Idiot..

Forgive me.. I cannot read my own handwriting sometimes, and even more so after only being awake for a few seconds:


Dreamt I was in my dad's front yard. (He lives in the woods and the long driveway actually comes to the side of the house with the yards on either side of view.. so it's debatable which is the front and which is the back. This is the side next to his kitchen window. I've always called it the front yard because it's the first part you see, even though the way the house is set up it would probably be called the backyard.. Moving on..) I remember sitting down in the grass because my foot felt funny. I took my shoe off and see that it is deformed. It was like there were a couple other toes attached to my left foot. It was weird.. I assumed that this happened because I had a baby (and I'm always thinking about how having her made my feet grow out of all my favorite pairs of shoes.. dammit all..) Then Devin had this brilliant plan (riiight) for me to get pregnant. I didn't understand this plan in my dream and of course I don't in my waking life, but he seemed to think he could sleep with some lady, and I with some guy, and that somehow in this plan he would still be the father of the baby I'd be carrying. Like somehow in that whole mess, all of the things I seem to be doing wrong might end up right, and this baby he would make with this lady, and this baby I would make with this man, would transfer only to me. Confusing, but whatever... I ended up breaking up with him because he seemed to eager to sleep with someone else, and I thought it was the dumbest idea ever.

7/16/10 - This One Is Confusing.

This one is confusing. I wrote this one half asleep. I cannot read the first word even.

It looks like.. "unwholing" or "urwhealing"

And then: "Dated T. Picture of her as teen w/ blond hair."


I also remember at one point being in a store, and I tried on this hat and these awesome glasses. I wore them for a few minutes until I realized that they were stuck together. They were able to be fastened together, and the hat which at first was a fedora turned into a black helmet of some sort, and the glasses turned into weird black plastic goggles. It looked ugly, so I set them back on the shelf.

Date

• To dream that you are on a date, represents your need for self-discovery and self-awareness. You are getting to know some hidden aspects of yourself and acknowledging your hidden talents. Alternatively, it may reflect your anxieties about dating or finding acceptance. The dream may also be a "rehearsal" for an actual date you have. It serves to overcome anxieties you may have.

Goggles

• To see or wear goggles in your dream, suggest that you are trying to protect yourself from emotional harm. Perhaps you need to confront something in your waking like that you know is hurting you.

Helmet

• To see a helmet in your dream, symbolizes protection. It also indicates that you need to keep your thoughts and ideas closely guarded.