The Cellar

I was in this whole other family and I was the dad. At least in one part. What I remember is there were bad people or one person was bad? I had a shotgun and in a cellar and the room was dark and the baby/toddler thing tried to take my gun and almost shot. We were fighting for the gun and it started pointing first towards me then towards the sky (we were in a cellar though so I was worried someone was above us). I took the gun back and the older daughter criticized me for having the gun ready to shoot, so I made it safer somehow. Then the older daughter felt more ghostlike to me. It was weird! 

One other thing I remember. I was looking either at my phone at a photo and it was my mother in law with a couple of her sisters. They posted a caption like 'does anyone else use this in old age?' or something like that, and one of them was holding a can of hair spray and all of them had their elbows up/towards the camera. I remember feeling my elbows and they were really, really cracked and rough and thick flakes were on them. I was thinking how much I should probably use that tip from now on. 

Edit: weird! I'm reminded of another part in my dream. Me and my kids were singing along to the Beatles song 'In My Life' ... I remembered this because after I woke up I was scrolling Instagram and my friend made a fathers day post and used that song as her background. Crazy how that happens.. 

The Beach

I can't remember much but want to start writing my dreams down again. What I remember: I was on a beach and on my phone, trying to zoom into a photo or something? It might have been storming. 

Family Reunion

Dreamt I was at my mom's cousin's property (Dave and barb). We were eating outside having fun with a family reunion when (dad was there for some reason) I look over at him talking about being able to see his property from theirs. My sister and I walk closer to be able to see. We pass what looks like a garden but I hear a bullfrog I had stepped on. I look down and they're everywhere. Someone yells to watch for them. We are running trying not to step on any. We get towards the house and instead of looking at my dad's property, we go inside the house. I see there's another party inside and suddenly remember that we were celebrating a birthday, a family reunion and I think an anniversary or something? We keep walking through the house which felt like a big hallway. I see paper bags filled with papers and some photos etc. we are told to take the stuff and keep them safe. I see one bag had my aunt Heather's family's paperwork in it, so I make note to give her that. 

Okay the dream changes a bit and I see a girl on a motorcycle driving on the street. She hits onto a car and most likely doesn't make it. 

Wait before all this. Or maybe during? We were in that area for sure and my husband was there and I had remembered another dream I had years ago where there was a thrift store with tons of furniture and some clothes in a corner, books in boxes etc... so weird because I suddenly rememberes the store in my dream vividly. Anyways I was asking family and husband if we were near because it felt like it was close to this area. Husband was trying to make me think it wasn't close. I really wanted to so and look at stuff. 

Cursed Photo

Dreamt I was cleaning out the old house. Like we're moving out and I had to clean out everything, so I was grabbing a bunch of stuff that I saw in a little corner in the wall. I saw papers and pictures and pieces of glass. I was reaching in trying to grab stuff and couldn't get everything so Sarah helped. She seemed pissed off at me. She got what she could but said there was one photo she couldn't get because it was stuck to the wall or floor. She told me to just take a picture of it. I grabbed out my phone to take one and the first time I took a picture I looked demonic with red eyes. Second one I took seemed like maybe it would be okay. I looked at the pictures I took and I looked dead/rotted. Sarah was shocked and said that wasn't good. It meant a ghost was haunting the house and wouldn't let me go until I did something - like maybe beat them in a game. Crap I forgot what.  Anyways I was against this woman/ghost/creepy rotten lady and trying to win. I dunno what I had to do, but at some points I was also alone in a bathtub ;) ahem so it's all confusing. Also at one point I remember being in my dad's garden and there were others and we were all separate and hiding behind plants and stuff the best we could. I remember trying to twerk and didn't know if I was doing it right. Lol.. Anyways, somehow I beat her. I was free and not cursed. Mom and Sarah and Devin and Erin were all walking over and telling me that we'll have to start fresh and that we can all live together "in their basement" under this garage. It was a really pretty royal blue color I remember made of tin. Okay so we're walking down the stairs and I'm looking at everything and mom is kind of telling me what rooms will be what. Living room, then a room after that that had counters in it would be a good kitchen. There was a room on the other side of the counters that we said would make a good dining room. Walking to the right from that room I found this oblong room and we decided to put a wall in and make it two rooms. Then mom said there was another two rooms on the other side by the living room. I walked into a room to start working on cleaning and finishing and dev came with and we started making out. 

