Fake Sister

Dreamt that I was hanging out with an ex-friend from high school. We were at Goodwill and the place was a mess, so I offered to help pick up all the clothes on the floor. When I finished, one of the workers came over and told me that I probably wouldn't get rewarded or anything for it because Goodwill is ungrateful and stupid. Eden (the ex-friend) and I meet up and she gets a phone call from her mother's friend and tells me that he's a creep and she hands me the phone to listen in, but I hang up a few minutes later completely disgusted. Then my dad walks over with this little girl I've never seen before and he tells me that she's my "little sister" and I get confused because I know I only have two older siblings and my sister looks nothing like her.

Then somehow I am on my parents' property and I'm still living with my family (my parents weren't divorced). My mom made dinner and was outside with everyone, so I snuck in to see what she made. After looking at all the food on the table, I noticed that I accidentally left the door open and let in a whole bunch of cats. I grabbed them individually (there had to be maybe ten or so) and threw them outside. I was pretty rough throwing them out for some reason, maybe out of embarrassment for letting them in. Anyways, once they are all thrown out, I realize it's raining and cold out. Then I hear mewing. It's a baby cat that I threw out. I felt awful throwing out such a little thing, so I rush over to pick him up but I notice he's a full-size cat and his legs are broken and bleeding from when I threw him. I feel so awful when I see he's broken in places. I can even see bones protruding out and I feel like the most horrible person that ever existed.

Don't Fear The Reaper.

Dreamt I was on my parents' property just near the outskirts, close to the neighbor's cranberry marsh. My sister and I were being chased by this angry bear and we were running towards this truck. I see an asian woman on the other side of the truck and I yell to her about the bear. I see that her truck is smashed in through the windshield, so my sister and I crawl in that way and the asian woman follows. She takes her time getting around the car and as I try to pull her in through the windshield and the bear is getting closer, I appear next to my parents' house, so I don't know what happened to her. There was a guy that was standing near me and and he told me that Death has been watching me and following me. I kind of freaked out and ran into the house, thinking I was going to die or something. Then I freaked out even more when this other guy flew into the house. He had these black wings with purple smoke emitting off the wings and he was wearing all black.. I was terrified. I thought he was going to kill me and I asked him if I was going to die. He said, "Not if you'll let me help you." Then he pointed to my stomach and told me that a while ago I had a baby but lost it and that he needed to get rid of it because it was still inside of me and killing me. He took out this sack of seashells and put them in his hand. He told me to take it and it'll help with the pain. I asked him if I had to take one or the whole handful, and he laughed and told me to just take one. So I ate it and he laid me down on the floor and cut me open and pulled out my stomach and produced these tiny things that looked like Jelly Bellies. When I saw the jelly bellies I knew there was always something wrong with my digestion, and seeing this confirmed it. Then my sister Sarah came in and I told her what was going on and I showed her the incision, though I wasn't looking, and she freaked out and told me I was losing a lot of blood. Then all I see is her in the room, narrating the whole thing and showing pictures of our childhood and how much of a good sister I was to her. As if I died.

The Radio Announcement.

Dreamt I was with family and that my cousin Mel was telling us that her two birds died. Then my mom told my sister and I that she was getting married to this guy she has been seeing. We're happy for her, although at first my sister wasn't. Then I'm this actress that hasn't acted in awhile. I look a bit like Kate Hudson in my dream, so maybe I was supposed to be her. Anyways, I am on the roof of my dad's chicken coop (when I was younger my sister and I would climb a ladder and sit up there and watch my dad and his friends party down the hill by our pond, so maybe I was visiting my home and trying to do the things I once did). I jumped off the roof and landed perfectly fine. Then I started walking up to the house and could hear the radio playing. I heard an announcer say, "Alyssa Oppelt's father passed away last month and.." I didn't hear the rest. I wasn't surprised when I heard the news, so I guess I knew about this. Anyways, I was in a somber mood and walked around towards the front yard and stopped by my mom's old green car she used to drive. It was open and that was where the radio came from. I turned the radio off and noticed an old necklace I wore when I was younger (in the dream. Not in real life..), so I picked it up. One of our bedroom windows was open, so I looked for a skeleton key to open the house door with, but couldn't find one. I kept walking to the front yard and saw my mom and sister cleaning up the yard.

