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Showing posts with label Childhood. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Childhood. Show all posts

Wednesday, May 7, 2025

Stalker

Such a weird dream today! Dreamt that there was a killer going after me or my daughter. It was just her and my husband - didn't have the boys. Okay so I remember bits and pieces. Daughter had her teachers, except that one of them came to the house, and it ended up being a childhood friend of mine that teaches in real life. We always had a weird friendship maybe based off jealousy, so there was a bit of tension and we grew apart as we got older in real life. Anyways, she came over. She was teaching my daughter and we knew we needed to leave the house because of this killer. I told them I needed to pack some things. I quickly stopped at a library where I met with my daughter's math teacher and he gave me some homework for her. Then I came back to the house and me, daughter, and childhood friend all were quickly leaving the house and walking out into a busy city but looked like Tomah, near the library. We all walked quickly and tried to act different, happy, to not look like ourselves in case the killer was there watching. Saw another child of mine - another random daughter - and also a random daughter of my childhood friend's. They came over and we all put our arms around each other to look like more people / less like us. Woke up. My husband was in the dream in the beginning and so was childhood friend's husband. Seems like her husband was telling a joke but he was being so so sooo quiet so I had to fake laugh the whole time hoping it sounded like I could hear him and thought the joke was funny. Childhood friend's cousin (another childhood friend) was in a part in the beginning also. We just talked for a split second. 


Before all of this I was at my mom's and I made pistachio fluff but was out of an ingredient, so my mom had to go get something. 

Monday, June 3, 2024

Vampire

Dreamt I was in this mental hospital or something. I was looking under the dirty bed and found a whooole bunch of old pictures stacked to each other in a few piles. Early 90s photos. I started grabbing out as many as I could. Suddenly an invisible person came in. I was terrified. Scared of them. They weren't hurting me, so suddenly it got more romantic/physical and we started kissing. I was able to see what he looked like. More celeb C.S.-like. He was going to help me escape the mental hospital. We were halfway down an elevator when I remembered the photos that I really wanted to keep since I don't have many as a child in real life. He left for a minute to go get them. I can't remember if he did get them or not, but I think I was just home/in a room, safe, with the vampire guy. Having sex on a bed in the dark with a bunch of other people laying on the floor sleeping nearby. That was weird and awkward. 

That's all I remember.

Tuesday, May 7, 2024

Braids

I had dreamt I was braiding a childhood friend's hair. We may have been younger because she looked younger/thinner. 

Monday, March 25, 2024

Aladdin

Miscellaneous stuff here happening and different settings but this is the gist. 

I remember Pauline W or Sheri W or maybe both were in my dream. Maybe hanging out with my look mom? Then husband and I were walking through what looked like cranfest. I see a few dresses of mine hanging up on a rack as I'm walking past and assume my mom took some of my clothes to sell there, so I stop and tell my husband. I think his mom is with us? I have a cart with a child in it and I find a dress I want to wear for a wedding, so I go to check out. I see my cousin Mel is the one selling stuff, so I chat with her a bit as she's ringing up the dress. There's a guy behind me waiting, so I awkwardly try to move my cart and myself out of his way so he can pay... Now the location changed. I'm at my childhood home. Suddenly I'm half naked (I think wearing just underwear and bra?) and my husband and his mom are there. I'm grabbing my dress I bought and quickly walk into the middle bedroom and try to shut the door, but it won't shut right and stays open. Someone is knocking on the house door, so husband and his mom are letting me know someone is here and I'm letting them know what I'm doing and will be out soon. I get the dress on and suddenly stuff changes again.tube  Now I'm in a desert. A Ghost song is playing and I'm wearing this dress and husband is wearing some Aladdin outfit and we're on some camel looking thing, but it's going really fast and even go in the air at some point. Finally we stop and I see the door to the bedroom just sitting in the sand. I can hear husband's mom and the visitor at my childhood home knocking/asking us if we're coming out, so we try to leave and go through the door but the door is suddenly a tight inflatable tube/floatie and my husband gets stuck. I think I was carrying MIL's dog Coal at this point, too.  I might have woken up as we're just about to get him out. Woke up to my heart racing. Been feeling really high anxiety since I woke up previous to this dream to let my dog out. Also in the dream but not sure where in it, I also dreamt I was looking at these homemade soaps in a box, but I wasn't sure who made them when my MIL asked, so I said it's probably either SIL that made them or my friend Heather who bought them from a friend's small business because that's something she'd do. Eventually I figured out it was a mix of both. 

