Dog Fights

Deep sleep. Dreamt I was in a dream and that I was laying in bed. I could see my two childhood dogs (technically they were my mom's) dogs fighting. I kept trying to break them up from a fight but couldn't do it myself so I had to yell for my husband, my mom, etc... no one came to help. Then I'm back in bed. My music starts playing so I try to turn it off quick and move my phone over to my bedside table. My husband comes in to wake me up and I try to fake sleep but suddenly when I try to open my eyes I can barely do it. Can't really move my hands either. Everything feels heavy. I tell my husband the dream I had and that I was yelling for him or even mom and no one came to help etc... I'm getting out of bed and it's soooo comfy looking. It's tall, a four-poster style, the sheets are a dark coral pink. I walk down to the living room and I can't remember what I did but I pissed off a cat we own accidentally. After pissing her off, she wouldn't fucking stop trying to scratch me/hurt me. I tossed her away and she landed her claws into a door (I was suddenly in my childhood home again). 

... Husband called me in real life, so it woke me up. 

Cleaning

Dreamt I was cleaning the floor of my room as a teenager. Found a negative pregnancy test. Don't remember anything else but will add if I do remember. 

Smoke

Dreamt I was in bed sleeping and could smell cigarette smoke. "Woke up" and found my 7 year old smoking under his blanket. Completely shocked. Thank fuck it was just a dream. 

The Alice In Wonderland Staircase

Dreamt I was in my own house. I was in the back porch and realized we had a skylight. The ceiling was a bit higher and there was a small loft above too but very tiny loft. Like to store stuff on. Suddenly I saw a cat sitting on our window. I looked around and saw our cat so I knew it wasn't him. Looked up again and an adorable shaggy-haired bright orange, blue-eyed kitten was about to fall out of the window and onto the floor. I caught him and sat him in our kitchen. Then another shorter orange haired kitten fell. I put him next to the other kitty. I yelled for my kids medium and big to come to the kitchen because they have new kittens. (My littlest claims our actual cat). 

Dreamt some weird stuff now... First squirrel and I somehow appeared in Kayla's house and she was about to come in so I told squirrel we needed to hide because we literally just appeared out of nowhere and didn't mean to, and it looked like we were breaking and entering. I hid up in a screen window but squirrel didn't hide so I had to climb down just as she was coming into the living room and knew she wouldn't believe that we just appeared there (not by choice) so I explained that we showed up to say hi and the door was open or whatnot. 

Later I dreamt that this other guy was 'with' me. We were making out on a bed but others were in the bed too. I told him to stop attempting anything. Then I dreamt that I don't even know.. the world ended and we had this new place to stay but it was hidden. I was trying to get into the room but I was going down these concrete stairs and they just kept getting narrower and steeper. At the end I realized there was no opening except a very small slat that I could only put my hand through. Maybe three inches. So I climbed down the stairs some and noticed the paneling on the walls looked like doors so I tried seeing if any opened. After ten or so tries I found a panel that swung open and it revealed a vintage wooden door. I opened that and another door, then another.. then I opened that one and I found the room. A bunch of people were in there. It looked like Squid Games main room where the beds are. Big, big room. Painted teal. Bunch of people randomly on beds or benches. Saw t and s even. Kept walking though. Saw Kayla again and she hugged me and I told her I'm sorry for real life stuff and after giving the excuses she said it was okay. Anyways found the guy I was with. I was honestly just really horny and wanted him but there was nowhere we could really go to get alone. 

Hotel Gunshots

Currently staying at a hotel in real life for the night, so keep that in mind. Dreamt that I was getting out of the jeep, husband got out with our two older kids. I got out, started to get my littlest out when a woman walked up to get in her own car. Instead she opened my door to help me in. The jeep kind of turned into a hybrid jeep/hotel bed. I laid down next to my son and tried to fall asleep (my guess is I was half asleep).. anyways then she got in our bed too. I felt awkward because I knew I'd need to get me and my son out to find husband. I looked around by the bed on the floor for shoes and then quickly wandered a second to see if I could find my husband. Turned around and got a little lost looking for the jeep/hotel room. Decided to look into other beds/cars for my son. Suddenly I hear sounds from behind me in another turn of the hallway.. it sounded like gunshots and started to get closer sounding. I tried to hurry to look for my son. I'm not sure if I found the room or not.. I just remember attempting to make chocolate pancakes and worrying about burning them. 