Miss You Terribly.

Dreamt people were dying. I was outside by my parents' garage with Devin. He turns to me and tells me he thinks he's dying, too. He slowly falls to the ground and lays down. I lay next to him. We're right in front of the garage door and I hold his hands and watch him as he slowly dies. I tell him that I only ever loved him and maybe one other (WHY I mentioned another, I don't know. I guess I'm a bitch in my dreams..), and that I'll miss him terribly.

Then I'm in my parents' kitchen. It seems like a few hours had passed, although it feels like Devin's funeral is taking place or something. I'm with a few people talking and we're all in somber moods. I look out the kitchen window and see the garage. I look at where Devin was and there was nothing there except a bunch of hats. I think to myself that I really need to go outside and try to find out what hat Devin wore, because I want to keep it for myself. As a memory of him.

I also had a small dream in which I was at Wal-Mart and I passed this heavy, bulky thing with a balloon tied to it and I accidentally bumped into the thing. Instead of the thing falling over, it started floating up. I quickly grabbed it and tried to find ways to keep it from floating without getting anyone's attention.

This Must Be Hell For Us.

Okay, forgive me in advance. I'm really, really messed up in the head.

Dreamt I was going through boxes and boxes of movies in this store.

Then I dreamt my sister was going into the military.

Then I dreamt I was supposed to be in this wedding, but I was in my uncle Walt's bedroom and everyone in the wedding party was getting presents. My uncle Thane gave us all the presents. I ended up getting this chocolate fingernail polish and someone else in the party got this candle that looked like a caramel cake. I was sooo hungry after she opened that present.

Okay, here's where it gets messed up. I was in this old-time coffin (the wooden, funny-shaped kind) and I was floating down this really cold water in this tunnel. My aunt and a bunch of others were also floating down in these coffins. At some point we hit an end of this river and instead of shore or grass or what-have-you, it was broken up concrete. We ended up in this huge parking lot that must have blown up or something, because cars were ruined and charred and the concrete was in pieces. We wandered around, looking at the disaster. We didn't know exactly where we were or what happened, but there were a lot of bodies on the ground split open with maggots crawling around inside. It was disgusting. Someone tells us that maybe we were cursed for not having handkerchiefs in our coffins with us, because this is some superstition that is taken seriously in my dream. Then my aunt tells me that she remembered my aunt Heather wanting to be cremated and that she can't even imagine what she's going through. Then she says, "This must be Hell for us."

Walt's In The Hospital.

Dreamt that my great-uncle Walt was still alive and sick in the hospital. Sarah, Erin, Dad and Mom and I were all walking up to the building to go see him and we met up with my ex, Caleb, and my cousin Garrett waiting in the hallway. Everyone was in a sad mood, similar to when you usually have a gathering in a hospital for a person dying. Some were crying, others were looking at the floor trying not to. I peek out the window before we walk up to the hospital room and I noticed my dog Moses wandering off outside of the car. My aunt tells me she has to leave somewhere right now, so I grabbed my dog and hid him under my coat so that no doctors would be able to see him when I snuck him up with me to visit Walt, but when I got into the hallway, my mom's friend told me that I could just bring Moses in without having to hide him. Then Devin shows up and he tells me his job is giving him less hours, and I realize I have to work soon. Then I woke up.

The Mario Dream.

This dream was a lot like Mario in a way. I haven't played Mario in ages, so I have no clue why I dreamt this. I'm holding onto this vine that is hanging from the heavens and sliding back down to Earth. There are even coins connected to the vines. (No joke.) I am a guy in this dream, too. When I reach the ground, a woman comes up to me and tells me that she's my mom. I tell her that she can't possibly be my mother, that I already have one. Somehow she gets killed by some evil guy, so I bury her in this shallow, flooded grave. I start climbing back up the vine with coins to reach the heavens (I guess I was killed as well), but I get scared of the heights I am at and I start sliding back down. Suddenly my dream plays-over the beginning of the dream and when the woman comes up to me to tell me she's my mom, I believe her this time.

The Poor Little Ham.

Before bed, I had hot chocolate and two chocolatey cookies for a midnight snack. Perhaps chocolate induces some form of torture in dreams..

