Thursday, August 5, 2010

8/4/10 - Dead Kitties and Denim Shirts.

-not for the faint of heart-


pieces again..


I remember picking up two turtles..

xx

I found my mother in the bathroom, at the tub. She had an inch of water in the tub and there was fur everywhere.. She told me she was bathing kittens and they had gone down the drain. She was trying to get them out of the drain with her fingers, but she didn't have thin enough fingers, so I pushed her away and used the nails of my pinky finger and thumb to get them out. I got them all out and even though they looked drowned and dead, I kept thinking to myself and 'knowing' at the time that they were alive and well. BUT, in a dream sequence before this, I remember there were kittens and one kitten didn't make it because of something.. I don't remember what.

xx Now I woke up, and eventually fell back asleep. xx


I was in a school gym, there was this poll of some sort going on. The governor was there, the mayor of Tomah was there, etc.. I remember going to this table that had food on it (even in my dreams I eat like a hog, apparently).. I grab two of every cookie I saw on the table.. I put them on a plate and give it to Devin for safe-keeping, then I head to the bathroom. I see my Dad's new girlfriend (even though I haven't even met her yet)..


This next part gets hazy.. I'm still in the gym, I think, and there is a lock I'm trying to open. It might be handcuffs? I don't remember.. I DO remember hands, though, that's why I'm thinking handcuffs. My sister Sarah was there trying to help me unlock whatever it was..

.. Then I was at my Dad's property, and he had a closet full of denim clothing in his car. He asks me if I want any of the clothes, and I say no, but later on he tells me he's going to give this cute denim shirt I really liked to his new girlfriend, and I automatically want the clothes now. One of the things I wanted was this denim shirt/dress, the other was a denim vest..

Then I woke up.. I know, lame dream.





Drowning
  • To see someone drowning in your dream, suggests that you are becoming too deeply involved in something that is beyond your control. Alternatively, it represents a sense of loss in your own identity. You are unable to differentiate who you are anymore.

    To dream that you rescue someone from drowning, indicates that you have successfully acknowledged certain emotions and characteristics that is symbolized by the drowning victim.

    • Cats

        • To see a cat in your dream, symbolizes an independent spirit, feminine sexuality, creativity, and power. It also represents misfortune and bad luck.


Political Party
  • To dream of a political party, suggests that you need to stand up and defend your beliefs. Be prepared for any dissent and backlash.


Cookies
  • To dream that you are eating, giving, receiving, or stealing cookies, signify that you will let trivial problems and minor disputes annoy you.


Handcuffs
  • To see others in handcuffs or to put handcuffs on others, indicate that you are being overly possessive.


Denim
  • To see or wear denim in your dream, signifies ruggedness and durability. The dream may be analogous to your ability to withstand or endure a difficult period in your life. Alternatively, the dream symbolizes your easygoing and laid back attitude.

Day after Easter 2010 - Playing Tag with Tegan and Sara Fans.

Forgot my dream from yesterday, here's my make-up:


"Dreamt I was dating a musician. Ahem a singing twin ahem. I was in this auditorium, waiting for said twins to play, or maybe just goofing off after the show? Anyways, the seats were empty and it was fairly dark. I was playing tag with a bunch of others.. We were jumping over seats, in aisles.. Neither twin was there, but I remember someone telling me I was dating one of them, or maybe I just knew it in my dream. I do remember her being in a part before it, but I have no recollection of what happened."





Date
  • To dream that you are on a date, represents your need for self-discovery and self-awareness. You are getting to know some hidden aspects of yourself and acknowledging your hidden talents. Alternatively, it may reflect your anxieties about dating or finding acceptance. The dream may also be a "rehearsal" for an actual date you have. It serves to overcome anxieties you may have.

    • Celebrity
        • To see a celebrity in your dream, represents your beliefs and understanding about him or her. Consider what the celebrity is famous or known for and how you relate to that quality. Something in you waking life has triggered these similar beliefs and feelings. It is not uncommon that your obsession with a certain celebrity may carry over onto your dream world. Celebrities are often seen as heroes and all that is mighty. Also consider any puns within the name.



Auditorium
  • To dream that you are in an auditorium, indicates that there is something that you need to learn from others. Pay attention to those around you.



