Cleaning

Dreamt me and husband were cleaning the camper out but it was also dad's house/childhood home. Clothes everywhere, furniture everywhere.. found a console TV and hid that in a corner behind other furniture because I didn't want my dad seeing it and wanting it lol. I remember walking into the kitchen and seeing the counters were flipped the wrong way (my sister and mom cleaned this room), and dad's kitchen was extremely clean. Also remember when I was cleaning stuff out, there were a bunch of toys of my daughter's and I was trying to stuff what I could in bookbags etc. 

Blood Clot

Dreamt there was a pain in my left side, under my rib cage. The pain kept moving higher and higher. I was still living with my parents and was in the kitchen when I yelled for them to take me to the hospital. They slowly carried me to the hospital (in reality this hospital is a half hour drive away because my childhood home was metaphorically in Timbuktu, but they were carrying me the whole way on foot). At some point Devin takes place of them, and just like in my waking life, he stops and chats with people during important times. In this case, while I'm dying. Anyways, finally we get to my doctor and she ends up being the midwife that helped me deliver my daughter. While telling her what's wrong with me and begging her to get this clot out, she tells me that just getting it out won't work. She tells me she would have to put something in me (she calls it a 'lean-to' but I assume she's talking about a 'stent' or something.) I throw all of these kids' toys off of a table (similar toys of my daughter's, similar table I own), and lay onto it, begging her to hurry, because I am afraid I'm going to die any minute. Suddenly the left side of my face goes numb. I try to smile but can't on that side. Right before she puts me under, I ask her to give me a toy of my daughter's that was on the floor for good luck. I start to become half-asleep and think to myself that if I turn onto my back (or on my right side, I don't remember), then my arm and face, etc, will stop feeling so numb. Also while being worked on, my 'dream-within-a-dream' was of Stevie Nicks playing piano in a room that had a very '70s-'80s trailer vibe.

Robots Attack!

Dreamt I was this married black woman and I was with my husband in this fenced in area that was on my parents' old property. We were trying to run away from this stuffed animal robot that my friend made me, because it was trying to kill us. The fence is an electrical one and the wires are splayed all over in the area we were running around in and it is also raining, so eventually I lay down on the ground next to my husband to keep from getting shocked so much. Suddenly we are in a run-down cabin, but it is still raining and there are still so many electric wires all over the floor. I poke my head up and peer out a window and I see the robot run past outside. Then I see a man heavily suited in some kind of protective wear. He has these big scissors and he starts cutting the wires from the fence outside, the fence that the wires inside the cabin are attached to. When he does that, the shock from the wires disappears. My husband and I hear noises outside. It sounds like a woman running. We rush out of the cabin and I turn into myself and my husband turns into Devin and I am carrying a little girl in my arms, our daughter, supposedly, along with the robot that was trying to kill us. Although this time, the robot is not the one my friend made me, but the one I made my sister for Christmas. Devin and the girl disappear at some point, and I walk up to this burn barrel and I threw the robot in the fire and I start to watch it melt. Suddenly I get this uneasy feeling that my sister won't believe me that the robots are killing people, so I grab the robot from out of the fire and when I look at its once-happy-looking face, it has a very angry, unhappy, melted face. Originally, the robot has a very happy anime face with its eyes closed, but after burning him for awhile, the eyes warped into an angle of anger. It scared me. I thought the robot would start to attack.

...Somehow my dream has a slight distraction.. I am in Warrens and I am at this farm. Devin is trying to sell a pig that we (don't really have in real life obviously but) own in the dream, but the farmer tries to pay for the pig for little of nothing. I talk back to the farmer, angry, telling him that he wants to murder the innocent creature and he's only giving us a couple bucks? That's ridiculous. Devin's dad is leaning out of the car window and he's telling Devin to shut me up and that I don't know anything about buying, selling, meat, or farming, and that I need to respect the guy that is trying to buy our pig. I march over to his dad and I yell at him telling him that he needs to respect my own opinions and beliefs. He refuses to, so I walk off. I start walking down this road and I get a text from my friend Anna and she tells me she is having problems with this guy she likes....

