Stalker

Such a weird dream today! Dreamt that there was a killer going after me or my daughter. It was just her and my husband - didn't have the boys. Okay so I remember bits and pieces. Daughter had her teachers, except that one of them came to the house, and it ended up being a childhood friend of mine that teaches in real life. We always had a weird friendship maybe based off jealousy, so there was a bit of tension and we grew apart as we got older in real life. Anyways, she came over. She was teaching my daughter and we knew we needed to leave the house because of this killer. I told them I needed to pack some things. I quickly stopped at a library where I met with my daughter's math teacher and he gave me some homework for her. Then I came back to the house and me, daughter, and childhood friend all were quickly leaving the house and walking out into a busy city but looked like Tomah, near the library. We all walked quickly and tried to act different, happy, to not look like ourselves in case the killer was there watching. Saw another child of mine - another random daughter - and also a random daughter of my childhood friend's. They came over and we all put our arms around each other to look like more people / less like us. Woke up. My husband was in the dream in the beginning and so was childhood friend's husband. Seems like her husband was telling a joke but he was being so so sooo quiet so I had to fake laugh the whole time hoping it sounded like I could hear him and thought the joke was funny. Childhood friend's cousin (another childhood friend) was in a part in the beginning also. We just talked for a split second. 

Before all of this I was at my mom's and I made pistachio fluff but was out of an ingredient, so my mom had to go get something. 

Zombies

I was with this group of people we were walking outside of a house and saw tornadoes off in the distance everywhere, surrounding the house. Some straight, some curvy/zig zagged. We needed to get to safety. There were also bad people/perhaps sorcerers that were creating smoke in the sky in the shape of scary ass shit. They were threatening us... The guy I was with decided it'd be best to go back in time and fix things because there was no way out of the tornado/scary people situation. He went first to switch things around. Seems like his family were very rich/snobby and I just knew there was no way his family would ever let us hang out, so I just knew it'd be a lost cause to fix things and have us know each other sooner etc.. Somehow after he goes in the past, we've all switched and we're in a school (set in the garden maybe of my dad's property/where I grew up as a kid) and we're learning how to plant a picture/painting or whatnot with colorful flowers or whatnot on a plate. I'm sad because the guy I once was with romantically doesn't remember me anymore. I'm with another guy (not romantically, just from the same group in future, we both still have our memories and are standing next to each other)... We sit down next to my love from before and I'm just so bummed that he doesn't remember me at all.

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Dreamt before this all that there was something wrong with some of the people in the world, like zombies. I'm walking with my random family (not my actual family I don't think) in a dark alley way, trying to hide/perhaps blend in with these zombie-like people. Some of the family gets taken (possibly all or most of the kids I had with the "husband". Absolute devastation. I also remember dogs in this dream. It was really hard to tell if the dogs were bad or not, so we had to push them outside. We hide out in a house, clearing it by going through the house and getting rid of any bad guys.. I think that maybe this was the beginning of the first story/dream I'm talking about and the husband from this dream is the love that went back in time in the other dream. The sorcerers with smoke from the dream before were the zombie-like people trying to get us. 

Escape Rooms

Blech. Dreamt I was in this house with a bunch of other people. Ended up making out with a partner of a friend's. Felt awful but also in love or something. 

Also dreamt me and a bunch of others (husband, my kids, sister, friends, etc) were all in this really weird escape room that can drown you. You have to get out before the water fills up. Everyone kept forgetting to grab my kiddos so I had to grab one, run into the next room, come back, grab the other, etc. I think this happened first, then once we escaped or whatnot is when the first paragraph happened.

Remembered something else. Something kept sparking. Like a heavy-duty battery-operated can opener. I was asking for help to get the sparking to stop before it's start a fire. 

Another Fucking Tornado

Dad was in a chair by the window at his old house. Mom was in a chair further in the living room. I was standing. Sarah and a smaller boy were also there. We were young and a family again. A dog was outside and didn't want to come in so I kept yelling for it, finally blue lightning non stop outside, so I finally yelled for the dog and it came in. Just as he came in it picked up outside. Tornado happened. I ran to mom and hugged her/covered her to keep her safe. 

Woke up. Dad was with me. (Not my dad anymore...) He told me a tornado blew all of us away "everyone running like rabbits .. can't find anyone"... So we searched everywhere. We wandered the road and split up.. he took one side and went right and I took the other. I went towards town. Finally I decided to check for people that are hurt. I went into a building to see if maybe they were all in a makeshift hospital. I wandered until I found who I thought was Sarah. She wouldn't wake up but wasn't dead. Coma? I made note of her room and looked for mom and the brother. Went into a room and found "mom" (wasn't her.. looked nothing like her) she actually woke up. I told her we needed to get the fuck out of here. The people running this place were keeping everyone hostage or something. We crawled through the window and I told her to hide while I looked for the brother. Found him with a family eating dinner. Got his attention through a window but some lady also noticed so I kept walking last and hid behind a door / what looked like a bathroom stall. Finally I ran back out, saw he was outside the house this time following his "new mom" and I snatched him up and started running. I found "mom" and gave him to her. I let them continue hiding and was thinking of how to get Sarah when I woke up. 