Vampire

Dreamt I was in this mental hospital or something. I was looking under the dirty bed and found a whooole bunch of old pictures stacked to each other in a few piles. Early 90s photos. I started grabbing out as many as I could. Suddenly an invisible person came in. I was terrified. Scared of them. They weren't hurting me, so suddenly it got more romantic/physical and we started kissing. I was able to see what he looked like. More celeb C.S.-like. He was going to help me escape the mental hospital. We were halfway down an elevator when I remembered the photos that I really wanted to keep since I don't have many as a child in real life. He left for a minute to go get them. I can't remember if he did get them or not, but I think I was just home/in a room, safe, with the vampire guy. Having sex on a bed in the dark with a bunch of other people laying on the floor sleeping nearby. That was weird and awkward. 

That's all I remember.

Boxes

Dreamt I was at Warrens mall and my husband and I left a couple small boxes of papers and pictures and schoolwork of the kids' there. I ran in thinking it's probably closed because barely anyone was there and it was dark. Saw my cousin Mel and I told her we accidentally left the boxes and that my daughter's phone was in there. She found the phone in the boxes and I started to explain proof of how I know it's ours (messages etc), she opened the camera and saw photos of daughte or random ones of family etc, so she said she believed me. She handed it back over. That's all I remember of my dream! 

Oh good lord, someone give me better handwriting..

I can't read my own handwriting.. So this is a bit jumbled and confusing.


Dreamt Zig still alive. (He's my dog that we had to put down this past spring. Rough year..)

I'm at my Dad's and I head down the driveway with Ziggy to go get the mail. I tell my mom where I am headed and say something like "I wish that dumbass wouldn't have taken my dog." -- My mom assumes I'm talking about my ex, but for some reason I am talking about his brother. (Okay, I don't understand this part at all. No association between any of my animals to my ex or his brother. Anyways..)

Zig is good until a Winnebago comes around the curve of the road. I push him towards the driveway/house, and he runs back up. I grab the mail and apparently my mom followed, because she starts talking to the people in the Winnebago. I think maybe the person in the Winnebago is an old park manager where I used to work. She asks someone how "Karen" is. The mail I grabbed wasn't mail, mementos. I remember seeing a picture/card that says "If/when I die" and on the back is my handwriting in gold, written to my sister. There were also pictures of my mom and aunt when they were little, my great uncle Walt, etc..


Before all of this I dreamt I was back in high school. I was wearing this black dress that was too short. I was a new girl - again - lame. I am looking for a bathroom and find one in a locker room. The bathroom was humongous, had many stalls. I leave the bathroom and there is a long line forming, so I get in line to wait my turn. Because I'm a moron.


Also dreamt I was getting food at Hu Hot (the best restaurant ever), but it was set in a house.

Movie.

Dreamt I was in a movie. I was supposedly going to die in the end. I was with this guy that was sometimes Devin, sometimes different actors. At one point we were both sitting next to each other taking pictures and I was the one with the camera. I said something like, "Oh sure, let the dying girl take the pictures." He laughed and I took a picture of his reaction. Sometime earlier I remember being outside with him. I think there was something wrong with my lungs... or maybe I had gotten hurt and he had to sew me up near my lungs. We were outside in wintertime and I remember mentioning that with my luck I was going to get pneumonia and die or something.

Felt Up and Make-up.

Dreamt that I was waiting in the backseat of a car with two guys. My boyfriend's mom was driving and my boyfriend and his dad were outside trying to cut down a tree or something. His mom got out of the car to tell them to hurry, because we were going to be late for something. When she left the car, the two guys started trying to touch my thighs and feel me up. I was scared, I thought I was going to get raped.

Then I was with Devin somewhere and he made pizza and one of my friends, Nadia, was there for some reason. :)

Before all of this dream, although not linked or associated in any way, I dreamt that Ville Valo of the band HIM was at Sportsman's Bar waiting for a cab. My sister's friend John was going to take a picture of me and Ville, but I didn't have any make-up on, so I asked my sister if she had any make-up I could borrow. We started to walk to the bathroom so I could make myself presentable, but suddenly a crowd of women broke out amongst us and I lost her. The women were all getting suggestions for make-up and borrowing each other's things.

Family Matters.

Dreamt my family was getting dolled up to go to one of Devin's family's parties. We were all in a house getting ready. At one point I notice my aunt Heather has really long wavy hair and my other aunt Erin took a picture of her. She looked really young and almost model-esque. Though definitely more 80s-model than modern-day. Then my aunt Heather started talking about how unfair it is for women who can't have babies.

* Probably dreamt this because I'm constantly wondering whether I can have children or not. At one point, in real life, I remember how difficult it was for my aunt Heather to have children. Eventually she had to go to a fertility clinic. She now has two very adorable boys. :)

The End Of The World.

