Lots Of Tongue

Okay, I might have been going through major sleep paralysis in the first bit of my dream. I know it was lightning and down-pouring, I remember looking out the window. (In my waking life, it was actually storming that night, so maybe it was projecting into my dreams..) I was in the process of awakening, but couldn't move. I remember trying to yell to Devin, who was beside me in bed, "Wake me up! Wake me up!" I felt like I couldn't do it myself, and I could only whisper through my lips. I could hear myself, in my dream, yelling, and myself, outside of my dream, whispering. It was eerie. Finally Devin rolls over, tells me I'm fine, and goes back to bed. Eventually I finally awake completely, but right beforehand I felt someone touch my left hand. I was freaking out thinking a ghost tapped my hand. I couldn't sleep for awhile after that, so I wrote down what happened.

Finally I went back to sleep, and I dreamt that I was visiting my dad and he told me he read my dream blog, about some dream where I was kissing a Quin Twin with "lots of tongue". I was blushing in my dream, embarrassed that he read my blog, but in my waking life I have seriously never dreamt about kissing either twin with 'lots of tongue', or any tongue for that matter - god dammit. :( That was a weird dream, too. The next part I wrote down I don't remember the details, just that my dad's workplace was making a documentary. Then I'm walking to my childhood home. I get to the back porch, and enter the utility room. There are dog beds in the closet area of the utility room, and my dog Bear and Ziggy are there, along with two dogs, Wyatt and Tuffy, whom have passed away in my waking life. I remember my dog Bear kept wanting to bite Tuffy. Tuffy was a fat dachshund, so he was a small little guy compared to Bear's St. Bernard/Lab mix. I was really scared Bear would tear Tuffy to shreds, so I kept forcing myself between them to protect Tuffy. At some point, Bear quit bothering him, so I walked to the living room and looked out the door. It was raining really hard and then these fish the size of big northerns started falling to the ground along with the rain. I got scared and backed away from the door. Then I went back to the utility room and instead of the dogs there, my boyfriend's sister Cherish and her boyfriend Monte were there sitting on a couch (in the utility room, I don't know why). I decided to call Devin, my boyfriend, to see where he was and I heard a little kid's voice in the background. I joked about hearing a kid and tease him about cheating on me and having a family started with some other woman. He got quiet and really defensive then. I bawled, realizing it was true. Cherish gets mad at Devin for what he did, but I leave the house and hang up on him. I decided to walk into the woods, towards the road. I call my aunt Erin and tell her what happened. Then I hang up again and walk some more in the woods. I meet up with Sara Quin and strangely we seem to be in a relationship or something. It doesn't last for long, though. First, Devin's cousin Trevor starts chasing us in the woods. Then, I project out of my body and some woman is taking the place as Sara's girlfriend/the one getting chased. I'm just a third wheel trying to help them get to safety. Eventually we get to the road. It's autumn, cold, rainy. Leaves are falling from the painted-orange trees. A car pulls up and I look over at the other two and think "We're safe." They have the same look to them. Then a guy gets out and he looks like Taylor Handley (again, I had to look this guy up. I've only seen him in one thing, and it was Dawson's Creek a few years ago. It's strange how the brain stores hidden, insignificant information and visuals.) When I saw him exit the car and tell us to get in, I thought, "Great. Just like in the movies, he's supposed to be my knight in shining armor." I don't know why I thought that, but he smiled arrogantly, so it just got worse from there. The guy chasing us was closing in, and although I was thinking over whether I wanted to deal with this guy or the one chasing me, I eventually got in the car with Sara and her new girlfriend.

At some point in this dream, I actually remembered dreaming about the denim clothes that I wrote in this blog. I think writing these dreams down for so long is starting to make the memory of my waking life better.

Sweet Little Kitten.

I don't remember the first part of this dream, really. I think maybe I was at a campsite or something. All I remember is two girls in their teens, one pretty auburn-haired girl and the other a pretty raven-haired girl were there. They noticed a theater with a marquee reading that The Eagles were supposed to play there, so their curiosity got the best of them and they crossed the busy street to scope it out. When they walked in it wasn't a theater at all but a club instead. The color scheme looked very 70s, kind of like this. There was an orange jukebox and (a young) Paul McCartney was poking his head from behind it. The girls kept walking until they got to the back of the club. Instead of it being The Eagles, The Monkees were there. Davy Jones walked up to them and asked them if either one would be his date for the evening. Somehow the setting changed to outside a house at night. The auburn-haired girl looked at the darker-haired one and said she wouldn't mind letting her friend go with him. I felt bad for the redhead, she was just as pretty as the other girl. Anyways, the brunette smiled shyly and the redhead walked off. Soon enough I either became the redhead, or my dream switched from third person-view to one and I became myself. I walked to the house next door and it was my old childhood home. It was dark out, though I had a flashlight and my sister's dog with me. The lights in the house were dim and I looked to where my aunt and uncle lived and wondered if the lights would be brighter over there. I hated the dark, it was scary. I walked over and the sun seemed to rise really fast. Walking over there it was already a bit brighter out, like really early morning. Walking over there I saw my old cat Bonkers, so I moved my flashlight in his direction and he went crazy. He was starving. He rushed over and as I bent down to pet him, he bit me on my hand. (I had a dream recently that a salamander bit and latched onto my hand, in this exact same spot (near that little bit of webbing between the thumb and index finger)). In my dream, I thought, "Oh my god, oh my god. I just had a dream about this and now it's coming true!" I eventually got him off of me and I noticed my hand was mangled. It was bleeding, so I squeezed my hand with the other to keep it from bleeding any more. I keep walking to my aunt's house, hoping I can find food for this cat. By the time we get there, the cat has transformed into a kitten. I notice three packages of sausage (with one clawed open by cats but uneaten), so I tear it further and find a knife on the ground. I put the sausage on my aunt's deck and start slicing the sausage up for the kitten. On the third slice, the kitten moves closer (he's too impatient) and I accidentally cut his paw off. I freak out. I notice the cat doesn't bleed and figure it was because he was starving to death. The kitten starts to slouch further and further, as if he is dying.. I woke up feeling horrible for the kitten.