Running Away

I dreamt Devin and I were standing and he started trying to rape me. He got violent just to be able to. I was so scared and terrified. When he finished or when I got away, I somehow eventually turned into a four year old girl trying to hide and run away from her dad who did the same thing. I had an animal or a robot with me and we traveled together. I'd go into random neighbor houses asking for food and after one lady gave me some food she seemed off so I asked her if she told my dad where I was. She shook her head yes and the robot or animal let me go ahead and try to escape but I got stuck hiding under a short window. I attempted to crawl under another ever lower window and a sibling saw me and alerted everyone. I started trying to run but the "dad" caught up I think. 

Woke up. 

Powers

Okay so a few weeks ago I started reading a series. It's about this group of people coming to a new alternate world and gaining powers. Well today I dreamt that me and a bunch of people did just that. I don't even remember what I could do. We were first stuck in a hotel or mall and I was told that someone was going to kill us that was in our group, so we had to get away from her. She was someone I follow on Instagram. She has a power that is similar to what someone has in the book I've read where she could age objects. Like completely delete things from existence if she wanted to. So we all run from her in groups of three or so. I'm hiding with two other guys but they're loud as fuck. Suddenly I see a kid outside in our group and I see it's cold out so I open a door and let him in only to find that he was being held hostage by the bad lady. We all run, and eventually we all start finding some of us again. My sister can fly, so we tell her to take someone with another really good power that can help us get away from the bad girl. While they're doing this (I think they're trying to find a way to get a phone. Since we don't exist in this world, we can't buy a phone because they are government ordered or something, so that's why it's difficult.) We find a big van and we all get in l. While I'm outside the car, two homeless boys that look a little untrustworthy at first overhear me talking about the powers some of us have and the trouble were in. They tell us they can help since they live in this world and also have powers. So I let them in the back of the van and they get comfy, tired. My sister comes back with a nother trustworthy guy that lives on this alternate world and he's bought a phone and is going to drive us to a safe place. The van is his. I explain our new people and everyone seems okay with it. They hand me the phone to start registering it with one of the homeless kids. 

Woke up as we're driving away. 

Planning To Break Him

Dreamt it was Xmas time and Sarah and I were visiting my brother and his family, although their house was my dad's house. They had a bed set up for me, and Sarah just wanted to sleep on the couch.

Then suddenly I'm back home. Devin leaves with two co-workers (these people don't exist, I do not know this people in real life) to pick up something he wanted to buy through a Craigslist ad. One of his co-workers was really creepy, trying to flirt with me, etc,

Then my sister and I are in my dad's porch, setting up Xmas decor. It feels like we are back at Joran and Jen's, but they weren't in the dream anymore. Music (the music I had playing in waking life) was playing. I'm putting ornaments up on the tree when Devin's weirdo friend walks in. He starts acting friendly again and tells me that Devin is indeed buying whatever the hell it was he went to look at. I just nodded, trying to get him to leave by seeming distant, but instead he comes closer and checks out my ass while I'm reaching to the top of the tree to put an ornament up. I pretend not to notice so that he leaves eventually, but instead he walks over, puts his hand up my skirt and touches me. Before I can even turn around to freak out, he's already leaving and out the door. Sarah has her head down, clearly saw what happened, but is too embarrassed to admit she saw it. I run after the guy, planning to break him. Destroy him. Instead, I yell/cry out the door that "I look like I'm fucking 12 years old. Does that make you a molester?"

Woke up.

The Axman

Dreamt this morning that I was in a house that was apparently mine (but not in real life). It badly needed cleaning. I was sitting at a table in the kitchen and there was an empty container of ice cream sitting out. Suddenly it started jolting around like a mouse was in it or something. I peered in but didn't see anything and my first thought was maybe it was a ghost or something, but then my brain told me there are no such thing as ghosts, so it couldn't possibly be that. Then the container flew up into the air a short distance and I saw that a fly was carrying it. He must not have been strong enough, because it fell after a few feet. I left the kitchen and walked into this hallway that felt like my aunt's old house. I walked out into their living room (but remember: in the dream, this is my house). Devin and his dad were working on stuff like the floors or something. Some kind of construction work. This part is fuzzy, but it seems like I was in a bedroom at one point and had to leave the house and tried to avoid his dad for some reason.