Tag
  • To dream that you are playing tag, represents your level of determination and agility toward achieving your goals. If you are the one being chased, then the dream means that you are trying to dodge some responsibility. If you are the one who is doing the chasing, then it signifies your instincts and your determination to go after what you want. The dream may be telling you that "you're it!" You are the chosen one or the one that is chosen for the job.

8/2/10 - I Stabbed Voldemort With A Wand.

I'm in this dark, damp alley. Voldemort grabs at my neck and starts to say "Avada Kedavra" (or whatever the fuck he says in that book).. I must be a pretty shoddy wizard/witch, because I push him away and we start staring daggers at each other while I walk him backwards.. Then I shove my wand into his chest, impaling him. Yes, Voldemort looked just like a bald Ralph Fiennes.


xx


I'm in this tiny room. There is a red theme to it. Lots of books, shelves, windows, plants.. I'm married to some dude, and the dude's boss is Voldemort. Voldemort isn't a wizard or anything, though. Just a dude that looks like him that's in a lot of pain from being stabbed by a wand. He has a bandage around his torso, and although I never see him in this dream, this is what I imagine of him while I am in this room, being held captive by him. I also think he is lounging on a couch watching TV. I try to be quiet. My 'husband' was turned into a ventriloquist's dummy, and this dummy can talk to me. The dummy husband tells me I need to escape from Voldemort. I grab my husband dummy and cling to him against my chest as he coaches me to go through this window. I remember going through the window and being sure to pull the curtains back to their shut positions, so that he would think I didn't disturb the window and assumed I disappeared, because I am a wizard. I then shut both of the windows, to keep the sound of the outside world out, so he still doesn't think of my escape outdoors. My cat in real life jumps up and onto the windowsill, although in my dream he is Voldemort's cat.. I think to myself as I start walking away how scared I am that the cat is going to tell Voldemort how I escaped.



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It's interesting, though. Apart from the fact that Voldemort was healing from a wound I gave him in the second dream, I could almost see the first being the second and vice versa.. That I dreamt in the wrong order or something. He came at me in the alley from the first dream that I escaped to in the second..






Wizard
  • To see a wizard in your dream, suggests that you are trying to hone your skills and exercise your power.


Stab
  • To dream that you stab someone, indicates your fear of betrayal and your untrusting nature. You are being overly defensive.
    • Wand
      • To see or wave a wand in your dream, represents your power and influence over others. You are only limited by your imagination. If someone else is holding the wand, then it signifies their power over the situation.



Red
  • Red is an indication of raw energy, force, vigor, intense passion, aggression, power, courage, impulsiveness and passion. The color red has deep emotional and spiritual connotations. Consider the phrase "seeing red" to denote anger. Alternatively, the color red in your dream indicates a lack of energy. You are feeling tired or lethargic.

    Red is also the color of danger, violence, blood, shame, rejection, sexual impulses and urges. Perhaps you need to stop and think about your actions.


Dummy
  • To see a dummy in your dream, indicates that a critical component is lacking in your relationship. You are feeling unchallenged and unfulfilled. The relationship is making you feel empty. The dream may also point to how you or someone has acted foolishly and stupidly in a situation.



Escape
  • To dream that you escape from jail or some place of confinement, signifies your need to escape from a restrictive situation or attitude. Alternatively, it suggests that you are refusing to face your problems. You are avoiding the situation, instead of confronting them.
    • Window
      • To see a window in your dream, signifies bright hopes, vast possibilities and insight. If the window of a house is dark, then it indicates a loss to your perception or vitality.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

8/1/10 -The Basement.

Dreamt I was in this dank basement and I was with a bunch of men. Then some other guy kidnapped these men, so I had to find them and help them escape.. I look everywhere in this basement, it has many rooms and is similar to my grandfather's basement. Finally I see this strange wall of yellow and pink insulation, and strangely I knew in my gut that I had to pull down on this string to turn a light on and push against this wall at the same time in order to open a hidden room. I opened the door and noticed three or four really wide grey cement steps that led to where the guys where held captive. The room was really really dark, though and in order to get to them I had to walk past this dark section of the room and I was too scared that the kidnapper was hiding in the shadows waiting for me. So I went back up the stairs into the basement, only the basement turned into an outside area. I grabbed a shovel that was nearby and decided to dig them out.. It only took a few times to make a good hole that opened up to this room they were in. I helped them all out and they disappeared from my view after that. I was alone outside on my parent's old property now. I noticed a shadow hovering over me and looked up and saw that my Quaker Parrot was out of his cage. He flew over me and onto this clothes line that was unbelievably high up. I talked to him for awhile, trying to coax him.. Then I command him to "Step up!" (this command is used when you want a bird to step onto your hand or finger.) He then flew down and onto my pinky finger.


