The Store

Dreamt I was trying to flirt with some younger guy in a grocery store. Bending over, etc. also dreamt there were shoes or slippers with different characters in them. Dark green had Shrek and Donkey in each top of the foot, a medium brown suede material had I think Hank Hill and Bobby Hill. There was also one or two others but I forgot the characters. My sister and my daughter were with. We were looking for our sizes but having trouble. Suddenly all the shoes were gone. Couldn't buy them. Then I was in a car worried I was going to jail. Terrified, I tried to wake myself up. I could FEEL how deep my dream was. I started shaking my head to wake myself up, worried it wouldn't work. Thankfully it worked, but it felt like going through layers in waking myself up. 

So...

I have two entries that I don't remember at all (this was a couple days ago), so I will write them word-for-word. With the first one, I should explain that I watched the movie Pacific Rim recently.. With the second one, umm.. Yeah, I don't remember it at all, and I wrote it down with my eyes closed, so it's written with phrases all jumbled on top of each other.. It's a mess.



The first dream:

Pacific Rim-like. Seems like I switched something in my dream to make it safer - can't remember what.


Second:

Parking lot for zombie apocalypse. Dev likes some, I mine. I leave at night, testing a car. Try to leave quietly, was eating cookie batter. Bad for me.

End Of The World

I'm at my parents' old house and I have my dog in my arms. I hear people singing in the trees outside. I'm not sure what song, it could have been three (very different) songs..: Don't Fear The Reaper, Thank God I'm A Country Boy, or America The Beautiful. I know, how can I possibly not tell these songs apart? I don't know. Anyways, I walk outside to see who is singing in the trees, but instead I look over in the direction the sun is setting, near the cranberry marsh. I watch as fireworks go off. Then suddenly the sky gets dark and there are lights lighting up in odd places in the sky. I think that it's the end of the world and I cling to my dog as tightly as possible. I turn around, not wanting to see what will happen, but when I turn, I am back in the position I was in, facing the cranberry marsh. I turn around again and still I am facing the cranberry marsh. I do this a few times, utterly confused as to why I couldn't turn around. At some point when I turn around I notice a white shadow of a person in the reflection of the window in the door. I freak out and close my eyes and cradle my dog in my arms, trying to wake myself up. I wake up in bed and hear Devin watching TV (the video looks like old-school Little Rascals and the audio is super loud and it sounds like newer Rob Zombie music). I think to myself that this must have been why I was having a nightmare. I grab my journal to write down my dream but the journal breaks apart and pages fall out. I still continue to write instead of grabbing pages and worrying about my journal and that's when I notice that this isn't right, so I must be dreaming. Then I really wake up.

It "Felt" Too Real.

Still sick!

Dreamt I was in my parents' old house. I could fly/float from one piece of furniture to the next. I landed on the TV (an old console one) and that a pile of movies and christmas cards toppled over, only to have them fall in a perfect pile again on the floor. I found it odd, but didn't think anything of it that I was dreaming, which I normally do in situations like that. Also, I noticed I could control things so well that I thought I couldn't possibly be dreaming because it all felt too realistic. I'm writing "felt" in bold because for some reason I happened to be Lily Munster in the dream and my husband was John Goodman. We were both musicians going through a divorce.

The Ocean.

Dreamt I was in California. I am on this interstate on-ramp and I'm getting off of it (on foot) and running down this hill to the interstate itself. There are people running to the interstate with me. It's a frenzy just to get to the there. Apparently the ocean is rising tremendously because of melted polar ice caps. When I reach the interstate, I get to this red car that at first drives off without me, but it turns back to pick me up. Once I get to the car I notice the driver is a man and a woman is in the backseat. We drive for awhile but at some point they turn into two women. One was driving (this one kind of looked like Sara Quin's ex-girlfriend Emy) and the other girl was kind of on top of me, facing me. I'm heavily making out with this girl. She's super hot and she even has the Tegan & Sara "mullet" of '07-'08. We cuddle for warmth and we were scared shitless that the water would reach us and we'd drown. I put my hand down the woman's pants and accidentally scratch her. She winces and I apologize a lot and tell her "I'm sorry, I was trying to pet.." and she smiles at this and I finish my sentence with, "..my pet." We kept making out and this Emy driver kind of kept driving/watching us. Unfortunately, the two women turn into the couple from before and all the carefree feelings I had with the lesbian couple went to worrisomeness when I remembered that the ocean is rising. We're driving from California to the middle states as fast as we can. I watch as we pass cars in super speed. The road is even blurry with how fast we are driving. I think in my head that if the water reaches us, I have to wake myself up. While I put my safety belt on, I joke to the driver that it would suck if this interstate went north and not east. He laughs and then makes this seriously horrified look on his face. The only word he could pipe out of his mouth was, "Shit." I look out the window and I notice this ten-feet high water flowing from this field that was down this hill we were driving past. The water was close. I open my door and watch as the water gets nearer. When I look back at him the water is already underneath us. First I think I need to jump out of the car at a certain time like the characters in Titanic did. The driver stays in the car, motionless. Wide-eyed. I stay with him. I reach over towards him and I kiss his forehead and say, "Sorry.. I have to go." I start blinking my eyes and eventually wake up.