Thursday, February 22, 2024

Christmas Carols

I was adopted by this big religious family. One of the older 'brithers' and I were in love.. we had to hide to meet up and see each other. I dreamt we had to walk around this pond in the snow/ice kind of similar to my dad's property. Same roads etc.. seems like the family was walking around singing Christmas carols/looking for the whole fam in these crowds of people here and there.. I tried hiding out in a restaurant booth.. 

Wednesday, February 14, 2024

Hide and Seek

I was at a party with husband, my dad, my dad's friend Jack, and husband's family (or at least for sure his sister, new boyfriend and ex husband, littlest daughter etc). 

I don't remember much. But it was a party of some sort and I remember singing along to music while doing dishes. Jack comes over for a second I think for a quick small tall bit then I see dad, Jack, husband, and husband's sister all holding bite sized moldy broccoli. I'm confused. Dad tells me that mold is safe to eat because it's just oxygen hitting or something or others and he starts drizzling a little bit of western dressing on his and everyone is doing the same. Dad gives me one and then makes himself one. We're all supposed to down this together like it's a shot. Everyone is eager to try except me. As soon as everyone is distracted by eating it, I quickly give my husband one. 



Hey perfect timing I remember what happened before this and that part of dream is over... Woke up. Before that, we were playing hide and seek. It was a weird mix of inside the house (maybe grandpa's this time?) and the woods on dad's property. Some guy is counting and we're all rushing to hide almost like we'll be killed if found. I'm terrified so I cling to my husband's back of his shirt while he's jumping/flying onto a tree. We get on top of one and husband slides further and falls to ground. The seeker saw us and jumps to me and I just drop down hoping he doesn't notice and see where I land. I land in some clothes and sightly on top of my daughter who's hiding. I just try to discreetly sink further into the clothes and blankets so everything is covered. I think I'm good and he doesn't see me (or my daughter). 

Friday, February 9, 2024

Fire

Dreamt I was living with my parents again in my childhood home. The rooms were all dark. I was walking up to the bathroom when I could smell a smoke smell. I looked everywhere in the house and finally saw flames shooting up from below a window in a bedroom. I yelled to my mom who was half asleep on the couch. To call fire department. Ran outside, and saw that the fire was small enough that I was able to pour rain water out of a bucket and put the fire out. The thing in fire ended up being a bag of bandages and things. I came back in to show mom and remembered she was calling fore department. I told her to cancel and when she told them nevermind, I saw she was getting yelled at or something so I told her to give me the phone and I'd explain. I did and all was okay. 

After that I just remember trying to find my bedroom and seeing car lights outside the window, pulling up in garage. I assumed it was dad, sitting in the car, talking to someone that was dropping him off. I needed to change and was worried the blinds weren't covering enough. Woke up. 

