffff. Bad dream. Dreamt my husband was coming into the house late. He had food with him and was on the phone. I overheard him talking about still going to hang out with his family. I walked into kitchen where he was (set like our old trailer kind of) and I couldn't speak normally. I kept unintentionally whispering instead of talking and it was making him angry. I had to repeat myself a lot hoping I could speak normal and not whisper. I kept asking him what he was doing because it sounded like he had plans to leave again with family. He got angrier and got closer to me and I cowered. He kept getting closer to me. Then he started to put his hands around my neck. Suddenly I am outside but I don't think I'm me.. I'm like just a random point of view/a camera or something. I see a dead body in a trash by me. My vision zooms in and I see maggots crawling all over the body. I think it's supposed to be me in there.

Before this, I dreamt I was back in school. Middle or high? Couldnt find my locker. 

bad dream

Ugh blogger sucks. Can't post properly anymore and have to schedule post now. Forgot to with this dream and it went straight to drafts so here's one from April first: Dreamt I was in my old childhood bedroom sharing with some goth chick I was in my bed peeking under covers trying not to cry. My husband's mom came in and I remembered that my husband had died. She looked around in the room and felt bad for me.. she noticed I was having a hard time letting go of anything of his. Things piling up, starting to hoard. she lingered over a piece of mail written to him. 

Woke up. 

Evil Nurse

Dreamt my sister's friend Becky was having a child. Me and my husband stopped by to visit in the hospital and we had to bring a new puppy we had because Becky's older daughter wanted to see the puppy. I let one of them hold the puppy for a photo and couldn't see well but it sounded like the puppy ran across over the baby's head. Suddenly a nurse ran over, grabbed the puppy and threw it on the floor and started hitting him hard in the face with something heavy. She just kept hitting him sooo much that I was sure she bashed in his skull. I tried running over but everyone kept pushing me away from getting to her and the dog. Eventually she stopped and everyone cleared out except for the dog. He was lying on the floor with a blanket already over him. Becky came back in asking if I'd sign something and I remember thinking 'fuck that, this is probably something where I can't sue them for this". And told her no, fuck off." Or whatever. Screamed at her for being on the nurse's side. 

Wow. Shortly before this I dreamt that I was still on high school and dad worked for 🤮 trump. We were rich and I remember us walking in a parade for school and I saw someone from my high school that was really popular and I told her she always seemed really nice to me/most popular. That made her smile. 

Storms

I remember a couple parts to a dream. First, I dreamt my favorite musician's dad died. Felt really bad for him. Then a bunch of stuff happened and I dreamt that I was waking up in my childhood home and noticing it was dark outside. I see my dad has TV in and it's showing really bad storms on the way v

Gush

Nightmare.. dreamt my husband and I were driving around cranberry marshes. Except the road was really messed up and had a bunch of stuff all over it. At one point even a broken down car that the husband had to drive over. Anyways we are curving around a road and I see movement in back and turn my head to see a tween-ager. I jump a little and the boy grabs a gun out from his pocket and tells us he wants our car and we're willing but he still aims the gun at us and my husband grabs at it and wrestles with the boy behind him and the boy gets shot on the neck. Blood starts pouring out and I rush over to try to stop the bleeding (ughggh I now know why I dreamt this but will remind myself after).  Can not get the bleeding to stop. I see someone walk behind a house so I tell my husband to stop there. For some reason it must be a hospital or police station because a few doctors come out and a few police officers. The boy is obviously dead, and I'm crying. The doctor takes me to the side and keeps asking ridiculous questions that point the finger at us and not the boy. He seems to think we just randomly shot him and the boy wasn't the bad guy. I'm bawling as I answer these questions, at one point the doctor even says "would you rather murder, commit suicide, or (can't remember the other choice)" and I cried "at this point, I'd rather kill myself." 

Woke up eventually. Anyways to remind myself: I dreamt that because last night I was setting something on the washer and it clipped a pipe and broke it. Water came gushing out and I couldn't stop it. It was coming out sooooo fast and so much. Soaked to the core, thankfully cold water, and called my husband. He had to explain to me how to turn off the water downstairs. Once I shut that off, I had to squeegee an inch or two of water in the kitchen, laundry, and bathroom into the basement (dirt floor, so fuck it). I remember after getting everything cleaned up, husband fixing pipe, I remember sitting down, drained, and dreading what I'll be dreaming about that night. 

