Lots Of Tongue

Okay, I might have been going through major sleep paralysis in the first bit of my dream. I know it was lightning and down-pouring, I remember looking out the window. (In my waking life, it was actually storming that night, so maybe it was projecting into my dreams..) I was in the process of awakening, but couldn't move. I remember trying to yell to Devin, who was beside me in bed, "Wake me up! Wake me up!" I felt like I couldn't do it myself, and I could only whisper through my lips. I could hear myself, in my dream, yelling, and myself, outside of my dream, whispering. It was eerie. Finally Devin rolls over, tells me I'm fine, and goes back to bed. Eventually I finally awake completely, but right beforehand I felt someone touch my left hand. I was freaking out thinking a ghost tapped my hand. I couldn't sleep for awhile after that, so I wrote down what happened.

Finally I went back to sleep, and I dreamt that I was visiting my dad and he told me he read my dream blog, about some dream where I was kissing a Quin Twin with "lots of tongue". I was blushing in my dream, embarrassed that he read my blog, but in my waking life I have seriously never dreamt about kissing either twin with 'lots of tongue', or any tongue for that matter - god dammit. :( That was a weird dream, too. The next part I wrote down I don't remember the details, just that my dad's workplace was making a documentary. Then I'm walking to my childhood home. I get to the back porch, and enter the utility room. There are dog beds in the closet area of the utility room, and my dog Bear and Ziggy are there, along with two dogs, Wyatt and Tuffy, whom have passed away in my waking life. I remember my dog Bear kept wanting to bite Tuffy. Tuffy was a fat dachshund, so he was a small little guy compared to Bear's St. Bernard/Lab mix. I was really scared Bear would tear Tuffy to shreds, so I kept forcing myself between them to protect Tuffy. At some point, Bear quit bothering him, so I walked to the living room and looked out the door. It was raining really hard and then these fish the size of big northerns started falling to the ground along with the rain. I got scared and backed away from the door. Then I went back to the utility room and instead of the dogs there, my boyfriend's sister Cherish and her boyfriend Monte were there sitting on a couch (in the utility room, I don't know why). I decided to call Devin, my boyfriend, to see where he was and I heard a little kid's voice in the background. I joked about hearing a kid and tease him about cheating on me and having a family started with some other woman. He got quiet and really defensive then. I bawled, realizing it was true. Cherish gets mad at Devin for what he did, but I leave the house and hang up on him. I decided to walk into the woods, towards the road. I call my aunt Erin and tell her what happened. Then I hang up again and walk some more in the woods. I meet up with Sara Quin and strangely we seem to be in a relationship or something. It doesn't last for long, though. First, Devin's cousin Trevor starts chasing us in the woods. Then, I project out of my body and some woman is taking the place as Sara's girlfriend/the one getting chased. I'm just a third wheel trying to help them get to safety. Eventually we get to the road. It's autumn, cold, rainy. Leaves are falling from the painted-orange trees. A car pulls up and I look over at the other two and think "We're safe." They have the same look to them. Then a guy gets out and he looks like Taylor Handley (again, I had to look this guy up. I've only seen him in one thing, and it was Dawson's Creek a few years ago. It's strange how the brain stores hidden, insignificant information and visuals.) When I saw him exit the car and tell us to get in, I thought, "Great. Just like in the movies, he's supposed to be my knight in shining armor." I don't know why I thought that, but he smiled arrogantly, so it just got worse from there. The guy chasing us was closing in, and although I was thinking over whether I wanted to deal with this guy or the one chasing me, I eventually got in the car with Sara and her new girlfriend.

At some point in this dream, I actually remembered dreaming about the denim clothes that I wrote in this blog. I think writing these dreams down for so long is starting to make the memory of my waking life better.

9/11/10 - Two Types.