Sunday, February 4, 2024

Dead Horses

Dreamt my daughter had gotten the start of her period. I had to find her a pad. We were at my dad's house, but I think it was my husband's and my house in the dream. Also dreamt that the house was kind of messy - this was just some weird house, nothing I know of. And I was trying to clean up and look for my water bucket for plants. Before this I remember now: my mom stopped by and told me they couldn't take care of their chicken (they don't really have one - they live in town) - Ifirst asked if Dad could watch it since he has some but they didn't listen and just started moving stuff around. Mom carried this huge cage that had two dead horses in it... So weird... I was thinking in my head why do we have to take care of your animal of we can't even remember to take care of our own? Okay so she plops the chicken down next to Dad's door (now my door) and I realize it's winter and this poor chicken will want to stay warm, so I grab these bulky warming lamp that was by the horses, and an even bulkier plug in for it. I try to plug it in but the adapter is soooooo weird and humongous and moves around like fricken transformers. I have to slide it around so it fits right into dad's plug in up above his door. Then I noticed my mom is also dropping off a huge, fancy, probably handmad table and chairs off. She tells me it's "the Allen's" and now that I'm out of my dream I realize that this is their neighbors, but inside the dream I had no idea who or where these Allen's were.. she had to get me to explain all the places/people dad ever took me to in the area and she kept saying no, not there. I dunno. Anyways I had to find a place for a bunch of these things she was getting rid of. End tables (I put the chicken cage on top and sat it next to the door) and a bunch of plants.) THIS is why I was searching for a watering can. I had to place them around the outside of the house so it looked nice. First though to get upstairs from the door I had to maneuver some things about the house around because of where the chicken was, so I moved things around like Legos to fit some stairs into the house. Unfortunately I realized later that I put the dumbest, hardest to crawl through kind of stairs/almost like a ventilation system as soon as you go through the front door, so I had to make note to fix that later. When I get up there to the second floor, my mom, aunt, and sister are up there and they give me a bah of old candy they didn't want anymore. After that, I realize I need the watering can to water the plants they gave me. The house was a mess and there was furniture everywhere. I remembered seeing the watering can under a desk but there are so many desks so I have to go through a bunch to find the right one. I'm kind of in my own house now set up-wise. I ended up finding it, and kind of picking up dishes along the way.. I think I woke up at this point. 


Tuesday, October 31, 2023

Strange, Strange Dream

Dreamt first that I was in the future but possibly a parallel future. I was searching everywhere in a big house that Mom owned, jearching for my old stuffed animal jolly. I kept telling myself he HAS to be in this house. I needed to find him so I could see his face and remember what he looked like so I could recreate him from scratch when I woke up. Heavy heavy dream. I dreamt I was talking not in my dream but my actual body, about trying to find him and explaining that even though I forgot what his face looks like, he would still be like he always was in my dream because our brains never forget... I searched everywhere, and there were so many closets and shelves with doors etc, but I never found him in the dream. 


Then I dreamt of had an evil younger brother or something and I had to hide a knife so he couldn't hurt me. He had a disability so I was able to be kind of sneaky getting rid of the knives. 


Then I dreamt that ... Okay my brain is starting to shake off the etch-a-sketch.. starting to forget. I dreamt that I was watching a movie and it was a documentary about two elderly actresses that were never seen from again and in the documentary it led you to believe that they might have been killed but I was thinking because one of the ladies drank a cocktail before they left for the night that maybe they backed into a boat ramp and died.... Then I dreamt that I was in an older car and we were backing up, getting into water etc, and I just remember laying on my back and kicking the ceiling of the car. It was made out of thick wool. Finally I made a hole and I started tearing everywhere to make the hole big so that hopefully my family would float up. I was running out of air so I decided to bob up to the surface and go back down but just as I hit the surface my dream changed again. 


Okay I was in a room and there was a killer that was living in the house with me and others (maybe this was a whole apartment building?) and I was looking for evidence to get him to prison. I was again searching everywhere for a video, writing, I don't know. Somehow we were getting mail and one of the pieces of mail was this HUGE poster in some strange geometry shape.. like D&D dice shaped, only 2D. I knew the evidence was on it, there were small writings everywhere on it and it looked creepy lol. Only problem was some lady came over and said it was hers. I offered sexual freaking favors just so I could get it back or take a bunch of pictures of it just so I could look at it and find the evidence. I don't know why I didn't tell her what I was doing, but I couldn't for some reason. Anyways she grossly accepted and we're making out and doing stuff, but I wake up and my purse and stuff are gone lol. Same with her poster. I walk into another room and she's in there and I look around behind cabinets and I find my purse and assume the poster is okay too. I'm soooo stupid and offer again. I don't really understand this part but afterwards I am dreaming that the cast of Fresh Prince are 'coming home' to this apartment I live in and I'm trying to hide the evidence that I did sexual favors but I find out there's a video or something and it's in a gift that Uncle Phil is giving to his mom (but he doesn't know it's in there). I'm freaking out... I must be Will at this point. Anyways I wake up before she sees the video. 