- woke up, fell back asleep and dreamt this: -

Dad was driving and Devin was in the passenger seat. I was in the backseat singing along to music, and at one point, I sang something about how God doesn't exist. Dad craned his head around and yelled "WHAT?" and I mumbled something trying to cover u my tracks..




Basement
  • To dream that you are in a basement, symbolizes your unconscious mind and intuition. The appearance of the basement is an indication of your unconscious state of mind and level of satisfaction. It represents primal urges, animalistic desires and basic needs. The dream may also be metaphor for "abasement" or being "debased". Are you feeling humbled or unworthy? To dream that the basement is in disarray and messy, signifies some confusion in which you need to sort out. These are things that you have "stored" away or put aside in your mind because you do not know what to do with it or you do not have the time to deal with it. It may also represent your perceived faults and shortcomings.


Captive
  • To dream that you are held captive, suggests that you are feeling trapped in some aspect or circumstances of your waking life. You may feel trapped in your career, relationship or life in general. Alternatively, captivity dreams indicate something you are refusing to acknowledge or something that you are in denial about.


Stairs
  • To dream that you are walking down a flight of stairs, represents your repressed thoughts. You are regressing back into your unconscious. It also refers to the setbacks that you are experiencing in your life. If you are afraid of going down the stairs, then it means that you are afraid to confront your repressed emotions and thoughts. Is there something from your past that you are not acknowledging?
    • Darkness
      • To dream that darkness comes upon you, signifies failure in some work that you are attempting. Darkness is synonymous with ignorance, the unconscious, evil, death, and fear of the unknown.


Digging
  • To dream that you are digging, indicates that you are working hard to uncover the truth in a problem that is haunting you. You are overly preoccupied with trying to find out something about yourself, your reputation, or your self-identity. Alternatively, the dream suggests that you are trying to get to the root of some issue. Or the dream may be a metaphor to imply an insult
.


Bird
  • To see birds in your dream, symbolizes your goals, aspirations and hopes. To dream of chirping and/or flying birds, represents joy, harmony, ecstasy, balance, and love. It denotes a sunny outlook in life. You are experiencing spiritual freedom and psychological liberation. It is almost as if a weight has been lifted off your shoulders.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Late July 2009 - When Soulmates Meet.

Forgot my dream, here's one from Late July 2009. (seriously, I wrote "late July", I'm forgetful like that) So in a way, this dream took place almost a year ago to the day.


Dreamt I was in this different dimension of sorts.. Ville Valo was teaching me and a couple of others how to create storms. The atmosphere was thick with purple fog and pink sky.. Colors mingling.. We all had our own sections of worlds, though.. (I forgot to mention that before this, I was alive and Ville wasn't, and I died from a bee sting that made me swollen all over and eventually found Ville..) Anyways, we were creating our own storms and I couldn't even make a storm cloud and neither could anyone else he was teaching.. Suddenly a tornado formed from what we were all trying to create, and it broke through everyone's worlds, merging everything.. I didn't know where to go to be safe, but eventually found a place to hide while the tornado ran amok. After the tornado finished it's course, I was in this dark hallway with Ville and we were both hearing this loud ticking sound inside the walls. We searched everywhere for where it was coming from, and he was really excited about looking.. We ripped apart the walls and finally he found what it was.. When he found it, he disappeared, and I was back outside. I saw this big marble on the ground and picked it up. An old woman with long white hair came up to me and, while I was peering into it, she told me that marbles appear every time soul mates meet in a lifetime.








Sky
  • If you dream of a colorful sky in your dream, then it denotes romance.
    • Pink
      • Pink represents love, joy, sweetness, happiness, affection and kindness. Being in love or healing through love is also implied with this color. Alternatively, the color implies immaturity or weakness, especially when it comes to love.



Fog
  • To dream that you are going through a thick fog, symbolizes confusion, troubles, scandal, uncertainty and worries. You may not be seeing things the way they really are. You may have lost your sense of direction in life. Alternatively, a fog represents mystery, secrecy and protection.
    • Purple
      • Purple is indicative of devotion, healing abilities, loving, kindness, and compassion. It is also the color of royalty, high rank, justice, wealth and dignity.