Woke up hungry. 

Beach

At a beach with de. There's a dog there too I think? Or maybe a house and some dogs escaped an we had to get them. We're leaving the beach because I have a weird rash all over my hands from this game show thing I was doing and had this microphone thing strapped to me. He helped get it off and took me to his home or a hotel or whatnot. I was drunk or exhausted, on my stomach. Really wanted him to stay and not go back to beach. 

Weird Interview

Only remembering bits of my dream. I remember sister in law, husband, daughter, niece, my sister, and others I can't remember right now. Some people I didn't recognize. I remember now. We were on two teams. We had to get the other team to want to stop playing? We had to ask questions like an interview - for something specific. I brought this bright blue lightkind of thing that maybe is for makeup and I tried to shine it up in the eyes of the people we interviewed. My sister in law was recording on an old telephone next to bed (we must have been in a hotel?). My sister in law asked if more people could come help so I yelled for my sister but she told me that she was too tired so she went back to bed in another room off of this room. I turned around and looked for my daughter thinking she and her cousin could help with stuff. I realized they were balled up hiding under the covers of the bed in the room so I pulled covers off and asked them. I think they were getting up to help when I woke up. My husband was in this in the beginning... I can't remember what happened in that portion but I remembered kissing him at some point. 

Cousins

It was a heavy dream, but sadly I don't remember much. I DO remember making a bed and the comforter didn't fit well. The bed was at my dad's/my childhood home but it was all my stuff. I really can't remember much. Oh God hahahahahaha. I remember something now. I dreamt we found out that husband is related to a celebrity he doesn't care for. Their moms were sisters. He was horrified but then got over it I guess lol. 

Planning To Break Him

Dreamt it was Xmas time and Sarah and I were visiting my brother and his family, although their house was my dad's house. They had a bed set up for me, and Sarah just wanted to sleep on the couch.

Then suddenly I'm back home. Devin leaves with two co-workers (these people don't exist, I do not know this people in real life) to pick up something he wanted to buy through a Craigslist ad. One of his co-workers was really creepy, trying to flirt with me, etc,

Then my sister and I are in my dad's porch, setting up Xmas decor. It feels like we are back at Joran and Jen's, but they weren't in the dream anymore. Music (the music I had playing in waking life) was playing. I'm putting ornaments up on the tree when Devin's weirdo friend walks in. He starts acting friendly again and tells me that Devin is indeed buying whatever the hell it was he went to look at. I just nodded, trying to get him to leave by seeming distant, but instead he comes closer and checks out my ass while I'm reaching to the top of the tree to put an ornament up. I pretend not to notice so that he leaves eventually, but instead he walks over, puts his hand up my skirt and touches me. Before I can even turn around to freak out, he's already leaving and out the door. Sarah has her head down, clearly saw what happened, but is too embarrassed to admit she saw it. I run after the guy, planning to break him. Destroy him. Instead, I yell/cry out the door that "I look like I'm fucking 12 years old. Does that make you a molester?"

Woke up.

End Of The World

I'm at my parents' old house and I have my dog in my arms. I hear people singing in the trees outside. I'm not sure what song, it could have been three (very different) songs..: Don't Fear The Reaper, Thank God I'm A Country Boy, or America The Beautiful. I know, how can I possibly not tell these songs apart? I don't know. Anyways, I walk outside to see who is singing in the trees, but instead I look over in the direction the sun is setting, near the cranberry marsh. I watch as fireworks go off. Then suddenly the sky gets dark and there are lights lighting up in odd places in the sky. I think that it's the end of the world and I cling to my dog as tightly as possible. I turn around, not wanting to see what will happen, but when I turn, I am back in the position I was in, facing the cranberry marsh. I turn around again and still I am facing the cranberry marsh. I do this a few times, utterly confused as to why I couldn't turn around. At some point when I turn around I notice a white shadow of a person in the reflection of the window in the door. I freak out and close my eyes and cradle my dog in my arms, trying to wake myself up. I wake up in bed and hear Devin watching TV (the video looks like old-school Little Rascals and the audio is super loud and it sounds like newer Rob Zombie music). I think to myself that this must have been why I was having a nightmare. I grab my journal to write down my dream but the journal breaks apart and pages fall out. I still continue to write instead of grabbing pages and worrying about my journal and that's when I notice that this isn't right, so I must be dreaming. Then I really wake up.