Tuesday, September 19, 2023

Garden

Dreamt really random stuff. I was watching a movie and realized half the stars were from the L Word.. then I dreamt I was living in my childhood home and a boy came up and had asked if I had seen a cat and some other animal? I can't remember.. I said no, and he left, and then another kid slightly older shows up and he asks about a different animal and it made me think that his animal and the other kids animals got into a fight. Then I looked behind the kid and my dad's garden was dug up and somehow I assumed that the kid thought he lived on this property and was obviously mistaken. I dunno. Just a really weird dream. Then I was in bed with someone and were cuddling and suddenly he didn't want to be touched at all so I backed away as quickly as I could. Woke up right after. 

Monday, August 14, 2023

Work Boots

Dreamt I was at Grandma's old house (next to childhood home), outside, snow in ground, facing backyard towards neighbor's house. An actor from the 90s was there and apparently worked with dev. Dev at work, and this guy (I get him mixed with Pacey actor, both have same last name I think?) needs work boots so he can start work. We wander over to childhood home (I yell to the kids in Grandma's house that I'll just be over on the other house for a second) and we go through the house. It's a mess. I'm embarrassed going in with a celebrity. We eventually find shoes, and eventually childhood home turns into my current home. 

That's about it. Woke up super super warm because I had turned off the fan and the A/C turned off too. 🥵 Dying..

Friday, July 28, 2023

The Movie

Dreamt I was a kid again and a bunch of people were over. Not sure if party of dads or a family get together but Sarah and I had a homemade video and there was a really embarrassing part at the end, so I kept having to distract people from seeing the end. It was exhausting. I don't know why we didn't just destroy the whole movie - I think we were proud of most of it. But yeah I kept having to turn it off. Eventually at the end people got distracted and I tried to fast forward to the part in question and find a record over button to the part I hated, but realized there wasn't one on the vcr ... Woke up.. soooo tired I can barely keep my eyes open or read what I'm writing. 

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Baby Clothes

Dreamt I was following Dev from one house to another (driving a truck). The location was near Heather's parents' house that was in Shamrock. I remember taking note of that. Suddenly I lose track of which way he went, lots of cars on road. Brakes stop working. I ran into another car and everyone gets out (big pile up, it must not have just been me that had car issues) and we start running the opposite way as if a major disaster is happening up the way I was driving. Somehow I get to my house. I'm in the garage and see some baby clothes on the floor and ask Dev about it. He tells me that the Williams' came by and dropped them off and that the ones I saw fell from the boxes that were outside by the door (don't know how the hell that happened, but okay).. I walk to the outside of the garage and around to the area the boxes are stacked and peek through. Suddenly Chelsey and her brother come over and Chelsey tells me she still needs to go through them, so I let her look through everything. (There was also a bunch of little figurine toys that she mainly went through and kept most.) Woke up half asleep, head hurting.

Sunday, July 19, 2015

Home Alone

Dreamt Dev and I were in some strange place.. I don't remember exactly what it was, but it seems like we were somewhere nostalgic, maybe looking at old things we owned. It was this big rundown building, water dripping everywhere.. I remember watching stuff on a laptop with both Steve Martin and Will Farrell. Suddenly I remembered that Scarlet was still at the house, napping. I knew Mom was there but worried that Scarlet escaped the house without Mom knowing and was just thinking all the possibilities that could have gone wrong. I reminded Dev about Scarlet and we booked it back to the house, carrying as many boxes as possible. We walked out of this white tunnel it seems and Dev found Scarlet with mom, both of them walking towards us. I was so relieved. Then I saw we were next to a church and a lady walked out asked us if we would like to go to church today and Mom gave me the look she gets when she likes an idea, and since I felt bad forgetting Scarlet and mom having to deal with our stupidity, I grudgingly looked over at Devin and told him we have to go, too. For a split second I thought maybe we could leave Scarlet with mom, but knew better. It'd only be for an hour or two, anyways. Woke up to me alarm before we got into the church.