What I ate/drank the night before: DiGiorno's Pepperoni Pizza and Constant Comment Decaf Tea. Plus a handful of Quakes Rice Snacks in Ranch flavor and a glass of water.

Dreamt I was making out with a black woman. She was a vampire, too. Then the vampire disappears and I am walking down a street with my grandma Milly. We spot my aunt Donna and uncle Larry walking into a dance hall, so we follow. I look around and see that everyone is eating at a billion different tables. There isn't much room, so I walk over to a table with a few empty seats and I sit down. A few seconds later someone tells me that the seats are taken, so I and this little girl that followed me to the table walk around the dance hall to find a different place to eat. We get to the very back of the room and I sit down at this table that this fatter boy and Rhianna is sitting at. The boy asks me a question and I can't quite understand him, so I answer honestly and he laughs rudely (along with Rhianna) and tells me he was being sarcastic. I look over at the little girl (she's about three or four) and roll my eyes. We're stuck sitting with a bunch of assholes. I find out from Rhianna that the dance takes place to find your soulmate. She points to a mirror on the floor and tells me that she sees my soulmate in the reflection and that she'll email the soulmate so that we can find each other. I look at my phone and see an email coming in and it shows a picture of Rhianna and below it (this is supposed to be me for some reason) is a picture of Betty White. (I might have to explain this.. My friend and I are constantly calling ourselves Rose and Blanche off Golden Girls, because we're goofy and we act like them a lot (me being a bit of an idiot and she being a bit of a slut, ha, so I guess my subconscious picked up on that..)). Rhianna and the fat boy end up leaving and I spot an old friend, Kayla, walking over to me so I stop to talk to her for a bit. She tells me that her dad is trying to start a business but that he's placing it in the wrong area. (Apparently he's starting this resort/bistro/cell phone fixing company inside of a hospital). I tell her that I remember seeing him walking around town with blueprints the other day. Then Kayla leaves and I look up at the sky (the ceiling is opened in parts to bring in a breeze). I smile at how pretty the sun looks. It's making the sky a bright blue color. There are dark clouds that the sun is beating through, and it casts an eerie yet gorgeous glow. Suddenly the clouds get thicker, though, gathering into darker and darker colors. Almost black. I hear a loud booming sound --not a crackling like thunder, more like a huge explosion-- Everyone starts screaming. The clouds have a faint red glow like fire making its way through. The song "Who's Gonna Drive You Home?" by The Cars comes on in the dancehall and I get a text message from an old black lady that only says "last song". I cry, thinking the sun exploded and that the world will end. That I won't know who my soulmate is. That I won't be able to breathe or think ever again. I won't be remembered. The little girl that was with me is crouched down by the wall behind me, so I grab her and put my arms around her and have her situated so that she is slightly under the table for shelter. I know we're going to die in a few seconds but I want her to feel safe anyways. I look back up at the sky and the clouds have turned a bright red. I look back down at the little girl and hold her tighter. I feel piercing hot liquid hit my back that feels like drops of lava. I start thinking that we're about to burn up, but then a really cold breeze hits my back and I can feel frost sticking to me. I don't know what's happening, but its very painful. I start shaking myself awake because I can't take the pain anymore. Within a few seconds I wake up to myself swaying my hips from side to side.

Wow, I had to look up the lyrics to this song. It's crazy how this song could actually make sense in this dream..

Gay Ending.

Dreamt I was in college, corresponding through the internet. I'm working on math. Very confusing and impossible fractions, to be exact. My mom and sister and some random old lady are trying to help me with my homework, but at some point the old lady distracts me by noticing a pearl bracelet I'm wearing. I explain something about it, and then I get back to my homework and have to click on this link to talk to a small group of other classmates online and the link wouldn't show, it was broken. Then my mom gives me this graphic novel and tells me excitedly about it. It's this woman that looks only slightly like her. She's a detective and going through a divorce. (In real life, my mom has always wanted to be a detective thanks to shows like Matlock, Murder She Wrote, Perry Mason, Law & Order, etc.. She's also divorced.) So I look through the book, I remember lots of reds, yellows and blues in the book. Also, at some point the woman grabs a bunch of produce from a supermarket and starts chucking the fruit at her ex-husband's house.

This next part I cannot for the life of me make out. It's a bunch of scribbles on my journal. Here's the closest I can come up with:

Took photo camera sound T&S boyman ??? <- Boyman? Batman? Boothawn? Boy's hawn? I don't know.