My dream goes back to where it ended in the beginning and I am walking down a long dirt driveway, holding the stuffed animal robot like it's a baby and I start singing the song Bloodletting really slow, hoping to calm the robot down enough so that it won't kill me. For some reason though, I thought that my grandma was a ghost in this dream and that singing to the robot would make me seem crazy to her. I start walking up to my aunt and uncle's trailer and see my uncle outside cleaning the deck. My mom and aunt are coming outside with boxes, apparently moving out.

My Robot Was Broken.

After doggy-sitting my boyfriend's parents' dogs, I dreamt that I found my stuffed animal robot dirty and with his head off. There was a button missing for one of his eyes. I knew which dog did it and I was sad and pissed.

Gay Ending.

Dreamt I was in college, corresponding through the internet. I'm working on math. Very confusing and impossible fractions, to be exact. My mom and sister and some random old lady are trying to help me with my homework, but at some point the old lady distracts me by noticing a pearl bracelet I'm wearing. I explain something about it, and then I get back to my homework and have to click on this link to talk to a small group of other classmates online and the link wouldn't show, it was broken. Then my mom gives me this graphic novel and tells me excitedly about it. It's this woman that looks only slightly like her. She's a detective and going through a divorce. (In real life, my mom has always wanted to be a detective thanks to shows like Matlock, Murder She Wrote, Perry Mason, Law & Order, etc.. She's also divorced.) So I look through the book, I remember lots of reds, yellows and blues in the book. Also, at some point the woman grabs a bunch of produce from a supermarket and starts chucking the fruit at her ex-husband's house.

This next part I cannot for the life of me make out. It's a bunch of scribbles on my journal. Here's the closest I can come up with:

Took photo camera sound T&S boyman ??? <- Boyman? Batman? Boothawn? Boy's hawn? I don't know.

Then I'm walking up the pond road where my family used to live and the ground is covered in snow. I notice my mom's legs sticking out of a plastic container-tub behind an electric fence. I go over and realize the electric fence isn't on, so I climb through and pull my mom out and she's drunk off her ass. Apparently she fell into it and didn't realize. So I walk her up the hill/road while she staggers.

Then I'm in a Walmart parking lot, looking into the back of a truck. Some guy is sitting in it and he has three stuffed animals that I had owned when I was little. One of them was "Frankie", my monster of frankenstein doll I cherished as a kid. I pointed him out and told the guy I wanted the doll back. He grabbed it but the doll was tangled up in the thread of the two other dolls. I climbed into the truck to help untangle him and the truck started moving and eventually parked in the driveway of the house I grew up in. The dream turned slightly sexual for a few minutes. The guy I was with kept brushing his hands near my thighs.

Then I'm in this city hall and there are tables all over the place, booklets with the word "Homophobia" and pictures of rainbows splashed on the covers. A person with the booklet tells me I missed the meeting. We were supposed to talk about the negative effects of homophobia. I talk to the person for a few seconds about it, and then I walk out of the building. I start walking down the street and I have my dog Moses with me. (He's a tiny little guy, half-Papillon, half-Chihuahua). I see my brother Joran in the doorway of an arcade room and he smiles at Moses and hugs me and says he misses us (the family. He lives in Florida.) Then he asks me where Sarah (sister) and Mom live, and I tell him they live in town above Sportsman's Bar and he looks half in anger, half in disappointment and says "I wonder why they never visit me, then." We both walk into the arcade room and Joran starts playing one of the games. My uncle Thane is standing next to him also playing a game. Joran wins a game and starts typing his name in but for some reason I saw, "Wecarealot" Which is a Faith No More song. Which is a band Joran loves. I point at the high scores and say, "That looks like "We Care A Lot" and Joran laughs and starts singing the song and some girl turns around behind us and puts her arm around Joran and sings along as well (and at some point they sing the words "gays and lesbos" in the song.. I remember that.)

10/1/10 - Nostalgia.

People were eating plants and gaining super powers. These people were bad, though. They moved vines of ivy and things to kill people by strangulation.

Then I dreamt I was at this concert. Andrew WK, My Morning Jacket and Bonnie Raitt were (strangely) playing together on this circular stage. I was with my mom, and we were both dancing near My Morning Jacket.