Dreamt I was in a car with Devin and his family. We were swerving around curves, etc, in farmland areas. I noticed this small, burgundy shed following us, going across the road and down the hill that was beside the road. At first I thought the shed was on wheels or something, but began to notice a rope tied around it. When the terrain got too rough, I noticed the shed was breaking in places. Then I heard a squeal coming from the shed, though it almost sounded more like a baby screaming. I noticed that the rope that was attached to the shed was coming from this slaughterhouse. I started freaking out. I looked at the shed that was falling apart in places and by now the roof was off. Inside the shed was this huge cooked ham in this roasting pot. (I don't know why this "pig that was squealing" was a cooked ham, but that's what I saw.) Anyways, the shed reached inside the slaughterhouse and I could hear the sound of blades sawing into the poor.. ham. I started bawling in the car and Devin's sister tried to cheer me up and pat me on the back. Woke up to hearing Devin watching some movie where a woman was screaming maniacally.

Wet... Kitten.

Wrote this down in my journal:

"Thought Trapper was still alive. Looked in box, felt something wet and heavy. Something with a kitten. Also at end I was trying to watch a trailer on comp."

10/3/10 - Floating In The Sea.

I'm with a bunch of women (two of them being my mom and aunt), scared out of our minds, trying to float in the sea. It's super windy out. It's slightly dark out, but I can see clouds billowing from the sky all the way until it is touching the sea. A blue 1950s car is floating in the sea and we are afraid it will come near us and push us under. It gets near us and starts sloshing water around. My aunt hits her head and my mom does the same. I try to keep them afloat but they're too heavy. I lose them. Only three other women are with me, and we eventually appear out of the sea and are walking down this driveway. It's still really cloudy out. I'm trying to find my mom amongst all the women. Some of us were wearing these black and red abaya/hijab attire. Some women were wearing this red plaid with gold flecks in the pattern. I find on the ground this red plaid shirt my mom often wears. It's wet, muddy. I pick it up and put it around me. I see someone and I tell them that their mom didn't make it. (Supposedly the mother must have drowned as well). I look ahead and see my mom and aunt walking towards me coming from the other side of the driveway. I'm happy they're alive.

Before I woke up, I dreamt Devin wanted to buy something in South Dakota. I decide to get online and check google maps, because I want to see Mt. Rushmore. For some reason, I put South Dakota as the first destination and Mt. Rushmore as the second destination. Google couldn't find Mt. Rushmore. I eventually gave up after awhile.

8/26/10 -Whispers.

I didn't write down a dream this morning. I did write down something that happened the night before, while going to bed. I was just in the hypnagogic state, and I heard very clearly my Aunt Erin's voice telling me in a whisper: "Al, it's almost 1 o'clock already."

That day I was in pretty good spirits, but towards night I started to get upset again about losing my cat. When I get depressed I usually hear voices before I fall asleep or something similar, so this might be why.

Anyways, I started to scribble this down on my notebook to remember for tomorrow and out of curiosity's sake, I checked the clock. It was a few minutes after 1 AM.

Whispering

• To dream that someone is whispering in your ear, suggests that you need to pay closer attention to something or listen to someone more carefully.

Time

• To dream about time, indicates your fears of not being able to cope with the pressures and stresses of everyday life.

2/27/10 - I Talked To Walt.

Could have sworn I wrote this day down, but I can't seem to find the evidence for that, so I'm going to have to find an old entry for today. Found this on the message board I go onto, in a Dream thread:



Posted 27 February 2010 - 03:06 PM


I'm barely awake right now, but i want to remember:


Everything is black and white in this part. Bright. I'm in this huge apartment in a big city, with wooden floors. I grab a Tegan & Sara CD and blast Back In Your Head and start dancing all giddily for some reason. The weather outside the big window of the room I was in (which looks like a living room/dining room/kitchen, if i remember right) is heavily-clouded and down-pouring.. I'm wishing I had a camera with how beautiful it looked outside, and for some reason I wanted to take the picture doing a Grand Jeté in front of the window (I had to google this, but it's the jump, doing a front split, in midair.). I did the Grand Jeté anyways, a few times. I guess it was dark-lit at the time and I thought it'd make a beautiful picture against the bright, paris-esque rainy weather outside. I felt a little lonely, though, so although I was giddy, I did want company.

