Song Of The However Long I Feel Like..

Monday, May 26, 2025

Grasshopper

Strange dream. Dreamt that I was with a group of people. My sister may have been one of them. We were kind of crowded around maybe trying to play a game? Anyways one person who maybe looked like the actor that played Ron Weasley was there but he was a tiny little grasshopper and he kept landing on me. I lost him at one point and thought maybe I stepped on him. It was terrifying. He was alright, though. 

Thursday, May 22, 2025

Jeep

At childhood home. Black van is parked up by big chicken coop. Aunt E is there and wants to know who owned our jeep before we did because she may know 'the guy' (now that I'm awake I realize it was a girl).. I'm looking a bit through paperwork. Mom is looking at tea flavors. 

Just before I woke up, a man with a reddish mullet came outside with me and my aunt and, looking suspicious, asked if we plan on 'driving it in water'. I said maybe, and then I followed him to his own car and thinking 'what if he kills me? Kidnaps me?' I didnt want to be rude though, so I kept telling myself he's probably just going to his car to give us parts for the jeep to go offroading in water more. 

I remember giving my husband a kiss too. 

School

Forgot to mention this a couple days ago but I dreamt I was at the field trip I went to with my daughter a couple weeks ago. Her math teacher and another teacher she knows of from gaming club were both in the dream. Seems like I was trying to kind of hide myself, so I was trying not to be seen. My daughter and I were rushing to get our stuff together so we could leave, but we accidentally get locked in. We're at my dad's old job when I was little, really dark. Garage doors for exits etc. 

Wednesday, May 21, 2025

Soda

Dreamt I met my favorite drag queen, t, and her awesome co-worker k. I was at a soda fountain and t was showing me her favorite mix to get the perfect soda. That's all I remember. 

Sunday, May 18, 2025

No sleep. Dreamt I'm was sleeping in an old beaten up truck. Me, .y sons, my aunt, and others. The truck had rats. I kept waking up to one crawling undery blanket over me. I grabbed it fast, yelled for my aunt (suddenly I'm in her old trailer instead) telling her to open the back door to throw the rat outside. A bunny follows as well as a kitten and I grab those and bring them in. Can't sleep. I notice my friend Kayla is outside. Apparently her grandpa died recently in the dream, so she starts to veer the conversation to that so I ask her and she starts crying. I feel bad. Neighbors or friends of hers come I want to go back to truckl. It's dark so when I get back to truck I tell her to I'm tired and headed back. I try to keep it dark inside so we can sleep. 

Saturday, May 17, 2025

Phone Call

Dreamt that I woke up to a phone call and I answered it. It was a very long time childhood friend that I recently stopped contact with, and she just started acting like we were never mad at each other. I remember thinking as she was talking "fuck, why am I talking to her? Why did I have to answer this?" So glad it was just a dream, because it felt sooo real. 

Monday, May 12, 2025

Shopping

Dreamt that I was in a store with my husband and people kept bumping into us and staring at us. One did it on purpose, probably the second person, to be funny. After the third one bumped right into me straight-on, I laughed and explained what was happening and she seemed surprised. 

Other thing I remember is I was with my mom and maybe my aunt or sister and we were looking at these booths/garage sales and I had no shoes on and felt weird for that, so I asked my mom if I could borrow her shoes a minute so I could venture further into the booth to look for shoes to buy. She let me borrow them and I told her they fit and some nosy lady told my mom they definitely don't fit lol. It was just weird. 

Sunday, May 11, 2025

Knickknacks

Dreamt I was at my grandma's old house, I don't think I went in ever but was by the ramp and near the driveway. Very messy outside. S of gvf and I were dating for some reason. Kissed a lot. I remember having to type something into a computer. Also there were all of these random (think hoarders) knickknacks everywhere. I found a glass orangutan, a light up fan (that I took and ended up carrying around). 

Saturday, May 10, 2025

Stroke

Dreamt I looked in the mirror and saw my smile was off. First it looked better, but then when I pulled them up to blame my lips look bigger only one side came up. Tried the other and only that side would go up. Thought for sure it was a stroke. 

Thursday, May 8, 2025

Kidnapped

Dreamt that me and a group of people were kidnapped. We were driving and had to stop at a place and some guy and his other kidnapped teens grabbed us. Husband was with me also kidnapped. I tried to stay close to him the whole time. I don't remember a lot. Seems like we were stuck, but able to move around in this huge building. 

Wednesday, May 7, 2025

Stalker

Such a weird dream today! Dreamt that there was a killer going after me or my daughter. It was just her and my husband - didn't have the boys. Okay so I remember bits and pieces. Daughter had her teachers, except that one of them came to the house, and it ended up being a childhood friend of mine that teaches in real life. We always had a weird friendship maybe based off jealousy, so there was a bit of tension and we grew apart as we got older in real life. Anyways, she came over. She was teaching my daughter and we knew we needed to leave the house because of this killer. I told them I needed to pack some things. I quickly stopped at a library where I met with my daughter's math teacher and he gave me some homework for her. Then I came back to the house and me, daughter, and childhood friend all were quickly leaving the house and walking out into a busy city but looked like Tomah, near the library. We all walked quickly and tried to act different, happy, to not look like ourselves in case the killer was there watching. Saw another child of mine - another random daughter - and also a random daughter of my childhood friend's. They came over and we all put our arms around each other to look like more people / less like us. Woke up. My husband was in the dream in the beginning and so was childhood friend's husband. Seems like her husband was telling a joke but he was being so so sooo quiet so I had to fake laugh the whole time hoping it sounded like I could hear him and thought the joke was funny. Childhood friend's cousin (another childhood friend) was in a part in the beginning also. We just talked for a split second. 


Before all of this I was at my mom's and I made pistachio fluff but was out of an ingredient, so my mom had to go get something. 

Friday, May 2, 2025

The Past

Weird dream! Half dandy's world, half the past. Obviously I had to fill machines and look for stuff. The other thing was the weird part: I dreamt I was in the past when my mom was little. I saw he parents who were about my age, my mom about my kids age (6 or 7). So in one part I dreamt that there was a ghost at my mom's house and it scared her when she was little. I was trying to get rid of it. Another thing I dreamt was my grandma at a dining room table, eating dinner. It seems like Grandma had a slave/maid and she was really rude to someone staying with her. There were friends of hers and Grandpa's that needed to stay and live with them and she was sometimes mean to them. I told my mom and aunt and the brushed it off and explained some excuse to make up for it, like stress and the friends staying were being rude first. 

There was another part where I was outside I think and at a zoo. There was a dog I think and a big snake, a gecko, a bird. The gecko and bird got along, for some reason. 

Thursday, May 1, 2025

Ghost

I'm not going to remember what order things happened..  

I remember physically running around like I'm playing real life Dandy's World. 

Husband and I were doing something. Seems like a ghost was haunting a house - maybe one we lived in? - and we were trying to get rid of it. I don't remember a lot of what happened to get rid of it, though. Maybe also some Dandy's World stuff? Or trying to make the ghost fall in love while me or husband does something else to 'kill' it? Or time traveling?? Can't remember.