Song Of The However Long I Feel Like..

Friday, May 2, 2025

The Past

Weird dream! Half dandy's world, half the past. Obviously I had to fill machines and look for stuff. The other thing was the weird part: I dreamt I was in the past when my mom was little. I saw he parents who were about my age, my mom about my kids age (6 or 7). So in one part I dreamt that there was a ghost at my mom's house and it scared her when she was little. I was trying to get rid of it. Another thing I dreamt was my grandma at a dining room table, eating dinner. It seems like Grandma had a slave/maid and she was really rude to someone staying with her. There were friends of hers and Grandpa's that needed to stay and live with them and she was sometimes mean to them. I told my mom and aunt and the brushed it off and explained some excuse to make up for it, like stress and the friends staying were being rude first. 

There was another part where I was outside I think and at a zoo. There was a dog I think and a big snake, a gecko, a bird. The gecko and bird got along, for some reason. 

Thursday, May 1, 2025

Ghost

I'm not going to remember what order things happened..  

I remember physically running around like I'm playing real life Dandy's World. 

Husband and I were doing something. Seems like a ghost was haunting a house - maybe one we lived in? - and we were trying to get rid of it. I don't remember a lot of what happened to get rid of it, though. Maybe also some Dandy's World stuff? Or trying to make the ghost fall in love while me or husband does something else to 'kill' it? Or time traveling?? Can't remember. 


Monday, April 28, 2025

Choir

Dreamt I was in a choir for school maybe? A drag queen I've been watching more often was in the choir and helping me find where I needed to sit, because the map has numbers assigned, and the. There was a smaller list of what names connected to what numbers. Woke up before I could find my name. 

Sunday, April 27, 2025

Dandy's World

My kids got me into the game Dandy's World, so I dreamt I was playing it in real life. At least filling up the containers with ichor, not anything scary thankfully. 

Friday, April 25, 2025

Thrift Store

Dreamt I was in a thrift store with my sister. It was really early, like 6 or 7 am, and the store was saying they'd be closing soon in like 15 minutes. I didn't grab anything but did see a beautiful baby-pink velvet shirt with billiards designs on it. I showed my sister and she loved it, so we grabbed that for her. Seems like we were in there longer than 15 minutes so we went up to the counter to pay. A lady that looked like Della Reese checked us out. I saw a hoodie behind her in a room and I asked if these clothes were for sale yet. This hoodie was a brownish color and has a king of spades on it. I got a little mixed up and was thinking it was my favorite bad guy in a show I watch (king of clubs), so when she said it wasn't for sale yet, I said that it was fine. 

That's all I remember.

Wednesday, April 23, 2025

Dog Fights

Deep sleep. Dreamt I was in a dream and that I was laying in bed. I could see my two childhood dogs (technically they were my mom's) dogs fighting. I kept trying to break them up from a fight but couldn't do it myself so I had to yell for my husband, my mom, etc... no one came to help. Then I'm back in bed. My music starts playing so I try to turn it off quick and move my phone over to my bedside table. My husband comes in to wake me up and I try to fake sleep but suddenly when I try to open my eyes I can barely do it. Can't really move my hands either. Everything feels heavy. I tell my husband the dream I had and that I was yelling for him or even mom and no one came to help etc... I'm getting out of bed and it's soooo comfy looking. It's tall, a four-poster style, the sheets are a dark coral pink. I walk down to the living room and I can't remember what I did but I pissed off a cat we own accidentally. After pissing her off, she wouldn't fucking stop trying to scratch me/hurt me. I tossed her away and she landed her claws into a door (I was suddenly in my childhood home again). 


... Husband called me in real life, so it woke me up. 