Heaven

Whoke up half asleep and sweaty. Was dreaming about such weird stuff! First, I was trying to escape a library. I got to a back room area and found an old industrial kitchen and a girl on there. I asked her if it's be alright to 'use her house just to get out of the library'. She said it was fine, so I went to the door and walked out. I heard someone follow and turned around. A boy walked out and I asked him who he was and he told me he was my old dog Moses. I ran over and gave him a hug. We talked about going back together. Needed to get the whole family first. Found oldest daughter and husband and went over to them. We needed to do something to get to 'heaven'. 

Fast Car

Had another dream. I was in the very back of a van or possibly our jeep. Maybe looking at my phone - wait. No. First I was in my childhood home, in what is now my dad's bedroom. I was looking at my phone and accidentally set the wallpaper wrong. I was also looking online and saw that a celebrity had died. (Morrisey). Anyways suddenly now I'm in the back of the jeep or van. I see my husband is driving ridiculously fast from the ramp, onto the interstate. He's swerving a bit too and then crosses the divider and gets onto the other lane. I crawl up to the front passenger seat. He seems normal. Then I wake up. 

Aliens

Kept having this horrible dream.there was a vision of the world ending. A whole bunch of shooting stars and then what looked like a tall bunch of fireworks stuck together. Everyone dies. 

Okay anyways first bit of dream I remember. I was wandering in this house. Felt like a castle from the 1970s or 80s. Everything made of wood or paneling. Huge house. I was wandering around upstairs and passing doors when I open one and find a really neat 70s lounging area. Big wrap around orange couch made out of a scratchy fabric. Walked in. Made someone else that was with me come in. I think it was their house? But then I opened a little cabinet door that looked secretive and I thought it was my grandpa's house because everything in there just seemed like his. Anyways we leave. I'm heading downstairs. I get down to the main level and it's my dad's house. I see my mom and sister in the dining room. Then I see my dad and his girlfriend. She's wearing my fluffy brown sweater I bought recently. I react to the mess in the floor of my bathroom (a bunch of pieces of dark wood all over the floor, but looked like was shit. Anyways my dad's girlfriend saw my shocked reaction and thought it was aimed at her wearing my sweater so I had to explain she can wear it. Anyways they all leave. I'm walking now in a field and I see a bunch of shooting stars again. I worry. Then I see the fireworks. I know something bad is about to happen and that nobody would survive. I fear it's aliens. Then I see an alien ship moving low and parking nearby the neat castle house. I run up and quickly grab the alien out. It looks like a huge rat or a cat or whatnot. It bites my hand but I don't let go. I try to twist it's neck but I'm so slow and scared. Finally I just do it fast enough and hope it works. He flops down like he's dead, so I drop him in a lake nearby. I worry he's still alive. 

Diabetes

Horrible dream. Dreamt that my bug bites on my feet turned into diabetes ulcers and I had a huge caved in area on the top of my foot and also my right foot was missing a 'ring finger' toe. Terrifying. 

Goodbyes

Had a bad dream about Uncle Clint (in law, but my dad's best friend, so I've known him since I was a little kid and always thought of him as an uncle). He was dying and we were all kind of saying our goodbyes. Seems like we were on Dad's property and I was moving some stuff around so it'd be easier to move him around (outside kind of by pond road). I stopped husband's mom and asked her an update and she told me he's still alive but people were saying their goodbyes etc, so I asked my sister if she was going to and she said she didn't want to, but I did. I wanted to make sure everyone got a turn though that mattered so I kept waiting. Woke up. 

Death

Dreamt husband's cousin in law R died of sudden heart attack. Went to hospital to 'pay respects'  to the wife D. Weren't sure how to let his "kids/grandkids" know what happened. (They were young and looked like husbands other cousin Danielle's kids. Very young.) We all went to the hospital. We wanted to wait until someone specific got there (I think my husband's mom) to let the 'kids' know. I was in a parking lot with a whole bunch of stuff out on the pavement like two cameras, some shoes, clothes, etc, my duffle bag and some other stuff. I'm trying to stuff as much into the duffle bag so I have less to carry. I'm trying to get home. I get most of it in. I stand up and have everything in my arms when I see my daughter getting into a car with a baby and two older guys maybe in their 70s. I asked her what she was doing and she said they asked if she could drive them home. I told her no, don't go with strangers even though they seemed kind. Then I run into the wife of the guy that died in my dream and she's in my dad's house by the front door. I awkwardly try to figure out what to say to pay my respects. I tell her I'm so scared of losing someone I love. That I'm sorry. She seems like she isn't sad. She tells me they knew he was going and that she's been with someone else for a while, so she didn't really feel bad. 

