Lots Of Tongue

Okay, I might have been going through major sleep paralysis in the first bit of my dream. I know it was lightning and down-pouring, I remember looking out the window. (In my waking life, it was actually storming that night, so maybe it was projecting into my dreams..) I was in the process of awakening, but couldn't move. I remember trying to yell to Devin, who was beside me in bed, "Wake me up! Wake me up!" I felt like I couldn't do it myself, and I could only whisper through my lips. I could hear myself, in my dream, yelling, and myself, outside of my dream, whispering. It was eerie. Finally Devin rolls over, tells me I'm fine, and goes back to bed. Eventually I finally awake completely, but right beforehand I felt someone touch my left hand. I was freaking out thinking a ghost tapped my hand. I couldn't sleep for awhile after that, so I wrote down what happened.

Finally I went back to sleep, and I dreamt that I was visiting my dad and he told me he read my dream blog, about some dream where I was kissing a Quin Twin with "lots of tongue". I was blushing in my dream, embarrassed that he read my blog, but in my waking life I have seriously never dreamt about kissing either twin with 'lots of tongue', or any tongue for that matter - god dammit. :( That was a weird dream, too. The next part I wrote down I don't remember the details, just that my dad's workplace was making a documentary. Then I'm walking to my childhood home. I get to the back porch, and enter the utility room. There are dog beds in the closet area of the utility room, and my dog Bear and Ziggy are there, along with two dogs, Wyatt and Tuffy, whom have passed away in my waking life. I remember my dog Bear kept wanting to bite Tuffy. Tuffy was a fat dachshund, so he was a small little guy compared to Bear's St. Bernard/Lab mix. I was really scared Bear would tear Tuffy to shreds, so I kept forcing myself between them to protect Tuffy. At some point, Bear quit bothering him, so I walked to the living room and looked out the door. It was raining really hard and then these fish the size of big northerns started falling to the ground along with the rain. I got scared and backed away from the door. Then I went back to the utility room and instead of the dogs there, my boyfriend's sister Cherish and her boyfriend Monte were there sitting on a couch (in the utility room, I don't know why). I decided to call Devin, my boyfriend, to see where he was and I heard a little kid's voice in the background. I joked about hearing a kid and tease him about cheating on me and having a family started with some other woman. He got quiet and really defensive then. I bawled, realizing it was true. Cherish gets mad at Devin for what he did, but I leave the house and hang up on him. I decided to walk into the woods, towards the road. I call my aunt Erin and tell her what happened. Then I hang up again and walk some more in the woods. I meet up with Sara Quin and strangely we seem to be in a relationship or something. It doesn't last for long, though. First, Devin's cousin Trevor starts chasing us in the woods. Then, I project out of my body and some woman is taking the place as Sara's girlfriend/the one getting chased. I'm just a third wheel trying to help them get to safety. Eventually we get to the road. It's autumn, cold, rainy. Leaves are falling from the painted-orange trees. A car pulls up and I look over at the other two and think "We're safe." They have the same look to them. Then a guy gets out and he looks like Taylor Handley (again, I had to look this guy up. I've only seen him in one thing, and it was Dawson's Creek a few years ago. It's strange how the brain stores hidden, insignificant information and visuals.) When I saw him exit the car and tell us to get in, I thought, "Great. Just like in the movies, he's supposed to be my knight in shining armor." I don't know why I thought that, but he smiled arrogantly, so it just got worse from there. The guy chasing us was closing in, and although I was thinking over whether I wanted to deal with this guy or the one chasing me, I eventually got in the car with Sara and her new girlfriend.

At some point in this dream, I actually remembered dreaming about the denim clothes that I wrote in this blog. I think writing these dreams down for so long is starting to make the memory of my waking life better.

Invention

Dreamt I was at this bar I go to in real life and one of the bartenders needed help, so I got behind the bar to help out. I hear a scratch at the door and I see my dog poking his head into the window, so I run over to let him in and somehow every time I try to open the door, an alarm goes off. Then I left and got into a car with my aunt and mother in the front seat, and in the back was this older blonde chick and me. We held hands at first and eventually held both. Then she went in to kiss me (annnnnd some), but I stopped her because I remembered I was still with Devin. Then I worked at this place where people used their credit card like a barcode against this USB stick-looking thing. It was really cool in my dream and I woke up thinking it would make a handy invention.