50s Party.

Dreamt my friend Heather called me. She needed to exchange money or a letter to my dad. My dad had to be at this 50's Party for work or something, so he was in a hurry. He tells me to let her know that she could meet him there but that she needs to wear a dress. She says, "NO!" and the phone is silent. I hang up after awhile and tell my dad that she'd meet him outside.

Also I dreamt I saw these photos of Tegan Quin in bed with some long-haired brunette. Only Tegan looked a LOT like a dude.

The Underground Tunnels

Dreamt that I was at my aunt and uncle's house outside, sitting at this picnic table with my ex's family and my dad's family as well. I couldn't find my sister Sarah there, so I asked them if they had seen her and my ex's mom told me that she heard my sister playing drums. (This is strange because in my dream it seemed like there was this curfew or maybe just bad people about, so there were underground tunnels that got us to where we needed to go, and in my dream, his mom told me that she could hear the sound of my sister hitting the drums from the tunnels echoing the sounds into her house.) This seemed perfectly logical, so I sat down satisfied with that answer. Then my aunt Kathi asked the group, "I thought Sarah was a guitar girl?" and one of my uncles said, "She's a drummer girl now. She's an Oppelt. Oppelts can do anything."

Then I dreamt I was in this waterpark/maze thing with my boyfriend and we had to go back through the maze to get out of this waterpark, but for some reason the workers that were there were suspicious about us, so they followed us and threatened us. At some point my boyfriend and I separated and I ran into this bedroom. I tried to think of a way to hide myself before a worker came in and found me, so I transformed myself into a Cookie Monster outfit and threw myself onto a hanger and sat myself on the bed. The worker came in and didn't notice me, so he left. I then notice a bath is running in the corner of the bedroom and I turn it off. The bath was overflowing, though, so I mopped it up with a towel a bit to keep from ruining the floor. Then I noticed a cat on the floor that was about to give birth... I know, icky. The momma kitten kept getting smaller and smaller until she was also a kitten.

The Exorcist.

Dreamt I was in this house that was Cherish's and Monte's (Devin's sister and her fiance). I was going through shelves and organizing things into their correct places. I had the drawers out of their shelves and they were on this bed that was in the living room. Next to the shelves were all these extremely colorful statues and nicknacks. I guess it was early, early morning and I had drank the night before. Also, it seems Devin and I had broken up but I was still friends with Cherish, because she understood why I was drunk. She came out of her bedroom and I asked her if I woke her up and I was sorry if I did. She told me I was loud last night from drinking too much and I apologize and tell her that I can see things. I point to the statues and nicknacks on the bed and tell her I've been seeing three kinds of ghosts. The nicknacks are all shaped and painted to look like the ghosts. I had made these statues and nicknacks the night before, going crazy from all the hauntings. (This is where it gets weird. When I mention to her what the ghosts look like, they kind of appear behind me and when I turn to look, they disappear in a puff of smoke.) I tell her that the first ghosts that started haunting me was of an old woman. (She kind of looked like Anne Ramsey of the film Throw Momma From The Train). The next ghost I was haunted by was this creepy old man with dark circles around his eyes. (He reminded me of a character from the film Haunted Honeymoon, but I couldn't find the right guy when I looked up pictures). Then I pointed to this hand-statue and explained that the third thing that haunted me was that whenever I laid down in bed, a bunch of these hands would appear and start pushing me into the bed, attempting to suffocate me. Then the dream switches to the past and I'm rollerskating down this crowded street in bad weather and eventually I spot Devin, so I skate over and we start walking. (I'm not roller skating anymore.) It seems a tornado might blow through and someone tells us to find shelter, so we go into this broken down and abandoned building. Devin disappears and I am with this person that looks like a mix between AJ Langer (of My-So-Called Life) and Tegan Quin (lol, I know they look nothing alike, but they kept changing into each other throughout the rest of the dream) and there is also another person with us. This other person is going to try to give me an exorcism to rid the ghosts/demons that are afflicting me. I notice that I'm wearing this short black dress and black knee-high stockings. We get to this bedroom that is blackened from a fire and really grimy (AJ Langer/Tegan is carrying me). The exorcist tells me to lay in this bed to call forth the ghost-hands so that she can expel them from me. I start to lay down, but Tegan/AJ Langer sits down first and pushes me onto her lap so that I'm technically not laying down yet. She doesn't want the ghosts to appear and try to kill me. Meanwhile the exorcist was setting things up and once finished she tells me that we are ready to begin. I freak out and sit up in Tegan/AJ Langer's lap and hug her tight. Then I lower myself down onto the bed and I and AJ Langer/Tegan are both crying hysterically and I start feeling the hands trying to suffocate me by pressing me into the bed. Suddenly everything changes and my dream switches to two women (that look like Alyson Hannigan and Amber Benson) having sex. Alyson was wearing exactly what I wore. Then the vision of them gets blurry and further away and it seems to be a movie that is on this television at an airport. I am standing in the airport watching the TV and wondering how on earth this is suitable to show in such a public and child-friendly area like an airport. Then my dream became lucid and I blamed myself, wondering how I could allow a sex scene on television with all kinds of children around in my dream. I woke a few seconds later.