Unknown
  • To dream that you are in a strange, unknown or foreign place, represents change in your life. Consider how you feel about the surrounding. If you are afraid or lost, then it indicates that you are not ready for the change. You are not ready to leave the past behind. If you are excited or happy in this unknown place, then it suggests that you are ready for change.


Storm
  • To see a storm in your dream, signifies some overwhelming struggle, shock, loss or catastrophe in your waking life. The storm also represents unexpressed fears or emotions, such as anger, rage, turmoil, etc. On a more positive note, the storm symbolizes your rising spirituality. It may signal rapid changes ahead for you. To dream that you take cover in a storm, foretells that whatever disturbance or problems is occurring in your life will quickly blow over. Consider also the phrase "weather the storm", which refers to your ability and strength to withstand whatever comes.


Tornado
  • To see several tornadoes in your dream, represent people around you who are prone to violent outbursts and shifting mood swings. It may also symbolize a volatile situation or relationship.


Hallway
  • To see a hallway in your dream, symbolizes self exploration. It is the beginning of the path that you are taking in life. You are going through a transitional phase and journeying into the unknown. It also signals spiritual enlightenment, emotional growth physical prowess, new opportunities and mental passages in your life.


Search
  • To dream that you are searching for something, signifies the need to find something that is missing or needed in your life. The dream may be analogous to your search for love, spiritual enlightenment, peace or even a solution to a problem.
    • Soul
      • To dream that you have a lack of soul or no soul, suggests that you are feeling spiritually lost. You need to find yourself and find what will makes you feel whole as a person.


Soulmate
  • If it's a real person, it may be expressing feelings you've repressed or even expressed about them. Or, that person could actually be your soulmate. But it's more likely that the person you see isn't. As your soulmate is the person who fits you perfectly, and dream people are symbols of yourself, then the person you're seeing as a soulmate is in fact simply another side of yourself. What you can use this dream for is to work out what's missing in your emotional life. If you have a vision of your soulmate, it's showing you the qualities you need to become a whole and emotionally strong person.

4/24/02 - Nicknacks.


Forgot my last dream, here's an old one on my dad's birthday, too. I was just thinking about this dream a few days ago..


4/24/02


"I had the second worst dream ever. It started out with me and Heather in a church. Heather saw these nicknacks and picked one up, and was telling me it looked dumb. I kind of agreed, thinking it was pretty silly. We walked out of the church and came to my parent's garage, the door was open. There was a picnic table with a plate of hamburgers laid atop it. I remember seeing this girl I knew and I "wished" her to become a hamburger because I hated her. So she turned into one and was on the plate with the rest of them. Another guy I knew that I grew up with came up and was about to grab 'her', but I stopped him. Anyways, somehow I got into a really dark auditorium, and these teenagers were telling me to turn a light on. I do, but it's a small light, though sufficient. A teacher comes up on stage and he looks like my dad. The teacher started yelling at me, and at first I thought it was because I turned the light on, then I thought it was because I turned someone into a hamburger.. He tells me it's because another boy I grew up with, Brandon, was in an accident, and that the accident had alcohol involved.. And that somehow I was at fault. They did tests to see if I was involved as well. but I magically get teleported in front of this clothes line by the pond. I'm walking on a road with people walking towards me. I remember seeing all these people really dressed elegant-like. One old classmate was wearing this ugly blue dress, and another was wearing a prettier dark pink dress with the sleeves flared out and tied to the rest of the dress. I passed a few people who criticized me for my religion. I also heard someone say "Hi, Alyssa!" and they had passed me and was in a crowd of people, so I had to jump up to find it was my best friend from elementary school.. I go to walk again in the same direction as before, with everyone else walking the opposite way (towards me) and I see my mom. I try to catch up to her but my feet started to act like lead. Like they were anchors or something. So I tried to run and it got worse. I got even slower. So I tried to push myself from anything nearby and pull myself closer with other objects.. It worked, but it was a long process. Mom starts to leave but stops behind this building. I go into the building and it's this big building with little houses inside. I can see windows and doors, etc, inside the building. I look into one of the windows and I see this old man laying in a coffin. I somehow expected to see the girl I turned into a hamburger in a coffin as well, which is morbid, but she must have been still alive or something.. I go back to the church I was in at first and I notice this child with a scarred face is following me. I turn around to find mom but I notice the nicknack I saw in the beginning. I started crying really hard when I picked it up to look at it. I realized then that this nicknack belonged to the old man that died. I felt horrible for making fun of his nicknack when he had just died, and I had known nothing about him. I was also crying because I felt bad for what I did to that girl that turned into the hamburger. "






Hamburger
  • To see or eat a hamburger in your dream, suggests that you are lacking some emotional, intellectual, or physical component in order to feel whole again. You may be feeling unsatisfied with some situation or relationship. It is also symbolic of your experiences and how you need to learn from them. Look at the big picture.


