Lots Of Tongue

Okay, I might have been going through major sleep paralysis in the first bit of my dream. I know it was lightning and down-pouring, I remember looking out the window. (In my waking life, it was actually storming that night, so maybe it was projecting into my dreams..) I was in the process of awakening, but couldn't move. I remember trying to yell to Devin, who was beside me in bed, "Wake me up! Wake me up!" I felt like I couldn't do it myself, and I could only whisper through my lips. I could hear myself, in my dream, yelling, and myself, outside of my dream, whispering. It was eerie. Finally Devin rolls over, tells me I'm fine, and goes back to bed. Eventually I finally awake completely, but right beforehand I felt someone touch my left hand. I was freaking out thinking a ghost tapped my hand. I couldn't sleep for awhile after that, so I wrote down what happened.

Finally I went back to sleep, and I dreamt that I was visiting my dad and he told me he read my dream blog, about some dream where I was kissing a Quin Twin with "lots of tongue". I was blushing in my dream, embarrassed that he read my blog, but in my waking life I have seriously never dreamt about kissing either twin with 'lots of tongue', or any tongue for that matter - god dammit. :( That was a weird dream, too. The next part I wrote down I don't remember the details, just that my dad's workplace was making a documentary. Then I'm walking to my childhood home. I get to the back porch, and enter the utility room. There are dog beds in the closet area of the utility room, and my dog Bear and Ziggy are there, along with two dogs, Wyatt and Tuffy, whom have passed away in my waking life. I remember my dog Bear kept wanting to bite Tuffy. Tuffy was a fat dachshund, so he was a small little guy compared to Bear's St. Bernard/Lab mix. I was really scared Bear would tear Tuffy to shreds, so I kept forcing myself between them to protect Tuffy. At some point, Bear quit bothering him, so I walked to the living room and looked out the door. It was raining really hard and then these fish the size of big northerns started falling to the ground along with the rain. I got scared and backed away from the door. Then I went back to the utility room and instead of the dogs there, my boyfriend's sister Cherish and her boyfriend Monte were there sitting on a couch (in the utility room, I don't know why). I decided to call Devin, my boyfriend, to see where he was and I heard a little kid's voice in the background. I joked about hearing a kid and tease him about cheating on me and having a family started with some other woman. He got quiet and really defensive then. I bawled, realizing it was true. Cherish gets mad at Devin for what he did, but I leave the house and hang up on him. I decided to walk into the woods, towards the road. I call my aunt Erin and tell her what happened. Then I hang up again and walk some more in the woods. I meet up with Sara Quin and strangely we seem to be in a relationship or something. It doesn't last for long, though. First, Devin's cousin Trevor starts chasing us in the woods. Then, I project out of my body and some woman is taking the place as Sara's girlfriend/the one getting chased. I'm just a third wheel trying to help them get to safety. Eventually we get to the road. It's autumn, cold, rainy. Leaves are falling from the painted-orange trees. A car pulls up and I look over at the other two and think "We're safe." They have the same look to them. Then a guy gets out and he looks like Taylor Handley (again, I had to look this guy up. I've only seen him in one thing, and it was Dawson's Creek a few years ago. It's strange how the brain stores hidden, insignificant information and visuals.) When I saw him exit the car and tell us to get in, I thought, "Great. Just like in the movies, he's supposed to be my knight in shining armor." I don't know why I thought that, but he smiled arrogantly, so it just got worse from there. The guy chasing us was closing in, and although I was thinking over whether I wanted to deal with this guy or the one chasing me, I eventually got in the car with Sara and her new girlfriend.

At some point in this dream, I actually remembered dreaming about the denim clothes that I wrote in this blog. I think writing these dreams down for so long is starting to make the memory of my waking life better.

Visiting Dana In Madison.

My friend Dana spent the night here, so I dreamt that she and I were planning on having me come to Madison to see her. We were looking at our schedules and seeing what days worked.

Came In Through The Basement Window.

Dreamt I had to carry my old dog Skippy (now deceased) because he was trying to fight with another dog.

Then:

Dreamt I was in a pond and the water was cold. My dad and some other guy was on this small floatation device and I swam over and tried to get on as well, but it almost tipped over. They got mad at me and told me to get away. I swam away and somehow found myself on land, near my parents' old house. My dad and the guy is also on land and the guy with my dad is very, very evil. I run around the house to the front yard and I notice the grass is on fire. There is smoke everywhere. The evil guy is looking for me but since the smoke is so thick, he can't see me. He runs off into the woods thinking I went that way and I walk towards the house with this puppy and I'm about to go into the house but I notice this bigger dog wanting into this basement window near the front door. (My old house never had a basement, FYI.) I walk over to it and look inside. I pick the big dog up and set him down into the basement and crawl in through the window with the puppy. I start worrying that the big dog tricked me and was just luring me into the basement so the evil guy could get to me. Like they were both in on something. And of course, I notice a staircase going down somewhere in the basement and I see the evil guy. He sees me and he starts racing up the stairs to get to me. I crawl up through the window with the puppy and even try to grab the big dog and help him out as well. When everyone is out, I run with the puppy towards the road to get help.