Monday, June 29, 2015

Scarlet Dreams

Monday June 29

"Oh! What did you dream about?"
"Kaykay!" (Her cousin Kaelynn)
"What did you guys do?"
"Played Play-Doh!"

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

School.

Dreamt I was still in school. There was some form of math I particularly loved.
All I remember after that was walking with Devin through a flooded area that looked like my old childhood property. We felt brave and wanted to have sex but a teacher could walk past any moment.

Monday, February 21, 2011

The Invisible Troll.

I just spent an hour online looking for the dream I swear I posted somewhere on some site and finally realized that an hour searching is a lot longer than ten minutes writing the damn thing all over again, so I'll just do that.


I dreamt I was at my aunt's house and Tegan and Sara were having a concert outside. My boyfriend's birthday was that day apparently, so they called him up and invited his family and they were about to invite me up but I noticed my mom wasn't with me and the rest of my family, so I wandered off to look for her. I walked to where I grew up and went to the chicken coop on my parent's property and searched for her in there. There were two people in there, so I asked them if they saw her and they told me that she and two others were kidnapped. They just disappeared, all on separate occasions. I rounded up my sister and some other girl and we all held hands and were about to head back to my aunt's house in the dark, but I saw movement in the woods. I pointed and told them that I knew that whatever was moving in the woods is what kidnapped mom. Suddenly I also knew that whatever kidnapped her was this invisible creature.. Like a troll-type of creature. We keep walking through the woods, still holding hands, until we get towards the swampier areas of the woods on my parent's property. Somehow we gain weapons.. Pickaxes and things like that. And then I'm being dragged by something I cannot see. I want my sister and this other woman to just kill this beast now, but I know that if they do, we will never see Mom again. Eventually he lets go of me and we immediately kill him. Then we notice what looks like a fresh and unpacked dirt-mound. I begin digging with my hands, hoping that this is the beast's lair and that Mom was somewhere nearby. I make a good-sized hole in the ground and I yell really loud for Mom. I can't tell if I am hearing her or my echo, but something inside me tells me that I know that if I dig further down, I'll find a tunnel and that this is why my voice could be echoing or why hers could be so quiet and that maybe it's her echo I'm hearing. I wake up before I have a chance to dig any further down.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Anybody Home?

Dreamt I was in my parents' old house. It was set up differently, though. The kitchen was smaller and inside one of the bedrooms now. I was walking around in the house and nobody was home. I called and called if anyone was there, but nobody answered. Eventually I walked out of the house through the front door and suddenly I turn around and the house has a light on inside. Then I see movement. I open the door and I notice my dad and his brothers inside eating at the dining room table. It felt weird that nobody was there a second ago, but I wasn't thinking I was dreaming or anything. I left the house and walked around towards the driveway. Then my ex-boyfriend Caleb came up to me and told me that my dad was looking for my sister Sarah so she could see the house all refinished. I poked my head around by the backyard near where the steps are to go down to the pond and I saw Sarah sitting on the porch with her back facing me. She was eating food off a paper plate. I told Caleb where she was and he left. Then I noticed my dog in the bathroom window, so I reached up to grab him and started walking towards an old brown car. There was a woman my age in the passenger's side. It was wintertime now and we were about to leave someone's house, but two other women started knocking on the passenger side's window and asked to get dropped off somewhere. I didn't want to because it was out of the way and I just wanted to go home, but eventually I let them in the car. Then I somehow am sitting in the backseat with the woman I was with and the other two women are in front. The one driving hits it in reverse and guns it, and we start swerving into the road (icy roads, remember) and we hit this beige pole that was on the side of the road, and then we rolled over a few times into the ditch. Of course only in my dreams was there an ambulance driving behind us. The EMTs get out and one of them looks like Lucy Liu. She asks me if I'm alright and I start yelling profanities at the woman that was driving, saying something like, "No thanks to this idiot. This blonde."