Before all of this, I dreamt that I was in this really narrow concrete tunnel (at times it was just wire like a cage) and we were being chased by this man with a chainsaw or ax or something. He was outside of the tunnel waiting for us on either side to get out, sometimes reaching out at us when we got to the wired parts of the tunnel. At some point we stupidly (or maybe not -- spoiler alert) separated and I was by myself. I remember finding a small door like for a rabbit or bird cage and pushed it open and started running for dear life.... ....towards the killer. I don't know why. I thought maybe I could knock him out, I guess. Once he got a couple feet away from me I got this, "Oh, shiiit." feeling and realized this man was a lot bigger than I thought. Think 'The Rock' or Vin Diesel or something. Humongous. I went for it anyways and tried to push him over but he knocked me down instead. We were outside in a wooded area, autumn season, dead leaves, etc. When he pushed me down I had this vision of the group I was with in the tunnels with their heads cut off... and for some reason their insides looked robotic.

* The dude that had the chainsaw or ax looked just like the axman from "American Horror Story: Coven". I am pretty sure I dreamt of him because I am currently reading a book about unsolved murders and the first story is about the real man that axed a bunch of people in New Orleans back in the day.


(I miss writing down the supposed interpretations.. I've been stealing the boyfriend's laptop lately, so I may as well do this again):

Ice Cream

• To see or eat ice cream in your dream denotes good luck, pleasure, success in love and satisfaction with your life. You need to savor the moment and enjoy it.  Alternatively, the dream may suggest that you need to cool off and not let your temper get out of hand. On the other hand, the ice cream may be a pun on "I scream". Perhaps there is something that you need to let out.

Fly

• To see flies in your dream symbolize filth and dirtiness, either physical or emotional. It indicatesfeelings of guilt or a breakdown of a plan. Flies may also forewarn of a contagious sickness.Alternatively, the fly could represent an irritating and annoying person in your life. Perhaps someone does not know how to mind their business.

Ax

• To see an ax in your dream indicates that you are overly controlling. It is symbolic of destruction, hostility, and the frustrations that you are experiencing. Perhaps you "have an ax to grind" with someone. Or the dream can be a metaphor that you are ready to "bury the ax" and make amends.

Tunnel

• To see a tunnel in your dream represents the vagina, womb, and birth. Thus it may refer to a need for security and nurturance. 
  To dream that you are going through a tunnel suggests that you are exploring aspects of your subconscious. You are opening yourself to a brand new awareness. Alternatively, it indicates your limited perspective as in the phrase "tunnel vision". Are you being close minded or narrow minded in some issue?

Behead

• To dream that you or someone else is being beheaded signifies poor judgment or a bad decision that you have made and regretted. You are not thinking clearly and are refusing to see the truth. You need to confront the situation or the person despite the pain and discomfort you might feel in doing so.  The dream also suggests that you have the tendency to act before you think.

War.

Dreamt Dev and I were fighting about everything. We were outside of a school or something and he walks up with his cousin. His cousin looks sad and Devin is acting goofy hugging him from behind. He asks me if I could explain to their family what happened to this cousin's wife. (Maybe she died, got in an accident, they never told me..) I'm about to respond and notice behind them, in the sky, are a bunch of airplanes, helicopters, etc, coming towards us. I point it out to them and we notice flares of light shooting out of these things, coming at us. Just before the fire comes at us, we get inside the school. We peek back outside and most of the planes and helicopters are already on the ground. We started weaving back and forth from building to outside to buildings again, trying to hide but escape the school. We walked into a building with bathrooms and hope to escape through the windows when I awoke.

Before all of this I slightly remember walking around in "my house" (definitely wasn't my house though, way bigger/different) in the dark. The house was a mess, like a hoarder's house.. I'm walking past a window and I notice a shadowy figure and it scares me. Suddenly it walks closer to the window so the light hits their face, and I see that it's my aunt. She tells me I need to wake up my mom immediately, something happened. I run upstairs trying to figure out where my mom is sleeping and finally find her. When I tell her what's going on, she is hard to wake up but eventually does.

Baby Clothes

Dreamt I was following Dev from one house to another (driving a truck). The location was near Heather's parents' house that was in Shamrock. I remember taking note of that. Suddenly I lose track of which way he went, lots of cars on road. Brakes stop working. I ran into another car and everyone gets out (big pile up, it must not have just been me that had car issues) and we start running the opposite way as if a major disaster is happening up the way I was driving. Somehow I get to my house. I'm in the garage and see some baby clothes on the floor and ask Dev about it. He tells me that the Williams' came by and dropped them off and that the ones I saw fell from the boxes that were outside by the door (don't know how the hell that happened, but okay).. I walk to the outside of the garage and around to the area the boxes are stacked and peek through. Suddenly Chelsey and her brother come over and Chelsey tells me she still needs to go through them, so I let her look through everything. (There was also a bunch of little figurine toys that she mainly went through and kept most.) Woke up half asleep, head hurting.