Then I'm walking up the pond road where my family used to live and the ground is covered in snow. I notice my mom's legs sticking out of a plastic container-tub behind an electric fence. I go over and realize the electric fence isn't on, so I climb through and pull my mom out and she's drunk off her ass. Apparently she fell into it and didn't realize. So I walk her up the hill/road while she staggers.

Then I'm in a Walmart parking lot, looking into the back of a truck. Some guy is sitting in it and he has three stuffed animals that I had owned when I was little. One of them was "Frankie", my monster of frankenstein doll I cherished as a kid. I pointed him out and told the guy I wanted the doll back. He grabbed it but the doll was tangled up in the thread of the two other dolls. I climbed into the truck to help untangle him and the truck started moving and eventually parked in the driveway of the house I grew up in. The dream turned slightly sexual for a few minutes. The guy I was with kept brushing his hands near my thighs.

Then I'm in this city hall and there are tables all over the place, booklets with the word "Homophobia" and pictures of rainbows splashed on the covers. A person with the booklet tells me I missed the meeting. We were supposed to talk about the negative effects of homophobia. I talk to the person for a few seconds about it, and then I walk out of the building. I start walking down the street and I have my dog Moses with me. (He's a tiny little guy, half-Papillon, half-Chihuahua). I see my brother Joran in the doorway of an arcade room and he smiles at Moses and hugs me and says he misses us (the family. He lives in Florida.) Then he asks me where Sarah (sister) and Mom live, and I tell him they live in town above Sportsman's Bar and he looks half in anger, half in disappointment and says "I wonder why they never visit me, then." We both walk into the arcade room and Joran starts playing one of the games. My uncle Thane is standing next to him also playing a game. Joran wins a game and starts typing his name in but for some reason I saw, "Wecarealot" Which is a Faith No More song. Which is a band Joran loves. I point at the high scores and say, "That looks like "We Care A Lot" and Joran laughs and starts singing the song and some girl turns around behind us and puts her arm around Joran and sings along as well (and at some point they sing the words "gays and lesbos" in the song.. I remember that.)

I Could Never Be Your Woman

Dreamt I was at my grandfather's house and that I was engaged to be married to my ex-boyfriend. In the dream, I broke it off with him because I wanted to be with a woman instead and he hated me a LOT after that. While he's with his friends talking things over, I'm in a bedroom trying on a bunch of Tegan and Sara shirts I must have recently purchased. They are really poor quality shirts, though. One had the graphics cut off from another shirt and sewn crooked onto a beige shirt with this cropped purple coat over the top. Then my sister's dog is bleeding and he bumps into me and I go to clean my black leggings (that I wore to bed that night) and the water I sprayed on turned them grey in spots, making me realize it was bleach I was using. At first I was pissed but then I kept spraying them until they looked all kinds of different greys. I walk out of the bedroom and I'm at my old house in the kitchen with my friend Dana and a bunch of others. She kisses some skater-looking kid on the cheek and he smiles. Then I'm in this classroom and I'm taking a test and this guy in front of me is an ass and keeps bullying me. During the test, my necklace broke and I was trying to pick up what pieces I could find. After that, I'm outside at night and decide I need to take pictures of the moon because the last time they didn't turn out. I try changing the setting on my camera to a night setting, but when I look up at the sky, I notice that it is cloudy as fuck and there's no way I'll be able to see anything.

10/1/10 - Nostalgia.

People were eating plants and gaining super powers. These people were bad, though. They moved vines of ivy and things to kill people by strangulation.

Then I dreamt I was at this concert. Andrew WK, My Morning Jacket and Bonnie Raitt were (strangely) playing together on this circular stage. I was with my mom, and we were both dancing near My Morning Jacket.


Then I was at a birthday party for Pry (from the heartagram boards), everyone from the board was there. I tried to take a picture of her, but the camera was fuzzy and I couldn't see her, so she took a picture of me and it turned out looking like my lips were bright red.

Then I was in a garage. There were a bunch of old childhood clothes of mine and old toys scattered about the floor. I was trying to find my toy I cherished most in my childhood, but could not find him. Instead, I found this weird baby toy where he was nestled in this weird clam shell that would open and close. When you open it, music would play. Then I walk to the bedroom and see all kinds of teenage-style clothes from the past and try a bunch on. My sister walks in and yells at me that I'm wearing something of hers and stalks off in a pissy mood.

8/21/10 - Angry Dancers.

Oh good god another embarrassing one.