It's A Truck, It's A Raft, It's A Sled..

Dreamt I was in this truck with this guy that looked slightly like Devin and also two women, one that looked a lot like Kate Hudson and the other that looked like the woman Mel from the movie Inception. We kept listening to this CB radio trying to know where these bad people were that we were hiding from. Then the truck switched to a raft in a river (that occasionally changed settings and the raft would be in this hallway, but still we couldn't get out of the raft (kind of like when you were little and you pretended the floor was lava..)). The guy we were with fell asleep and I started kissing the Kate Hudson look-a-like. Then we cuddled and she put her hand down my pants. Suddenly the raft disappears. I'm only with the guy now and we're trying to find Kate, but now she looks like Tegan Quin (or at least this is who I'm looking for now). I'm walking down this hallway and see her on the other side of the room. I start running towards her (and eventually lose the guy because he's slow as molasses) but stop because my shoes are uncomfortable. I see these comfy-looking shoes on this table and start changing shoes. When I get one shoe on, I notice that the pair I was wearing this whole time are so adorable and that I want to keep them even after I wake up from this dream (at this point the dream became lucid). So I take the new shoe off and put the old one back on. Then I notice Tegan is gone from across the room so I turn back to the hallway we were all in and start walking that way to find her. I start walking past this door and this guy that looks like the artist Bob Ross (only with slicked-back hair, not poofy hair) grabs me and drags me into this real quiet library. Everyone is silent, though heavily attentive, while I shuffle in after Bob Ross. Then he takes me to these desks in the back of the library room and there are very important people sitting down with papers in front of them. They look up at me like they expected me to come. They also look evil. I tell them that I've lost someone and I can't find them, start walking away with my hand on my forehead, trying to act calm. Then I start running. Bob Ross follows, but he's a nice guy. We both go outside and he shows me this sled and gets in, tells me he'll try to find her in it. My mind goes all fuzzy and instead of seeing my own point of view, I see the Kate-but-now-Tegan in front of a bunch of paparazzi. She takes a few photos for them and then she walks into this opera theater, my vision keeps following her until she walks into the area where the stage is. Then I see "myself" (I don't look at all like myself, though. I look like Emily Browning (Ghost Ship, The Uninvited) wearing this weird dress. It's this pink and yellow feathery gown. I sit down on this red velvet circular chair. Then this girl sits down next to me and she looks like Lacey Chabert. She holds my hand, puts her head on my shoulder.. Tries her best to comfort me. She asks me if I want to go dancing and suddenly the room turns into a psychedelic pink, green, and orange glittery room. It looks the set of Flip Wilson's show. I realize now that I'm dreaming and try to open my eyes to wake myself up from the corny dream. The first time I blink, I see wallpaper of some sort, then I woke up on the second blink.

He Turned Everyone I Knew Into Statues.