A Weirdass Dream.

Dreamt I was at this campsite. I had a bad case of the runs... I go to the bathroom and when I feel a little better, I exit the bathroom and I'm in this basement with my sister Sarah. We're kind of half-packing to leave, but also planning to stay there that night. She's being her usual irritating bitch-self, so I have to suffer through that as well. I wanted to go to bed, but she wanted to watch Golden Girls. I changed the channel to Dead Zone and she yelled "PUT GOLDEN GIRLS BACK ON!" Then I grabbed pillows to try to get her to realize I was tired and wanted sleep. I also told her that I get to sleep in the bigger couch because I'm taller (barely, but still). Then she tells me that she sleeps with 12 pillows, so I only get one pillow and I give her the rest to make up for it. (Strangely, in real life I have a pillow case that holds two pillows. In my dream, I acknowledged this and took note.) Then, on a sunny afternoon, lol, Devin and I are walking up to these bathrooms at the campground and as soon as I get into it, I sit down and go potty again (the runs, I tell ya). Somehow our astral plane meshes with another and I'm sitting on the toilet in this campground bathroom but also sitting on a bus at the same time. (Devin was in the stall next to me and is sitting beside me on bus). These two guys turn their heads and start talking to us. They tell us that we all played poker once and that even though I didn't know how to play I beat them in one hand. All the while, I'm thinking in my head, "Oh my god, can they see me with my pants down??" I wasn't sure if I was also going to the bathroom on the bus. LOL.. Yikes. Anyways, then this guy that was the son of my old boss gets on the bus with something wrapped in a blanket. He and his "wife" supposedly had a baby real recently. When he brings the baby over for Devin and I to see, he shows us this teeny tiny kitten. That's when, in my head, I think "Oh yeah, his wife is that human cat." Apparently the kitten was a premie, ha ha. God this is a weirdass dream. Anyways, he tells us that he's hoping that when the kitten gets older it might learn to talk. Devin and I both hold the "baby's" paw and he tells us he appreciates that we are even accepting the poor thing, because everyone else he knows thinks it's the product of bestiality. (In the dream I imagined the mom was a woman, just with cat-like features.) I felt bad, because I would have held the kittens hand more, but I was afraid that because it was a newborn it was too fragile, so I was kind of pissed that Devin acted so nurturing compared to me. I kind of glared at him a few times while we coo'd at the baby.

Ew. Just, ew.

Dreamt I was on this mattress that was on the floor with some guy and Devin near us in bed sleeping. The guy and I started fooling around.

9/2/10 - The Dog Tag.

Dreamt my dog Moses was sitting on the floor next to my bed, near the lamp on my night-stand. The light from the lamp was projecting onto the ceiling, and Moses' tag was in the way, so I could see his name, address, and phone number on the ceiling.

Also dreamt that I was telling my aunt Erin what I dreamt about the day before and she wrote it down.

Lamp

• To see a lamp in your dream, symbolizes guidance, hope, inspiration, enlightenment and reassurance.

Address

• To dream of your old address, suggests that you need to take a look back at the past and learn from it. To dream of a new address, indicates the need for change.

8/12/10 - I Wanted The Signed Poster.

(picture of my grandpa's family. He's the youngest one, in the middle).

This one will be short. I barely remembered anything. I just remember at one point I was on the computer editing a photo of my grandpa's family. (In my waking life, I recently found a bunch of photos of my dad's side of the family and I liked one picture so much I just had to print it out and tape it to my wall..)