I'm in this strange place. On this busy street. I am doing this puzzle-type of thing. It's hard to explain. I had to do these things in order to get it right. For example, I had to take a picture of someone and get a glare off of their hair, from the sun. If I couldn't finish these puzzles, I'd "wake up" from this "dream" and have to start over again. Kind of like in the movie Groundhogs Day.


I'm on this bus with a BUNCH of people. We are at this fast food restaurant trying to decide what we'll get for food (at some point I am in the restaurant, but in the beginning I was on the bus). The manager of the place says he/she won't sell us anything because we can't make up our minds. Even when we finally decide, they still refuse to sell us anything. I get pissed, because I'm starving. I also remember an ex-friend of mine was working at this place. She was wearing a black shirt and was also refusing to serve us anything. Somehow I'm BACK on the bus, and the bus driver tells us we have to pay them again for riding. This bus eventually turns out to be the band Hanson's bus. Even though it looks like a regular Greyhound bus. I have no money that I'm willing to give up, so I get off the bus. I walk into this huge building that from the outside looks like a casino. I recall wearing a tank top and a skirt and I hear someone whistle at me. I walk in with Taylor Hanson and a few others behind us. We all walk around the slot machines, and eventually I lose Taylor. My aunt Erin walks up to me and we walk for awhile and then she sees some coworkers of hers (who happen to be the fast food management that wouldn't allow to serve us awhile ago). I decide not to walk over to these people with her, so I continue walking. I start walking towards tables, getting away from the casino area. There are a lot of people sitting at the tables, all wearing elegant dresses or tuxedos mostly in colors of black and red. Everyone stands up simultaneously and the start ballroom dancing around the room. I have to zigzag around them. I notice Zac Hanson is walking around them, too. We both don't know why these people are dancing. The people that are dancing notice that we aren't dancing, and they look angry, but continue dancing. I start swaying when I walk, to pretend like I know what's going on and he does the same. We keep zigzagging around the angry dancers.

Fast Food

• To see or eat fast food in your dream, indicates that you are not taking the time to cater to your emotions. You are not taking good care of your physical or mental health.

Bus

• To dream that you are riding a bus, implies that you are going along with the crowd. You are lacking originality and control over where your life is taking.

Casino

• To dream that you are in a casino, signifies the risk-taker within you. If you are a reserved or passive person, then the dream suggests that you should take a chance. If you are not, then it implies that you need to make a more informed decision instead of relying on fate.

Ballroom Dancing

• To dream that you are ballroom dancing, indicates success in your endeavors. You have a positive outlook in life and are willing try anything and give it your all.

8/18/10 - Class In The Porch.

I don't really remember a lot about this dream, and what I wrote down did NOT help whatsoever. Anything in parenthesis is just myself trying to remember a bit more, for description).



Accident.
School. Stuffed animals. (I remember sitting on these stuffed animals, in my childhood home porch. The porch was a classroom for my old high school class.) Audrey won Academy Award or something. Best actress. (Audrey is my grandpa's sister. I must have dreamt this because of receiving the photos of grandpa's family or something. After seeing photos of Audrey, I thought she looked a lot like a silent film actress back in the day. This must be why I dreamt that she was an actress.)

2. (I think I actually woke up for a second and then fell back asleep, so this is a continuation of the dream above) Class still in porch now. I'm upstairs noticing Devin is gone. I see "him" (even though it's my dog Moses) sleeping under someone's blanket. I yell for Devin (Moses) and make him come upstairs with me to the living room because I don't want to be alone.

At some point before I wake up, I'm in bed lying on my left side. I hear an acoustic version of Lady Gaga's song Poker Face. I change the station. Then I wake up.

School

• To dream that you are in school, signifies feelings of inadequacy and childhood insecurities that have never been resolved. It may relate to anxieties about your performance and abilities.

8/13/10 - Lame Dream.

I had yet another dream about looking at a picture. This one was black and white, and it was my grandpa and his sister next to a tree. I don't know if I was looking at the picture though, or if it was actually them moving around. It was the picture in my view, and nothing more. I couldn't see my hands holding the picture, etc.