Dreamt I was in this bar and a bunch of people I knew were in there. Devin and his co-workers and some friends. I walked around at one point and saw this girl I used to like so I talked to her, but noticed she didn't actually look like herself. So I thought in my head, "Look what is happening to us. You're out of my life, and now I'm forgetting what you even look like." So I had to leave her. I went to this back room that looked like my old bedroom. I felt like I was in a hotel room, though, because on the floor was a telephone and I called Tegan & Sara's hotel room and asked (because I knew they wouldn't want to come to my hotel room) if they knew this girl's hotel room number so that I could ask her to come back. I hung up right away, though, before they answered. Then I heard a phone alarm go off, when I found it, I turned it off. (It was my boyfriend's. It said "Devin signature" on the screen or something, which meant something to do with his credit card and the signature, I was thinking.) Then I heard my own phone go off, and I found it underneath my old TV in the living room at my old house. I answered, and it was this old man with a distinct english accent. He sounded suspicious. He tried to keep the conversation going even though I wanted to hang up. I had a feeling he was on his way to come to the room to get me. I walked out of my old house and walked around to the driveway. Then I saw all the people from the bar as statues. All grey marble-looking. It freaked me out and made me think this old man was a gargoyle or a vampire and he was killing everyone close to me so he could get to me. I turned around and then saw him wearing this black cape and he was coming at me, I backed up and repeated to myself "wake up.. wake up.. wake up.." while flinching in my dream body and feeling myself writhe in my real body. Then it started getting hard for me to breathe. I seriously thought in my dream that I was dying in my real body and that if I didn't wake up soon, I never would. Finally, as soon as my face writhed out of the covers I was under, I felt like I was surfacing from underwater or something. I could breathe and I woke up taking that breath in. Then my head started hurting really bad.

Fuck This, I'm Moving To Canada.

Today I dreamt there was this body buried under ground and I had to dig him up. The strange thing is, I was able to control my dream completely. I mean, I thought I could before this but not this well. I started to dig him up, but the ground was linoleum.. I thought "This can't be right. This has to be dirt." So the linoleum switched to dirt! And then I was able to dig the person up.

Before that, though, I dreamt I was moving to Canada to live with Sara Quin. Geez, I wish.

That Man I Shot

Dreamt that the personification Jack Frost took me out on a date. He starts out very Ville Valo-like, but as the dream progresses, he gets more on the husky side. It's nighttime and we're on a bus. I am sitting in the seat behind him and leaning in towards his seat with my arms around him. Then he disappears. As he disappears, I hear him tell me to find him. I get my sister Sarah and my boyfriend (lolol) Devin to help me find where he is. We search the coldest place on earth. We are walking carefully around this snowy mountain cliff. The path is narrow. Eventually the path leads to a house. We walk into this garage and up these stairs into this kitchen. I see a fridge and I open it. Icicles are EVERYWHERE. I keep walking through the house until I get to the living room. I tell Sarah and Devin that this is the house he planned for us to live in. I look out a window in the living room and notice two headlights parked about a quarter of a mile down the road. Then I see red and blue cop siren lights. Sarah and Devin and I start running off, thinking that Jack was in one of the cars parked on the side of the road, and that the cop probably killed him and was after us next. I run downstairs and into the garage, towards the door to the outside. Before I get out, a man with a knife walks in. I yell, "WAKE ME UP! WAKE ME UP! WAKE ME UP!" I start blinking my eyes really wide, trying to wake myself up. Sarah and Devin look at me funny from my behavior. The guy with the knife then stabs my hand into the wall and wakes me up.

When I woke up, I was kind of disappointed. So I went back to sleep to try and find Jack. I locked myself in a basement. I had this HIM pin attached to my hat and I took the pin off to look at it and it was blank. It made me realize that Jack vanished off the face of the earth. He didn't exist anymore. I cried. Then I unlocked the door and the bad guy tried slashing me with a carving knife. I had a gun on me and tried shooting him but he wouldn't die. I finally shot myself in the head and woke up that way.

Screams In Dreams.

Dreamt I was buying a Halloween costume at Goodwill. I found this white poufy dress that looked like what Buffy wore in the movie Buffy The Vampire Slayer.

I'm at this school and in a room there is a trial going on. There is a man on trial for something. He's wearing an orange suit and he isn't cuffed. He playfully chases the female judge out of the room. An old woman stands up from a table in the room to help get the guy back in here, and I stop her for a second. I tell her it's funny how older people are more apt to help someone out than younger people. Then everyone leaves except for two women, who begin talking about Detox Tea. I leave the room and the school looks a lot like a hospital. All the people from the trial are in this hospital hallway, so I sneak into this bathroom. As I am walking, I stare at this mirror and notice a face that isn't mine. It's some blond teenager wearing all pink. I check around in the bathroom for her to be sure it wasn't just my imagination. She comes out of a stall and out of the bathroom and into the hallway. I follow her and see she is setting bright orange clothes into a laundry basket.

Then I'm at my Aunt and Uncle's, and it's set up like a school as well. At this point, I'm thinking that the school I'm at is a faraway place. Nowhere near home. I'm watching a television monitor on the wall and the weather channel is on. A bad storm is coming. The TV keeps showing Wisconsin and New York. I grab a phone from the wall and call my sister. She has a strong Wisconsin dialect. (Think Fargo.) Eventually I get off the phone and hear a classmate freaking out about the storm that's coming. She tells me she's having troubles screaming. Then we talk about how hard it is to scream when you are dreaming, and I tell the girl that I've only ever been able to fully scream (not whisper a scream) about three or four times.