The next thing I remember dreaming was waking up in bed. Devin walks in and throws this package at me. I ask him what it is and he tells me that I received my vinyls I pre-ordered (a collection of Tegan & Sara records, which comes with a signed poster), and I ended up getting a DVD instead of the poster (this was the package he threw at me).. I remember freaking out thinking I needed to let the company that sent it know that they mixed up, so that I didn't feel awful getting a DVD for which I didn't pay for. That, and I really wanted the damned poster with the signatures.

Photo

• To dream that you are altering a photo, suggests that you are putting out a false image, or something is not what it seems to be.

Mail

• To dream that you receive mail indicates that you need to communicate or re-establish contact with someone from your present or past. It may also represent messages from your unconscious or intuition. The mail may also be a pun on a "male" in your life.

• Disappointment

• To dream of disappointment, indicates real-life experiences of being continually disappointed. Such dreams often reflect repressed disappointments which has accumulated over a period of time. Your dream serves as an emotional outlet to help ease your mind.

8/11/10 - Sleep Paralysis To The Max.

Okay, I might have been going through major sleep paralysis in the first bit of my dream. I know it was lightning and down-pouring, I remember looking out the window. (In my waking life, it was actually storming that night, so maybe it was projecting into my dreams..) I was in the process of awakening, but couldn't move. I remember trying to yell to Devin, who was beside me in bed, "Wake me up! Wake me up!" I felt like I couldn't do it myself, and I could only whisper through my lips. I could hear myself, in my dream, yelling, and myself, outside of my dream, whispering. It was eerie. Finally Devin rolls over, tells me I'm fine, and goes back to bed. Eventually I finally awake completely, but right beforehand I felt someone touch my left hand. I was freaking out thinking a ghost tapped my hand. I couldn't sleep for awhile after that, so I wrote down what happened.

Finally I went back to sleep, and I dreamt that I was visiting my dad and he told me he read my dream blog about some dream where I was kissing a Quin Twin--Tegan, to be exact--with "lots of tongue". I was blushing in my dream, embarrassed that he read my blog--and used the phrase 'lots of tongue'--but in my waking life I have seriously never dreamt about kissing either twin with 'lots of tongue', or any tongue for that matter - god dammit. :( That was a weird dream, too. The next part I wrote down I don't remember the details, just that my dad's workplace was making a documentary. Then I'm walking to my childhood home. I get to the back porch, and enter the utility room. There are dog beds in the closet area of the utility room, and my dog Bear and Ziggy are there, along with two dogs, Wyatt and Tuffy, whom have passed away in my waking life. I remember my dog Bear kept wanting to bite Tuffy. Tuffy was a fat dachshund, so he was a small little guy compared to Bear's St. Bernard/Lab mix. I was really scared Bear would tear Tuffy to shreds, so I kept forcing myself between them to protect Tuffy. At some point, Bear quit bothering him, so I walked to the living room and looked out the door. It was raining really hard and then these fish the size of big northerns started falling to the ground along with the rain. I got scared and backed away from the door. Then I went back to the utility room and instead of the dogs there, my boyfriend's sister Cherish and her boyfriend Monte were there sitting on a couch (in the utility room, I don't know why). I decide to call Devin, my boyfriend, to see where he was and I heard a little kid's voice in the background. I joke about hearing a kid and tease him about cheating on me and having a family started with some other woman. He gets quiet and really defensive then. I bawled, realizing it was true. Cherish gets mad at Devin for what he did, but I leave the house and hang up on him. I decided to walk into the woods, towards the road. I call my aunt Erin and tell her what happened. Then I hang up again and walk some more in the woods. I meet up with Sara Quin and strangely we seem to be in a relationship or something. It doesn't last for long, though. First, Devin's cousin Trevor starts chasing us in the woods. Then, I project out of my body and some woman is taking the place as Sara's girlfriend/the one getting chased. I'm just a third wheel trying to help them get to safety. Eventually we get to the road. It's autumn, cold, rainy. Leaves are falling from the painted-orange trees. A car pulls up and I look over at the other two and think "We're safe." They have the same look to them. Then a guy gets out and he looks like Taylor Handley (again, I had to look this guy up. I've only seen him in one thing, and it was Dawson's Creek a few years ago. It's strange how the brain stores hidden, insignificant information and visuals.) When I saw him exit the car and tell us to get in, I thought, "Great. Just like in the movies, he's supposed to be my knight in shining armor. There's no way I'm going to be his love interest in this dream" I don't know why I thought that, but he smiled arrogantly, so it just got worse from there. The guy chasing us was closing in, and although I was thinking over whether I wanted to deal with this guy or the one chasing me, I eventually got in the car with Sara and her new girlfriend.