Dress
  • To see or wear a dress in your dream, represents a feminine outlook or feminine perspective on a situation. You are freely expressing your femininity. If you are a man and dream that you are wearing a dress, suggests that others are questioning your sexuality. Or that you are feeling sexually insecure.
    • Blue
      • Blue represents truth, wisdom, heaven, eternity, devotion, tranquility, loyalty and openness.
    • Fuchsia
      • The color fuchsia represents mediation and your connection to your spirituality. You are letting go of old attitudes and welcoming a new change. This color is also associated with emotional stability.


Legs
  • If your legs are weak, then you may be feeling emotionally vulnerable.


Coffin
  • To see a body in a coffin in your dream, signifies that you are going through a period of depression. You may feel confined, restricted and that you are lacking personal freedom. There may be a dead or decaying situation or issue in your life that you need to address. It is time to end this situation or relationship.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

7/29/10 - Terrible Friends.

I'm at the house I grew up in, outside. I'm hanging out with the kids I grew up with. My sister, Heather, Chelsey, Caleb, maybe a few others that were just strangers playing parts of friends. And just like while I was growing up, they're all ignoring me, pretending like everything I say they cannot hear. I get angry, upset. I walk into the house and see my mom is laying on the couch, watching a Freddy Krueger movie.. It is set in the desert, and there is a cowboy in the scene. I try to tell Mom how they were treating me, but the TV was kind of loud, so I turned the volume down but instead I changed the channel by accident. I fix it. I take my boots off and while doing so, the kids come in. I walk over to Chelsey and I yell at her for being a terrible friend. Then I go over to this other girl, one of the strangers, and tell her that it's no wonder she's visiting us all at my house, and that she doesn't have friends of her own, because she won't 'shut the fuck up about her boring self'. After yelling at the two, I suddenly wake up.






Ignore
  • To dream that you are ignoring someone or being ignored, represents some aspect of yourself which you are not paying enough attention to. Perhaps you are overlooking something. Alternatively, it may reflect your real waking experiences of being ignored by that person.


Movie
  • To dream that you are watching a movie, suggests that you are watching life pass you by. Perhaps you are living vicariously through the actions of others. Consider also how the movie parallels to situations in your waking life. Observe how the characters relate to you and how they may represent an aspect of yourself.
    • Freddy Krueger
      • To see Freddy Krueger in your dream, represents your fears and the rejected aspects of yourself. You are refusing to acknowledge those negative parts. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are desperate to get a grasp of a problem or situation. Dreaming of Freddy Krueger also implies that you are feeling neglected.


Yelling
  • To dream that you or someone is yelling, represents repressed anger that needs to be expressed.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

7/28/10 - Tornado!

I'm on my childhood property, at the pond. ((This is weird, because today I went down to the pond to drive my dad there so he could mow it and see it again)). In the dream, I'm with a bunch of people. A lot of my dad's family is there, and other people, some I don't know.. I'm fighting with most of them, not getting along.. Well, they're fighting with me, they don't approve of me or something. For some reason there is a TV attached to a tree and we look at it and see that a big storm is coming our way. What's interesting is that I remember the storm was coming to at a southeasterly angle, and usually they go northeast. Right over our area was a bright red cloud on the TV, so we all started running for the house. I was also looking at a map of the area with my sister, and in real life I actually was looking at a map of Wisconsin the night before, so I must have dreamt that part because of her. There were probably fifty people at the pond, so we were all trying to run through the woods to get to shelter. We knew a tornado was coming. When we get to the porch, there is a table with food and I don't know why, but I remember making a plate for my dad so that he'd have something to eat while waiting in the basement. Dad and some woman (that looked like Amy Sedaris when she played in Strangers With Candy) were the only ones there, and this Amy look-a-like was sitting on a bench eating as well.. I sit next to "Amy" and tell her she can come down to my basement. I also tell Dad that he, Mom, Sarah, Joran and his family can all go down to the basement as well. I meant at my house, which is a half-hour away from where we were, but at the time I didn't seem to realize the distance it would take to get there. Dad tells me he doesn't want to run anymore, that the tornado will be here soon. I tell him we don't have to run, and I walk to this door that is against one of the porch walls and I open the door. I show him that it is a secret passageway to my basement. (It seems like a transporting system, because it opens up right at the bottom of the stairs, right where you'd step to get to the floor from the stairs). He heads down and I wait for the rest of my family to show up so that I can tell them where the shelter is.