10/7/10 - Disoriented.

Dreamt I was in this house occupied by an old white lady. Her neighbor was an old black woman. They were telling me and Devin that one of their neighbors were killing people. I was upstairs in a bedroom with Devin, and even though I knew that the woman living in the house could hear our conversation, I told him that I knew who was killing these people. At this point, I think I was in a slight mindset of lucid dreaming. Only slight. I started to get disoriented. I was mixing reality (in dream) with real life (outside of dream), sleep with deep sleep. I told him I thought I might be hungry, because I was feeling funny. We started to walk downstairs to get food, but the two old ladies came up the stairs knowing that I knew who was killing everyone. They brought up with them a little girl that looked like Wednesday Addams. The girl scared me. I freaked out, yelled to Devin that it was the white woman that killed these people and then pushed the woman away. We both ran downstairs. At this point, my disorientation got the best of me, and when we opened the door to the outside, I was seeing another astral plane. I could see this bathroom clear as a bell, but also the outdoors. Rats were everywhere in the bathroom. We run to the car and I wake up.

12/28/03 - Dead People On A School Bus?

Last night I only got an hour of sleep. I know I dreamt, because when I awoke I had fragments of dreams, which became forgotten within a few seconds upon waking. I think that if I can't remember a dream, I'll go through old old journals and find a random one to post. I found one in a journal from 9/13/03 to 11/21/04. So here goes one on the date 12/28/03. For shameful reasons, I am hiding a name that I mention in here, because.. well, it's embarrassing to mention past crushes.



"I had a great but crazy dream. First, I woke up wishing I'd fallen back asleep. I DREAMT OF ****! ... That's a first. The first thing I can remember was that I was new to school. I remember having to go to a phys-ed class, but it wasn't THAT bad. **** was there. Ahh! Nice. So then I remember getting onto a school bus and seeing either dead people or sleeping people on the bus, so I ended up taking a seat in the front. (My sister Sarah was with me). For some reason, the bus must have changed into a car at some point. The song Geek USA came on, and I told Sarah about it being a Smashing Pumpkins' song, and the bus driver turned around and said, "I'm a huge fan of SP!" - That was cool. Then all I remember after that was the end, when I walked out of my house and there was this huge crowd outside. I saw my mom and her friend, and I came over to them and said "Hi". One of them asked me if I had ever flown before. Then the house starts to fly, like an airplane. We were on this concrete pad-like porch that was connected to the house, so we were flying up into the clouds with the house. Then I saw the town in bird's eye view, and I saw **** in the crowd that was still outside where the house had been, and **** kept looking at me as if wanting to say something to me. It was weird. So then while up in the air, I began telling my mom how my day at school was. Then I woke up, because something I said made me realize I had been dreaming the whole time."

Dead

• To see the dead in your dream, forewarns that you are being influenced by negative people and are hanging around the wrong crowd. This dream may also be a way for you to resolve your feelings with those who have passed on. Alternatively, the dream symbolizes material loss.

Bus

• To dream that you are riding a bus, implies that you are going along with the crowd. You are lacking originality and control over where your life is taking.

House

• To see a house in your dream, represents your own soul and self. If the house is shifting, then it suggests that you are going through some personal changes and changing your belief system.

Floating

• To dream that you are floating on air, indicates satisfaction, contentment and acceptance of some situation. You are letting go of your problems and rising above obstacles. You are experiencing new-found freedom and gaining a new perspective on things. Nothing seems overwhelming or too difficult to handle. Alternatively, floating in your dream suggests that you are wandering through life aimlessly with no goals. You are just going with the flow.

I don't normally like to think dreams mean anything, but after reading this, and then reading ahead a few days later, I've found something strange I'd like to add. A week or so after I had this dream, I became home schooled. In real life, not in the dream, I had been harassed by these guys on the school bus (which maybe that meant in the dream, that those people were all dead to me. Forgotten.) Maybe the Smashing Pumpkins came into play because that band got me through the years of dropping out of school. (and holy wow, the lyrics.. pretty much summed up that experience of dropping out). The house flying up might have meant that I was getting away from all these people, trying to get a safe distance away from the hectic world. To disconnect myself from the outside world.