On a sidenote, hot damn. The song Sweet Little Kitten by Husky Rescue reminds me of this dream.

8/11/10 - Sleep Paralysis To The Max.

Okay, I might have been going through major sleep paralysis in the first bit of my dream. I know it was lightning and down-pouring, I remember looking out the window. (In my waking life, it was actually storming that night, so maybe it was projecting into my dreams..) I was in the process of awakening, but couldn't move. I remember trying to yell to Devin, who was beside me in bed, "Wake me up! Wake me up!" I felt like I couldn't do it myself, and I could only whisper through my lips. I could hear myself, in my dream, yelling, and myself, outside of my dream, whispering. It was eerie. Finally Devin rolls over, tells me I'm fine, and goes back to bed. Eventually I finally awake completely, but right beforehand I felt someone touch my left hand. I was freaking out thinking a ghost tapped my hand. I couldn't sleep for awhile after that, so I wrote down what happened.

Finally I went back to sleep, and I dreamt that I was visiting my dad and he told me he read my dream blog about some dream where I was kissing a Quin Twin--Tegan, to be exact--with "lots of tongue". I was blushing in my dream, embarrassed that he read my blog--and used the phrase 'lots of tongue'--but in my waking life I have seriously never dreamt about kissing either twin with 'lots of tongue', or any tongue for that matter - god dammit. :( That was a weird dream, too. The next part I wrote down I don't remember the details, just that my dad's workplace was making a documentary. Then I'm walking to my childhood home. I get to the back porch, and enter the utility room. There are dog beds in the closet area of the utility room, and my dog Bear and Ziggy are there, along with two dogs, Wyatt and Tuffy, whom have passed away in my waking life. I remember my dog Bear kept wanting to bite Tuffy. Tuffy was a fat dachshund, so he was a small little guy compared to Bear's St. Bernard/Lab mix. I was really scared Bear would tear Tuffy to shreds, so I kept forcing myself between them to protect Tuffy. At some point, Bear quit bothering him, so I walked to the living room and looked out the door. It was raining really hard and then these fish the size of big northerns started falling to the ground along with the rain. I got scared and backed away from the door. Then I went back to the utility room and instead of the dogs there, my boyfriend's sister Cherish and her boyfriend Monte were there sitting on a couch (in the utility room, I don't know why). I decide to call Devin, my boyfriend, to see where he was and I heard a little kid's voice in the background. I joke about hearing a kid and tease him about cheating on me and having a family started with some other woman. He gets quiet and really defensive then. I bawled, realizing it was true. Cherish gets mad at Devin for what he did, but I leave the house and hang up on him. I decided to walk into the woods, towards the road. I call my aunt Erin and tell her what happened. Then I hang up again and walk some more in the woods. I meet up with Sara Quin and strangely we seem to be in a relationship or something. It doesn't last for long, though. First, Devin's cousin Trevor starts chasing us in the woods. Then, I project out of my body and some woman is taking the place as Sara's girlfriend/the one getting chased. I'm just a third wheel trying to help them get to safety. Eventually we get to the road. It's autumn, cold, rainy. Leaves are falling from the painted-orange trees. A car pulls up and I look over at the other two and think "We're safe." They have the same look to them. Then a guy gets out and he looks like Taylor Handley (again, I had to look this guy up. I've only seen him in one thing, and it was Dawson's Creek a few years ago. It's strange how the brain stores hidden, insignificant information and visuals.) When I saw him exit the car and tell us to get in, I thought, "Great. Just like in the movies, he's supposed to be my knight in shining armor. There's no way I'm going to be his love interest in this dream" I don't know why I thought that, but he smiled arrogantly, so it just got worse from there. The guy chasing us was closing in, and although I was thinking over whether I wanted to deal with this guy or the one chasing me, I eventually got in the car with Sara and her new girlfriend.

At some point in this dream, I actually remembered dreaming about the denim clothes that I wrote in this blog. I think writing these dreams down for so long is starting to make the memory of my waking life better.




Yelling

• To dream that you or someone is yelling, represents repressed anger that needs to be expressed. If you are yelling and no one hears, then it suggests that you are being overlooked in some waking situation. You feel that your voice does not matter or that your opinion does not count.