I'm brushing my wet hair at my childhood home, in the living room. I notice a pile of stuffed animals on the couch and I set the brush down and sift through them. I see my [real life] old stuffed animal, Jolly, my fuzzy green stuffed animal that looked like a mix between Gumby and the Jolly Green Giant, (in my waking life, a dog had stolen Jolly and I was too afraid to ask the owner for it back, so I lost him forever). So I was really excited to see him again. I hugged him and clung to him, walking out the house towards a beer tent that was magically thirty feet from my home. I remember the orange-tape fencing clearly. I walked up, grabbed a beer (which I rarely drink), and walked back out of the beer tent and stood next to Devin. I was still carrying Jolly with me. At some point, I notice a tour bus with a huge picture of Bam Margera painted across it riding down the road past the beer tent. Following behind were a bunch of men on motorcycles. Even though I was far away, I could see Ryan Dunn in the front wearing sunglasses. To explain, I am not a big fan of Bam or anything like that. I was at one point, though, and in my waking life, I obtained a joke poster of Bam Margera as a gift from a penpal, so I'm blaming her a second time for affecting my dreams. Moving on, though. I was outside the beer tent and I noticed the bus. I started dancing to the music that was playing, trying to see if the bus would stop and see me dancing and think that there was a party going on or something. I was bored as hell and wanted a crowd there. The bus did stop, but I didn't watch to see them come off the bus or anything. I ended up dropping my bottle off at the bar and the bartender starts to get suspicious about Jolly. I start worrying that he thinks I stole Jolly, so I leave the beer tent and walk to a gas station nearby. Jolly disappeared, as did Devin. I walked up to some stranger and I told them I needed shampoo, so I walked into the gas station. I change my skirt right in the gas station, in a place people could see. Don't ask me why. I walk back out and I see a group huddled on the floor. It's my mom, my aunt, my uncle and my sister. They tell me that a News Channel was just inside the store and was taping something. I try to remain calm, but inside I am thinking "I just showed my underwear to a news crew. My ass might be on television." I teleport somehow to this computer and I am trying to get the internet to work. I call tech support and first I am afraid I'll get this person I really don't like in real life but I end up getting someone nice that I don't mind. I didn't even get to the website to see if I was caught changing into a skirt, I ended up just getting the computer fixed and teleport back to the gas station. Once there, at night, I notice a bus waiting. An old friend, Chelsey, is telling me I should come with her on the bus, so I join. We get on the bus and ride for awhile and at some point, for no reason - I shit you not - she points at some random person and declares that "That person just farted." I laughed awkwardly and eventually got off the bus.

I really really really don't want to post the rest of this dream, but it's a dream and it's one I can't control no matter how cringe-worthy it gets.. (Plus, after reading The Oxford Book Of Dreams, and reading excerpts from journals of other dreamers, I can safely say this is nothing compared to what others have dreamt about.. hahahahahaha-yikes.)

Somehow I'm in this house. It has MANY doors and the rooms open to other rooms, which open to other rooms. It's unending. The walls were white and all the beds had maroon bedspreads. There were always two beds in one room, and the beds were aligned in a crooked manner to the room. I'm walking through the house with my boyfriend and we notice Tegan Quin and her girlfriend in the house, too. I get starstruck and I end up not listening to something Devin says, because Tegan is wearing quite the risque clothing.. Nighties, swimsuits, etc.. We all sit down on the two beds, Devin and I on one bed and she and her girlfriend on another. The two women get lovey-dovey, and I get insanely jealous and I end up leaving the room. I open the first door and I can barely hear what Tegan is saying to her girlfriend, so I follow the wall closest to where she was sitting and get to another door around the corner. Now I am entering a bathroom and I can hear her even clearer. She is telling her girlfriend how much she loves her or something, and I keep my hands and ear against the wall, trailing along to get closer and closer to her voice. I respond that I love her back and notice the voice is even louder through this other door that is between the bathroom and the bedroom they are all in. I open the door and it is a closet with three darkly wooden steps that go down to this wall. I walk down the steps and I hear her say even louder now that she loves her again, so I push my hands up against the wall and scream a response again. The wall pulls back as soon as the weight of my body hits it (like a secret passage would do) and I end up falling down more stairs. I land on this weird flooring. It's almost a rat's nest. Fuzziness everywhere. There are holes in the flooring and I notice movement below. Underneath this strange flooring is a basement I assume, so I peer down to look below. I notice a piece of paper that has "obsession" in big letters and the movement below me notices me watching them and the person starts to climb up the holes in the flooring to catch me. This person (I'm unsure if it was male or female, I never saw a face) is upset that I caught them spying on me and the other three. I crawl up the stairs trying to keep away from this person. I notice Tegan and her girlfriend are fighting, but I tell them about this person that was spying on us and they all freak out. We all start walking out of the bedroom and Tegan follows closely behind me instead of her girlfriend, because of their fight they had.

I think we know the interpretation for this one. Obsession over a celebrity. That's lame and really embarrassing. Can't wait to write more dreams so I can bury this one.