Obama Wants To Be Left Alone.

Dreamt I was at my parents' old house, watching the news/weather. The news said that (although it was January) a really big tornado was expected tomorrow.

Then I was in Burnstads (a grocery store in town), and I was paying with chocolate-covered pretzels. The only problem was that while I was shopping for groceries, I was hungry, so I was eating my money. When I got to the register, I found out I only had maybe $3 (three pretzels) and the cashier needed $17 for everything. I asked him to take back everything except for the milk, butter, and another important. (Obviously the economy must still be in good shape in my dreams.. hmm..) The cashier was a nice guy around my age. The lady behind me, a fatter, older blond lady, was impatient and complained that I shouldn't be shopping with so little money. She almost made me cry though, so after the guy rang up the few things I bought, I walked up to the manager's area and praised the cashier that rang me up because he was so nice to me. I also told him about the bitch behind me that was really rude, and he points to this couch that magically appeared in the store and tells me that the bitch is the cashier's cousin. I left the store after that.

Then I dreamt my friend Dana and I were still in high school. It was really dark in the hallway, and we both saw the President walking in front of us. Dana really wanted his autograph, she started running and following him. She disappeared around the corner in the hallway, so I could only hear voices, but I heard him yell, "Who's behind me? NO! Please, I have a wife and kids! Leave me alone!" When I finally got far enough to seeing the two again, I saw her persist and finally he turned around, looked angry, grabbed her hand real hard and pushed her into the wall. I ran over to her and said, "Dana, come on.." and while we were walking away I was convinced I said her name wrong and that I meant to say the name Donna. (Around this dream I had watched the film La Bamba. It's the movie about Ritchie Valens, the guy that sang the song "Donna")

The Evil Couple.

Dreamt I was pregnant and in the closet at my parent's old house. I was putting clothes on and Devin kind of pushes me or something, and I say that it's unsafe for the baby. Then, during the day, Devin and I are walking from the old house to my Grandma's old house (just down the driveway). Mine and Devin's outside dogs got out of the fence and wandered off somewhere and I also couldn't find my dog Moses. I thought he was mad at me because I was pregnant and he wanted to stay being my 'baby'. When I get to my Grandma's, I notice two cars in their driveway. A red truck and a black hatchback. I elbow Devin, confused. An old couple get out of the truck and they walk up to us. The guy introduces himself and asks us if we've ever met Doug (my dad). Apparently my dad is throwing a party at the house (and also, apparently he and his girlfriend are living at my grandma's now). I say yes, I have met Doug (I don't mention he's my dad, though). By now, the old couple got younger. Maybe in their mid-to-late-fifties. About my dad's age. The guy gets a weird look on his face and says, "He's okay. But I heard he was gay."

I'm fuming.

I snap back that even if he was, it wouldn't make him any different than if he wasn't. The guy gets angry with me for responding this way.

It's nighttime now and I am walking with my sister Sarah, who's behind me with her hands on my shoulders, my mom, with her hands on my sister's shoulders, and my dad's girlfriend, with her hand's on my mom's shoulders. (FYI, this would never happen. My mom and my dad's girlfriend have never met and never intend to.) We're scared of the dark and walking back to the old house because it's the only house with electricity on. (In real life, both houses are abandoned now.) I get to the front door and reach for the light switch just inside. I turn around and Mom and Joanna are gone. Sarah and I walk back around the house towards the driveway and see people crouching behind a car. I notice the older couple has both Mom and Joanna on the ground and they are trying to kill them. The woman has Mom and she's mutilating her fingers. The guy has Joanna and he's just forcing her into the ground at the moment. My sister and I are full of dread and can barely move. She has scissors on her and I grab them from her and first I try slicing across this guy's back to make him stop, but he won't. So then I start stabbing him and I start yelling for my dad as loud as I can, but realize that my dad is half-deaf, and unable to hear me no matter how loud I was. Then I worry this evil couple has killed my dad and now they're killing his girlfriend and my mom. The couple kind of has my mom and Joanna underneath the car, this is why we can barely reach anyone.

Torture Show

Dreamt I was getting ready to go to this restaurant that had a very strange entertainment experience for the customers. My mom and sister were coming with me, and my sister was explaining to me what the restaurant does. While I was putting makeup on in the bathroom, she explained that while we eat, the waiters would have this competitive game of torture. We would have to endure as much as possible to gain some sort of reward every time we achieved one of the tortures. The example my sister gave me was that they might hit our hands with hammers and if we'd consent to it, we'd continue on to the next round. I walked out of the bathroom and into the dining room and there were a bunch of people. Not just in the dining room but in the living room and kitchen as well. My dad came home and, although he was still supposedly dating his girlfriend of now, he was still really civil towards my mom. I guess his girlfriend worked at a soda factory in my dream, because he brought home a few cases. I started telling everyone in the house about where we were going, and explained the rules and used the hammer-example my sister used, and they thought it was a dumb idea. (Duh.) The restaurant was in La Crosse, WI, and I remember telling everyone that it'd be broadcast on TV, so they should watch for us. I went outside to get into the van and realized I forgot music, so I went back inside to grab a Tegan & Sara CD, but an asian dude I don't really know in real life stopped me in the living room and asked me what channel we'd be on. He was flipping through channels on my real-life childhood clunky console television set we had. I told him I wasn't sure about which channel we would be on, but that I'd call him when I got to the van and asked mom.

