Prom.

Dreamt I was still in school and there was a dance coming up that night. I was in Warrens searching for all the people I was to go there with. My aunt (apparently she was going) told me to meet her with everyone else at some ice cream shop in town. I couldn't find a few people and when I found my friend, she said she didn't want to go anymore because she didn't have a boyfriend. I told her I didn't either so it would be fine, but she still wouldn't go. I spent the rest of the night searching for everyone else. It was raining, getting darker. I was upset and pissed.

Before this I was playing with my daughter at my dad's by his pond. She had this doll house that was like little apartments. You could open small doors in the back and each apartment had something unique to play with. (A table, a bath tub, a couch, etc..) I was also hopping from one outdoor furniture to the next fearing any snakes that might be on the ground.

Lots Of Tongue

Okay, I might have been going through major sleep paralysis in the first bit of my dream. I know it was lightning and down-pouring, I remember looking out the window. (In my waking life, it was actually storming that night, so maybe it was projecting into my dreams..) I was in the process of awakening, but couldn't move. I remember trying to yell to Devin, who was beside me in bed, "Wake me up! Wake me up!" I felt like I couldn't do it myself, and I could only whisper through my lips. I could hear myself, in my dream, yelling, and myself, outside of my dream, whispering. It was eerie. Finally Devin rolls over, tells me I'm fine, and goes back to bed. Eventually I finally awake completely, but right beforehand I felt someone touch my left hand. I was freaking out thinking a ghost tapped my hand. I couldn't sleep for awhile after that, so I wrote down what happened.

Finally I went back to sleep, and I dreamt that I was visiting my dad and he told me he read my dream blog, about some dream where I was kissing a Quin Twin with "lots of tongue". I was blushing in my dream, embarrassed that he read my blog, but in my waking life I have seriously never dreamt about kissing either twin with 'lots of tongue', or any tongue for that matter - god dammit. :( That was a weird dream, too. The next part I wrote down I don't remember the details, just that my dad's workplace was making a documentary. Then I'm walking to my childhood home. I get to the back porch, and enter the utility room. There are dog beds in the closet area of the utility room, and my dog Bear and Ziggy are there, along with two dogs, Wyatt and Tuffy, whom have passed away in my waking life. I remember my dog Bear kept wanting to bite Tuffy. Tuffy was a fat dachshund, so he was a small little guy compared to Bear's St. Bernard/Lab mix. I was really scared Bear would tear Tuffy to shreds, so I kept forcing myself between them to protect Tuffy. At some point, Bear quit bothering him, so I walked to the living room and looked out the door. It was raining really hard and then these fish the size of big northerns started falling to the ground along with the rain. I got scared and backed away from the door. Then I went back to the utility room and instead of the dogs there, my boyfriend's sister Cherish and her boyfriend Monte were there sitting on a couch (in the utility room, I don't know why). I decided to call Devin, my boyfriend, to see where he was and I heard a little kid's voice in the background. I joked about hearing a kid and tease him about cheating on me and having a family started with some other woman. He got quiet and really defensive then. I bawled, realizing it was true. Cherish gets mad at Devin for what he did, but I leave the house and hang up on him. I decided to walk into the woods, towards the road. I call my aunt Erin and tell her what happened. Then I hang up again and walk some more in the woods. I meet up with Sara Quin and strangely we seem to be in a relationship or something. It doesn't last for long, though. First, Devin's cousin Trevor starts chasing us in the woods. Then, I project out of my body and some woman is taking the place as Sara's girlfriend/the one getting chased. I'm just a third wheel trying to help them get to safety. Eventually we get to the road. It's autumn, cold, rainy. Leaves are falling from the painted-orange trees. A car pulls up and I look over at the other two and think "We're safe." They have the same look to them. Then a guy gets out and he looks like Taylor Handley (again, I had to look this guy up. I've only seen him in one thing, and it was Dawson's Creek a few years ago. It's strange how the brain stores hidden, insignificant information and visuals.) When I saw him exit the car and tell us to get in, I thought, "Great. Just like in the movies, he's supposed to be my knight in shining armor." I don't know why I thought that, but he smiled arrogantly, so it just got worse from there. The guy chasing us was closing in, and although I was thinking over whether I wanted to deal with this guy or the one chasing me, I eventually got in the car with Sara and her new girlfriend.