Stuffed Animal

• To see a stuffed animal in your dream, represents an immature attitude. You are trying to escape from your daily responsibilities and problems. Alternatively, a stuffed animal indicates your need to relax and be less serious. You need to let your mind and body to rejuvenate. A stuffed animal may also mean security, love, comfort, support and unconditional or unquestioned love.
  

Walls

• To see a wall in your dream, signifies limitations. obstacles and boundaries. There is a barrier obstructing your progress. Alternatively, the wall indicates that you are too accustomed to your old habits and way of thinking. You feel stuck. To dream that you are hiding behind a wall, suggests that you ashamed in acknowledging your connections. To dream that you are being thrown or shot through a wall, means that you need to literally breakdown those walls that you have put up around you.

Spy

• To dream that someone is spying on you, represents your impulsive behavior. This dream may also serve as a warning that you are being watched, investigated, or evaluated. Someone is looking over you.
  

Sign

• To see a sign in your dream, indicates that you need help. You need some direction and guidance in your life. Pay attention to what the sign says and what it is pointing you to do. Perhaps the dream is highlighting "a sign of the times".

• Obsession

• To dream of an obsession, suggests that you need to take some time to work through some difficulty. There is a situation that may potentially take over your daily life and prevent you from functioning efficiently.

8/12/10 - I Wanted The Signed Poster.

(picture of my grandpa's family. He's the youngest one, in the middle).

This one will be short. I barely remembered anything. I just remember at one point I was on the computer editing a photo of my grandpa's family. (In my waking life, I recently found a bunch of photos of my dad's side of the family and I liked one picture so much I just had to print it out and tape it to my wall..)

The next thing I remember dreaming was waking up in bed. Devin walks in and throws this package at me. I ask him what it is and he tells me that I received my vinyls I pre-ordered (a collection of Tegan & Sara records, which comes with a signed poster), and I ended up getting a DVD instead of the poster (this was the package he threw at me).. I remember freaking out thinking I needed to let the company that sent it know that they mixed up, so that I didn't feel awful getting a DVD for which I didn't pay for. That, and I really wanted the damned poster with the signatures.

Photo

• To dream that you are altering a photo, suggests that you are putting out a false image, or something is not what it seems to be.

Mail

• To dream that you receive mail indicates that you need to communicate or re-establish contact with someone from your present or past. It may also represent messages from your unconscious or intuition. The mail may also be a pun on a "male" in your life.

• Disappointment

• To dream of disappointment, indicates real-life experiences of being continually disappointed. Such dreams often reflect repressed disappointments which has accumulated over a period of time. Your dream serves as an emotional outlet to help ease your mind.

8/7/10 - Gonna Raise Hell.

I'm at my aunt and uncle's home, during a family reunion. One of my other uncles comes over and talks to me about his house and his wife and kids.

I don't remember what happens or how I get to the next part of my dream, but I am next to this lake house (that actually looks like the house in the movie Lake House) and I remember walking over this dock and trying to locate a missing dog. I am calling for about five dogs, and all of them came to me except one. I put the dogs that came to me inside the house and start calling for the other. I finally find the dog coming towards me on the dock, but when I get close to her, she starts to dart away, then come back to me. She continues doing this for awhile, and I don't remember if I ever did catch her.

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Now I'm lying in this sleeping bag next to Devin. There are others around us also sleeping in bags. Someone walks over and tells us that 'Brent' is looking for us. Devin rolls over towards me and explains to me that Brent hid something - buried it - in the woods where we're sleeping. I start thinking that Brent is a killer and that what he buried is a body, so I start to freak out. Then somehow we're not outside and we're in this record store, still in our sleeping bags (though now with a mattress underneath) though nobody else is in the store with us. I remember a HIM poster is on this architectural column of some sort in the record store. Then Hellraiser (looks like the usual Hellraiser, played by Doug Bradley) comes into the store with two other men that look like Migé Amour and Emerson Burton of the band HIM. Hellraiser comes closer and although I am not completely terrified like I would be in real life, I do have this feeling that he is bad. This Hellraiser guy is pissed, though. He expected Devin to do something for him, and Devin didn't do whatever it was he wanted done. He tells Devin that if it's not completed soon, then he'll kill one of us... Then it gets weird. He comes over to us, pushes Devin away, pulls my clothes off and rapes me. Although in real life I would be so incredibly scared and turned off, it was actually quite the opposite in the dream. I loved it. And I remember biting him a LOT. Ew.



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This is the second dream I've had where a bed appears in the past month. In both dreams, the bed was just a mattress, with no frame. I might have to take note of that and see if this is common in most of my dreams.