Wednesday, April 16, 2025

Baby

Yikessss. Dreamt I had another baby. It was a girl. Dreamt that she wouldn't stop pooping and that it was always a blow out and that we were running out of clothes for her to change into, so we had to go to the garage in front of my grandma's old house to look for old baby clothes from when my first child was a baby. Dreamt that when we got to that garage, my cat Stan ran up to me and wanted attention. Oh. Also that the clothes were all perfectly stacked up all over the place in the garage, so when I went to climb on them to look for the right sizes, there was a domino effect and a bunch of them fell over and I got yelled at by my husband for messing up his organized stuff lol. 

Not sure if this was before or after, I'm thinking before, but I also dreamt that there was this small trailer or camper that me or someone else was living in, and the landlord wanted someone out. I can't remember who. So we had to move someone out as fast as possible. Might have dreamt that someone got shot or OD'd, too, weirdly. That's all I remember. 

Saturday, April 12, 2025

Cranfest

Dreamt it was cranfest and very very busy in town. I spotted jq and slowly and awkwardly tried to watch him see where he's go so I could try to meet him. Lost him in the crowd but then saw gvf. They had their own booth that was set up like a bar. One of them was sitting at the bar facing towards the booth. I didn't stop or anything. Then I saw kv. Got excited. Decided I didn't want to meet him but did want to ogle. Followed a long distance away just to see him. Tried to be loud at one point to get his attention but not towards him or something. Woke up eventually.  

Before this I dreamt I was with a group of people (I think some I knew, like my sister and husband etc) and we were captured by some bad guys somewhere right in warrens at the park. Somehow we managed to escape and ran into the crowds of people at the festival. 

Wednesday, April 9, 2025

Camping

Dreamt I'm in a basement. I'm cleaning some clothes I think. Seems like the rooms I'm in switch to being in a basement or childhood dining room. I'm packing to go camping. I'm with my husband, but my husband comes downstairs and asks me if it's okay to celebrate my ex's brother's birthday when we celebrate mine and my husband's. 


I can't remember a whole lot. Just doing laundry so I can pack to go camping. 

Oo. At some point I'm making out with TQ. 

Destruction

Dreamt there was an advertisement on TV about tornado sestruyand they were showing my house. My husband jokes and said I'd never leave the house now (either because I was scared of a tornado or of criminals etc). 

Sunday, April 6, 2025

Gas Station

At Warrens Mall with husband and kids. Since it's a gas station, I dreamt that while in there he knew a bunch of people from his job there. We were fixing a van but also had our truck too. I was grabbing stuff from one car to the other while he's fixing the van. Kids were in the van too. At some point I'm in the store with him and a trucker stops him and they talk and he finds out his job has their own TV provider called buzztv. Husband leaves while I'm paying for stuff. When I finish, I go outside and yell for him to help me carry stuff cuz it's a lot. I hear workers inside laughing and mocking me for yelling for him, so then I go back in. It's dark inside and there's not many people in there anymore. I go back out and see husband. While he's working there is another woman working on her own car next to ours. I walk over to my husband, point towards the woman, and quietly shout 'no!' at him, meaning do not talk to the woman because I was jealous. I go back to the other truck or the car and I hear my husband talking to someone but it ends up being a coworker that's getting into his car....

Suddenly I'm in the van (should have been the truck) and I'm driving in the show over towards husband is parked with the kids. Unfortunately there were no parking spots so I freak out because technically I don't have a license, so I worry about getting stopped by a cop. I turn thinking I can just go around a block quick but the snow makes me swerve a little. Eventually while continuing on driving, I tell myself 'what the hell am I doing? I'm dreaming. I can just get out of this dream and not have to deal with it '.

Saturday, April 5, 2025

Fast Car

Had another dream. I was in the very back of a van or possibly our jeep. Maybe looking at my phone - wait. No. First I was in my childhood home, in what is now my dad's bedroom. I was looking at my phone and accidentally set the wallpaper wrong. I was also looking online and saw that a celebrity had died. (Morrisey). Anyways suddenly now I'm in the back of the jeep or van. I see my husband is driving ridiculously fast from the ramp, onto the interstate. He's swerving a bit too and then crosses the divider and gets onto the other lane. I crawl up to the front passenger seat. He seems normal. Then I wake up. 