Groping.

Dreamt I was on a couch and some dude was sitting next to me. I was wearing this sparkly black sequin dress and he kept putting his hand on my thigh and slowly creeping up. I pushed his hand away and he wouldn't stop. Sooner or later, after a bunch of times trying to get him to stop, I gave up and I ended up having a really good dream. Like, really. good. dream. If you catch my drift. I woke up repulsed, but it felt good in my dream.

Also dreamt I lost my wallet and mentioned to an old classmate about how it happened before (in real life) at a water park, and how it ruined my life. Then the classmate tells me she knew who stole my wallet from long ago. Some tanned bitch.

8/21/10 - Angry Dancers.

Oh good god another embarrassing one.


I'm in this strange place. On this busy street. I am doing this puzzle-type of thing. It's hard to explain. I had to do these things in order to get it right. For example, I had to take a picture of someone and get a glare off of their hair, from the sun. If I couldn't finish these puzzles, I'd "wake up" from this "dream" and have to start over again. Kind of like in the movie Groundhogs Day.


I'm on this bus with a BUNCH of people. We are at this fast food restaurant trying to decide what we'll get for food (at some point I am in the restaurant, but in the beginning I was on the bus). The manager of the place says he/she won't sell us anything because we can't make up our minds. Even when we finally decide, they still refuse to sell us anything. I get pissed, because I'm starving. I also remember an ex-friend of mine was working at this place. She was wearing a black shirt and was also refusing to serve us anything. Somehow I'm BACK on the bus, and the bus driver tells us we have to pay them again for riding. This bus eventually turns out to be the band Hanson's bus. Even though it looks like a regular Greyhound bus. I have no money that I'm willing to give up, so I get off the bus. I walk into this huge building that from the outside looks like a casino. I recall wearing a tank top and a skirt and I hear someone whistle at me. I walk in with Taylor Hanson and a few others behind us. We all walk around the slot machines, and eventually I lose Taylor. My aunt Erin walks up to me and we walk for awhile and then she sees some coworkers of hers (who happen to be the fast food management that wouldn't allow to serve us awhile ago). I decide not to walk over to these people with her, so I continue walking. I start walking towards tables, getting away from the casino area. There are a lot of people sitting at the tables, all wearing elegant dresses or tuxedos mostly in colors of black and red. Everyone stands up simultaneously and the start ballroom dancing around the room. I have to zigzag around them. I notice Zac Hanson is walking around them, too. We both don't know why these people are dancing. The people that are dancing notice that we aren't dancing, and they look angry, but continue dancing. I start swaying when I walk, to pretend like I know what's going on and he does the same. We keep zigzagging around the angry dancers.

Fast Food

• To see or eat fast food in your dream, indicates that you are not taking the time to cater to your emotions. You are not taking good care of your physical or mental health.

Bus

• To dream that you are riding a bus, implies that you are going along with the crowd. You are lacking originality and control over where your life is taking.

Casino

• To dream that you are in a casino, signifies the risk-taker within you. If you are a reserved or passive person, then the dream suggests that you should take a chance. If you are not, then it implies that you need to make a more informed decision instead of relying on fate.

Ballroom Dancing

• To dream that you are ballroom dancing, indicates success in your endeavors. You have a positive outlook in life and are willing try anything and give it your all.

7/16/10 - This One Is Confusing.

This one is confusing. I wrote this one half asleep. I cannot read the first word even.

It looks like.. "unwholing" or "urwhealing"

And then: "Dated T. Picture of her as teen w/ blond hair."


I also remember at one point being in a store, and I tried on this hat and these awesome glasses. I wore them for a few minutes until I realized that they were stuck together. They were able to be fastened together, and the hat which at first was a fedora turned into a black helmet of some sort, and the glasses turned into weird black plastic goggles. It looked ugly, so I set them back on the shelf.

Date

• To dream that you are on a date, represents your need for self-discovery and self-awareness. You are getting to know some hidden aspects of yourself and acknowledging your hidden talents. Alternatively, it may reflect your anxieties about dating or finding acceptance. The dream may also be a "rehearsal" for an actual date you have. It serves to overcome anxieties you may have.

Goggles

• To see or wear goggles in your dream, suggest that you are trying to protect yourself from emotional harm. Perhaps you need to confront something in your waking like that you know is hurting you.

Helmet

• To see a helmet in your dream, symbolizes protection. It also indicates that you need to keep your thoughts and ideas closely guarded.