If I Had A Million Dollars..

Dreamt Devin and I were rich 15-20 years from now. We lived in a humongous mansion (although sometime into the dream I was walking around the house and the siding looked really old.. So it might have been a cheaper mansion.). Anyways, I don't remember a lot of the details but I think I was talking to an ex and had expected a phone call or something - not cheating, just talking I guess? I was in the basement taking a shower and suddenly Devin was pissed at me. I assumed he heard a voicemail or something, no clue. So he was pissed. I got out of the shower and there were no towels or clothes or anything, so I walked out and into a bigger room that looked more like a work shop (a big one, maybe Devin was the money maker and had an auto mechanical business of some such). So I'm walking through the big work area looking place and its kind of dark in one area so it takes me a few times to go all the way through it (I keep running back to the first room, terrified of the dark). I get to an area of the house that has a bunch of windows, big, big windows and run towards it. I don't remember what happens next, but I somehow find myself outside, fully clothed. I walk around the house (this is where I see the house isn't much of a looker, old white sheds attached to it to make it bigger yet, etc), looking for a door to get into the basement again. I finally find one, but it led to the main floor. The porch looked straight out of a Better Homes & Gardens magazine.. White whicker furniture, darker blue accents.. It was pretty. I keep walking through and finally find a bunch of bedrooms and exercise rooms. I get into the exercise room and Devin comes out of a door on the other side with a woman wearing a bikini top, one boob sticking out. I'm so pissed at him since I never cheated on him but here I catch him doing what he thought I was doing..

I don't remember anything else.. Loved that big house, though.

An old dream from last year..

Found a draft from last summer that I remember typing on my phone while camping one morning.

Dreamt me and Devin and Scarlet and a big group of people were being chased. We had another baby, named Ruby. We packed essentials. Scarlet had a small toy, she was a little older. Ruby had a bigger stuffed animal. We were found on an island I think. Dream all jumbled. We walked up to a couple houses that were in a wooded area of the island. We asked for help, but the guy there just told us to come in. I was a little hesitant but we needed shelter and food. All of us, probably 15-20 people, came in. His house was a mansion on the inside. He led us upstairs and we found rooms. At some point I remember running. I think we found out that the man was bad. I was looking for our essential things we packed. I found them inside a bench that also worked as a storage area. I grabbed as much as possible and ran with my family. At some point the bag of essentials wasn't in my hands and there were two bags on the side of a street. (The bad man's hallway turned into an alleyway of some sort).

Okay, I wrote this last summer and completely forgot what else happened right after that, but I DO remember bad guys chasing us from the alley and soon enough the alley turning into a river/waterfall. I remember holding onto one of the girls and Devin holding onto the other. I vaguely remember the toy Scarlet had being significant in the dream. Like it had gone missing and then found (or maybe when we jumped off the waterfall, the toy fell out of her hands and was gone forever. I don't know.) I swam with Scarlet (or Ruby, whichever daughter I was holding) to an island and waited/started my search for Devin, the other daughter, and the rest of the gang.

Lots Of Tongue

Okay, I might have been going through major sleep paralysis in the first bit of my dream. I know it was lightning and down-pouring, I remember looking out the window. (In my waking life, it was actually storming that night, so maybe it was projecting into my dreams..) I was in the process of awakening, but couldn't move. I remember trying to yell to Devin, who was beside me in bed, "Wake me up! Wake me up!" I felt like I couldn't do it myself, and I could only whisper through my lips. I could hear myself, in my dream, yelling, and myself, outside of my dream, whispering. It was eerie. Finally Devin rolls over, tells me I'm fine, and goes back to bed. Eventually I finally awake completely, but right beforehand I felt someone touch my left hand. I was freaking out thinking a ghost tapped my hand. I couldn't sleep for awhile after that, so I wrote down what happened.