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Fishing For Humans.

Dreamt a weird one.. First, I was in a half-way point between being in my parents' pond to also being at the playground of my elementary school at the same time. It was weird. Maybe the playground was just really flooded, I don't know, but I remember swimming to "Woody" (what we called our favorite wooden (NON-PLASTIC, OY VEY I REMEMBER THE SPLINTERS NOW) playground equipment) and yelling at my boyfriend (he was in the water with his dad fixing a boat) to help me with something, but his dad wouldn't let him help me, so I got pissed and jumped back in the water and swam to shore. Now I am on my parents' property and I'm walking around the pond (away from my old house) and through the woods. Strangely the woods turns into what looks to be set up like an opera theater. I'm walking through these red velvet seats and I see this balcony. I overhear someone call it a "badminton". I walk up the steps and into the balcony and sit next to this girl (that was my friend in high school, but not anymore, I kind of hate her guts now). She has a blanket wrapped around her and when she sees me, she wraps it around me as well so that we're sharing. She starts feeling me up under the blanket, but I'm not grossed out, I'm just uncomfortable because I keep thinking she's only doing it to get attention from our classmates. I look down at the opera stage and it's not an opera stage but the pond, night-time. I can barely see the pond with all the trees in the way, but there is a spotlight pointed at it. Eventually the friend next to me turns into this guy and we are staring at the pond, curious. Then the opera house disappears and it is just me and this guy and we see a boat come into the view of the spotlight. There is a man in all black and he starts taunting us up above (we are on this cliff now instead of a balcony). He points at us and laughs. Then he grabs another guy in the boat (apparently the guy next to me is his brother) and he grabs these sharp scissors and pokes a hole in his cheek near his mouth and then puts a huge fish hook in the hole. The guy next to me and I are completely terrified, but we keep watching. Then the dark figure throws this guy over the side of the boat. The brother looks over at me and tells me we have to save him. I wake up while we start walking around the pond again.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Leukemia.

Dreamt two teenage girls were at a party and one of them sees their crush. She walks over to talk to him, but he introduces her to his girlfriend next to him, so she walks away shyly and pretends to know this guy sitting down wearing a Beatles shirt. She sits on his lap like nothing happened.

Then I dreamt I was me and I was waiting for a bus at night. I was at my friend's old house, though. (In reality, the house is torn down and now there are villas all over the place for a waterpark, but in my dream the house was still there.. no waterpark). This girl that used to be my neighbor was also in my dream, though she was still the same age she was back then and I am the age I am now. She asked me if I was going back to school again (in high school, I was bullied at one point and eventually I quit school (came back eventually to finish), so I guess she knew I had left and in the dream was coming back to school). I told her I was, but I wasn't real excited about it. Finally a bus showed up and we crossed the road to get on, but other kids were piling out and at first I thought "Shit. It's nighttime. We must have missed school," but the bus driver allowed us on. We both sat down next to this girl with leukemia, I assume, since she was bald and had a scarf over her head. I felt tall compared to everyone, a giant. I could barely fit and could feel the ceiling hitting my head constantly. I remember I was chewing gum at the time, too, because I was worried the gum would fall out of my mouth and into the girl's hair.

Somehow I switched to being in my parents' kitchen. There was cake in pieces all over the floor and I was picking the pieces up and putting them into a trash bag. The pieces of cake were sopping wet with milk, though. It felt a lot like touching a wet sponge when I picked the pieces up. I even wrung the cake out to try to keep from getting milk in the bag, but then I noticed a hole in the bag and tried to tie a knot in the bag where the hole was so that nothing would spill out, but things fell out anyway. I went to put the cake pieces back into the bag but they all turned into rice krispies.


Oh, that first part I dreamt about (the party).. I dreamt this because I am in the process of reading a book about two friends, one having cancer. In one part of the book they are at a party and one of the girls sees her ex with another girl and she tries to act cool. I'm guessing this is why I dreamt of a leukemia patient in the second part of my dream.