At some point in this dream, I actually remembered dreaming about the denim clothes that I wrote in this blog. I think writing these dreams down for so long is starting to make the memory of my waking life better.




Yelling

• To dream that you or someone is yelling, represents repressed anger that needs to be expressed. If you are yelling and no one hears, then it suggests that you are being overlooked in some waking situation. You feel that your voice does not matter or that your opinion does not count.

Dog

• To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. The dream dog may also represent someone in your life who exhibits these qualities. Alternatively, to see a dog in your dream, indicates a skill that you may have ignored or forgotten. If the dog is vicious and/or growling, then it indicates some inner conflict within yourself. It may also indicate betrayal and untrustworthiness.

Rain

• To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace. Falling rain is also a metaphor for tears, crying and sadness. Alternatively, rain symbolizes fertility and renewal. If you get wet from the rain, then it indicates cleaning from your troubles and problems.

• Fish

• To see fish swimming in your dream, signifies insights from your unconscious mind. Thus to catch a fish, represents insights which have been brought to the surface. Alternatively, a fish swimming in your dream may symbolize conception. Some women dream of swimming fish when they get pregnant. To see a dead fish, signifies disappointment and loss of power/wealth.

Infidelity

• To dream of infidelity (either by you or someone else), represents issues of abandonment and neglect in a relationship. Or you are feeling emotionally confined and need an outlet for your feelings. Alternatively, a dream of infidelity indicates that you are feeling unsatisfied with your current relationship. You are harboring guilt over a sexual relationship or you are looking for a more erotic sex life.

Astral Projection

• To dream of astral projection, suggests that you are looking at things from a whole new perspective. You may be feeling liberated and free. Alternatively, it indicates that you are physically or emotionally disconnected from those around you.

Chase

• To dream that you are being chased, signifies that you are avoiding a situation that you do not think is conquerable. It is a metaphor for some form of insecurity. In particular, to dream that you are chased by an animal, represents your own unexpressed and unacknowledged anger which is being projected onto that animal. Alternatively, you may be running away from a primal urge or fear.

8/7/10 - Gonna Raise Hell.

I'm at my aunt and uncle's home, during a family reunion. One of my other uncles comes over and talks to me about his house and his wife and kids.

I don't remember what happens or how I get to the next part of my dream, but I am next to this lake house (that actually looks like the house in the movie Lake House) and I remember walking over this dock and trying to locate a missing dog. I am calling for about five dogs, and all of them came to me except one. I put the dogs that came to me inside the house and start calling for the other. I finally find the dog coming towards me on the dock, but when I get close to her, she starts to dart away, then come back to me. She continues doing this for awhile, and I don't remember if I ever did catch her.

xx

Now I'm lying in this sleeping bag next to Devin. There are others around us also sleeping in bags. Someone walks over and tells us that 'Brent' is looking for us. Devin rolls over towards me and explains to me that Brent hid something - buried it - in the woods where we're sleeping. I start thinking that Brent is a killer and that what he buried is a body, so I start to freak out. Then somehow we're not outside and we're in this record store, still in our sleeping bags (though now with a mattress underneath) though nobody else is in the store with us. I remember a HIM poster is on this architectural column of some sort in the record store. Then Hellraiser (looks like the usual Hellraiser, played by Doug Bradley) comes into the store with two other men that look like Migé Amour and Emerson Burton of the band HIM. Hellraiser comes closer and although I am not completely terrified like I would be in real life, I do have this feeling that he is bad. This Hellraiser guy is pissed, though. He expected Devin to do something for him, and Devin didn't do whatever it was he wanted done. He tells Devin that if it's not completed soon, then he'll kill one of us... Then it gets weird. He comes over to us, pushes Devin away, pulls my clothes off and rapes me. Although in real life I would be so incredibly scared and turned off, it was actually quite the opposite in the dream. I loved it. And I remember biting him a LOT. Ew.



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This is the second dream I've had where a bed appears in the past month. In both dreams, the bed was just a mattress, with no frame. I might have to take note of that and see if this is common in most of my dreams.