Dog

• To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. The dream dog may also represent someone in your life who exhibits these qualities. Alternatively, to see a dog in your dream, indicates a skill that you may have ignored or forgotten. If the dog is vicious and/or growling, then it indicates some inner conflict within yourself. It may also indicate betrayal and untrustworthiness.

Rain

• To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace. Falling rain is also a metaphor for tears, crying and sadness. Alternatively, rain symbolizes fertility and renewal. If you get wet from the rain, then it indicates cleaning from your troubles and problems.

• Fish

• To see fish swimming in your dream, signifies insights from your unconscious mind. Thus to catch a fish, represents insights which have been brought to the surface. Alternatively, a fish swimming in your dream may symbolize conception. Some women dream of swimming fish when they get pregnant. To see a dead fish, signifies disappointment and loss of power/wealth.

Infidelity

• To dream of infidelity (either by you or someone else), represents issues of abandonment and neglect in a relationship. Or you are feeling emotionally confined and need an outlet for your feelings. Alternatively, a dream of infidelity indicates that you are feeling unsatisfied with your current relationship. You are harboring guilt over a sexual relationship or you are looking for a more erotic sex life.

Astral Projection

• To dream of astral projection, suggests that you are looking at things from a whole new perspective. You may be feeling liberated and free. Alternatively, it indicates that you are physically or emotionally disconnected from those around you.

Chase

• To dream that you are being chased, signifies that you are avoiding a situation that you do not think is conquerable. It is a metaphor for some form of insecurity. In particular, to dream that you are chased by an animal, represents your own unexpressed and unacknowledged anger which is being projected onto that animal. Alternatively, you may be running away from a primal urge or fear.

Day after Easter 2010 - Playing Tag with Tegan and Sara Fans.

Forgot my dream from yesterday, here's my make-up:


"Dreamt I was dating a musician. Ahem a singing twin ahem. I was in this auditorium, waiting for said twins to play, or maybe just goofing off after the show? Anyways, the seats were empty and it was fairly dark. I was playing tag with a bunch of others.. We were jumping over seats, in aisles.. Neither twin was there, but I remember someone telling me I was dating one of them, or maybe I just knew it in my dream. I do remember her being in a part before it, but I have no recollection of what happened."

Date

• To dream that you are on a date, represents your need for self-discovery and self-awareness. You are getting to know some hidden aspects of yourself and acknowledging your hidden talents. Alternatively, it may reflect your anxieties about dating or finding acceptance. The dream may also be a "rehearsal" for an actual date you have. It serves to overcome anxieties you may have.

• Celebrity

• To see a celebrity in your dream, represents your beliefs and understanding about him or her. Consider what the celebrity is famous or known for and how you relate to that quality. Something in you waking life has triggered these similar beliefs and feelings. It is not uncommon that your obsession with a certain celebrity may carry over onto your dream world. Celebrities are often seen as heroes and all that is mighty. Also consider any puns within the name.

Auditorium

• To dream that you are in an auditorium, indicates that there is something that you need to learn from others. Pay attention to those around you.

Tag

• To dream that you are playing tag, represents your level of determination and agility toward achieving your goals. If you are the one being chased, then the dream means that you are trying to dodge some responsibility. If you are the one who is doing the chasing, then it signifies your instincts and your determination to go after what you want. The dream may be telling you that "you're it!" You are the chosen one or the one that is chosen for the job.

7/24/10 - Making All Kinds Of Nonsense.

Well, it's late and I forgot to write this one down. Anyways, I was half asleep and scribbled this this morning, so don't ask what I meant.




"Bodyguard for something. Using jeep (? jun? jen?) as a different car {? us?). Mopping floor. Messy house. Devin buys clamps for car part. Dating some girl. School. Sarah at bar. Nachos. In car, cops peeping."



Yeah, I was totes half-asleep.

7/9/10 - Dreamt About An Old Teacher.

Last night I dreamt I was dating one of my high school teachers. Yeah. Not sayin' who.

Anyways, I dreamt I was cleaning my house for this teacher to come over to.




Kind of... awkward. Anyways, I only remember little bits of the dream, and that I was scrubbing this black and white-checkered tile floor. Ha ha. I kind of remember a red convertible in the dream, too.

Date

• To dream that you are on a date, represents your need for self-discovery and self-awareness. You are getting to know some hidden aspects of yourself and acknowledging your hidden talents. Alternatively, it may reflect your anxieties about dating or finding acceptance. The dream may also be a "rehearsal" for an actual date you have. It serves to overcome anxieties you may have.

Teacher

• To see your teacher (past or present) in your dream, suggests that you are seeking some advice, guidance, or knowledge. You are heading into a new path in life and are ready to learn by example or from a past experience. Consider your own personal experiences with that particular teacher. What subject was taught? Alternatively, a teacher relates to issues with authority and seeking approval. You may be going through a situation in your waking life where you feel that you are being treated like a student or in which you feel you are being put to a test.

Mop

• To dream that you are mopping, suggests that you are ready to let go something. It is time to release your emotions and express it in a productive way.