Woke up.

Stones

First I remember being a jellystone. I stopped in to get food and I noticed behind the counter a schedule..  my name was at the end. I was weirded out but thought nothing of it. Then I remember being with my Aunt Erin and my husband. I think (I could be wrong about the order here but this seems more right).. Erin was driving us home but she was really tired. I was in the back with husband and my aunt was driving. I was watching the road and suddenly I noticed she was getting awfully close to two bicyclists. I said "Erin, you're getting kind of close" and she kind of bobbed her head to the side and I yelled her name out and she sat up straighter and slowed down. I suggested she park on the ramp of the interstate (at this point we were in front of Jellystone). My husband was going to take over but he was pretty tired too. For some dumb reason he was about to drive from the passenger side but I yelled at him and he sat in the driver side. We started pulling up to a toll area and I looked down in the car and found some mail on the floor boards in back. I picked up two envelopes and saw one with the wrong address and was addressed to 'current resident' at the wrong address, so I sat that one down again. The other one was to me. I opened it and saw a tax info thing and it made it seem like I was set to start working at Jellystone this week. I look up and see my husband just kind of drove through the toll and some lady was poking her head out. The road turned into an alleyway.. 

Now I'm in a store at Jellystone. It looks like a gift shop with random clothing etc. I remember seeing a cat condo/bed thing too for almost $400. I noticed I'm absolutely wet and in a swimsuit maybe? Or naked? Lol I can't remember. I asked my mom to buy me something so I wasn't so naked feeling. For some reason she didn't, I don't know if the store was expensive or what. 

Then I see an older, bigger guy that looked like the actor that plays Jill's dad in Home Improvement. He was a worker and hebwas holding a pair of speedos. He was joking and saw two black men sitting down at a bench opposite me in the store and asked them if it was theirs, or made the assumption it was or that it was their 'type' of suit or whatnot. Everybody kind of laughed along, even the guys, but then I got weirded out by the old white guy and thought it had some racial undertones to the joke so I remember stopping from laughing and walking out. I was walking through Warrens playground and I saw the two guys but they were younger (so was I..  we were all kids now). My clothes were still wet. The boys were on the playground and I was walking through/past. I asked if they always lived around here or were new, can't remember their answer. They followed just out of politeness, since we were still talking. We were maybe where the fire department was or where the Wades lived but there was an old building there instead. We noticed these beautiful gravestones with holographic etchings on them. I was in love. I walked into the building and saw an older bearded man walk up. I asked if he made them and he said yes. I told him I would love for him to make mine someday, and he kind of laughed awkwardly and I realized he probably thought that I meant I'd die before him and he was a LOT older (I did mean that but I changed the thought process then) and explained maybe I could buy one well before I pass. I started getting gleeful thoughts of what picture I wanted on mine and what I'd put as my epitaph. Woke up. 

Hair

K and daughter a were washing their hair in a boiling pot of water or something. They and fam were in a camper. I saw wife and she had perfect teeth. So jelly. Lol

Edit: I remember another part of the dream where I found out that an old friend David L had died. I was sad, felt bad... It was likely an overdose or something?

Grandpa's House

Dreamt my sister and I were at Grandpa's house. It's weird because some of the time he was gone, but other times he was still alive. What I do remember was we had to go through grandma's clothes and miscellaneous things to clear out the house kind of. I found some pictures and clothes and kind of looked through but felt weird going through stuff, so when I heard grandpa downstairs I stopped. I can't remember what happened after. I think I remember wondering how my sister and I will get home, since any cars that were parked there looked broken down. 

