Oh good lord, someone give me better handwriting..

I can't read my own handwriting.. So this is a bit jumbled and confusing.


Dreamt Zig still alive. (He's my dog that we had to put down this past spring. Rough year..)

I'm at my Dad's and I head down the driveway with Ziggy to go get the mail. I tell my mom where I am headed and say something like "I wish that dumbass wouldn't have taken my dog." -- My mom assumes I'm talking about my ex, but for some reason I am talking about his brother. (Okay, I don't understand this part at all. No association between any of my animals to my ex or his brother. Anyways..)

Zig is good until a Winnebago comes around the curve of the road. I push him towards the driveway/house, and he runs back up. I grab the mail and apparently my mom followed, because she starts talking to the people in the Winnebago. I think maybe the person in the Winnebago is an old park manager where I used to work. She asks someone how "Karen" is. The mail I grabbed wasn't mail, mementos. I remember seeing a picture/card that says "If/when I die" and on the back is my handwriting in gold, written to my sister. There were also pictures of my mom and aunt when they were little, my great uncle Walt, etc..


Before all of this I dreamt I was back in high school. I was wearing this black dress that was too short. I was a new girl - again - lame. I am looking for a bathroom and find one in a locker room. The bathroom was humongous, had many stalls. I leave the bathroom and there is a long line forming, so I get in line to wait my turn. Because I'm a moron.


Also dreamt I was getting food at Hu Hot (the best restaurant ever), but it was set in a house.

If I Had A Million Dollars..

Dreamt Devin and I were rich 15-20 years from now. We lived in a humongous mansion (although sometime into the dream I was walking around the house and the siding looked really old.. So it might have been a cheaper mansion.). Anyways, I don't remember a lot of the details but I think I was talking to an ex and had expected a phone call or something - not cheating, just talking I guess? I was in the basement taking a shower and suddenly Devin was pissed at me. I assumed he heard a voicemail or something, no clue. So he was pissed. I got out of the shower and there were no towels or clothes or anything, so I walked out and into a bigger room that looked more like a work shop (a big one, maybe Devin was the money maker and had an auto mechanical business of some such). So I'm walking through the big work area looking place and its kind of dark in one area so it takes me a few times to go all the way through it (I keep running back to the first room, terrified of the dark). I get to an area of the house that has a bunch of windows, big, big windows and run towards it. I don't remember what happens next, but I somehow find myself outside, fully clothed. I walk around the house (this is where I see the house isn't much of a looker, old white sheds attached to it to make it bigger yet, etc), looking for a door to get into the basement again. I finally find one, but it led to the main floor. The porch looked straight out of a Better Homes & Gardens magazine.. White whicker furniture, darker blue accents.. It was pretty. I keep walking through and finally find a bunch of bedrooms and exercise rooms. I get into the exercise room and Devin comes out of a door on the other side with a woman wearing a bikini top, one boob sticking out. I'm so pissed at him since I never cheated on him but here I catch him doing what he thought I was doing..

I don't remember anything else.. Loved that big house, though.

Anybody Home?

Dreamt I was in my parents' old house. It was set up differently, though. The kitchen was smaller and inside one of the bedrooms now. I was walking around in the house and nobody was home. I called and called if anyone was there, but nobody answered. Eventually I walked out of the house through the front door and suddenly I turn around and the house has a light on inside. Then I see movement. I open the door and I notice my dad and his brothers inside eating at the dining room table. It felt weird that nobody was there a second ago, but I wasn't thinking I was dreaming or anything. I left the house and walked around towards the driveway. Then my ex-boyfriend Caleb came up to me and told me that my dad was looking for my sister Sarah so she could see the house all refinished. I poked my head around by the backyard near where the steps are to go down to the pond and I saw Sarah sitting on the porch with her back facing me. She was eating food off a paper plate. I told Caleb where she was and he left. Then I noticed my dog in the bathroom window, so I reached up to grab him and started walking towards an old brown car. There was a woman my age in the passenger's side. It was wintertime now and we were about to leave someone's house, but two other women started knocking on the passenger side's window and asked to get dropped off somewhere. I didn't want to because it was out of the way and I just wanted to go home, but eventually I let them in the car. Then I somehow am sitting in the backseat with the woman I was with and the other two women are in front. The one driving hits it in reverse and guns it, and we start swerving into the road (icy roads, remember) and we hit this beige pole that was on the side of the road, and then we rolled over a few times into the ditch. Of course only in my dreams was there an ambulance driving behind us. The EMTs get out and one of them looks like Lucy Liu. She asks me if I'm alright and I start yelling profanities at the woman that was driving, saying something like, "No thanks to this idiot. This blonde."

I Could Never Be Your Woman

Dreamt I was at my grandfather's house and that I was engaged to be married to my ex-boyfriend. In the dream, I broke it off with him because I wanted to be with a woman instead and he hated me a LOT after that. While he's with his friends talking things over, I'm in a bedroom trying on a bunch of Tegan and Sara shirts I must have recently purchased. They are really poor quality shirts, though. One had the graphics cut off from another shirt and sewn crooked onto a beige shirt with this cropped purple coat over the top. Then my sister's dog is bleeding and he bumps into me and I go to clean my black leggings (that I wore to bed that night) and the water I sprayed on turned them grey in spots, making me realize it was bleach I was using. At first I was pissed but then I kept spraying them until they looked all kinds of different greys. I walk out of the bedroom and I'm at my old house in the kitchen with my friend Dana and a bunch of others. She kisses some skater-looking kid on the cheek and he smiles. Then I'm in this classroom and I'm taking a test and this guy in front of me is an ass and keeps bullying me. During the test, my necklace broke and I was trying to pick up what pieces I could find. After that, I'm outside at night and decide I need to take pictures of the moon because the last time they didn't turn out. I try changing the setting on my camera to a night setting, but when I look up at the sky, I notice that it is cloudy as fuck and there's no way I'll be able to see anything.

Torture Show

Dreamt I was getting ready to go to this restaurant that had a very strange entertainment experience for the customers. My mom and sister were coming with me, and my sister was explaining to me what the restaurant does. While I was putting makeup on in the bathroom, she explained that while we eat, the waiters would have this competitive game of torture. We would have to endure as much as possible to gain some sort of reward every time we achieved one of the tortures. The example my sister gave me was that they might hit our hands with hammers and if we'd consent to it, we'd continue on to the next round. I walked out of the bathroom and into the dining room and there were a bunch of people. Not just in the dining room but in the living room and kitchen as well. My dad came home and, although he was still supposedly dating his girlfriend of now, he was still really civil towards my mom. I guess his girlfriend worked at a soda factory in my dream, because he brought home a few cases. I started telling everyone in the house about where we were going, and explained the rules and used the hammer-example my sister used, and they thought it was a dumb idea. (Duh.) The restaurant was in La Crosse, WI, and I remember telling everyone that it'd be broadcast on TV, so they should watch for us. I went outside to get into the van and realized I forgot music, so I went back inside to grab a Tegan & Sara CD, but an asian dude I don't really know in real life stopped me in the living room and asked me what channel we'd be on. He was flipping through channels on my real-life childhood clunky console television set we had. I told him I wasn't sure about which channel we would be on, but that I'd call him when I got to the van and asked mom.