Dreaming in color now: Now, I'm in my house, and there are boxes about the place on the floor. I call my mom and tell her that since she's coming over, if maybe she could help pack a few things in her car to be dropped at this house my boyfriend and I are moving into. Then I'm in this different house, in the town my parents live in. For some reason, I think that I've lived a long time in one of the other houses my boyfriend and I looked at that we were thinking of buying at the time (in real life), and that we only lived in our current (real) home for a short while... Anyways, I remember my boyfriend's family are looking at the new house, and I'm standing at the window waiting for my parents to come visit and see the new place. I remember the outside of the house we bought was bright, but darker, red. If that makes sense. Think of a cabin-red exterior.. Anyways, my mom gets there with my aunt, and I begin to worry about my dad. It's weird, too. For two reasons. One: I know kind of where we were located in town, in real life, because I remember thinking about how we were close to the Veteran's Administration Hospital. And two: It felt eerie, like I was copying real life with this next part. I was watching for my dad's car to pull up and I kept hearing sirens for an ambulance go off, and I was worried he might have had an accident (because I did this in real life a lot when I was little, stare out the window waiting for my dad to come home, worried he was in a car accident). Finally he pulled up in this blue geo metro, which is the car he had driven when I was little. He pulled into the garage. Then I turned back to the house and it changed a bit in structure. I was in this room, and I saw my boyfriend and his father head down a hall and out the front door straight ahead. I could see my boyfriend's mom and her family at a table, down the hall and a little out of sight behind the wall. She's telling everyone that my boyfriend and his dad always does this, leaving to do something in the garage before dinner, so we may as well eat without them. The room I was in had two tables. One had my grandpa, and he set his plate down and then sat down slowly to eat. I looked over at the other table and my great-uncle Walt, whom died in real life when I was seventeen, was sitting next to a woman, talking. I kind of choked up a bit, because I knew he died. He said something to the woman, and even though I knew he was talking to her, I asked him what he said and sat down next to him. If you have ever seen the movie Drop Dead Fred, you'll know the exact reaction I had when I asked him to repeat what he said. The last scene, when Phoebe Cates asks the little girl what name she spoke, and then told the girl she believed her, that is exactly the same reaction I gave. This woman he was talking to looked over at me, smiling all knowingly and not caring that I interrupted her conversation with him. He said something completely different to me than what he said before, and this time it was something directed towards me.. I don't remember what it was, but it was about the food I think. Maybe he asked me if I liked the food or something. Anyways, I started to tear up a bit, and I told him I really missed him and that I hadn't seen him in forever. I gave him a great big hug, and he hugged me back. Then he started to half-disappear, and I started to half-wake (not really waking in real life). I remember the hug lasted longer then when he disappeared, I was left waking up in this car, dry-heaving and tearing up again, hugging at my chest like I didn't even want to let go of the air. I looked around and realized I was parked in this parking lot, in the passenger seat, in this bigger city half an hour from of my own town. I also remember there were these little Gary Oldman pictures in the dashboard. Don't ask me why those were there.




Black And White

• To dream in black and white, suggests that you need to be more objective in formulating your decisions. You may be a little too unyielding in your thought process and thus need to find some sort of balance between two opposing views. Consider the views and opinions of others. Alternatively, black and white dreams is a sign of depression or sadness. You may feel that there is not enough excitement in your life.

• Ballet

• To see or wear ballet slippers in your dream, represents your understanding of the principles of balance and grace. You carry yourself with much poise and get along well with others.

Moving

• To dream that you are moving away, signifies your desire or need for change. It may also mean an end to a situation or relationship; you are moving on. Alternatively, it indicates your determination and issues regarding dependence/independence.

Nervous

• To dream that you are nervous about something, indicates that you are experiencing self-doubt and feelings of insecurity.

• Father

• To see your father in your dream, symbolizes authority and protection. It suggests that you need to be more self-reliant. Consider also your waking relationship with your father and how aspects of his character may be incorporated within yourself.

Bereavement

• To dream that you are in bereavement, suggests that you are repressing your grief. Perhaps something is bothering you more than you realize. You need to express your sadness and not keep it inside. For those that are experiencing bereavement in real life, such dreams are a way of coping with what has happened.