At some point in this dream, I actually remembered dreaming about the denim clothes that I wrote in this blog. I think writing these dreams down for so long is starting to make the memory of my waking life better.

Robots Attack!

Dreamt I was this married black woman and I was with my husband in this fenced in area that was on my parents' old property. We were trying to run away from this stuffed animal robot that my friend made me, because it was trying to kill us. The fence is an electrical one and the wires are splayed all over in the area we were running around in and it is also raining, so eventually I lay down on the ground next to my husband to keep from getting shocked so much. Suddenly we are in a run-down cabin, but it is still raining and there are still so many electric wires all over the floor. I poke my head up and peer out a window and I see the robot run past outside. Then I see a man heavily suited in some kind of protective wear. He has these big scissors and he starts cutting the wires from the fence outside, the fence that the wires inside the cabin are attached to. When he does that, the shock from the wires disappears. My husband and I hear noises outside. It sounds like a woman running. We rush out of the cabin and I turn into myself and my husband turns into Devin and I am carrying a little girl in my arms, our daughter, supposedly, along with the robot that was trying to kill us. Although this time, the robot is not the one my friend made me, but the one I made my sister for Christmas. Devin and the girl disappear at some point, and I walk up to this burn barrel and I threw the robot in the fire and I start to watch it melt. Suddenly I get this uneasy feeling that my sister won't believe me that the robots are killing people, so I grab the robot from out of the fire and when I look at its once-happy-looking face, it has a very angry, unhappy, melted face. Originally, the robot has a very happy anime face with its eyes closed, but after burning him for awhile, the eyes warped into an angle of anger. It scared me. I thought the robot would start to attack.

...Somehow my dream has a slight distraction.. I am in Warrens and I am at this farm. Devin is trying to sell a pig that we (don't really have in real life obviously but) own in the dream, but the farmer tries to pay for the pig for little of nothing. I talk back to the farmer, angry, telling him that he wants to murder the innocent creature and he's only giving us a couple bucks? That's ridiculous. Devin's dad is leaning out of the car window and he's telling Devin to shut me up and that I don't know anything about buying, selling, meat, or farming, and that I need to respect the guy that is trying to buy our pig. I march over to his dad and I yell at him telling him that he needs to respect my own opinions and beliefs. He refuses to, so I walk off. I start walking down this road and I get a text from my friend Anna and she tells me she is having problems with this guy she likes....

My dream goes back to where it ended in the beginning and I am walking down a long dirt driveway, holding the stuffed animal robot like it's a baby and I start singing the song Bloodletting really slow, hoping to calm the robot down enough so that it won't kill me. For some reason though, I thought that my grandma was a ghost in this dream and that singing to the robot would make me seem crazy to her. I start walking up to my aunt and uncle's trailer and see my uncle outside cleaning the deck. My mom and aunt are coming outside with boxes, apparently moving out.

Stray Cats

Dreamt I was editing a video that was in black and white. Then I was walking around in the town I grew up in (Warrens) and I ran into an old crush. He ended up giving me a kiss on the cheek and I felt that I was cheating on Devin by him kissing my cheek, so I hid from Devin in Wal-Mart. I was crouching down behind racks ofclothes and everything.. Then somehow I get to "the upstairs" in Wal-Mart (I never saw a Wal-Mart with an upstairs, but ooookay ) and climbed out a window and saw "my husband's" car. Suddenly I'm married? I don't know. I watched the movie My Cousin Vinny that morning, so the car was the burgundy one and the "husband" was a young Joe Pesci. I walked across the roof of Wal-Mart and into another window and ended up in an apartment. It was christmas. There was a tree up, ornaments, presents, stockings, even a fireplace. It felt homey. I looked out the window again and it was pouring outside (rain, not snow) and there were stray cats all over the place trying to get into the house any way they could.

Heavy Mist.