Finally I went back to sleep, and I dreamt that I was visiting my dad and he told me he read my dream blog, about some dream where I was kissing a Quin Twin with "lots of tongue". I was blushing in my dream, embarrassed that he read my blog, but in my waking life I have seriously never dreamt about kissing either twin with 'lots of tongue', or any tongue for that matter - god dammit. :( That was a weird dream, too. The next part I wrote down I don't remember the details, just that my dad's workplace was making a documentary. Then I'm walking to my childhood home. I get to the back porch, and enter the utility room. There are dog beds in the closet area of the utility room, and my dog Bear and Ziggy are there, along with two dogs, Wyatt and Tuffy, whom have passed away in my waking life. I remember my dog Bear kept wanting to bite Tuffy. Tuffy was a fat dachshund, so he was a small little guy compared to Bear's St. Bernard/Lab mix. I was really scared Bear would tear Tuffy to shreds, so I kept forcing myself between them to protect Tuffy. At some point, Bear quit bothering him, so I walked to the living room and looked out the door. It was raining really hard and then these fish the size of big northerns started falling to the ground along with the rain. I got scared and backed away from the door. Then I went back to the utility room and instead of the dogs there, my boyfriend's sister Cherish and her boyfriend Monte were there sitting on a couch (in the utility room, I don't know why). I decided to call Devin, my boyfriend, to see where he was and I heard a little kid's voice in the background. I joked about hearing a kid and tease him about cheating on me and having a family started with some other woman. He got quiet and really defensive then. I bawled, realizing it was true. Cherish gets mad at Devin for what he did, but I leave the house and hang up on him. I decided to walk into the woods, towards the road. I call my aunt Erin and tell her what happened. Then I hang up again and walk some more in the woods. I meet up with Sara Quin and strangely we seem to be in a relationship or something. It doesn't last for long, though. First, Devin's cousin Trevor starts chasing us in the woods. Then, I project out of my body and some woman is taking the place as Sara's girlfriend/the one getting chased. I'm just a third wheel trying to help them get to safety. Eventually we get to the road. It's autumn, cold, rainy. Leaves are falling from the painted-orange trees. A car pulls up and I look over at the other two and think "We're safe." They have the same look to them. Then a guy gets out and he looks like Taylor Handley (again, I had to look this guy up. I've only seen him in one thing, and it was Dawson's Creek a few years ago. It's strange how the brain stores hidden, insignificant information and visuals.) When I saw him exit the car and tell us to get in, I thought, "Great. Just like in the movies, he's supposed to be my knight in shining armor." I don't know why I thought that, but he smiled arrogantly, so it just got worse from there. The guy chasing us was closing in, and although I was thinking over whether I wanted to deal with this guy or the one chasing me, I eventually got in the car with Sara and her new girlfriend.

At some point in this dream, I actually remembered dreaming about the denim clothes that I wrote in this blog. I think writing these dreams down for so long is starting to make the memory of my waking life better.

Beam Me Up, Scotty.

Dreamt I was with my sister Sarah and our friend Heather and that we made a robot. They wanted to go get something for the robot and I was about to follow but I noticed my bird CL and he was really hungry and thirsty and looked weak. I gave him food and water.

Then I was on this spaceship with Devin and some other woman. (Possibly Tegan Quin?) I don't really remember but in my notes I wrote that it could have been hear. Devin was flirting with some other woman (not the one that may have been Tegan) and it pissed me off. I was playing poker with two girls I used to be friends with and I ended up losing the game. Then somehow all three of us (not the woman he was flirting with) were being followed by these bad guys wearing these long robes and their faces were shadowed by hoods. They were following us because I lost at the poker game. We got into this elevator and Devin tried to teleport is to safety (a la "Beam Me Up, Scotty") but the transportation wouldn't work. The way it worked was that we would huddle together in a hug, but whenever we would disappear, we would re-appear in the same place. The elevator opens and we rush around down a hallway and I grab this card that looks kind of like a credit card and I slide it into this machine but it's taking forever to start up. (This machine could have possibly been a transportation device I'm guessing). It was taking forever so we decided to go into this cafeteria, hoping we could get lost in the sea of faces. When we walk into the cafeteria we all look different. Tegan and I are dressed like men and are sporting these short wigs and Devin is in a long wig and wearing women's clothing. The guard also comes in dressed like a woman as well when he is clearly a man. He looks over at us and notices out actual hair poking out of our wigs but he doesn't do anything because he feels silly dressed like a woman.

Came In Through The Basement Window.

Dreamt I had to carry my old dog Skippy (now deceased) because he was trying to fight with another dog.

Then:

Dreamt I was in a pond and the water was cold. My dad and some other guy was on this small floatation device and I swam over and tried to get on as well, but it almost tipped over. They got mad at me and told me to get away. I swam away and somehow found myself on land, near my parents' old house. My dad and the guy is also on land and the guy with my dad is very, very evil. I run around the house to the front yard and I notice the grass is on fire. There is smoke everywhere. The evil guy is looking for me but since the smoke is so thick, he can't see me. He runs off into the woods thinking I went that way and I walk towards the house with this puppy and I'm about to go into the house but I notice this bigger dog wanting into this basement window near the front door. (My old house never had a basement, FYI.) I walk over to it and look inside. I pick the big dog up and set him down into the basement and crawl in through the window with the puppy. I start worrying that the big dog tricked me and was just luring me into the basement so the evil guy could get to me. Like they were both in on something. And of course, I notice a staircase going down somewhere in the basement and I see the evil guy. He sees me and he starts racing up the stairs to get to me. I crawl up through the window with the puppy and even try to grab the big dog and help him out as well. When everyone is out, I run with the puppy towards the road to get help.