Wedding

Dreamt we (husband, kids, and I) were driving south and didn't think we'd make it in time to get to a wedding. I'm watching the map on my phone and husband is calling his mom to let him know we'll possibly be late and if we should turn around. We end up arriving there anyways and my husband is still trying to call his mom and I'm all "we're already here, we may as well stay now". Jeremy meets a boy about his age, maybe an inch shorter, and they start playing. I'm carrying these pictures and what looked like a phone book, and I noticed these smaller photos are falling out (the size of cheeseitz but triangular). I try to grab for them and I see my aunt cindie. She looks young (like in her 30s) and she stops me and looks at me and husband and says we remind her of her and her husband. I try to tell her that's a huge compliment, but I'm kind of mumbling it/having a hard time talking. Then I wake up. 

Skinned

Dreamt we were getting pets and with them you get these photos. I dwealt on the photos and how they weren't developing well, when all of a sudden I hear a yelp on the sidewalk. I look over and my husband if picking up a small dog away from a couple bigger ones. When he sees, he immediately lets go of all the dogs leashes. All the dogs scatter and he picks up the small dog. He's missing his skin by an armpit.. I want to gown like a dog.l

Thursday, April 3, 2025

Party

At Dad's and I'm trying to pack him a lunch before he goes to work. I make him 2 containers and my sister tries to convince me to use some special lid that you can print words onto but I keep messing it up. 


Afterwards, I dreamt that I was at this party with a bunch of celebrities and I do feel heavily out of place. There's a large bar or DJ and I'm just watching all these celebrities be normal people. These celebrities were all classic people too, not these fake plastic ones nowadays. Dad was with me and he was super happy to meet a bunch of people. 

Black Mamba

Dreamt I was at Dad's. I was flying over the ground, looking down. I saw a big snake that was red , yellow and black. Went away and came back around and saw an even bigger snake all black eating the snake. I saw that it came out from under a (nonexistent) deck that lock its lattice on the side. Fleetwood further up and figured I should find dad and warn him. 

Wednesday, April 2, 2025

Tornado

In a hotel with jq. Making out? Then the hotel turns into a bath. I'm taking a bath. My sister comes into bathroom and I'm trying to hide him behind me in the water. She walks off after getting or telling me whatever. Then we quickly get out and I run out of the room and try to distract people so he can get out without being noticed. I forget which room it is though. And go through them all trying to find the room I was in so that I can grab a souvenir from him. 



Before this, I was in a car with my aunt (driving), my mom, and my sister. Suddenly we see a long spout of a skinny tornado. My aunt follows it so we can get a video. I think we lose sight and accidentally go through it. 


Also I remember seeing my dad and asking him if I can write down his life story for the kids. He asks why and I try to explain that my grandparents never told theirs. He's hesitant because he feels suddenly old and dying. 

Mall

Dreamt I was in a big city with my sister. We had to study for a test for school but I was trying to convince her to go shopping at a huge mall or going to see a movie at a theater instead. It was late 80s-early 90s. Woke up warm and with a weird tummy ache. 

Thursday, March 27, 2025

Test

(In real life, my two sons have these 'reading screeners' meeting today where they have to read in front of a teacher to see if they need help with progressing).... Anyways, I dreamt realistically. 'woke up' exhausted and kept wanting to sleep in. Need to clean house, make sure boys look presentable, put on makeup etc, and it's getting close. Well just now I woke up to a nightmare. I dreamt I finally decided to wake up and my husband is dressed in his work outfit. He says he works today. Also he tells me he made lunch and it just looks like deli meat in some gravy in a casserole dish. I quickly look for another casserole dish and find one in dish washer and start scraping it (because it's not totally clean) so I can make the lunch we were supposed to have. Then my husband is gone and I tell me daughter she'll have to sit with each boy that isn't doing the test at the time, so that they aren't distracting the other. I start cleaning the house some. 