Dreamt I was pregnant. I was at my childhood home, looking out the screen door and watching the heavy mist. It wasn't raining, it was just very misty in the air. I am waiting for Devin to get home because I had found out that day I was pregnant. When Devin finally shows up, I tell him the weather is perfect, but not that I'm pregnant. Then I get online and Katie tells me she has presents to send me, and Devin has a few presents for me as well. Devin and I leave the house and get into the car but while we're heading out of the driveway, he hits a tree. I get out and try to maneuver the car away from the tree.

9/10/10 - At Sea.. In A Clawfoot Tub.

Dreamt I was mixing a bowl of something together and my aunt Erin was nearby and (she's allergic to pretty much everything) inhaled the fumes and fell/fainted. I ended up trying to give her CPR.


Then I was on this game show with three others.

Then I'm in this clawfoot tub with a see-through curtain, but the tub was floating in the ocean. It was dark out, and all I could see was the moon, and the bright white porcelain tub. It was raining, so I pulled the curtain tight and even though you'd think with the top of the tub not being protected, I strangely didn't get wet at all. The tub just kept rocking back and forth with the waves, and I wanted land. At some point I even made a snoring noise in my dream for some reason, which obviously must mean I was snoring in my waking life and having that affect my dream life. Finally, I open the curtain after the rain stops, and I'm on land. The same three people from the game show are on the land with me, and we walk down these steps of this hill and I see a piano sheet book on the ground that belonged to my grandma's in real life. I picked it up, knowing that I had this before I was in the ocean on the tub.


Bathtubs

• To see or be in a bathtub in your dream, suggests a need for self-renewal and escape from everyday problems. You need to rid yourself of the burdens that you have been carrying.

Sea

• To dream that you are lost at sea, suggests that you are drifting around in life without any direction. You are feeling overwhelmed by emotions.

3/3/08 - Electrocution.

I could have sworn I wrote down my dream on 7/10/10, but I can't find any writings about it. So I'll go through one of my journals again.. Here's one from March 3, 2008. Here's the entry:


"... But anyways, two consecutive nights before that one, I had these strange dreams. We'll start with the first night. I remember being at the pond on the property I grew up on, and getting into this tiny submarine. The submarine was filled with water, though I wasn't having problems breathing underwater or anything. Then I knew I had to do this, but was also thinking "no freaking way" in my head, but I started testing these electrical currents by hitting buttons on the 'dashboard'. These currents kept zapping me in the chest like those defibrillator paddles do when being resuscitated. I woke up after about three shocks. The second night, I had a dream inside of another dream. First, I remember being in this beaten down wooden house. Rain was coming in through the practically bare roof. Then I got hit by lightning. Then I woke up (still dreaming) and our dog Tuffy was with me and it was still raining. I decided to take Tuffy for a walk and we walked outside of this building that was missing a wall. There was this small but steep hill (like a ditch) after the opening, and Tuffy and I tumbled into an electric fence! Gah! I keep getting electrocuted in my dreams. It didn't happen last night though, thankfully."

During this entry, I was having constant panic attacks, and it was always effecting my heart. I'm guessing I was having a panic attack while sleeping or something, that's all I can think of that could make those dreams happen. I didn't mention it in the journal, but I remember how much my chest ached after waking up from the first dream.. I swore I could almost feel the electricity running through, even..






Rain

• To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace. Falling rain is also a metaphor for tears, crying and sadness. Alternatively, rain symbolizes fertility and renewal. If you get wet from the rain, then it indicates cleaning from your troubles and problems.

Roof

• To dream that the roof is leaking, represents distractions, annoyances, and unwanted influences in your life. New information is slowly revealing itself to you. Something is finally getting through to you. Alternatively, the dream means that someone is imposing and intruding their thoughts and opinions on you.

Walls

• To dream that a house has no walls, represents a lack of privacy. You feel that everyone is looking over your shoulder or up in your business.

Electrocution

• To dream of an electrocution, indicates that the current course of your actions will lead to disaster. The dream also represents fear and the consequences of your actions. You need to be more aware of your surroundings and those around you.

Submarine

• To see a submarine in your dream, indicates that you are cautiously exploring your emotions and unconscious feelings. You are guarded about certain emotional issues. Alternatively, the submarine indicates that you need to adapt a different perspective and new understanding of an issue. The submarine is a metaphor that you need to get down to the core of some situation or problem.