xx I woke up, wrote that, then fell back asleep... xx


I dreamt that the radio was on beside my bed (it really was, outside of my dream..) The song Don't Let Me Go by The Fray was on the radio, and in my dream I abhorred the song, so I tried to change the station, but it was on every station.


xx I woke up again, and tried to fall asleep, but as I was doing so, I was still quite awake but in a state of dreaming. I pictured very clearly myself sitting down against a white wall and yelling that everything was way too real, that I wasn't dreaming. That completely woke me up, so I wrote that down. Finally I fell asleep. xx


I dreamt again about the tornado coming. I was at my Aunt's, and we were getting a car my mom used to drive and we drove it to where I used to live growing up. (My aunt and parents lived next door to each other). People got into the car (Mom, Dad and maybe Sarah and Joran), and I saw about fifteen kittens crawling around by my feet and I could NOT leave them for the tornado to kill, so I tried to collect them and get them in the car. There were also three adult cats and one dog I had to save, but all the animals kept piling out every time I would put one in. All the while, my family waited surprisingly patient in the car for me to get them all in. I ended up waking up before I got them all in.





Fighting
  • To dream that you are in a fight, indicates inner turmoil. Some aspect of yourself is in conflict with another aspect of yourself. Perhaps an unresolved or unacknowledged part is fighting for its right to be heard. It may also parallel a fight or struggle that you are going through in your waking life.


Storm
  • To dream that you take cover in a storm, foretells that whatever disturbance or problems is occurring in your life will quickly blow over. Consider also the phrase "weather the storm", which refers to your ability and strength to withstand whatever comes.


Potato Chips
  • To see or eat potato chips in your dream, symbolizes your overindulgent behavior. Perhaps you need to exercise more self control.


Basement
  • The appearance of the basement is an indication of your unconscious state of mind and level of satisfaction. It represents primal urges, animalistic desires and basic needs.

7/27/10 - I Really Needed Rollerskates.

I'm in a park with Devin's family and we have my dog Moses and Cherish's dog Casey there with us. Devin's dad is further away and yells to us that there are three angry rottweilers coming towards our direction and that we should grab our dogs so that they're safe. I start looking for Moses and notice he's wearing this raincoat-like material. The hood looks a lot like what Dark Helmet wears in Spaceballs. It's such a heavy hood that he has troubles getting to me in time, but eventually I have him in my arms. We yell for Casey, but she sees the dogs and seems to like them, and she eventually runs off with them and out of sight. Suddenly the park turns into this huge roller derby-looking building. There are gradual wooden slides that interweave into each other almost like a maze. The floor waves and goes around in circles, etc.. Like a cinnamon roll, if that makes sense. I don't have rollerskates on, but everyone else does, so they start skating around trying to find Casey while I'm sliding with my feet having problems catching up. There are also skateboarders coming towards me, so I'm trying to stay out of their way as well. I finally get down one of these 'slide' things, and I end up in this Target-like store. I ask the cashier, an older, bigger lady, if she has seen Casey and she says no, so I then ask if she sells rollerskates.

Then I woke up.





Rottweiler
  • To see a rottweiler in your dream, symbolizes confidence, protection, and courage. If the rottweiler is growling, then it indicates that you are experiencing some inner conflict. There is something that you are afraid to confront.


Skating
  • To dream that are skating, symbolizes your ability to maintain a balance in your life. You are progressing through your life's path and working toward your goal. Alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor that you are "skating" over some matter. In other words, you are just getting by. Perhaps you are tying to avoid some issue or not devoting enough attention to a problem.


Department Store
  • To dream that you are in a department store, suggests that you are trying to fulfill your needs and desires. Consider the significance of what you are shopping for and how you may be lacking that item in your life.