Then I woke up. Thank fuck that my husband is off today. 

Saturday, March 22, 2025

Bathroom

Dreamt I was in a public bathroom. Couldn't lock the doors and some scary guy was trying to get into my stall. I was maybe done swimming? I was wearing a revealing swimsuit, so I was worried about that being why he wanted in. Had nothing to change into. Had to call someone for clothes or a way home. Called Mm. Maybe flirted? I don't remember much. 

Friday, March 21, 2025

Cleaning

Dreamt I was cleaning the floor of my room as a teenager. Found a negative pregnancy test. Don't remember anything else but will add if I do remember. 

Smoke

Dreamt I was in bed sleeping and could smell cigarette smoke. "Woke up" and found my 7 year old smoking under his blanket. Completely shocked. Thank fuck it was just a dream. 

Thursday, March 20, 2025

The Store

Dreamt I was trying to flirt with some younger guy in a grocery store. Bending over, etc. also dreamt there were shoes or slippers with different characters in them. Dark green had Shrek and Donkey in each top of the foot, a medium brown suede material had I think Hank Hill and Bobby Hill. There was also one or two others but I forgot the characters. My sister and my daughter were with. We were looking for our sizes but having trouble. Suddenly all the shoes were gone. Couldn't buy them. Then I was in a car worried I was going to jail. Terrified, I tried to wake myself up. I could FEEL how deep my dream was. I started shaking my head to wake myself up, worried it wouldn't work. Thankfully it worked, but it felt like going through layers in waking myself up. 

Monday, March 17, 2025

Field Trip

Dreamt me, my daughter, my sister and my mom were living at the old house with my dad and my husband. The house was messy, and my daughter's classmates and teachers were over (Ms. S and Mr. B) plus others with unrecognizable faces. My daughter almost changed her clothes in front of everyone. Had to explain to art teacher that my daughter is awkward and of course as I said that I looked super awkward myself. 

Then I dreamt groceries needed to come in and my husband bought ALL the Aldi eggs he could find. Like five different types, with four of the same type. There were so many and stuffed so much into a grocery bag, that a corner of a carton was broken. I told my mom and was annoyed with whoever ordered the eggs and at first blamed my dad and said 'good thing you divorced him, haha' then realized it was my husband who ordered them so said 'wait it was my future ex husband' (was joking in the dream). 

Then I dreamt that the class of my daughters were wandering out in the woods so we could t talk about them in case they walked in. 

Thursday, March 13, 2025

School

Dreamt my kids started going to public school. My daughter didn't really want to go, so I told her she could stay home. Had to find the phone number and tell them that my kids have COVID or something . Then I dreamt that my ex friend sent me a message and I couldn't figure out how to message back so I considered calling her back. 


Weird dream, cuz fuck nah. Not sure why I'd consider that I'm not a talking person. 

Friday, March 7, 2025

Swing Set

Dreamt I was at my dad's house and my kids were with me. I was inside the house and walking out to look for them and my dad. Found them all on the old swing set. Dad was also swinging and going really fast when suddenly one hinge flew off and he had to jump off onto the top of the swing. 

I can't really remember anything else. 

Thursday, March 6, 2025

Aliens

Kept having this horrible dream.there was a vision of the world ending. A whole bunch of shooting stars and then what looked like a tall bunch of fireworks stuck together. Everyone dies. 