Valentines Day 2011

Valentines Day.

I dreamt I was dancing with Tegan Quin to the song "When I See You Smile". It was the acoustic version. She kept swaying too fast for the song and I tried to hold on tight and make her move slower, but she was a lot stronger than me. I kissed the side of her neck, below her ear, hoping she'd slow down a bit, but she still kept going too fast for the song, so I gave up and danced at the same beat as her. When I woke up, the song (that version) was playing on the radio.

Sliding Uphill

Dreamt I either kissed Sara Quin or was at least dating her.

Then I was in this casino and met this guy. We went to this snowy mountain and he told me I would find peace if I slid down this bluish snow/sand on the mountain. I slid down but it freaked me out. It felt more like quicksand and also the blue sand/snow was collapsing from mountains higher than the one I was sliding down, and it was falling in around me. I wasn't scared in my body really, I was more projecting the feelings of terror outside of my body. Like I was also watching myself from above and freaking out in that body. Eventually I slid UP another hill (I know that sounds ridiculous) and at first I thought this was a good idea being higher but another landslide hits me and I can't breathe. I wake up breathing heavily.

Stray Cats

Dreamt I was editing a video that was in black and white. Then I was walking around in the town I grew up in (Warrens) and I ran into an old crush. He ended up giving me a kiss on the cheek and I felt that I was cheating on Devin by him kissing my cheek, so I hid from Devin in Wal-Mart. I was crouching down behind racks ofclothes and everything.. Then somehow I get to "the upstairs" in Wal-Mart (I never saw a Wal-Mart with an upstairs, but ooookay ) and climbed out a window and saw "my husband's" car. Suddenly I'm married? I don't know. I watched the movie My Cousin Vinny that morning, so the car was the burgundy one and the "husband" was a young Joe Pesci. I walked across the roof of Wal-Mart and into another window and ended up in an apartment. It was christmas. There was a tree up, ornaments, presents, stockings, even a fireplace. It felt homey. I looked out the window again and it was pouring outside (rain, not snow) and there were stray cats all over the place trying to get into the house any way they could.

Go, Greyhound. Go.

Dreamt I was in this computer room or maybe just a bedroom with a computer in it. There were collages on the walls. A woman is also in the room and she digs me. She disappears and an Indian woman appears in her place. We're in love for some reason and she tells me she has to go. This is where the republicans come into play. They are trying to kidnap her (because we're both women, dating). I give her a hug and hate myself to see her have to leave. I lean in to kiss her cheek but instead I whisper to her that I'll meet her somewhere. Maybe the republicans were listening in? I don't know. She disappears and I get on computer. But then Sara Quin appears in the room and she wants to take a picture with me. As the camera lens gets nearer, I notice how filthy it is, so I try to clean it off as best as I could. Then everything disappears and I'm living in the house I grew up in. I'm with Devin and we're waiting for my dad to pick us up to take us to Minnesota. He doesn't show up at the right time, so I call my mom and ask her where he is. Then I start packing and put my stuffed animal Robot and Macbook in a backpack and wait some more. Then I'm outside and I notice this huge greyhound parked outside. Instead of letting us on, Dad gets off and the greyhound leaves. Then I woke up.

It's A Truck, It's A Raft, It's A Sled..