Dead Horses

Dreamt my daughter had gotten the start of her period. I had to find her a pad. We were at my dad's house, but I think it was my husband's and my house in the dream. Also dreamt that the house was kind of messy - this was just some weird house, nothing I know of. And I was trying to clean up and look for my water bucket for plants. Before this I remember now: my mom stopped by and told me they couldn't take care of their chicken (they don't really have one - they live in town) - Ifirst asked if Dad could watch it since he has some but they didn't listen and just started moving stuff around. Mom carried this huge cage that had two dead horses in it... So weird... I was thinking in my head why do we have to take care of your animal of we can't even remember to take care of our own? Okay so she plops the chicken down next to Dad's door (now my door) and I realize it's winter and this poor chicken will want to stay warm, so I grab these bulky warming lamp that was by the horses, and an even bulkier plug in for it. I try to plug it in but the adapter is soooooo weird and humongous and moves around like fricken transformers. I have to slide it around so it fits right into dad's plug in up above his door. Then I noticed my mom is also dropping off a huge, fancy, probably handmad table and chairs off. She tells me it's "the Allen's" and now that I'm out of my dream I realize that this is their neighbors, but inside the dream I had no idea who or where these Allen's were.. she had to get me to explain all the places/people dad ever took me to in the area and she kept saying no, not there. I dunno. Anyways I had to find a place for a bunch of these things she was getting rid of. End tables (I put the chicken cage on top and sat it next to the door) and a bunch of plants.) THIS is why I was searching for a watering can. I had to place them around the outside of the house so it looked nice. First though to get upstairs from the door I had to maneuver some things about the house around because of where the chicken was, so I moved things around like Legos to fit some stairs into the house. Unfortunately I realized later that I put the dumbest, hardest to crawl through kind of stairs/almost like a ventilation system as soon as you go through the front door, so I had to make note to fix that later. When I get up there to the second floor, my mom, aunt, and sister are up there and they give me a bah of old candy they didn't want anymore. After that, I realize I need the watering can to water the plants they gave me. The house was a mess and there was furniture everywhere. I remembered seeing the watering can under a desk but there are so many desks so I have to go through a bunch to find the right one. I'm kind of in my own house now set up-wise. I ended up finding it, and kind of picking up dishes along the way.. I think I woke up at this point. 

The Missing Girl

I can't remember a whole lot but that I was maybe at my grandpa's house in Minnesota. I also remember going through my iTunes on my old MacBook and accidentally checking everything so that *everything* would play. Really embarrassing stuff. I remember looking for a young Asian girl or something and finding her in a field and she finds out that her brother died. She faked being missing because she was hoping to get money? I can't remember... And some baby alligator was a pet, but someone had gotten rid of his teeth. Also remember making out with some dude. Probably husband, possibly a mix of him and a celebrity (young jc?). 

Cat

I don't remember most of my dream... I feel like I was in a bedroom or a hotel or something most of the time? But when I do remember was seeing a small orange kitten in a box of clothes and it was very still, so I thought maybe it died. I was going to pick it up to bury but he moved his head slightly/wasn't dead. 

I think Sarah was also in this dream but I can't remember what she did in it. 

Presents

Sometimes I dream that Devin and I live in this huge, unfinished house. No idea why. Anyways, we were back at this house and Scarlet had her birthday party coming that day. All three kids went with their grandma and grandpa to go shop for stuff (what I assumed was decor), but when they came back they're bringing in bags and bags of toys. Like, baby toys. I asked Devin why so many toys were coming upstairs (where I was, fixing a bed) and he said that Scarlet got to pick out her presents. I was a little miffed, especially since she bought toys she would never play with. I asked angirly if her cousins gift to her will be the only gift (now, looking back, I don't know why we never mentioned buying her toys but it seems she doesn't have any from us?) Anyways dev then tells me that her cousin can't make it, so she'll have no toys to open. I'm visibly livid and yelling. His parents hear.

Okay after that I'm wearing a white dress like a wedding dress, dark hair. I'm walking through a river. It's very cold and raining. Starting to flood a bit. I call scarlet and tell her I'm sorry for yelling. Get cold. I'm starting to freeze. Somehow I materialize in front of a car. Almost get hit. Lady helps me in car but I'm practically dead already. 

Hallways

Dreamt Sarah and maybe Devin and I were playing a video game but also in it. We were wandering white hallways in what felt like an abandoned hospital, looking for something. Trying to decipher what something meant. Finally we find a dark room and Sarah says this feels right, must be what we're looking for. I find a tunnel in a cupboard and shine a flashlight off my phone in it and we see a weird animal creature coming at us. Size of a kitten. I try to smash it with something slightly heavy but I have to whack it several times because it doesn't die right away. It was awful. We think we saved ourselves doing that so we are a little relieved.. then a mom creature comes out and bites one of us and we kill her too. We are heading back and we just know being bitten was a really bad thing. I can't remember the rest..

I just remembered a bit before all of this .. I was in a house and a storm was coming.... Like a tornado... It was super windy, and I think parts of the house were breaking away.