I dreamt the world was being overtaken by aliens. Humans were classed into two types. One was "Security Guard" (which in reality would be like recruits for an army) and the other wasn't really termed in my dream, but they were just the average bystanders that couldn't do anything to save their life. I was the last type. So in my dream, I'm hiding with a group of people in this office, and we're all looking out the window. The "Security Guards" in the office get called out to war, so Devin leaves, along with his sister. I wait with the rest of the scared bunch and watch as lightning bolts hit telephone poles and a trailer park that was in our view. Finally the Security Guards come back around by one of the windows, one of them even had their badge over their eye as a gag. One of the guys that was cocky in the group of Bystanders jumped up and decided to leave the office and help fight, so I followed him to the door to shut the door and lock it back up because at this point I was thinking the Security Guards were bad guys now. When I tried to lock the door, I realized I had gloves on. For some reason the gloves were making it hard for me to lock the door. Then a man in a ski mask comes running at me from outside with pruning shears. He starts opening and shutting them, getting closer and closer to my throat. I woke up before he got to me.


Aliens

• To see aliens in your dream, signify that you are having difficulties adapting and adjusting to your new surroundings. You are feeling "alienated" and disconnected. You may also be having difficulties with how to handle or deal with a certain situation or person. On a psychological level, seeing aliens represent an encounter with an unfamiliar or neglected aspect of your own self.

Shelter

• To see or dream that you are at a shelter, represents the difficulties and sense of helplessness that you are experiencing. You are looking for some sort of security and stability.

Lightning

• To see lightning in your dream, signifies sudden awareness, insight, spiritual revelation, truth and purification.

3/3/08 - Electrocution.

I could have sworn I wrote down my dream on 7/10/10, but I can't find any writings about it. So I'll go through one of my journals again.. Here's one from March 3, 2008. Here's the entry:


"... But anyways, two consecutive nights before that one, I had these strange dreams. We'll start with the first night. I remember being at the pond on the property I grew up on, and getting into this tiny submarine. The submarine was filled with water, though I wasn't having problems breathing underwater or anything. Then I knew I had to do this, but was also thinking "no freaking way" in my head, but I started testing these electrical currents by hitting buttons on the 'dashboard'. These currents kept zapping me in the chest like those defibrillator paddles do when being resuscitated. I woke up after about three shocks. The second night, I had a dream inside of another dream. First, I remember being in this beaten down wooden house. Rain was coming in through the practically bare roof. Then I got hit by lightning. Then I woke up (still dreaming) and our dog Tuffy was with me and it was still raining. I decided to take Tuffy for a walk and we walked outside of this building that was missing a wall. There was this small but steep hill (like a ditch) after the opening, and Tuffy and I tumbled into an electric fence! Gah! I keep getting electrocuted in my dreams. It didn't happen last night though, thankfully."

During this entry, I was having constant panic attacks, and it was always effecting my heart. I'm guessing I was having a panic attack while sleeping or something, that's all I can think of that could make those dreams happen. I didn't mention it in the journal, but I remember how much my chest ached after waking up from the first dream.. I swore I could almost feel the electricity running through, even..






Rain

• To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace. Falling rain is also a metaphor for tears, crying and sadness. Alternatively, rain symbolizes fertility and renewal. If you get wet from the rain, then it indicates cleaning from your troubles and problems.

Roof

• To dream that the roof is leaking, represents distractions, annoyances, and unwanted influences in your life. New information is slowly revealing itself to you. Something is finally getting through to you. Alternatively, the dream means that someone is imposing and intruding their thoughts and opinions on you.

Walls

• To dream that a house has no walls, represents a lack of privacy. You feel that everyone is looking over your shoulder or up in your business.

Electrocution

• To dream of an electrocution, indicates that the current course of your actions will lead to disaster. The dream also represents fear and the consequences of your actions. You need to be more aware of your surroundings and those around you.

Submarine

• To see a submarine in your dream, indicates that you are cautiously exploring your emotions and unconscious feelings. You are guarded about certain emotional issues. Alternatively, the submarine indicates that you need to adapt a different perspective and new understanding of an issue. The submarine is a metaphor that you need to get down to the core of some situation or problem.