The Jail Cell

I'm sick..

Dreamt I was taking my temperature but that the thermometer would not stay in my mouth long enough. When it finally beeped saying it was finished, I checked it and it was at 99.something.

Then I was in this prison visitation/trial. It was more set up like a I was supposed to pick someone out of a lineup, only they were all in on it. The guy on the left started moving his bare feet around (he was sitting in a chair, in handcuffs, and was wearing bright orange clothing). I noticed he was fidgeting with his toenails. Suddenly I see something underneath a nail and I sense it's something that will help him unlock his handcuffs. I tell Tegan Quin, who happens to be beside me, and she tells me to go get help. I rush over to this guy that looks like Tom Waits when he played in Bram Stoker's Dracula. He's a janitor and is cleaning jail cells on the opposite side of this big room we are all in. At first he can't hear me very well because his hearing is bad, but eventually he understands. I go back to where Tegan was but she and the rest of the people I was with are gone. Apparently the bad guy had taken them somewhere. I see the bad guy come at me so I run down this hallway and into this bathroom and try to lock the door but I somehow end up UNlocking it instead, so he walks in and puts me in a jail cell with Crystal Bowersox from American Idol.

Monkey Business

Dreamt I had these super powers and my dad was really proud of me. He gave me lots of attention, and it made my mom and sister (Sarah) extremely jealous from the attention I got, so this made my mom and sister real awful towards me. In my dream, I still lived with my family and that our normal one-story house was a two-story. I remember climbing out of the bedroom window and walking to the edge of the roof by the porch. Then I climbed down this dinky metal post we normally have that supports the roof to the porch. Then I ran through the woods, down the hill, to our pond we had on our property. I walked around the pond until I got to the swampy areas on our property. Then I wondered if there were snakes out yet, so I kind of freaked myself out and retreated back up to the house, but crept through the woods checking for my mom and sister. I saw that they were also in the woods planning how to kill me, but barely a few yards from our yard, so I kind of booked it away from the house back to the marsh. Then I saw this tree and tried to shimmy myself up it but it kept wanting to bend down and show I was in it because I was too heavy for the tree. Then the tree fell on my dad's camper that he has near the pond, and I jump off and kept walking. I get to this library and poke around in it and look at a few of the books on the shelves. I remember seeing a shelf of Piers Anthony books, only they were romance novels and the one I picked up had an island on the cover and the title had the word "autumn" in it. After setting the book down, I decide to use a computer and find a way to move away from home. Before I get to a computer I see (the musician) Sara Quin looking at a couple books in this area that looked more like it was set up for children. I get distracted from my idea to move away and walk over to her. We both start flirting, but after a couple minutes I see my mom and sister walk in. I quickly hide under this table and Sara hides under it with me. We both are scared and hold hands. Then Sara turns into a monkey (waaah, I wanted human Sara back) and my mom notices this Sara-monkey. The setting changes and I'm walking down the driveway back to my house and my mom is trying to coax Sara-monkey to come home with us (because in my real life, my mom has wanted a monkey since she was a child). Sara-monkey is scared and hides behind a tree and doesn't really want my mom to be near her at all. I woke up at some point.

8/16/10 - The Hallway.

Dreamt I was in a school building. It was a pretty big building and built more like a college than anything else. I'm wearing uncomfortable shoes, so I walk into this room that looks like a place to shower. Many stalls. I feel like I shouldn't be in here, like it's not my school. I grab shoes that are in a shelf painted with colors you would normally see in an elementary school classroom. As I grab the shoes, I hide in one of the shower stalls, thinking a student will catch me in here, stealing someone's shoes.

Now I'm on this road. I have this soggy shoebox in my hands, (the bottom was wet with rain or something and was falling apart) and inside of the shoebox are kittens. While walking down the road I see a bus coming up towards me, so I get towards the side to let it pass but I notice Tegan Quin is driving the bus. The bus stops after it passes me and I can see this person in her rear-view mirror. We stare at each other for a few seconds, but then I continue walking and she continues driving.