Then I was at a birthday party for Pry (from the heartagram boards), everyone from the board was there. I tried to take a picture of her, but the camera was fuzzy and I couldn't see her, so she took a picture of me and it turned out looking like my lips were bright red.

Then I was in a garage. There were a bunch of old childhood clothes of mine and old toys scattered about the floor. I was trying to find my toy I cherished most in my childhood, but could not find him. Instead, I found this weird baby toy where he was nestled in this weird clam shell that would open and close. When you open it, music would play. Then I walk to the bedroom and see all kinds of teenage-style clothes from the past and try a bunch on. My sister walks in and yells at me that I'm wearing something of hers and stalks off in a pissy mood.

8/18/10 - Class In The Porch.

I don't really remember a lot about this dream, and what I wrote down did NOT help whatsoever. Anything in parenthesis is just myself trying to remember a bit more, for description).



Accident.
School. Stuffed animals. (I remember sitting on these stuffed animals, in my childhood home porch. The porch was a classroom for my old high school class.) Audrey won Academy Award or something. Best actress. (Audrey is my grandpa's sister. I must have dreamt this because of receiving the photos of grandpa's family or something. After seeing photos of Audrey, I thought she looked a lot like a silent film actress back in the day. This must be why I dreamt that she was an actress.)

2. (I think I actually woke up for a second and then fell back asleep, so this is a continuation of the dream above) Class still in porch now. I'm upstairs noticing Devin is gone. I see "him" (even though it's my dog Moses) sleeping under someone's blanket. I yell for Devin (Moses) and make him come upstairs with me to the living room because I don't want to be alone.

At some point before I wake up, I'm in bed lying on my left side. I hear an acoustic version of Lady Gaga's song Poker Face. I change the station. Then I wake up.

School

• To dream that you are in school, signifies feelings of inadequacy and childhood insecurities that have never been resolved. It may relate to anxieties about your performance and abilities.

8/13/10 - Lame Dream.

I had yet another dream about looking at a picture. This one was black and white, and it was my grandpa and his sister next to a tree. I don't know if I was looking at the picture though, or if it was actually them moving around. It was the picture in my view, and nothing more. I couldn't see my hands holding the picture, etc.


I'm brushing my wet hair at my childhood home, in the living room. I notice a pile of stuffed animals on the couch and I set the brush down and sift through them. I see my [real life] old stuffed animal, Jolly, my fuzzy green stuffed animal that looked like a mix between Gumby and the Jolly Green Giant, (in my waking life, a dog had stolen Jolly and I was too afraid to ask the owner for it back, so I lost him forever). So I was really excited to see him again. I hugged him and clung to him, walking out the house towards a beer tent that was magically thirty feet from my home. I remember the orange-tape fencing clearly. I walked up, grabbed a beer (which I rarely drink), and walked back out of the beer tent and stood next to Devin. I was still carrying Jolly with me. At some point, I notice a tour bus with a huge picture of Bam Margera painted across it riding down the road past the beer tent. Following behind were a bunch of men on motorcycles. Even though I was far away, I could see Ryan Dunn in the front wearing sunglasses. To explain, I am not a big fan of Bam or anything like that. I was at one point, though, and in my waking life, I obtained a joke poster of Bam Margera as a gift from a penpal, so I'm blaming her a second time for affecting my dreams. Moving on, though. I was outside the beer tent and I noticed the bus. I started dancing to the music that was playing, trying to see if the bus would stop and see me dancing and think that there was a party going on or something. I was bored as hell and wanted a crowd there. The bus did stop, but I didn't watch to see them come off the bus or anything. I ended up dropping my bottle off at the bar and the bartender starts to get suspicious about Jolly. I start worrying that he thinks I stole Jolly, so I leave the beer tent and walk to a gas station nearby. Jolly disappeared, as did Devin. I walked up to some stranger and I told them I needed shampoo, so I walked into the gas station. I change my skirt right in the gas station, in a place people could see. Don't ask me why. I walk back out and I see a group huddled on the floor. It's my mom, my aunt, my uncle and my sister. They tell me that a News Channel was just inside the store and was taping something. I try to remain calm, but inside I am thinking "I just showed my underwear to a news crew. My ass might be on television." I teleport somehow to this computer and I am trying to get the internet to work. I call tech support and first I am afraid I'll get this person I really don't like in real life but I end up getting someone nice that I don't mind. I didn't even get to the website to see if I was caught changing into a skirt, I ended up just getting the computer fixed and teleport back to the gas station. Once there, at night, I notice a bus waiting. An old friend, Chelsey, is telling me I should come with her on the bus, so I join. We get on the bus and ride for awhile and at some point, for no reason - I shit you not - she points at some random person and declares that "That person just farted." I laughed awkwardly and eventually got off the bus.

