Bar

Kind of remember the setting of my dream from last night. It was a huge bar. Honestly it was a square bar all the way around and most of the space was on the bartenders side. There was barely any room on the customers side. It was dark red velvet and gold colors. I think I worked there and had to clean up. 

Invention

Dreamt I was at this bar I go to in real life and one of the bartenders needed help, so I got behind the bar to help out. I hear a scratch at the door and I see my dog poking his head into the window, so I run over to let him in and somehow every time I try to open the door, an alarm goes off. Then I left and got into a car with my aunt and mother in the front seat, and in the back was this older blonde chick and me. We held hands at first and eventually held both. Then she went in to kiss me (annnnnd some), but I stopped her because I remembered I was still with Devin. Then I worked at this place where people used their credit card like a barcode against this USB stick-looking thing. It was really cool in my dream and I woke up thinking it would make a handy invention.

Felt Up and Make-up.

Dreamt that I was waiting in the backseat of a car with two guys. My boyfriend's mom was driving and my boyfriend and his dad were outside trying to cut down a tree or something. His mom got out of the car to tell them to hurry, because we were going to be late for something. When she left the car, the two guys started trying to touch my thighs and feel me up. I was scared, I thought I was going to get raped.

Then I was with Devin somewhere and he made pizza and one of my friends, Nadia, was there for some reason. :)

Before all of this dream, although not linked or associated in any way, I dreamt that Ville Valo of the band HIM was at Sportsman's Bar waiting for a cab. My sister's friend John was going to take a picture of me and Ville, but I didn't have any make-up on, so I asked my sister if she had any make-up I could borrow. We started to walk to the bathroom so I could make myself presentable, but suddenly a crowd of women broke out amongst us and I lost her. The women were all getting suggestions for make-up and borrowing each other's things.

How Does It Feel?

Dreamt that whenever I go to bed, I go to this realm. (I know, I know. That makes no sense. Well, maybe you think it does make sense and you're thinking, "Obvious Alyssa is very obvious." But I mean I actually fell into this realm after falling asleep in another dream. It was kind of like Sliders, only the wormhole appears when I go to bed and start dreaming.) Anyways, enough explaining. I dreamt I was in this gay bar with this guy that looked like a mix between Ben Affleck and Stephen Trask (of Hedwig & The Angry Inch).. More or less, he looked like the lead singer of Semi-Precious Weapons with a black modernized mushroom haircut. He and I and 11 other people were competing in this band competition. We chose the song Blue Monday by Orgy. Strangely all the other groups chose a bunch of Christian-sounding songs. After the song was over, I walked to this window seat and the guy and I started making out. I started thinking in my head "Oh god, if we have sex, I'll wake up pregnant and have to explain everything to Devin.." I was so happy the guy I was with was gay, it made me feel like I shouldn't be guilty about not really being attracted to him either. It must have been the non-existant liquor. After that I was outside of the gas station in Warrens and was talking to two old highschool classmates.

The Dream Too Good To Be True

Dreamt this morning that I had three kids. Devin and I were getting out of a car and into this building. We lived in Warrens at the time. I was carrying our youngest, this pudgy little blond-haired blue-eyed kid named Charlie and following Devin through the doors and into this office. While Devin talked to the person at the desk, I kept switching Charlie back and forth between arms. He was heavy as hell. It seems that I was changing my name or something. Devin motioned me over and then pointed to an extended room and told me I had to change my name in that room instead. I carried Charlie and walked with this guy that was a classmate of mine and followed him past this casino (where a bunch of men were playing poker or throwing money into slot machines) and I whispered in Charlie's ear that I'd always hear mothers talk about how grueling it is to carry a kid around all the time, how heavy they are, and that I now can understand their pain. Charlie giggles like he knows what I'm talking about. Then I heard someone yell, "Hey, Allie!" I looked back at the poker tables and slot machines but I can't really see anyone that looks familiar but the voice sounds like this guy that was an old childhood friend I once knew. At this point the classmate has disappeared but I go straight to this bar and wait for him to come back. He showed up again after having to go to the bathroom and sits down next to where I was standing. I sat down next to him and put Charlie in my lap. Then one of Devin's co-workers walked into the bar and everyone in the casino and bar all yell his name like in the TV show Cheers whenever Norm walks in.

This dream felt so realistic. It also made me sad when I woke up and realized I didn't really have this baby in my life.

He Turned Everyone I Knew Into Statues.

Dreamt I was in this bar and a bunch of people I knew were in there. Devin and his co-workers and some friends. I walked around at one point and saw this girl I used to like so I talked to her, but noticed she didn't actually look like herself. So I thought in my head, "Look what is happening to us. You're out of my life, and now I'm forgetting what you even look like." So I had to leave her. I went to this back room that looked like my old bedroom. I felt like I was in a hotel room, though, because on the floor was a telephone and I called Tegan & Sara's hotel room and asked (because I knew they wouldn't want to come to my hotel room) if they knew this girl's hotel room number so that I could ask her to come back. I hung up right away, though, before they answered. Then I heard a phone alarm go off, when I found it, I turned it off. (It was my boyfriend's. It said "Devin signature" on the screen or something, which meant something to do with his credit card and the signature, I was thinking.) Then I heard my own phone go off, and I found it underneath my old TV in the living room at my old house. I answered, and it was this old man with a distinct english accent. He sounded suspicious. He tried to keep the conversation going even though I wanted to hang up. I had a feeling he was on his way to come to the room to get me. I walked out of my old house and walked around to the driveway. Then I saw all the people from the bar as statues. All grey marble-looking. It freaked me out and made me think this old man was a gargoyle or a vampire and he was killing everyone close to me so he could get to me. I turned around and then saw him wearing this black cape and he was coming at me, I backed up and repeated to myself "wake up.. wake up.. wake up.." while flinching in my dream body and feeling myself writhe in my real body. Then it started getting hard for me to breathe. I seriously thought in my dream that I was dying in my real body and that if I didn't wake up soon, I never would. Finally, as soon as my face writhed out of the covers I was under, I felt like I was surfacing from underwater or something. I could breathe and I woke up taking that breath in. Then my head started hurting really bad.