Dreamt I was in this truck with this guy that looked slightly like Devin and also two women, one that looked a lot like Kate Hudson and the other that looked like the woman Mel from the movie Inception. We kept listening to this CB radio trying to know where these bad people were that we were hiding from. Then the truck switched to a raft in a river (that occasionally changed settings and the raft would be in this hallway, but still we couldn't get out of the raft (kind of like when you were little and you pretended the floor was lava..)). The guy we were with fell asleep and I started kissing the Kate Hudson look-a-like. Then we cuddled and she put her hand down my pants. Suddenly the raft disappears. I'm only with the guy now and we're trying to find Kate, but now she looks like Tegan Quin (or at least this is who I'm looking for now). I'm walking down this hallway and see her on the other side of the room. I start running towards her (and eventually lose the guy because he's slow as molasses) but stop because my shoes are uncomfortable. I see these comfy-looking shoes on this table and start changing shoes. When I get one shoe on, I notice that the pair I was wearing this whole time are so adorable and that I want to keep them even after I wake up from this dream (at this point the dream became lucid). So I take the new shoe off and put the old one back on. Then I notice Tegan is gone from across the room so I turn back to the hallway we were all in and start walking that way to find her. I start walking past this door and this guy that looks like the artist Bob Ross (only with slicked-back hair, not poofy hair) grabs me and drags me into this real quiet library. Everyone is silent, though heavily attentive, while I shuffle in after Bob Ross. Then he takes me to these desks in the back of the library room and there are very important people sitting down with papers in front of them. They look up at me like they expected me to come. They also look evil. I tell them that I've lost someone and I can't find them, start walking away with my hand on my forehead, trying to act calm. Then I start running. Bob Ross follows, but he's a nice guy. We both go outside and he shows me this sled and gets in, tells me he'll try to find her in it. My mind goes all fuzzy and instead of seeing my own point of view, I see the Kate-but-now-Tegan in front of a bunch of paparazzi. She takes a few photos for them and then she walks into this opera theater, my vision keeps following her until she walks into the area where the stage is. Then I see "myself" (I don't look at all like myself, though. I look like Emily Browning (Ghost Ship, The Uninvited) wearing this weird dress. It's this pink and yellow feathery gown. I sit down on this red velvet circular chair. Then this girl sits down next to me and she looks like Lacey Chabert. She holds my hand, puts her head on my shoulder.. Tries her best to comfort me. She asks me if I want to go dancing and suddenly the room turns into a psychedelic pink, green, and orange glittery room. It looks the set of Flip Wilson's show. I realize now that I'm dreaming and try to open my eyes to wake myself up from the corny dream. The first time I blink, I see wallpaper of some sort, then I woke up on the second blink.

Short But Bittersweet.

Today I dreamt.. well, not so much. I only remember two things. The first thing I dreamt was that I was in this dark place and I don't know if I was actually in the dream and I was just seeing this happen, or if I was in it but I didn't play a part at all. I saw Tegan Quin knelt over this bassinet and there was a baby inside. She was talking to the baby about how it had to sleep in its bassinet on a dresser. She said something like, "Don't worry.. When I was a baby, I had to sleep on dressers, too." That's all I remember for that part.


Then I dreamt I was kissing some hottie and woke up in another dream in bed with Devin, kissing, and I was so repulsed by the sudden change that I groaned and rolled over.

Catholic School Girls.

I dreamt I was in this catholic school, in this bathroom. The bathroom was kind of grungy, pretty grimy.. I was with some random girl and we were caked in cement. I remember first she showered off and got herself pretty cleaned up afterwards, but for some reason I couldn't take a shower, so I went to the sink to wash my hands/hair, etc, and after washing up a bit, she turned me around, away from the sink, and we started fooling around. Like pulling each other close, kissing each other, but nothing more than playful cuddles. Anyways, the door of the bathroom was open and these two men, priests (with suits similar to what Billy Corgan is wearing in the music video Ava Adore) notice what we are doing and they both stalk into the room and one of them walks up to this girl I am with and I get in between them, afraid he'll hurt her. He then grabs my hand instead and says "Two pokes!" and pulls out this really really strange, demonic knife/tool out of his coat. It was double-sided; One side was this poky end, like a really big needle, and the other end was this sharp blade. Before anything else happens, I shit you not, demonic music started playing in the background, like a bunch of men chanting! (Think Mike Patton-meets-swampy-cemetery sound. Or in a way I could explain it more simply: It sounds like Lurch from the Addams Family, when he whines "Yes, Mrs. Addams.") Anyways, now that I've explained the chanting I heard in the background, I can get on with the scary part. He grabs a hold of my arm tightly, and pokes me with the needle side of the demonic instrument in a strange angle, like how doctors do when they put an IV in you, and then with swift motion, he slices across my arm with the blade half of the instrument. The cut is really deep, though it doesn't bleed. I can literally see the flap of skin he tore into, though. Then he does another slice across my arm. And with that, I wake up.

Baby Did A Bad Bad Thing.