Search

• To dream that you are searching for something, signifies the need to find something that is missing or needed in your life.
  

Dog

• To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity.

Bury

• To dream that you bury something, suggests that you are hiding your true feelings. Or you are trying to cover up some situation or act. In particular, if you are burying a body, then it suggests that you are trying to hide something that you find repulsive or that others may find unappealing.
  

Rape

• To dream that you have been raped, indicates vengeful or resentful feelings toward the opposite sex. You feel that you have been violated or that you have been taken advantage of. Something or someone is jeopardizing your self-esteem and emotional well-being. Things are being forced upon you.
  

8/5/10 - Dogs Are A Delicacy.

There is a lake and I'm standing on this rock near the shore.. The mustang is half-in the water, and near the rock, so I carefully get onto the top of the car and have Devin help me up and out of the lake.. It seems I can't swim or maybe there was something in the water.. Also, it's really dark out.


Then I'm in Warrens, right in town. It's the end of a parade and I'm sitting on the corner of Railroad St. and Cty Hwy O (I google-mapped this just now for the correct location, and also the picture in this entry is actually of the spot where I was sitting..). This girl of about sixteen with long blond hair walks to the center of the road with this pink barbie sled/bike (it had wheels, but was flat like a sled). She gets in the sled and spins around and around, kind of making a fool of herself like most teens do for attention. :) She's too big for this contraption, so she skids out twice, and eventually people yell for her to get off the road. A sister of hers walks to her with a towel and puts the towel around her as she changes for some reason. The sister gives me the evil eye, as if I'm bad news. When this sixteen year-old is done changing, she walks over to where I am and sits down to my right. She starts flirting with me, with Devin to my left. I feel awful, but I like the attention, so I flirt back even though she's a bit young. There is this white table in front of us and I have gum in front of me. She reaches for a piece without asking and it bothers me a lot. Then she starts to grab this iPhone that is Devin's, but we catch her in time, and I give it to Devin. We start taking pictures and we have this screen so we can see our pictures while we take them.. I notice our teeth are sharp, like a vampire's. Then we disolve and I become this man in a grunge band taking pictures by this tree with his band. They are wearing fangs. Then I become myself again and I start walking to my aunt's house, down this trail, but I walk on my tippy-toes, like a ballerina. I walk like this all the way to my aunt's home. I walk up their ramp and notice these two cats that are starving. Their stomach's are sunk in and their fur is matted. They need food soon or they'll die. I don't seem worried, so I walk off and on my way I look on the ground for something for the cats to eat. I figure if I find something for them, I'll walk back.

I'm in this hospital room now and in the bed is my great-uncle Walt. My whole family is surrounding him and at one point we are all making small talk and the issue is about meat.. My cousin Megan pipes up that she heard dogs are a delicacy and are supposedly the tastiest meat.



Lake

• To see a lake in your dream, signifies your emotional state of mind. You feel restricted and that you can't express your emotions freely. Alternatively, the lake may provide you with solace, security, and peace of mind. If the lake is clear and calm, then it symbolizes your inner peace. If the lake is disturbed, then you may be going through some emotional turmoil.

Vampire

• To see a vampire in your dream, symbolizes seduction and sensuality, as well as fear and death. The vampire represents contrasting images of civilized nobility and aggression/ferocity. It may depict someone in your waking life whose charm may ultimately prove harmful. Deep down inside, you know that this person is bad for you, yet you are still drawn to him or her. Vampires also sometimes relate to decisions about sex and losing your virginity. Alternatively, to see a vampire suggests that you are feeling physically or emotionally drained. The vampire may also be symbolic of someone who is addicted to drugs or someone in an obsessive relationship.
  
  To dream that you are a vampire, signifies that you are sucking in the life energy of others for your own selfish benefit.

Ballerina

• To dream that you are a ballerina, suggests that you are moving through the obstacles of your life effortlessly. You feel unrestricted. It is also a symbol of innocence, frailty, and vulnerability. Alternatively, you may feel unable to attain and measure up to society's ideals of beauty.

Starvation

• To dream about starvation, indicates that you are lacking in some mental or emotional area of your life. You may be ignoring or avoiding an important family/emotional issue. Starvation dreams are not uncommon in individuals who are dieting or who have an eating disorder.

Cat

To see a cat in your dream, symbolizes an independent spirit, feminine sexuality, creativity, and power. It also represents misfortune and bad luck.

Food

• To see food in your dream, represents physical and emotional nourishment and energies.

Dog

To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity.