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Showing posts with label family. Show all posts
Showing posts with label family. Show all posts

Saturday, July 19, 2025

Cancer

Just woke up to a bad dream. Dreamt my husband and I were visiting with his mom and she told us that his Uncle Clint's doctor's were 'pretty sure he had cancer'... And that he would have to do some 'bark test' the next morning where he would have to sit up against a light to see if he had it or not. Woke up right away.

Thursday, February 6, 2025

Treasure

Did a scavenger hunt to with a band thing from the band HIM. It was set up by fans, nothing official. Had the kids in the back of a car and the guy I was with was driving. Icy roads.. we hit a small hill, go up it and start to get out. As we were going up a hill and slightly down, I remember looking back and trying to hold the boys in place so they wouldn't expel out the car. Weade it safe and exited the vehicle. Kept working on getting the treasure I think. 

Thursday, July 25, 2024

Family Reunion

Dreamt I was at my mom's cousin's property (Dave and barb). We were eating outside having fun with a family reunion when (dad was there for some reason) I look over at him talking about being able to see his property from theirs. My sister and I walk closer to be able to see. We pass what looks like a garden but I hear a bullfrog I had stepped on. I look down and they're everywhere. Someone yells to watch for them. We are running trying not to step on any. We get towards the house and instead of looking at my dad's property, we go inside the house. I see there's another party inside and suddenly remember that we were celebrating a birthday, a family reunion and I think an anniversary or something? We keep walking through the house which felt like a big hallway. I see paper bags filled with papers and some photos etc. we are told to take the stuff and keep them safe. I see one bag had my aunt Heather's family's paperwork in it, so I make note to give her that. 

Okay the dream changes a bit and I see a girl on a motorcycle driving on the street. She hits onto a car and most likely doesn't make it. 

Wait before all this. Or maybe during? We were in that area for sure and my husband was there and I had remembered another dream I had years ago where there was a thrift store with tons of furniture and some clothes in a corner, books in boxes etc... so weird because I suddenly rememberes the store in my dream vividly. Anyways I was asking family and husband if we were near because it felt like it was close to this area. Husband was trying to make me think it wasn't close. I really wanted to so and look at stuff. 


Sunday, July 21, 2024

Book Party

Dreamt I was cleaning my house (but it was my childhood home) because I had gotten stuck with a dumb MLM-buy-party thing, and didn't think about it til the day of. I realized I have no food at all to feed people, so I call my aunt but she doesn't answer. Called my mom next and she does answer. I ask her if she could stop at a store and pick up some pizzas and then maybe some sides like Cole slaw etc. we start talking about the party and I list off a couple people going to be there like her cousin Mina (and then mentally realizing that everyone there will be family and I have no friends). I remember cleaning counters, sweeping, moving clothes, and then thinking I should take a shower because I was stinky, so I took these tall black crew socks off my sweaty feet and threw them in the closet. At this point I start thinking it might be dad's house and I probably won't get those socks back. Did all that while talking to Mom on phone. She tells me her and my aunt won't be able to make it. She asks me what the party is selling and I try to think and that's when I realized the party I was stuck hosting was from an online party, and that it's probably all online. Immediately I try to get online. I see it's 8 something pm and I might have missed it entirely. 

Wednesday, July 3, 2024

Stones

First I remember being a jellystone. I stopped in to get food and I noticed behind the counter a schedule..  my name was at the end. I was weirded out but thought nothing of it. Then I remember being with my Aunt Erin and my husband. I think (I could be wrong about the order here but this seems more right).. Erin was driving us home but she was really tired. I was in the back with husband and my aunt was driving. I was watching the road and suddenly I noticed she was getting awfully close to two bicyclists. I said "Erin, you're getting kind of close" and she kind of bobbed her head to the side and I yelled her name out and she sat up straighter and slowed down. I suggested she park on the ramp of the interstate (at this point we were in front of Jellystone). My husband was going to take over but he was pretty tired too. For some dumb reason he was about to drive from the passenger side but I yelled at him and he sat in the driver side. We started pulling up to a toll area and I looked down in the car and found some mail on the floor boards in back. I picked up two envelopes and saw one with the wrong address and was addressed to 'current resident' at the wrong address, so I sat that one down again. The other one was to me. I opened it and saw a tax info thing and it made it seem like I was set to start working at Jellystone this week. I look up and see my husband just kind of drove through the toll and some lady was poking her head out. The road turned into an alleyway.. 

Now I'm in a store at Jellystone. It looks like a gift shop with random clothing etc. I remember seeing a cat condo/bed thing too for almost $400. I noticed I'm absolutely wet and in a swimsuit maybe? Or naked? Lol I can't remember. I asked my mom to buy me something so I wasn't so naked feeling. For some reason she didn't, I don't know if the store was expensive or what. 

Then I see an older, bigger guy that looked like the actor that plays Jill's dad in Home Improvement. He was a worker and hebwas holding a pair of speedos. He was joking and saw two black men sitting down at a bench opposite me in the store and asked them if it was theirs, or made the assumption it was or that it was their 'type' of suit or whatnot. Everybody kind of laughed along, even the guys, but then I got weirded out by the old white guy and thought it had some racial undertones to the joke so I remember stopping from laughing and walking out. I was walking through Warrens playground and I saw the two guys but they were younger (so was I..  we were all kids now). My clothes were still wet. The boys were on the playground and I was walking through/past. I asked if they always lived around here or were new, can't remember their answer. They followed just out of politeness, since we were still talking. We were maybe where the fire department was or where the Wades lived but there was an old building there instead. We noticed these beautiful gravestones with holographic etchings on them. I was in love. I walked into the building and saw an older bearded man walk up. I asked if he made them and he said yes. I told him I would love for him to make mine someday, and he kind of laughed awkwardly and I realized he probably thought that I meant I'd die before him and he was a LOT older (I did mean that but I changed the thought process then) and explained maybe I could buy one well before I pass. I started getting gleeful thoughts of what picture I wanted on mine and what I'd put as my epitaph. Woke up. 

Pancakes

Only entering pieces and I just know I'll get flashes all day again like I've been getting lately, but what I remember just before waking up was my sister making pancakes and coffee for me the coffee was on top of a microwave and was dirty. Oh! My aunt was sleeping on a couch but was gone for the day to work. I saw her cat so I decided to give him a bath in the sink. As I was soaping him up o noticed a bunch of dead fleas and a couple half alive ones. I told Erin but was sure to mention they were dying so she knew I wasn't complaining. 

Saturday, June 29, 2024

So Much Happening

My aunt Kathi was in a doom metal band lol. It was so weird, but awesome in the dream. She sang the first song and then she sang as a secondary person for the other song. We were in a dark building and there was just a white spotlight on the band. She wore a Dorothy from Wizard of Oz dress. Came out of this white sheet for dramatic effect. He voice was really low. My nuclear dam was with and we were watching and we kind of all spaced out at the last song, so we noticed we were the only ones in the bar and it was really dark. I had to pick up a bunch of clothes in a bag because they were mine. I was worried if the band came back they'd think I was stealing their clothes but I knew they were mine. I think I woke up after that maybe? That was the more memorable part of the dream anyway. Okay I lied. I dreamt also that I was with my nuclear fam at a playground. Some bigger boy kept asking if people knew his name so we'd answer what he told us it was and it was always a different name he'd given everyone. 

Ooh. Also dreamt I was at my aunt Erin's house and I had just taken a shower and was in the dining room when Erin came out holding a bottle of shampoo or conditioner and asking if I showered and I didnt listen properly and answered no so she told me I should use that stuff because it smells really good. That's when I realized I'm still a little damp, hair still wet etc, so I had to correct myself and tell her I had already taken one. 

Damn. Also remember giving dad all of his father's day gifts.

Ommmmg. Another part. I remember my niece kaelynn had a couple parakeets. They didn't have a cage so much as a speaker like thing in the corner of a wall up high that they'd go to. 

Saturday, June 15, 2024

Abuse

Had an abusive husband. Tried to show my parents before he came home. Weirdly me and husband were both teenagers. 

Saturday, April 6, 2024

Tornadoes

Me, husband, my sister, aunt, mom, kids maybe, and husband's sister or mom are all at warrens mall. (A gas station). It seems so nice out. There's a school bus stopped off to the side near post office road. The kids and husband all get out and I'm watching my daughter wander through this crowd of children and it's hard to tell her apart because a LOT of the girls have tie dye pink and purple on similar to what my daughters wearing. I ask my sister in law if it's a common color for kids nowadays because I'm astounded I can't tell her apart.  Eventually I see her. Anyways now we're driving. I don't know if I have kids in car or if they stayed back at the gas station with husband, but he is definitely not in car. We are driving and get five miles out of town, going towards tomah, and I look out my window and see several long, skinny tornadoes off in the distance. I immediately tell everyone in car and try to call my husband. It doesn't go through. I tell my sister we also need to call Dad and warn him because he doesn't have a basement. Sister says she'll try to get a hold of Dad, so I try calling husband again. Finally I get a hold of him. I tell him frantically what's going on and that it's headed his way. As I'm telling him that I see we are passing ANOTHER tornado that looks even deadlier and honestly really, really close to us. We are just about to get into Tomah. We're all freaking out now. We hear a loud sound and see it's a red airplane coming down, and it's aimed straight for a building near our road, aimed to hit just as we're passing the building. We pass, it hits, explosions go off everywhere, and I wake up. 

Catnapped

Dreamt I had an animal. Can't remember is cat. I was just outside my uncle T's room and his room was an exterior door to go outside. I tried to keep my cat back but I got interested and peeked around l. Uncle T opened the door wide enough that the cat wandered out. I was trying to hold back other stuff so I couldn't grab my cat
 I was annoyed Uncle T couldn't grab my cat but assumed we'd get him right away. (Someone had knocked so he had to open the door). Anyways they finished talking and he went to shut the door and the cat is gone. I'm devastated. I just know it's a lost cause. I start to get suspicious tho. When he leaves, I snoop around in his room. I find miscellaneous things of mine that's been missing. I later assume that he has always kept missing stuff of mine to sell to weirdos who want kid's things. I can't find my cat but I find other things like lost toys (not Jolly 😢 was hoping tho) and also old permit IDs. I grab some stuff and confront my uncle just outside his room and he brushes it all off. Just as he's leaving I spot outside on a tree my cat high up in a tree sitting on a shelf. I act like I believe him it's all a coincidence my stuff is there and I let him go. I tell my dad we need to quietly and quickly grab my cat before at notices. I wake up before we're reunited again but I knew I'd get him back. 



Before this I think I was driving round in Mather. My sister was in this part of the dream. Seems like she's ahead in another car. 

Sunday, March 24, 2024

Surveillance

Dreamt I was at my grandma's trailer. I was looking at a surveillance video and saw that two men were wanting in and one was telling me he was my Uncle Thane. He looked completely differenfem black curly hair, seemed younger, longer afro... I mentioned how different he looked and that he looks so much younger. Still, he was with his husband, so I assumed he was telling the truth. Of course I open the door and it's not him These two men are hoping to steal the house or something. 

Tuesday, March 5, 2024

TV Dinners

Dreamt my brother and his family were up visiting. He showed us something Ashton made and I totally blanked on Ashton's name in the dream and I think I kind of pissed him off. Then his wife was making these TV dinner soups and every time I would go to stir it with a plastic spoon, the spoon would start melting. I felt so bad wasting one or two. There was also a cat or dog in the dream.

Monday, March 4, 2024

Holiday

Binging Riverdale, so had a Riverdale-like dream. Sole characters were in dream basically. 

Anyways mainly there was a holiday coming up o think Thanksgiving and we were trying to get stuff ready. 

So dreamt at husband's parents house and husbands dad was watching taskmaster and sister in law was annoyed and said she didn't like the dream.

Sunday, February 18, 2024

Boxes

Dreamt I was at Warrens mall and my husband and I left a couple small boxes of papers and pictures and schoolwork of the kids' there. I ran in thinking it's probably closed because barely anyone was there and it was dark. Saw my cousin Mel and I told her we accidentally left the boxes and that my daughter's phone was in there. She found the phone in the boxes and I started to explain proof of how I know it's ours (messages etc), she opened the camera and saw photos of daughte or random ones of family etc, so she said she believed me. She handed it back over. That's all I remember of my dream! 

Sunday, February 11, 2024

Meteor

Dreamt that I'm in my childhood room. It's a bit of a mess. I remember dad is there and he sees a movie I own about a musician I like and says he'd like to watch it and try it out/see if he likes the music. 


Omg. I remember the rest now. Right after that I dreamt I was looking at a map maybe a weather map? And the radar was showing a meteor going towards Wisconsin. Wasn't huge but wasn't good. When it hit we eventually got smoke everywhere in Wisconsin.. deadly.. my whole family were all kind of scattered around town/the state, so we needed to get back together. The problem was the after effects of the meteor. There was smoke and snow everywhere. Nobody felt comfortable even moving from the spot they were at when the meteor hit, so it was almost two years passed or something in my dream and no one ventures from where they stood. Finally I just started walking.. I think I woke up then. 

Wait I do remember at some point seeing a random lady I think maybe the musicians from earlier's wife was being motherly to some boy and I was thinking how I'm not a good mom or something. That I wished I could be a better mom. 

Saturday, January 27, 2024

Killing Time

Bad people going after us. It was like they could kill us multiple times coming back to life or we could come back to life. I know me and Sarah were for sure together in the dream.. I don't know who else was with us, but a family of us. I think I was young, so must have been my parents. I know we were right in warrens. I remember someone coming at us with a gun or something. I remember a fire started. I had to run out of the house and quickly grab people. I think I became an adult for a second, because my kids were there in the dream, so I had to carry them with husband. He carried one and I the other. Then we ran off away from the bad guy enough to hide out. We were in an old abandoned house. It looked familiar to me and I saw a flashback to a little girl swinging from the ceiling doing some trick... It was my cousin's daughter with her auntie (another cousin) teaching her how to swing that high up. I was with my sister and she started remembering this place.. it was like we were back in time? I was wearing a shirt with the band Hanson on it, so I became a little kid again. 

Wednesday, December 27, 2023

The Tree

Okay I dreamt that I may have been young again. My aunt Erin took my sister and I somewhere a little further away from home (but parts looked like dad's property) to visit family maybe? I just know cousins showed up. Mel especially I remember. She showed up a bit late. I remember finding these two nuts in a Walmart bag and one fell apart so I started taping it back together with masking tape and it magically had a little foliage on it, except one little area. I asked my sister if she thought I'd be able to bury that in the dirt and a tree could still pop up. She said yes but that there might be one little area that won't have leaves in the bottom area and I said that'd be cool and it could make a little nook area to hide in for fun. 


Anyways, I forgot.. I remember before all of this, like right before my cousin showed up late, I dreamt that I was in a pond and had to do an obstacle course in water. There were younger boys ahead me, and I felt silly being the only older person. Could I fly? Might've been able to. 

Saturday, December 16, 2023

Aliens

Dreamt a scary dream. I was walking down a road at night, starry sky.. with family of some sort. I saw a UFO kind of in the distance. It was huge and behind some clouds, nearing land in the distance. I told my family we needed to leave now. I couldn't explain why but was hoping they'd see why. They hadn't. So they just kept walking and in fact separated by walking off faster...

Lost some time/dream here and just remember being hooked up to something inside this UFO. I was making gagging noises and snoring as loud as possibly to wake myself up (embarrassingly I may have been making these sounds in real life, I dunno.) Anyways finally I woke up into a dream-within-a-dream and was still making those noises because I was paralyzed and couldn't move my body. A person whom I though was husband - looked like him anyways - woke slowly and walked over, peering at me weirdly -anr suddenly I made a really loud gagging/snoring sound and it made him laugh a little. I was pissed and thought he was still an alien and that I couldn't move. 

Somewhere in the middle maybe right after I saw UFO or before we separated I remember a really fancy vintage red contertible was parked and I thought I could try to start it and drive to get me and family out of area.. didn't work. 

Thursday, December 14, 2023

Cake

Cleaned the house (the house was childhood home) with daughter.. Though it was also my own house. Put blankets for couch in the washer.. expecting husbands aunt Shirley. Cleaning for a birthday party (daughter's).. we had a lot to do so I was trying to convince her to get a cake from Walmart instead of make it. I told her they may have Digital Circus cakes and she got excited and said she'd go with that if they did. So I started calling my sister because she borrowed husband's Eclipse car. Phones not answering so I peek out dad's bathroom window from the kitchen and I see them pulling up (also got a notification that a cousin has just arrived home which made me think they were home too because they were all together or something anyways I'm looking out window and I see sister get out and she's going to back to open trunk. Husband walks over to look out too and he says under his breath that he hopes they're careful as the car is a manual. All of a sudden Erin rolls back where Sarah is, looking into car, about to run over her. I wake up immediately. 

Sunday, December 3, 2023

Hotel

Can't remember most but I'm remembering bits. I was fixing something up, building something with wood at Dad's house. Like outside in the back porch area. In Laws were there helping. Then I remember having to go and stay at the 'hotel' inside (inside dad's house) and it was very bare. Like white walls, bare mattress, completely clean (no clutter) etc.. I moved a suitcase over to the closet that was attached to the room. That's all I remember.