7/26/2010 - Competition.

I'm in this big tent. I'm dating Tegan Quin. She's dating someone else at first, though.. She goes outside to call this person.. I'm in this tent still, sifting through pictures. Then Tegan comes back in from making her phone call and kisses me as if she wasn't dating someone else and it was with me this whole time.

xx


Devin and I work together. We are in a lunchroom, competing for some girl's attention. Either a famous crush, or a townie crush.. I'm drinking coffee and it's 2/3s gone. Cold. I push it away and notice Devin is going to win the girl's heart.

xx


Dreamt I awoke. I grabbed for the glass of ice water I keep by my side of the bed, but notice that soda is there. I go for the soda instead. After actually awaking, I think that the dream is so real that I had to check my nightstand for a glass of soda just to be sure..

Sunday, July 25, 2010

7/25/10 - Riding Bikes and Feeling Guilty.

I'm in Mather, WI (where my mother grew up). I am riding bike with this group of people. A lot of kids in my elementary class that lived near Mather are riding bike with me. There are only about five or six of us riding bike. Anyways, we're all in a line. I'm second, behind this guy that seems to be in command. He tells us to stop and I stop perfectly behind him, with maybe three feet between us, but the others behind stop harshly, hitting me from the back and colliding into each other. The weather looks really bad, too. The clouds are low and heavy, like a tornado will jut out at any time. I think to myself how lucky I am to live in Oakdale, where no tornados ever appear.


Then I'm in Sportsman's Bar, where my sister Sarah works. I have a bunch of things with me (is this an interpretation as me having "too much baggage"? I notice I'm always carrying so much stuff that are too much at times..). Devin has to work in the morning, so I start grabbing my things to head out the door, but my sister gets mad at me for leaving.



--- In reality, the night before, I was at my mother's (my sister lives with her, and their apartment is above the bar), and I was leaving to go home since Devin worked that morning. We were heading out of the parking lot when Sarah stopped us and tried to chat a bit, but we were in a hurry to leave so I had to cut her short (hehe, no pun intended - she's a shorty). I remember getting into the car and thinking "She's probably pissed at me for leaving without saying much to her.." I felt awful, but I knew Devin wanted to go home. Anyways, maybe that part was just my guilty subconscious.

7/24/10 - Making All Kinds Of Nonsense.

Well, it's late and I forgot to write this one down. Anyways, I was half asleep and scribbled this this morning, so don't ask what I meant.




"Bodyguard for something. Using jeep (? jun? jen?) as a different car {? us?). Mopping floor. Messy house. Devin buys clamps for car part. Dating some girl. School. Sarah at bar. Nachos. In car, cops peeping."



Yeah, I was totes half-asleep.

Friday, July 23, 2010

7/23/10 - Toot Toot!

Sorry for the past-tense, present-tense switches I do. I wrote this at points word-for-word out of my journal, which is in present tense. Though I also edited the story to make sense out of some of the things I wrote that were nonsense, so that was in past-tense.


Dreamt:

I'm in a hallway.. I'm with a group of people.. My stomach makes a growling noise, and someone mistakes it for gas, ha ha ha. Sooo funny. Not. Anyways, they ask if I was the one that did it, and for some reason I say "Toot toot!" and pull an invisible cord acting as a train whistle. I must be just as much of a weirdo in my dreams as I am in person. That's all I can think of. I leave the hallway, as if I was in an airport or something, waiting to get on a plane. I finally get in the plane, but it's tiny. It's got one seat the size of a back seat in a car, and there is one other person with me on the plane. She's an old childhood friend of mine. She puts her seat belt on, but for some reason I don't have time to get mine on and we're starting off. We're flying above Vancouver, it's barely morning, dark still.. Lit up buildings.. The plane starts to flip around, and I start to fall out of the chair, etc, so I grab my seat belt and hold on while we go upside down for a second. I'm dangling from the seat belt, holding on for dear life. When we get back to the normal position, I quickly fasten my seat belt before we flipped again and again. Then I wake up, but I'm still dreaming. I'm in a city, in the back of a truck, I'm Derek (Brian Austin Green), from Sarah Connor Chronicles. Then I turn into myself at some point and I'm looking for clothes to wear, because apparently my sister and I are back in high school or something...


Dream takes a different turn, don't remember how.