Now I'm in Warrens, WI. On the main street. There's a lot of people out, perhaps Cranfest is going on. I'm sitting by this picnic table with my family and they start to walk away and up these steps into a church. I go to follow them and I notice my aunt Donna standing on the steps. She shows no emotion, though. Like she's just a shell. My sister walks into the church with her friends and I run after but when I enter the room, I'm alone. I am in this hallway that circles around the whole building. I walk all the way around the building looking for my sister or any of her friends but I cannot find them. Finally the hallway opens into this lobby/bar. I start to walk towards where the hallway starts up again on the other side of the bar, but a bunch of men of mexican or american indian decent start to surround me (I don't know why I couldn't tell a difference between the two ethnicities in my dream, but I just couldn't). I freak out. I know they are going to either harm or rape me. I start running towards them, towards the hallway, but dodging them as I go. The guy I try to dodge grabs me and I scream as loud as I can, even louder a second time. Even with him holding me in place, I try pushing him forward so I can get into the hallway. Eventually I get away and I have my eyes closed when my sister finds me in the hallway. She tells me I was dreaming and that I made two high-pitch screams and then said two names while dreaming: "Kid up" and "T. Honey".

I don't understand that dream.

Shoebox

• To see a shoebox in your dream, suggests that you are headed toward a new direction in life. You are in for a new experience.

Bus Driver

• To see a bus driver in your dream, indicates leadership in some group idea or plan. It is symbolic of collective power. Alternatively, it suggests that you are going around in circles and showing little progress.

Lost

• To dream that you are lost, suggests that you have lost your direction in life or that you have lost sight of your goals. You may be feeling worried and insecure about the path you are taking in life. If you try to call for help, then it means that you are trying to reach out for support. You are looking for someone to lean on. Alternatively, being lost means that you are still adjusting to a new situation in which the rules and conditions are ever changing.

• Hallway

• To see a hallway in your dream, symbolizes self exploration. It is the beginning of the path that you are taking in life. You are going through a transitional phase and journeying into the unknown. It also signals spiritual enlightenment, emotional growth physical prowess, new opportunities and mental passages in your life.

Crowd

• To see an unruly crowd in your dream, signifies that the worries and problems around you are pressing in on you. You are expressing great distress.

8/11/10 - Sleep Paralysis To The Max.

Okay, I might have been going through major sleep paralysis in the first bit of my dream. I know it was lightning and down-pouring, I remember looking out the window. (In my waking life, it was actually storming that night, so maybe it was projecting into my dreams..) I was in the process of awakening, but couldn't move. I remember trying to yell to Devin, who was beside me in bed, "Wake me up! Wake me up!" I felt like I couldn't do it myself, and I could only whisper through my lips. I could hear myself, in my dream, yelling, and myself, outside of my dream, whispering. It was eerie. Finally Devin rolls over, tells me I'm fine, and goes back to bed. Eventually I finally awake completely, but right beforehand I felt someone touch my left hand. I was freaking out thinking a ghost tapped my hand. I couldn't sleep for awhile after that, so I wrote down what happened.

Finally I went back to sleep, and I dreamt that I was visiting my dad and he told me he read my dream blog about some dream where I was kissing a Quin Twin--Tegan, to be exact--with "lots of tongue". I was blushing in my dream, embarrassed that he read my blog--and used the phrase 'lots of tongue'--but in my waking life I have seriously never dreamt about kissing either twin with 'lots of tongue', or any tongue for that matter - god dammit. :( That was a weird dream, too. The next part I wrote down I don't remember the details, just that my dad's workplace was making a documentary. Then I'm walking to my childhood home. I get to the back porch, and enter the utility room. There are dog beds in the closet area of the utility room, and my dog Bear and Ziggy are there, along with two dogs, Wyatt and Tuffy, whom have passed away in my waking life. I remember my dog Bear kept wanting to bite Tuffy. Tuffy was a fat dachshund, so he was a small little guy compared to Bear's St. Bernard/Lab mix. I was really scared Bear would tear Tuffy to shreds, so I kept forcing myself between them to protect Tuffy. At some point, Bear quit bothering him, so I walked to the living room and looked out the door. It was raining really hard and then these fish the size of big northerns started falling to the ground along with the rain. I got scared and backed away from the door. Then I went back to the utility room and instead of the dogs there, my boyfriend's sister Cherish and her boyfriend Monte were there sitting on a couch (in the utility room, I don't know why). I decide to call Devin, my boyfriend, to see where he was and I heard a little kid's voice in the background. I joke about hearing a kid and tease him about cheating on me and having a family started with some other woman. He gets quiet and really defensive then. I bawled, realizing it was true. Cherish gets mad at Devin for what he did, but I leave the house and hang up on him. I decided to walk into the woods, towards the road. I call my aunt Erin and tell her what happened. Then I hang up again and walk some more in the woods. I meet up with Sara Quin and strangely we seem to be in a relationship or something. It doesn't last for long, though. First, Devin's cousin Trevor starts chasing us in the woods. Then, I project out of my body and some woman is taking the place as Sara's girlfriend/the one getting chased. I'm just a third wheel trying to help them get to safety. Eventually we get to the road. It's autumn, cold, rainy. Leaves are falling from the painted-orange trees. A car pulls up and I look over at the other two and think "We're safe." They have the same look to them. Then a guy gets out and he looks like Taylor Handley (again, I had to look this guy up. I've only seen him in one thing, and it was Dawson's Creek a few years ago. It's strange how the brain stores hidden, insignificant information and visuals.) When I saw him exit the car and tell us to get in, I thought, "Great. Just like in the movies, he's supposed to be my knight in shining armor. There's no way I'm going to be his love interest in this dream" I don't know why I thought that, but he smiled arrogantly, so it just got worse from there. The guy chasing us was closing in, and although I was thinking over whether I wanted to deal with this guy or the one chasing me, I eventually got in the car with Sara and her new girlfriend.