Okay anyways first bit of dream I remember. I was wandering in this house. Felt like a castle from the 1970s or 80s. Everything made of wood or paneling. Huge house. I was wandering around upstairs and passing doors when I open one and find a really neat 70s lounging area. Big wrap around orange couch made out of a scratchy fabric. Walked in. Made someone else that was with me come in. I think it was their house? But then I opened a little cabinet door that looked secretive and I thought it was my grandpa's house because everything in there just seemed like his. Anyways we leave. I'm heading downstairs. I get down to the main level and it's my dad's house. I see my mom and sister in the dining room. Then I see my dad and his girlfriend. She's wearing my fluffy brown sweater I bought recently. I react to the mess in the floor of my bathroom (a bunch of pieces of dark wood all over the floor, but looked like was shit. Anyways my dad's girlfriend saw my shocked reaction and thought it was aimed at her wearing my sweater so I had to explain she can wear it. Anyways they all leave. I'm walking now in a field and I see a bunch of shooting stars again. I worry. Then I see the fireworks. I know something bad is about to happen and that nobody would survive. I fear it's aliens. Then I see an alien ship moving low and parking nearby the neat castle house. I run up and quickly grab the alien out. It looks like a huge rat or a cat or whatnot. It bites my hand but I don't let go. I try to twist it's neck but I'm so slow and scared. Finally I just do it fast enough and hope it works. He flops down like he's dead, so I drop him in a lake nearby. I worry he's still alive. 

Friday, February 14, 2025

Online Class

Dreamt scarlet was supposed to watch her math class but was exhausted (boy do I feel her pain now). The video kept cutting the sound out and we were both tired so it was always hard to notice. I kept having to nudge her to watch. Finally I turned the video on so that her teacher would see her and she would have to stay awake. I handed it to her and then I realized it was practically pitch black in the room. I was about to get up to turn a light on but he was ending the class anyways. Scarlet turned her nic on to say goodbye and said something like: "goodnight teacher! Goodbye Miss teacher! " (So like she said goodnight and he was about to joke that it was daytime and then she tried to correct herself and called him a Miss. Lol

Helicopters

Dreamt we were living at my old childhood home and that my sister and her friend Becky were all living with us too. Husband wasnt in dream or at least not in the lart I remember. I also vaguely remember my parents in it but not in the parts o remember as well. They may have gone to work. Becky had an extra kid. Toddler. She got cold easy and often. Okay so dreamt we could hear helicopters outside. I peek out and one is circling out house, coming back and circling again. Becky wanted to go outside and look but I told her not to because it seemed suspicious. I peeked around at other houses and saw that they were being shot at. I yelled for everyone to get in a car and do it discreetly under the house/hidden. I tell my daughter to grab the dogs and I try to grab my cat, Stan. We start tiptoeing as fast as we can to a cat. Someone notices us. They call on their walkie talkie  for backup. More come. We try to talk out of getting killed. A lady instead tries to give us stuff for a suitcase and I can tell it is a tracker. I mentally tell myself I need to get it off as soon as we aren't being watched. Woke up. 

Thursday, February 6, 2025

Treasure

Did a scavenger hunt to with a band thing from the band HIM. It was set up by fans, nothing official. Had the kids in the back of a car and the guy I was with was driving. Icy roads.. we hit a small hill, go up it and start to get out. As we were going up a hill and slightly down, I remember looking back and trying to hold the boys in place so they wouldn't expel out the car. Weade it safe and exited the vehicle. Kept working on getting the treasure I think. 

Thursday, January 23, 2025

Bar

Kind of remember the setting of my dream from last night. It was a huge bar. Honestly it was a square bar all the way around and most of the space was on the bartenders side. There was barely any room on the customers side. It was dark red velvet and gold colors. I think I worked there and had to clean up. 

Friday, January 17, 2025

TV Show

Me and husband got to watch what I assume was a TV show (IN the audience) that my sister and I love (taskmaster) but they bring audience up. We were brought up and Greg gave me a card with some writing in it. I wanted to keep it but get something for Sarah so I walked over to him and asked if I could get one more for my sister the biggest fan that introduced me to the show. I think he was nice and maybe gave me something. . Also husband's sister and her kids showed up later and Greg saw them by the door walking in and told them to come up to the stage too. I told Devin to let his sister know that it's recorded but wasn't sure he told her. 