Search

• To dream that you are searching for something, signifies the need to find something that is missing or needed in your life.
  

Dog

• To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity.

Bury

• To dream that you bury something, suggests that you are hiding your true feelings. Or you are trying to cover up some situation or act. In particular, if you are burying a body, then it suggests that you are trying to hide something that you find repulsive or that others may find unappealing.
  

Rape

• To dream that you have been raped, indicates vengeful or resentful feelings toward the opposite sex. You feel that you have been violated or that you have been taken advantage of. Something or someone is jeopardizing your self-esteem and emotional well-being. Things are being forced upon you.
  

4/24/02 - Nicknacks.

Forgot my last dream, here's an old one on my dad's birthday, too. I was just thinking about this dream a few days ago..


4/24/02


"I had the second worst dream ever. It started out with me and Heather in a church. Heather saw these nicknacks and picked one up, and was telling me it looked dumb. I kind of agreed, thinking it was pretty silly. We walked out of the church and came to my parent's garage, the door was open. There was a picnic table with a plate of hamburgers laid atop it. I remember seeing this girl I knew and I "wished" her to become a hamburger because I hated her. So she turned into one and was on the plate with the rest of them. Another guy I knew that I grew up with came up and was about to grab 'her', but I stopped him. Anyways, somehow I got into a really dark auditorium, and these teenagers were telling me to turn a light on. I do, but it's a small light, though sufficient. A teacher comes up on stage and he looks like my dad. The teacher started yelling at me, and at first I thought it was because I turned the light on, then I thought it was because I turned someone into a hamburger.. He tells me it's because another boy I grew up with, Brandon, was in an accident, and that the accident had alcohol involved.. And that somehow I was at fault. They did tests to see if I was involved as well. but I magically get teleported in front of this clothes line by the pond. I'm walking on a road with people walking towards me. I remember seeing all these people really dressed elegant-like. One old classmate was wearing this ugly blue dress, and another was wearing a prettier dark pink dress with the sleeves flared out and tied to the rest of the dress. I passed a few people who criticized me for my religion. I also heard someone say "Hi, Alyssa!" and they had passed me and was in a crowd of people, so I had to jump up to find it was my best friend from elementary school.. I go to walk again in the same direction as before, with everyone else walking the opposite way (towards me) and I see my mom. I try to catch up to her but my feet started to act like lead. Like they were anchors or something. So I tried to run and it got worse. I got even slower. So I tried to push myself from anything nearby and pull myself closer with other objects.. It worked, but it was a long process. Mom starts to leave but stops behind this building. I go into the building and it's this big building with little houses inside. I can see windows and doors, etc, inside the building. I look into one of the windows and I see this old man laying in a coffin. I somehow expected to see the girl I turned into a hamburger in a coffin as well, which is morbid, but she must have been still alive or something.. I go back to the church I was in at first and I notice this child with a scarred face is following me. I turn around to find mom but I notice the nicknack I saw in the beginning. I started crying really hard when I picked it up to look at it. I realized then that this nicknack belonged to the old man that died. I felt horrible for making fun of his nicknack when he had just died, and I had known nothing about him. I was also crying because I felt bad for what I did to that girl that turned into the hamburger. "

Hamburger

• To see or eat a hamburger in your dream, suggests that you are lacking some emotional, intellectual, or physical component in order to feel whole again. You may be feeling unsatisfied with some situation or relationship. It is also symbolic of your experiences and how you need to learn from them. Look at the big picture.

Dress

• To see or wear a dress in your dream, represents a feminine outlook or feminine perspective on a situation. You are freely expressing your femininity. If you are a man and dream that you are wearing a dress, suggests that others are questioning your sexuality. Or that you are feeling sexually insecure.

• Blue

• Blue represents truth, wisdom, heaven, eternity, devotion, tranquility, loyalty and openness.

• Fuchsia

• The color fuchsia represents mediation and your connection to your spirituality. You are letting go of old attitudes and welcoming a new change. This color is also associated with emotional stability.

Legs

• If your legs are weak, then you may be feeling emotionally vulnerable.

Coffin

• To see a body in a coffin in your dream, signifies that you are going through a period of depression. You may feel confined, restricted and that you are lacking personal freedom. There may be a dead or decaying situation or issue in your life that you need to address. It is time to end this situation or relationship.