At some point in this dream, I actually remembered dreaming about the denim clothes that I wrote in this blog. I think writing these dreams down for so long is starting to make the memory of my waking life better.




Yelling

• To dream that you or someone is yelling, represents repressed anger that needs to be expressed. If you are yelling and no one hears, then it suggests that you are being overlooked in some waking situation. You feel that your voice does not matter or that your opinion does not count.

Dog

• To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. The dream dog may also represent someone in your life who exhibits these qualities. Alternatively, to see a dog in your dream, indicates a skill that you may have ignored or forgotten. If the dog is vicious and/or growling, then it indicates some inner conflict within yourself. It may also indicate betrayal and untrustworthiness.

Rain

• To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace. Falling rain is also a metaphor for tears, crying and sadness. Alternatively, rain symbolizes fertility and renewal. If you get wet from the rain, then it indicates cleaning from your troubles and problems.

• Fish

• To see fish swimming in your dream, signifies insights from your unconscious mind. Thus to catch a fish, represents insights which have been brought to the surface. Alternatively, a fish swimming in your dream may symbolize conception. Some women dream of swimming fish when they get pregnant. To see a dead fish, signifies disappointment and loss of power/wealth.

Infidelity

• To dream of infidelity (either by you or someone else), represents issues of abandonment and neglect in a relationship. Or you are feeling emotionally confined and need an outlet for your feelings. Alternatively, a dream of infidelity indicates that you are feeling unsatisfied with your current relationship. You are harboring guilt over a sexual relationship or you are looking for a more erotic sex life.

Astral Projection

• To dream of astral projection, suggests that you are looking at things from a whole new perspective. You may be feeling liberated and free. Alternatively, it indicates that you are physically or emotionally disconnected from those around you.

Chase

• To dream that you are being chased, signifies that you are avoiding a situation that you do not think is conquerable. It is a metaphor for some form of insecurity. In particular, to dream that you are chased by an animal, represents your own unexpressed and unacknowledged anger which is being projected onto that animal. Alternatively, you may be running away from a primal urge or fear.

Day after Easter 2010 - Playing Tag with Tegan and Sara Fans.

Forgot my dream from yesterday, here's my make-up:


"Dreamt I was dating a musician. Ahem a singing twin ahem. I was in this auditorium, waiting for said twins to play, or maybe just goofing off after the show? Anyways, the seats were empty and it was fairly dark. I was playing tag with a bunch of others.. We were jumping over seats, in aisles.. Neither twin was there, but I remember someone telling me I was dating one of them, or maybe I just knew it in my dream. I do remember her being in a part before it, but I have no recollection of what happened."

Date

• To dream that you are on a date, represents your need for self-discovery and self-awareness. You are getting to know some hidden aspects of yourself and acknowledging your hidden talents. Alternatively, it may reflect your anxieties about dating or finding acceptance. The dream may also be a "rehearsal" for an actual date you have. It serves to overcome anxieties you may have.

• Celebrity

• To see a celebrity in your dream, represents your beliefs and understanding about him or her. Consider what the celebrity is famous or known for and how you relate to that quality. Something in you waking life has triggered these similar beliefs and feelings. It is not uncommon that your obsession with a certain celebrity may carry over onto your dream world. Celebrities are often seen as heroes and all that is mighty. Also consider any puns within the name.

Auditorium

• To dream that you are in an auditorium, indicates that there is something that you need to learn from others. Pay attention to those around you.

Tag

• To dream that you are playing tag, represents your level of determination and agility toward achieving your goals. If you are the one being chased, then the dream means that you are trying to dodge some responsibility. If you are the one who is doing the chasing, then it signifies your instincts and your determination to go after what you want. The dream may be telling you that "you're it!" You are the chosen one or the one that is chosen for the job.