There was also this part where I'm walking down the road with my sister because we are looking for her old physics teacher's house, and there's random things all over the place like it's all abandoned. We see a bunch of cats too. I see the blond cat with white boots. My siddle child was also in this part. He was especially bad, did not like to listen and kept being really rude to people (especially in a store prior to walking in the road with my sister... He told some guy holding a gun to move). Anyways, at some point the road gets darker. We stop before that because there's a bad guy that's vampire like that is outside. 

Wednesday, January 15, 2025

Basement

Dreamt it was post apocalyptic times. Dating an Asian guy, looked like unc Roger lol.  Living in something similar to my grandpa's basement but with extra hidden rooms. One has stairs under stacked furniture. That's when I met guy I was dating cuz he was in an attached basement. He stole motorcycles for a living. Found a bunch of my cousin's band's posters but I was scared to put them on the wall for fear of them getting wet. Oh wow. Just before I woke up I was in Walmart and looking at baby stuff. Becky called the group chat saying 'guess where I'm at' and I saw her in the same area as me and she seemed a little surprised I knew but explained she was pregnant. Apparently I was too because I said I was. Then my sister piped up on phone call and said she was in the same aisle though I think she was looking for medicine to help her get pregnant. 

Monday, January 13, 2025

Stuck

Dreamt my sister and I were stuck on the side of the road with the truck and another vehicle too. Lost. Can't figure out which way my husband went to follow him. I think music played a part in this dream too. My husband might have been main character from Alice in Borderland? Lol. 

Saturday, January 11, 2025

Concert

Dreamt husband and I were at a concert. Seems like we were getting ready first, and I saw that my mother in laws cat came back but she was giving him away to someone. Then I was getting ready for the concert. Had to do stuff on my phone. 

Friday, January 10, 2025

Tornadoes

Dreamt .me and husband and probably others are in the house or some other house. I noticed it's just me in the house and it's dark out I peek outside and I see theo tornadoes getting close across the street by the neighbors house and another one across the street at the gas station. I know they're headed to me next, so I walk a ways behind the house and towards the end of the street. I go around the block and feel like they have to have passed by now. I get to the house and it's very minimal damage. Just the roof in one small area. Animals are okay inside. Still no people but eventually they show up. Husband, and maybe someone else. I'm looking for better clothes in a pile on a table or bed or something. Possibly a bar table. 

Thursday, January 9, 2025

House

Dreamt some guy was looking at our house to analyze it for insurance purposes. It was a mess,no we waited when they called to set up an appointment so we could wait an hour to clean. When he did show up, he noticed the flooring was rotting and so when he kicked the floor a bit, it broke and made a hole in the wall. Also I remember sex in the dream.

Meteor?

Had a small dream just now. I was alone in my childhood home and it's dark out. I can't find people. My sister, a kid or possibly my own, etc. I walk in the dark to my grandma's house down the road. I start to call my sister on the cellphone and she answers and I ask where everyone is, hoping they're are grandma's so that I can find them. I find Sarah i think. The kid seems close but I don't know where. They're also small like a cat. A cat passes by and I worry she'll be hit but she doesn't get hit. Almost back to childhood home, on the driveway leading up the slight hill, and I see a light in the sky. Looks like the start of a meteor and I remember a dream I had a long time ago when I was a teen. It made me realize I was dreaming. Woke up. 

Friday, January 3, 2025

Alice

I've been watching Alice in Bordeland lately so that my daughter was caught up, and we just finished the series. I am pretty sure I dreamt something like that show. 


Oh. I just remembered.. I was feeling for lumps near my armpit and found a huge lump.i only remember that though. 

Wednesday, January 1, 2025

Cooking

Dreamt my husband asked me to take over for cooking food on the stove. I went over and saw he had two frying pans. Seeing a few different ground meats in one, I grabbed a little from what looked like sausage and added it to the other pan. My thought was that I wanted a little more seasoning to the meat that looked plain, but as I did it I regretted it, because I was thinking that the sausage could have been spicy. The plain meat was for me and the kids, and the kids and I don't like too much spice. I think all o remember after that was yelling to my husband to ask him if the sausage was spicy. 

That's all I remember.