Leukemia.

Dreamt two teenage girls were at a party and one of them sees their crush. She walks over to talk to him, but he introduces her to his girlfriend next to him, so she walks away shyly and pretends to know this guy sitting down wearing a Beatles shirt. She sits on his lap like nothing happened.

Then I dreamt I was me and I was waiting for a bus at night. I was at my friend's old house, though. (In reality, the house is torn down and now there are villas all over the place for a waterpark, but in my dream the house was still there.. no waterpark). This girl that used to be my neighbor was also in my dream, though she was still the same age she was back then and I am the age I am now. She asked me if I was going back to school again (in high school, I was bullied at one point and eventually I quit school (came back eventually to finish), so I guess she knew I had left and in the dream was coming back to school). I told her I was, but I wasn't real excited about it. Finally a bus showed up and we crossed the road to get on, but other kids were piling out and at first I thought "Shit. It's nighttime. We must have missed school," but the bus driver allowed us on. We both sat down next to this girl with leukemia, I assume, since she was bald and had a scarf over her head. I felt tall compared to everyone, a giant. I could barely fit and could feel the ceiling hitting my head constantly. I remember I was chewing gum at the time, too, because I was worried the gum would fall out of my mouth and into the girl's hair.

Somehow I switched to being in my parents' kitchen. There was cake in pieces all over the floor and I was picking the pieces up and putting them into a trash bag. The pieces of cake were sopping wet with milk, though. It felt a lot like touching a wet sponge when I picked the pieces up. I even wrung the cake out to try to keep from getting milk in the bag, but then I noticed a hole in the bag and tried to tie a knot in the bag where the hole was so that nothing would spill out, but things fell out anyway. I went to put the cake pieces back into the bag but they all turned into rice krispies.

Oh, that first part I dreamt about (the party).. I dreamt this because I am in the process of reading a book about two friends, one having cancer. In one part of the book they are at a party and one of the girls sees her ex with another girl and she tries to act cool. I'm guessing this is why I dreamt of a leukemia patient in the second part of my dream.

A Weirdass Dream.

Dreamt I was at this campsite. I had a bad case of the runs... I go to the bathroom and when I feel a little better, I exit the bathroom and I'm in this basement with my sister Sarah. We're kind of half-packing to leave, but also planning to stay there that night. She's being her usual irritating bitch-self, so I have to suffer through that as well. I wanted to go to bed, but she wanted to watch Golden Girls. I changed the channel to Dead Zone and she yelled "PUT GOLDEN GIRLS BACK ON!" Then I grabbed pillows to try to get her to realize I was tired and wanted sleep. I also told her that I get to sleep in the bigger couch because I'm taller (barely, but still). Then she tells me that she sleeps with 12 pillows, so I only get one pillow and I give her the rest to make up for it. (Strangely, in real life I have a pillow case that holds two pillows. In my dream, I acknowledged this and took note.) Then, on a sunny afternoon, lol, Devin and I are walking up to these bathrooms at the campground and as soon as I get into it, I sit down and go potty again (the runs, I tell ya). Somehow our astral plane meshes with another and I'm sitting on the toilet in this campground bathroom but also sitting on a bus at the same time. (Devin was in the stall next to me and is sitting beside me on bus). These two guys turn their heads and start talking to us. They tell us that we all played poker once and that even though I didn't know how to play I beat them in one hand. All the while, I'm thinking in my head, "Oh my god, can they see me with my pants down??" I wasn't sure if I was also going to the bathroom on the bus. LOL.. Yikes. Anyways, then this guy that was the son of my old boss gets on the bus with something wrapped in a blanket. He and his "wife" supposedly had a baby real recently. When he brings the baby over for Devin and I to see, he shows us this teeny tiny kitten. That's when, in my head, I think "Oh yeah, his wife is that human cat." Apparently the kitten was a premie, ha ha. God this is a weirdass dream. Anyways, he tells us that he's hoping that when the kitten gets older it might learn to talk. Devin and I both hold the "baby's" paw and he tells us he appreciates that we are even accepting the poor thing, because everyone else he knows thinks it's the product of bestiality. (In the dream I imagined the mom was a woman, just with cat-like features.) I felt bad, because I would have held the kittens hand more, but I was afraid that because it was a newborn it was too fragile, so I was kind of pissed that Devin acted so nurturing compared to me. I kind of glared at him a few times while we coo'd at the baby.

Go, Greyhound. Go.

Dreamt I was in this computer room or maybe just a bedroom with a computer in it. There were collages on the walls. A woman is also in the room and she digs me. She disappears and an Indian woman appears in her place. We're in love for some reason and she tells me she has to go. This is where the republicans come into play. They are trying to kidnap her (because we're both women, dating). I give her a hug and hate myself to see her have to leave. I lean in to kiss her cheek but instead I whisper to her that I'll meet her somewhere. Maybe the republicans were listening in? I don't know. She disappears and I get on computer. But then Sara Quin appears in the room and she wants to take a picture with me. As the camera lens gets nearer, I notice how filthy it is, so I try to clean it off as best as I could. Then everything disappears and I'm living in the house I grew up in. I'm with Devin and we're waiting for my dad to pick us up to take us to Minnesota. He doesn't show up at the right time, so I call my mom and ask her where he is. Then I start packing and put my stuffed animal Robot and Macbook in a backpack and wait some more. Then I'm outside and I notice this huge greyhound parked outside. Instead of letting us on, Dad gets off and the greyhound leaves. Then I woke up.

8/21/10 - Angry Dancers.

Oh good god another embarrassing one.