I really really really don't want to post the rest of this dream, but it's a dream and it's one I can't control no matter how cringe-worthy it gets.. (Plus, after reading The Oxford Book Of Dreams, and reading excerpts from journals of other dreamers, I can safely say this is nothing compared to what others have dreamt about.. hahahahahaha-yikes.)

Somehow I'm in this house. It has MANY doors and the rooms open to other rooms, which open to other rooms. It's unending. The walls were white and all the beds had maroon bedspreads. There were always two beds in one room, and the beds were aligned in a crooked manner to the room. I'm walking through the house with my boyfriend and we notice Tegan Quin and her girlfriend in the house, too. I get starstruck and I end up not listening to something Devin says, because Tegan is wearing quite the risque clothing.. Nighties, swimsuits, etc.. We all sit down on the two beds, Devin and I on one bed and she and her girlfriend on another. The two women get lovey-dovey, and I get insanely jealous and I end up leaving the room. I open the first door and I can barely hear what Tegan is saying to her girlfriend, so I follow the wall closest to where she was sitting and get to another door around the corner. Now I am entering a bathroom and I can hear her even clearer. She is telling her girlfriend how much she loves her or something, and I keep my hands and ear against the wall, trailing along to get closer and closer to her voice. I respond that I love her back and notice the voice is even louder through this other door that is between the bathroom and the bedroom they are all in. I open the door and it is a closet with three darkly wooden steps that go down to this wall. I walk down the steps and I hear her say even louder now that she loves her again, so I push my hands up against the wall and scream a response again. The wall pulls back as soon as the weight of my body hits it (like a secret passage would do) and I end up falling down more stairs. I land on this weird flooring. It's almost a rat's nest. Fuzziness everywhere. There are holes in the flooring and I notice movement below. Underneath this strange flooring is a basement I assume, so I peer down to look below. I notice a piece of paper that has "obsession" in big letters and the movement below me notices me watching them and the person starts to climb up the holes in the flooring to catch me. This person (I'm unsure if it was male or female, I never saw a face) is upset that I caught them spying on me and the other three. I crawl up the stairs trying to keep away from this person. I notice Tegan and her girlfriend are fighting, but I tell them about this person that was spying on us and they all freak out. We all start walking out of the bedroom and Tegan follows closely behind me instead of her girlfriend, because of their fight they had.

I think we know the interpretation for this one. Obsession over a celebrity. That's lame and really embarrassing. Can't wait to write more dreams so I can bury this one.





Stuffed Animal

• To see a stuffed animal in your dream, represents an immature attitude. You are trying to escape from your daily responsibilities and problems. Alternatively, a stuffed animal indicates your need to relax and be less serious. You need to let your mind and body to rejuvenate. A stuffed animal may also mean security, love, comfort, support and unconditional or unquestioned love.
  

Walls

• To see a wall in your dream, signifies limitations. obstacles and boundaries. There is a barrier obstructing your progress. Alternatively, the wall indicates that you are too accustomed to your old habits and way of thinking. You feel stuck. To dream that you are hiding behind a wall, suggests that you ashamed in acknowledging your connections. To dream that you are being thrown or shot through a wall, means that you need to literally breakdown those walls that you have put up around you.

Spy

• To dream that someone is spying on you, represents your impulsive behavior. This dream may also serve as a warning that you are being watched, investigated, or evaluated. Someone is looking over you.
  

Sign

• To see a sign in your dream, indicates that you need help. You need some direction and guidance in your life. Pay attention to what the sign says and what it is pointing you to do. Perhaps the dream is highlighting "a sign of the times".

• Obsession

• To dream of an obsession, suggests that you need to take some time to work through some difficulty. There is a situation that may potentially take over your daily life and prevent you from functioning efficiently.