In car. Devin & me talking about stuff. Driving down a road in woods. We got out of the car and started walking towards a town. All the buildings were rotted and looked as if they were bulldozed or something. It was just cement foundation and styrofoam acting as walls. A bunch of homely-looking cats were eating the styrofoam. Styrofoam is stained red, like blood. House is not there, though. Just an inch of the walls left, eaten away. There is a decrepit, shaved cat eating at the bloody styrofoam. I want to turn around and go another way, because the cat scares me. It looks diseased and I feel bad for it. We go back to our car, which is parked back in the woods.. As we get near the car, two men are trying to steal the car. I get towards passenger's side and try to push the guy in the driver's seat out. I wake up, but I'm still dreaming. In my dream, I start to write down what I dreamt, but I grab a book instead. It's the book Girl Interrupted. Magically, the blonde with the anorexia problem in the film appears with another girl next to her. I notice the blonde is wearing a really tight, bright teal shirt. Let's just say the room must have been cold.



Ironically, I have a really strange interpretation for the cat scene... You just don't want to hear it, trust me.



Helicopter
  • To dream that you are in a helicopter, indicates that you are living beyond your means. You need to slow down and not try to please everyone. Alternatively, you may be experiencing a higher level of consciousness, new-found freedom and greater awareness.
    • Upside Down
      • To dream that you are upside down, suggests that there is some situation or problem in your waking life that you need to straighten you. It may also mean that your initial assumptions were completely opposite of what you thought.


Wall
  • To dream that a house has no walls, represents a lack of privacy. You feel that everyone is looking over your shoulder or up in your business.
    • Blood
      • To see blood in your dream, represents life, love, and passion as well as disappointments.


Cat
  • If you are afraid of the cat in your dream, then it suggests that you are fearful of the feminine.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

7/22/10 - Dad Is Pissed.

Devin and I were standing on a street in Tomah. Two kids, both boys, come over with their dad marveling at the teal Mustang that we own. They ask to take a ride in it. We allowed. So Devin is driving me, this father, and his two kids. We start heading for Minnesota and the family is replaced by my dad. He's in the back seat all chipper to go visit his dad in Minnesota, and we drop him off eventually. When we get to Mom's, we find her drunk, half asleep on her mattress and half-naked too, thankfully she had a sheet over her though. She is on the phone with Dad, yelling at us about why we didn't bring Dad back with us. I am so embarrassed immensely with her intoxication and nudity, that I tell Devin to go into a different room. Then I tell Mom that we'll pick up dad, even though he didn't tell us to pick him up right away or anything. (Dad really was mad, and he really did want to come back home.) Mom tells Dad that we'll head back right away, but he says "Forget it," and hangs up. Then I woke up.




Driving
  • To dream that you are driving a vehicle, signifies your life's journey and your path in life. The dream is telling of how you are moving and navigating through life.


Telephone
  • To dream that you are having a telephone conversation with someone your know, signifies an issue that you need to confront with that person. This issue may have to do with letting go some part of yourself.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

7/21/10 - Money For Pop.

Sarah and I are going to high school again and we were at our old house looking around for quarters in every room of the house. We're looking for them so that we can buy pop at the cafeteria. For my lunch, I grab Lays potato chips and chocolate chip cookies. I still live with Devin, but Devin went to work. I decided to go to school because I was 'bored' without Devin there. I looked around for my Blessid Union Of Souls CD, but couldn't find it. I wanted it so I could play it on the bus on the way there. I gave up after awhile, I couldn't find it. Still looking for change, I noticed Mom had a pile of it on this entertainment center. She was counting out what she had, but said it was for a pack of cigarettes, so I felt bad asking for some, and she didn't offer me any anyways. Sarah found money but I still had no luck. Eventually I said, "Nevermind, I'm not going to school. I shouldn't be in school anyway." Sarah didn't understand what I meant, so I explained that I was too old, and had graduated years ago. I told her the year I graduated, and she finally remembered.





School
  • To dream that you are in school, signifies feelings of inadequacy and childhood insecurities that have never been resolved. It may relate to anxieties about your performance and abilities. If you are still in school and dream about school, then the dream may just be a reflection of your daily life and has no special significance.


Money
  • To dream that you have no money, indicates a fear of losing your place in the world. You are lacking the abilities needed to achieve some desired goal. If you are borrowing money in your dream, then it suggests that you are overextending your resources. You are spreading yourself too thin.