This morning/last night, I dreamt I was outside in a park. I was playing with this shawl/scarf type thing, and dancing with it like it was a veil, kind of like when I was belly dancing. Then this really faint siren sounded, and two women started to fight. Not like wrestling, when you hear a bell and start fighting. This was like Pavlov's Bell or something, it hypnotized them into getting angry at each other. Or maybe it was something that came into the air that makes a person hostile, and the faint sound of the siren went off to warn us. - I did watch The Crazies recently. - Anyways, I yelled for Devin and his dad to help me get the two women off of each other, but when they started to walk over, the two of them started to fight. I kind of freaked out, and turned away from them. Then I saw a car, a specific white car that my crush in town drives, and I peered in to see if she was in the car but she wasn't. I walked around the car and she was lying on the ground. I thought to myself that since she's unconscious, and all these fights are happening, I could "fake" a fight and just lay over her until she wakes up. Like we were fighting or something. Since the rest of the human race went crazy, I could pretend I was too. When I straddled her, she automatically opened her eyes and we started kissing.



.. I hate when I wake up during the best parts.

8/14/10 - Sunflowers.

I was with someone that wasn't Devin, and I was making out them. We were in a bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror afterwards and notice hickeys all over my neck and I freak out, thinking Devin would notice. I grab a shirt to put on and it looks like a flowing tank top. It's a silky light green, the color of a flower stalk, and in the middle, resting below the bosom, is a sunflower. On my shoulders, connecting the front to the back, are sunflower petals holding the dress together. It really was a gorgeous shirt, if I do say so myself. At the time, anyway. Then I put on a sweater, to cover my neck up. Devin walks in. Doesn't notice.


Then I'm in a car. I yell outside to Devin and this person I was making out with that I need help getting out. They both come over and the other one walks to the front to cover his immediate reflex to help me. He pets my dog Bear (apparently the dog was in the front seat). Devin comes to help me out.

Adultery

• To dream that you commit adultery or have an affair, signifies your sexual urges and desires that are longing to be expressed. Alternatively, it indicates self-betrayal of your subconscious. You may find yourself entangled in a situation that is not in your best interest, perhaps even illegal.
  

Cover

• To dream that you are covering something, indicates a part of yourself that you are trying to hide or are afraid of revealing. Consider what you are trying to cover up.
  

8/6/10 - Human Houses.

I dreamt I was in the driveway of my Aunt's home and I was shooting at this chubby man wearing a tuxedo. He was holding this woman that looked like Trini Alvarado (an actress). He was standing on the deck at my aunt's house, holding onto this woman to make sure she wouldn't be able to escape. Eventually I shot him, killing him instantly. I ran to the deck and when I get there, she's mad that I killed him. I meant to just wound him, but I wasn't upset that I killed him.. He was trying to kidnap her. As I got on the deck, though, I sort of became invisible. This man that looked an awful lot like Nathan Fillion came into view and embraced her. They kissed. And then - don't laugh - they turned into half humans-half houses. They were human sized and had these houses around them. Kind of like Alice In Wonderland, where she grows really big in the rabbit's house. You could see their legs/arms/heads, but the rest were houses. They were each a two- or three-story house. Both had balconies, too. It's a weird, messed-up dream.

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I watched The Frighteners last night and it stars Trini Alvarado, so that's why I must have dreamt about her.. And I can only guess I dreamt of Nathan Fillion because I'm trying to watch the tv show Firefly because it has Summer Glau in it.. I just haven't watched it recently.




Shooting

• To dream that you shoot a person with a gun, denotes your aggressive feelings and hidden anger toward that particular person. If the person you shoot is a stranger, then it indicates that you are rejecting unknown aspects of yourself that you do not understand.

House

• To see a house in your dream, represents your own soul and self.
  
  
  • Balcony
  
  
  • To see or dream that you are on a balcony, refers to your desire to be seen and noticed. You are searching for prestige and higher status.

Kiss

• To see others kissing in your dream, suggests that you are too involved in someone else's personal lives and relationship. You need to give them some space.

7/26/2010 - Competition.

I'm in this big tent. I'm dating Tegan Quin. She's dating someone else at first, though.. She goes outside to call this person.. I'm in this tent still, sifting through pictures. Then Tegan comes back in from making her phone call and kisses me as if she wasn't dating someone else and it was with me this whole time.

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Devin and I work together. We are in a lunchroom, competing for some girl's attention. Either a famous crush, or a townie crush.. I'm drinking coffee and it's 2/3s gone. Cold. I push it away and notice Devin is going to win the girl's heart.

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Dreamt I awoke. I grabbed for the glass of ice water I keep by my side of the bed, but notice that soda is there. I go for the soda instead. After actually awaking, I think that the dream is so real that I had to check my nightstand for a glass of soda just to be sure..