Dead

• To see the dead in your dream, forewarns that you are being influenced by negative people and are hanging around the wrong crowd. This dream may also be a way for you to resolve your feelings with those who have passed on. Alternatively, the dream symbolizes material loss. If you dream of a person who has died a long time ago, then it suggests that a current situation or relationship in your life resembles the quality of that deceased person. The dream may depict how you need to let this situation or relationship die and end it.

• Hugging

• To dream that you are hugging someone, symbolizes your loving and caring nature. You are holding someone or something close to your heart. Alternatively, it may indicate your need to be more affectionate.

• Disappear

• To dream that people or objects are disappearing right before your eyes, signify your anxieties and insecurities over the notion that loved ones might disappear out of your life. You feel that you cannot depend on anyone and that you will end up alone. You need to work on your self-image and self-esteem.

7/7/10 - I Blame Anna For The Green Day Appearance.

In my dream last night, I dreamt that I woke up and had to grab all my belongings that I had on me at the time. It wasn't much, I must have been staying over at someone else's house. I had my purse, my blanket, my cd player, my books, cds and movies. Devin and his sister Cherish were there, and we all had to pack our things into her car and drive off somewhere. When we got out onto the road, I noticed we were driving from the town I grew up in, Warrens, and was headed down towards where my old house is. We passed houses and pretty soon the houses started to look like they were falling apart. Some houses looked like a dinosaur had eaten the second story right off. Some looked like they had burned up and were scorched. I asked the two why the houses looked the way they did and one of them said, "Didn't you hear? A tornado came through and destroyed everything!" I started bawling and at the time in my dream I must have thought that my parents and my sister were living in the old house, because I was worried something happened to them. I asked if we could check on the house and they said it was fine, so we kept driving down the road. At about half a mile away, the road started to get flooded out, so I jumped out of the car and ran for the house, but with all the houses being unrecognizable, I couldn't tell where I was. I got to this farm house and was confused, and thought that that was the house I had lived in.. We climbed into the muddy house and it turned into this big, dirty, run-down building. Cherish disappeared, and my sister took her place in the dream, and then the band Green Day showed up and they were all helping me find my old house, too. At one point, we were in this tunnel and found this manhole on the ground and we were thinking about going down the steps and trying to find the house down there, but one of the guys from Green Day decided to turn a valve on the wall, and water started issuing forth and down below into the manhole. I cried, thinking my parents were down there and getting drowned. Someone yelled that the building was going to blow up, so I went back to the lobby of the building and all my belongings that I had grabbed in the beginning were sitting on this table, so I picked up as much as I could and carried it out the building. I went back in and Sarah was there trying to grab her own things, and handed me this red bra that was wrapped up in a headphone cord. She told me she wanted to keep them, but couldn't carry that and everything else she was trying to hold on to. So I grabbed them, threw them in my purse, and all these things that reminded me of mom and dad fell out. (For mom, they were movies (one being Zodiac that I know she likes so much; and for dad I had crossword puzzles that he (in real life) tears out of the newspapers he buys so that I have something to do at home) I knew I had to keep those things, so I took forever trying to fit everything back into my purse. Finally, after getting everything right as fast as I possibly could, Sarah and I booked it out the building, but before I even got to the doors, I woke up.

For anyone who might be wondering why Green Day made an appearance in my dream, I blame Anna. She was talking about them (very briefly) at one point the night before.




Flood

• To dream that you are in a flood, represents your need to release some sexual desires. If the flood is raging, then it represents emotional issues and tensions. Your repressed emotions are overwhelming you. Consider where the flood is for clues as to where in your waking life is causing you stress and tension. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are overwhelming others with your demands and strong opinion. Still another interpretation could be your desire to wipe everything clean and make a fresh new start.

House

• To see an old, run-down house in your dream, represents your old beliefs, attitudes and how you used to think or feel. A situation in your current life may be bringing about those same old attitudes and feelings. Alternatively, the old house may symbolize your need to update you mode of thinking. To dream that your house is damaged, indicates your waking concerns about the condition of your house.
  

Possessions

• To see your possessions in your dream, symbolize your identity or self-worth. Consider the significance of each item for additional clues to the meaning of your dream. Metaphorically, the dream may mean that you are being "possessive". You need to learn to let go.