9/14/10 - Batteries.

There was a party going on at my house. The downstairs part looked like Sportsman's Bar in Tomah. Two people wanted me to take their picture, but my batteries were dead, so I went back upstairs to find batteries. I went into the exercise room and Devin found a package of AA batteries, only when I went to put one in, it became circular.. It wouldn't fit. I then went down this secret escape in the exercise room and down this slide. I remember a lot of wood paneling in the house. Wood flooring.. Everything wood.

8/15/10 - Footer Became A Cannibal.

Dreamt I'm looking at a list. Either a grocery list or maybe it's a budget.


Then I'm on my way to LaCrosse with Devin to get to Pridefest, and I'm trying to call Dana to see if she's coming or not. Halfway there, we realize we forgot to bring Sarah with us, so we turn around.


Then I'm in my porch and I am playing the new Arcade Fire CD in a stereo. I seem to be taping something together, because I have tape stuck on the edge of something but I don't remember what I was taping, maybe a present. Then Devin's sister comes in and she complains that she's heard the same song on repeat too much. Although I blush, knowing I'm playing the CD, I hear the same song playing from across the street. I open the door, walk out, look across the street to see which house is playing Arcade Fire, but I cannot hear any music. It's all coming from inside the house.

Then I'm in Sportsman's Bar. I am drinking something at the bar and I walk away and sit at this picnic table. Sarah sits down next to me and tells me the grossest thing I have ever dreamt about in my entire life. First, she seems to think I remember that a woman was shot on my aunt's property. I nod my head, saying "Yeah? What about it?" And she then tells me that her friend, Footer, decided to take this woman's body home to chop her up and eat her. Like, make her into meat. Yeah. I look over at my aunt and she's sitting on another picnic table and she looks disgusted. Sarah tells me Erin is grossed out by all of it. I don't blame her. I was, too. Sarah tells me the name of the woman and the last name is so unique that I immediately knew it was an old classmate's sister. Anyways, Sarah walks over to use the bathroom and I'm all by myself. I don't tell anyone what I just heard, but I walk up to the bar to get another drink and I notice the bartenders (there's about five of them behind the bar, but they are in this room that looks just like my old childhood room, including the door with the stickers on it) look suspicious and they think I told someone else. They all grab me and take me into the room. When I get in the room, I'm in this big living room with these windows that (are closed) open up to bright sunshine, contrasting the dark room I'm locked in. When the bartenders leave, I see my dog and two dark grey kittens walking around. I walk to the windows and I notice they swing open like a screen door. I grab the kittens and set them carefully out. Then I grab my dog and set him out carefully. I crawl out the window behind my dog. When I'm outside, I notice I am outside my aunt and uncle's home in Warrens, WI. I tell my dog to run. He WALKS down the road. I keep yelling for him to hurry and of course at this point he decides to go to the bathroom. At this point, I run up ahead to see if the bartenders have caught on to our escape, and to hide behind trees. Finally he finishes pooping and walks over to me. I pick him up and we start running.



Disgust

• To feel disgust in your dream, represents an unacknowledged or denied aspect of your own self. You fear confrontation. You may also lack the means to defend and/or protect yourself.
  

Escape

• To dream that you escape from jail or some place of confinement, signifies your need to escape from a restrictive situation or attitude. Alternatively, it suggests that you are refusing to face your problems. You are avoiding the situation, instead of confronting them.

7/25/10 - Riding Bikes and Feeling Guilty.

I'm in Mather, WI (where my mother grew up). I am riding bike with this group of people. A lot of kids in my elementary class that lived near Mather are riding bike with me. There are only about five or six of us riding bike. Anyways, we're all in a line. I'm second, behind this guy that seems to be in command. He tells us to stop and I stop perfectly behind him, with maybe three feet between us, but the others behind stop harshly, hitting me from the back and colliding into each other. The weather looks really bad, too. The clouds are low and heavy, like a tornado will jut out at any time. I think to myself how lucky I am to live in Oakdale, where no tornados ever appear.


Then I'm in Sportsman's Bar, where my sister Sarah works. I have a bunch of things with me (is this an interpretation as me having "too much baggage"? I notice I'm always carrying so much stuff that are too much at times..). Devin has to work in the morning, so I start grabbing my things to head out the door, but my sister gets mad at me for leaving.



--- In reality, the night before, I was at my mother's (my sister lives with her, and their apartment is above the bar), and I was leaving to go home since Devin worked that morning. We were heading out of the parking lot when Sarah stopped us and tried to chat a bit, but we were in a hurry to leave so I had to cut her short (hehe, no pun intended - she's a shorty). I remember getting into the car and thinking "She's probably pissed at me for leaving without saying much to her.." I felt awful, but I knew Devin wanted to go home. Anyways, maybe that part was just my guilty subconscious.

7/24/10 - Making All Kinds Of Nonsense.

Well, it's late and I forgot to write this one down. Anyways, I was half asleep and scribbled this this morning, so don't ask what I meant.




"Bodyguard for something. Using jeep (? jun? jen?) as a different car {? us?). Mopping floor. Messy house. Devin buys clamps for car part. Dating some girl. School. Sarah at bar. Nachos. In car, cops peeping."



Yeah, I was totes half-asleep.