I'm in this strange place. On this busy street. I am doing this puzzle-type of thing. It's hard to explain. I had to do these things in order to get it right. For example, I had to take a picture of someone and get a glare off of their hair, from the sun. If I couldn't finish these puzzles, I'd "wake up" from this "dream" and have to start over again. Kind of like in the movie Groundhogs Day.


I'm on this bus with a BUNCH of people. We are at this fast food restaurant trying to decide what we'll get for food (at some point I am in the restaurant, but in the beginning I was on the bus). The manager of the place says he/she won't sell us anything because we can't make up our minds. Even when we finally decide, they still refuse to sell us anything. I get pissed, because I'm starving. I also remember an ex-friend of mine was working at this place. She was wearing a black shirt and was also refusing to serve us anything. Somehow I'm BACK on the bus, and the bus driver tells us we have to pay them again for riding. This bus eventually turns out to be the band Hanson's bus. Even though it looks like a regular Greyhound bus. I have no money that I'm willing to give up, so I get off the bus. I walk into this huge building that from the outside looks like a casino. I recall wearing a tank top and a skirt and I hear someone whistle at me. I walk in with Taylor Hanson and a few others behind us. We all walk around the slot machines, and eventually I lose Taylor. My aunt Erin walks up to me and we walk for awhile and then she sees some coworkers of hers (who happen to be the fast food management that wouldn't allow to serve us awhile ago). I decide not to walk over to these people with her, so I continue walking. I start walking towards tables, getting away from the casino area. There are a lot of people sitting at the tables, all wearing elegant dresses or tuxedos mostly in colors of black and red. Everyone stands up simultaneously and the start ballroom dancing around the room. I have to zigzag around them. I notice Zac Hanson is walking around them, too. We both don't know why these people are dancing. The people that are dancing notice that we aren't dancing, and they look angry, but continue dancing. I start swaying when I walk, to pretend like I know what's going on and he does the same. We keep zigzagging around the angry dancers.

Fast Food

• To see or eat fast food in your dream, indicates that you are not taking the time to cater to your emotions. You are not taking good care of your physical or mental health.

Bus

• To dream that you are riding a bus, implies that you are going along with the crowd. You are lacking originality and control over where your life is taking.

Casino

• To dream that you are in a casino, signifies the risk-taker within you. If you are a reserved or passive person, then the dream suggests that you should take a chance. If you are not, then it implies that you need to make a more informed decision instead of relying on fate.

Ballroom Dancing

• To dream that you are ballroom dancing, indicates success in your endeavors. You have a positive outlook in life and are willing try anything and give it your all.

12/28/03 - Dead People On A School Bus?

Last night I only got an hour of sleep. I know I dreamt, because when I awoke I had fragments of dreams, which became forgotten within a few seconds upon waking. I think that if I can't remember a dream, I'll go through old old journals and find a random one to post. I found one in a journal from 9/13/03 to 11/21/04. So here goes one on the date 12/28/03. For shameful reasons, I am hiding a name that I mention in here, because.. well, it's embarrassing to mention past crushes.



"I had a great but crazy dream. First, I woke up wishing I'd fallen back asleep. I DREAMT OF ****! ... That's a first. The first thing I can remember was that I was new to school. I remember having to go to a phys-ed class, but it wasn't THAT bad. **** was there. Ahh! Nice. So then I remember getting onto a school bus and seeing either dead people or sleeping people on the bus, so I ended up taking a seat in the front. (My sister Sarah was with me). For some reason, the bus must have changed into a car at some point. The song Geek USA came on, and I told Sarah about it being a Smashing Pumpkins' song, and the bus driver turned around and said, "I'm a huge fan of SP!" - That was cool. Then all I remember after that was the end, when I walked out of my house and there was this huge crowd outside. I saw my mom and her friend, and I came over to them and said "Hi". One of them asked me if I had ever flown before. Then the house starts to fly, like an airplane. We were on this concrete pad-like porch that was connected to the house, so we were flying up into the clouds with the house. Then I saw the town in bird's eye view, and I saw **** in the crowd that was still outside where the house had been, and **** kept looking at me as if wanting to say something to me. It was weird. So then while up in the air, I began telling my mom how my day at school was. Then I woke up, because something I said made me realize I had been dreaming the whole time."

Dead

• To see the dead in your dream, forewarns that you are being influenced by negative people and are hanging around the wrong crowd. This dream may also be a way for you to resolve your feelings with those who have passed on. Alternatively, the dream symbolizes material loss.

Bus

• To dream that you are riding a bus, implies that you are going along with the crowd. You are lacking originality and control over where your life is taking.

House

• To see a house in your dream, represents your own soul and self. If the house is shifting, then it suggests that you are going through some personal changes and changing your belief system.

Floating

• To dream that you are floating on air, indicates satisfaction, contentment and acceptance of some situation. You are letting go of your problems and rising above obstacles. You are experiencing new-found freedom and gaining a new perspective on things. Nothing seems overwhelming or too difficult to handle. Alternatively, floating in your dream suggests that you are wandering through life aimlessly with no goals. You are just going with the flow.

I don't normally like to think dreams mean anything, but after reading this, and then reading ahead a few days later, I've found something strange I'd like to add. A week or so after I had this dream, I became home schooled. In real life, not in the dream, I had been harassed by these guys on the school bus (which maybe that meant in the dream, that those people were all dead to me. Forgotten.) Maybe the Smashing Pumpkins came into play because that band got me through the years of dropping out of school. (and holy wow, the lyrics.. pretty much summed up that experience of dropping out). The house flying up might have meant that I was getting away from all these people, trying to get a safe distance away from the hectic world. To disconnect myself from the outside world.